Chapter 4 – GOY 4

Joo ​Seung-hyuk ​hated ​having ​his ​appearance ​evaluated more than ​anything ​else ​in ​the ​world.

Even if it was ​a ​compliment.

The anecdote of ​a B-class Guide ​getting ​their ​arm ​broken ​after ​telling Joo Seung-hyuk ​he ​was ​handsome remained a ​legend to this day.

They ​were practically ​enemies as ​it was, ​yet Yeon-soo ​had ​committed ​the act Joo ​Seung-hyuk hated ​most!

Ji-hee truly cherished Yeon-soo, ​but since she couldn’t ​guarantee her own life ​if she ​stepped ​in now, she had no choice ​but to stay still.

‘Yeon-soo, ​it ​looks ​like ​you’ll ​just have to ​take one ​hit ​and get it ​over ​with.’

Just as Ji-hee was inwardly ​resigning herself, ​a ​miracle happened. Joo ​Seung-hyuk’s ​eyes, ​which ​were ​always slanted ​upward ​like the ​hour [Read on Read BL Novels]and [visit our site]minute hands at 10:10, curved ​into a soft ​line.

“Am I… handsome?”

“Yeah. ​You’re really handsome. I’m ​jealous.”

Yeon-soo gave ​a goofy smile ​and ​then staggered, losing ​his balance. Joo ​Seung-hyuk caught ​him ​firmly so ​that ​he wouldn’t ​fall.

The ​people who ​had ​been ​bracing themselves, expecting ​that ​psycho to ​shove ​Lee ​Yeon-soo ​away, were surprised once again.

“Senior Park, it seems Esteemed Student Lee Yeon-soo is drunk. I’ll escort him back to the dormitory.”

Joo Seung-hyuk asked for Ji-hee’s permission in a polite tone. He seemed to know that Ji-hee was the senior closest to Lee Yeon-soo.

“Ah, yeah. Go ahead.”

Ji-hee nodded absentmindedly. A shallow sense of regret washed over [Read on Read BL Novels]her [visit our site]the moment she answered, but she didn’t take back her choice.

She felt that having that guy escort him was better than leaving him with the jerks who were forcing alcohol on Yeon-soo.

Furthermore, she liked that the obnoxious seniors shut their mouths the moment Joo Seung-hyuk appeared. If it hadn’t been for Joo Seung-hyuk, they probably would have hovered around, insisting they take him back.

Also, while Yeon-soo was on the slender side, a man was still a man. There was a limit to how much she, as a woman, could support him.

Of course, she worried whether Joo Seung-hyuk might cause him harm, but seeing how carefully he was supporting Yeon-soo with his hands to keep him from falling, the risk seemed low.

In the first place, Joo Seung-hyuk wasn’t the type to plot sinister schemes behind the scenes. If he wanted to hit Yeon-soo, he would have blasted him away right here and now.

Once Ji-hee gave her permission, Joo Seung-hyuk whispered into Lee Yeon-soo’s ear.

“Esteemed Student Lee Yeon-soo, let’s go.”

It was clearly a soft voice, but there was a chilling aura to it.

Ji-hee, who had nodded as if possessed, suddenly snapped out of it and shouted.

“Wa-wait a minute! I’ll go too!”

“No. Senior Park, please stay here.”

A strange sense of intimidation lingered within the considerate tone. Ji-hee ultimately couldn’t bring herself to move and could only watch as the two of them disappeared.

According to Ji-hee noona, I had apparently been drunk and unilaterally hitting on Joo Seung-hyuk, saying things like he was handsome.

‘I must have been out of my mind.’

If I had lost my reason to that extent, it might be true that I spoke nonsense about taking responsibility for his purity.

But even if I really did that, would he actually expect me to take responsibility?

First of all, there was no way Joo Seung-hyuk was experiencing his first time, and there was even less chance that he was a proponent of premarital chastity.

Having read the original work, I could be one hundred percent sure.

How many people had Joo Seung-hyuk slept with before meeting ‘Kim Joon’!

Not only was it described in the novel, but even now, rumors that Joo Seung-hyuk had relationships with Guides never ceased.

‘If I actually said I’d take responsibility for his purity, Joo Seung-hyuk would probably be disgusted.’

Then why did Joo Seung-hyuk say such an absurd thing?

Could it be that, like in the original work, he intended to induce me to cling to him first and then get rid of me?

No, if he wanted to kill me, he could just kill me; there’s no reason unauthorized copyto use [visit our site]such a tedious method…

Is he mocking me because he knows it’s my first time?

Usually, sexual impulses naturally accompany the process of Guiding. Because of this, Ability Users generally had their first experience quite early.

Moreover, there were cases where those whose first experience was late were criticized or mocked, framed as being incompetent or irresponsible.

Joo Seung-hyuk must have realized last night that I had no experience.

Since Joo Seung-hyuk was a profligate man, he probably found me amusing and teased me by saying absurd things like ‘first time’ or ‘premarital chastity.’ He enjoyed seeing my flustered reaction.

Yes, this is it. This is it! Joo Seung-hyuk was mocking me!

Once I realized the true meaning behind Joo Seung-hyuk’s words, my mind finally felt at ease.

I wasn’t just pretending to be cool while being pissed [visit our site][visit our site]off at being mocked; I actually felt good.

I got entangled with an obsessive yandere, yet I wasn’t in danger of dying or being imprisoned, and it ended with mere mockery—where else in the world could there be a more fortunate outcome?

Once I was free from the problem regarding Joo Seung-hyuk, the next problem arrived.

My entire body began to ache in every nook and cranny.

