Chapter 145 – GOY 145
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“I’m not taking sides, but if something like that happened, you should have told me.”
“Then Hyung would have hated it….”
He muttered in a small voice, sounding crestfallen.
“What?”
“Hyung, you hate it when I do things like that. If you had known, you probably would have tried to leave again.”
“…….”
“I didn’t want to do things you hate. But everything I want is something you hate….”
“What exactly do I hate?”
“Being rude, doing bad things…. And you hate it when [Read on Read BL Novels]I restrict you. I [stolen content]want you to tell me everything, but you hate that too.”
I thought he was just a reckless bull, but he remembers every single word I’ve said….
“Seung-hyuk-ah, if you know, then you shouldn’t do it.”
Then why do you remember it but fail to put it into practice?
“…I wanted to give Hyung faith in me. I wanted to show you that I trust you.”
Joo Seung-hyuk gripped my hand tightly. His voice was calm, but it held a deep sincerity.
“That’s why I tried to clear away all the guys who bothered Hyung, and clean things up so you could attend school comfortably….”
This crazy bastard!
“…Don’t tell me you did that to kids other than Kim Joon?”
He glanced at my reaction and quietly shut his mouth. The fact that he couldn’t answer made him even more suspicious.
“Why can’t you answer?”
“…Hyung, I really want to be acknowledged by you. I want you to trust me without [unauthorized copy]being [stolen content]afraid. I thought about it a lot, wondering what to do. That’s why I decided I should give you freedom.”
Joo Seung-hyuk had changed a lot since the start of the semester. Even when he saw me with Kim Joon at the welcoming party, he let it slide without saying much, and he used harsh language less often. He stopped demanding to know my every move.
All of that had been the result of Joo Seung-hyuk’s own agonizing deliberation. Fearing that I would try to leave again if I were afraid of him, he had tried to give me freedom instead.
For someone whose obsessiveness is second to none in the world, I wondered how hard it must have been for him to make such a resolution…. Suddenly, a pang of pity hit me.
“Seung-hyuk-ah….”
“To give Hyung freedom, it’s only natural to remove the risk factors. I can only be at peace if Hyung is safe. That’s why I did it….”
You call that freedom! The pity vanished in an instant.
However, I couldn’t pull my hand away. The look in Joo Seung-hyuk’s eyes as he held my hand was so desperate.
“And you can only receive the ring once Hyung trusts me completely.”
“You wanted the ring?”
“Yes. I want it.”
His eyes sparkled like a child’s. Seeing those gentle [visit our site]eyes, as if he were talking [visit our site]about the gift he wanted most in the world, made my heart flutter strangely.
What is a mere ring anyway? Of course, to ordinary people, it would be a precious treasure that couldn’t be obtained even with a lifetime of effort, but Joo Seung-hyuk is different. He can get anything he wants.
Moreover, this ring was a treasure Joo Seung-hyuk had obtained by defeating the boss himself. I had it, but if he asked for it, I could return it immediately.
But he probably wasn’t talking about material value right now.
“…Seung-hyuk-ah, you like the type with a larger build, right?”
“No.”
“Really? You can be honest.”
“To be honest, I was scared during my Rut. Even while my reason vanished and only instinct ran wild, I thought about how fragile Hyung is. I was afraid that because you are so delicate, you might break if I lost my mind and went wild. Even after the Rut ended, I was too scared to hold you.”
So that was why we hadn’t been intimate for a while. It wasn’t that he was disappointed in me or that his feelings had changed.
“So, I did think that once Hyung recovers, I should make you exercise hard. I know you hate moving, but I thought we’d have to make an effort.”
“…….”
“But that’s all. Build doesn’t matter. My ideal type is Lee Yeon-soo himself.”
He wants me. But even knowing that, the reason I’m anxious is probably because I love Joo Seung-hyuk.
Because I love him, I worry. I’m afraid that my heart and his might not be the same.
“Seung-hyuk-ah, I’m a Beta.”
I confessed the root of my worry.
“I know.”
“I can’t feel your pheromones. Even if you send a signal with pheromones, I won’t notice.”
Once the floodgates opened, I couldn’t stop. I poured out everything I had been worrying about until now.
“It doesn’t matter. Hyung doesn’t need to know. I’ll be the one to notice Hyung’s signals.”
“Don’t you want children?”
“I’ve never even thought about children. I’m not confident that I’d be a good parent.”
“But you mentioned children before.”
“I just thought a child who looked like Hyung would be cute. There was no special meaning. The only thing I want is Lee Yeon-soo; nothing else matters.”
And so, Joo Seung-hyuk eased my worries and anxiety. Rather, talking with him made the troubles I had been suffering through alone feel like nothing.