I have no memory of last night at all, but I guess we really did it.

‘My first time was with a man…’

Though my memories of my past life were blurry, I wasn’t gay. However, the fact that my first partner was a man wasn’t particularly shocking.

I was Lee Yeon-soo.

I was born and raised in this world, and I was more accustomed to the unauthorized copyway unauthorized copyof thinking visit our sitehere than in my past life.

When I was 14 and realized I had possessed a character in a novel, I was shocked, but that didn’t change my way of thinking or my values.

In this world, superpowers like being a Guide or an Esper were prioritized over gender, followed by traits like Alpha, Omega, and Beta.

It was generally known that Espers manifested as Alphas, Guides as Omegas, and ordinary people as Betas, but that wasn’t always accurate.

There were many cases of Ability Users who didn’t manifest a trait, and occasionally there were Alpha Guides or Omega Espers. There were also cases where ordinary people manifested Alpha or Omega traits.

I am an S-Class Guide, but I didn’t manifest a trait. Recalling the original work, there is no possibility of manifestation in the future.

Anyway, because of this situation, there was almost no societal aversion to same-sex relationships.

Having grown up in such an environment, I came to believe that the partner’s gender wasn’t very important.

Even if I found out I was heterosexual in my past life, nothing would change now.

So, it was fine that the partner was a man. I accepted that I was the one receiving.

This was something I had been prepared for from the moment I awakened as a Guide.

However, since it was technically my first time, it was a bit disappointing that I couldn’t remember it.

It’s not that I had fantasies about the first time, but still, this is too hollow…

But considering the partner was Joo Seung-hyuk, I felt that having a blackout was actually a blessing.

But it really hurts. How rough was he? Or is it always like this?

We really did it by mutual consent, right…?

No, why on earth did it have to be Joo Seung-hyuk for my first time!

No, let’s think positively. Maybe it’s because of the Original Plot Constraint that we kept running into each other, which made me anxious, so let’s just consider this as paying a toll to ward off bad luck.

Since we slept together and he even mocked me, there’s no way we’ll be entangled further.

Pain, regret, restlessness, frustration, feeling okay, and then suddenly feeling wronged.

Tens of thousands of thoughts repeatedly surfaced and vanished simultaneously.

While I was gripped by the dull pain and complex emotions, the lecture ended.

Anyway, from now on, there will be no more entanglement with Joo Seung-hyuk. He won’t look for me, and I will do my utmost to avoid crossing paths with him.

According to the original work, Joo Seung-hyuk and Kim Joon should have met for the first time last night. It bothers me that the first event between the top and bottom got twisted, but it shouldn’t cause any major issues.

After finishing all my lectures, my energy was completely drained.

Even though I only had theory classes today, I felt as exhausted as if I had performed Guiding ten times, making even simply walking feel overwhelming.

I was too lazy to go to the cafeteria, and I had no appetite. Just as I turned around to head back to the dormitory, a large silhouette blocked my path.

“Hyung.”

“Mommy!”

The moment I saw Joo Seung-hyuk’s face, a scream escaped me instinctively.

“Hyung, why are you so surprised?”

“E-Esteemed Student Joo Seung-hyuk, what are you doing here…?”

At the Esper Academy, the areas for Guides and Espers were separated.

Guide classes were in the West Wing, Espers in the East Wing, and training took place in the center, so there was no reason for an Esper to come to the West Wing.

Unless they were coming to meet a bonded Guide or a lover.

“Why use ‘Esteemed Student’ between us?”

“What do you mean ‘between us’?”

No matter how I thought about it, Joo Seung-hyuk and I were absolutely not in a relationship that could be categorized as ‘us.’

When I asked back in surprise, his eyes sank coldly.

“You’re not trying to draw a line, are you?”

“Draw a line?”

“Hyung, are you going to eat and toss me?”

“What?”

“I’m asking if you’re going to eat me and then throw me away, Lee Yeon-soo.”

Joo Seung-hyuk’s voice dropped an octave.

“T-Toss? Who is tossing whom!”

I looked around in a panic. Fortunately, since it was the time when all lectures had ended, no one was in sight.

“Your behavior right now is exactly that. You seduced an innocent kid who said they didn’t want to with all sorts of sweet talk, ate them up, and now you’re trying to toss them. You’re saying you’ve had a taste, so that’s enough.”

Hearing Joo Seung-hyuk’s words, I visit our sitesounded like a total piece of stolen contenttrash. But strictly speaking, he wasn’t wrong.

I didn’t think Joo Seung-hyuk was innocent, but other than that, he was strangely accurate.

Regardless, I was the one who first embraced the younger partner, and I was the one who seduced him by saying he was handsome. And it was also true that I tried to draw a line the day after we slept together.

But even knowing that, the sense of unfairness wouldn’t go away.

“Esteemed Student Joo Seung-hyuk.”

Did I really ask to sleep with you first? Aren’t you lying, taking advantage of the fact that I don’t remember last night?

“Would you please stop with that damn ‘Esteemed Student’ talk.”

The Esper Academy had some minor rules that differed from other schools.

One of them was the title ‘Esteemed Student.’

If the other person was a Guide or Esper like themselves, they called each other by their names unless they had fought to the point of breaking off their friendship.

However, when a Guide called an Esper or an Esper called a Guide, it was an unwritten rule to add the title ‘Esteemed Student’ after the name.

Since it was a relationship that required physical contact, they were more sensitive to etiquette and didn’t easily call each other by name unless they had a special closeness.

“But…”

“We’ve shared our purity. We’re past the stage of calling each other ‘Esteemed Student.’”

Shared my purity my foot! You weren’t a virgin!