“Are you really okay with a Beta?”
I asked the same thing again. One would expect him to be tired of the repetition, but there was no irritation on Joo Seung-hyuk’s face. Instead, he smiled as if it were fine and looked me straight in the eyes.
“Traits don’t matter. Whether Hyung is a Beta, an Omega, or an Alpha, it’s not important at all. I’ve never been interested in that from the start. Nor is it about a beautiful face or body. I only want the person known as Lee Yeon-soo.”
“…….”
“I will never be the first to let go of Hyung’s hand. So please, trust me.”
“…….”
“Why are you trying to cry again?”
Was I crying? I tried to shake my head in denial, but a tear escaped. I hurriedly wiped the tear away with my hand and looked at him.
“Seung-hyuk-ah, did you… put your pheromones on me again today?”
“Yes. I do it every day. Why? Did you hate that too?”
I shook my head.
I didn’t hate it. There was no way I could hate it. I was just sad.
“Seung-hyuk-ah, I want to smell your pheromones. I’m curious about them.”
It wasn’t just the pheromones. I wanted to know everything about Joo Seung-hyuk.
“Why? Why are you curious about my pheromones?”
“Because….”
There were so many things I wanted to say to Joo Seung-hyuk.
I wanted to tell him how much I love him, that I’m not afraid of him anymore and have no intention of running away, so he should trust me.
I wanted to tell him that he doesn’t have to worry about me anymore, to hold me as much as he wants, and that I want him too.
I wanted to look into Joo Seung-hyuk’s eyes and pour out all my sincerity, one by one.
“Because I…!”
Beep-beep-beep-beep-beep!
The moment I was about to confess everything to Joo Seung-hyuk, a loud noise rang out from the phone in my pocket.
I checked the phone. A red letter ‘S’ was blinking on the screen. This was an emergency notification signal sent by the Center to registered ability users, and among them, it was the highest grade, an ‘S-Class Alert.’
S-Class Alerts are triggered during national crises, such as the occurrence of an S-Class gate, a Gate Break crisis, or a mega-disaster.
Beep-beep-beep-beep-beep!
Not just mine, but the emergency alarm rang on Joo Seung-hyuk’s phone as well.
“It’s an S-Class,” he replied indifferently. Joo Seung-hyuk had received the same alert as I did.
Then, a loud alarm rang outside the door as well. The sound grew closer, and then someone knocked on the door.
“Yeon-soo.”
It was Park Geon-woo’s visit our sitevoice. Just as I was about to open the door, Joo [unauthorized copy]Seung-hyuk blocked my path.
“I’ll do it.”
“Okay.”
Joo Seung-hyuk strode forward and grabbed the doorknob. The moment the door opened, the notification sound rang loudly from the outside.
It was the sound coming from Park Geon-woo’s phone. Like us, Park Geon-woo had also received the S-Class Alert.
“Hi, Yeon-soo.”
Park Geon-woo greeted me with an awkward smile. Facing him for the first time in a while since the first day of school, he looked somewhat haggard.
Was it because he looked thinner than usual? Or was it because I knew that Park Geon-woo had been hiding the truth about the Horaitron Gate? His impression, which had previously seemed only upright, felt a bit different now.
“Hello.”
“So you were here. I heard the sound and wondered. Seung-hyeok was here too.”
Park Geon-woo spoke to Joo Seung-hyuk, who was standing in front of him, a beat late. However, Joo Seung-hyuk did not respond, merely watching Park Geon-woo with cold eyes.
Park Geon-woo avoided his gaze again and looked at me.
“It’s an emergency. Let’s go to the Center.”
The alarm displayed the grade and location of the emergency. It meant that ability users who received the alert should assemble there. And the location indicated by the notification was the Psychic Central Control Center of Korea.
“Yes. We should.”
It was a national emergency. There were many things I wanted to say to Joo Seung-hyuk, but I had to postpone them for a moment.
I looked at Joo Seung-hyuk. He looked back at me and gripped my hand tightly. As if he would never let go.
We traveled to the Center on an Esper Academy bus.
Since it was an emergency, I thought all the High-ranking Ability Users of the Academy would be deployed. However, the only people on the bus now were the driver, me, Joo Seung-hyuk, and Park Geon-woo.
Was the emergency alert sent only to S-Class ability users? What on earth was happening?
Usually, the alert notification displays a brief explanation and the location, but this time, the reason for the alert was missing.
If it were an S-Class gate or an imminent Gate Break, there would be no need to hide it. They had never hidden such things before.
If that were the case, it meant that a secret incident had occurred, such as a major Read on Read BL Novelsaccident or a terrorist attack, that could not be easily disclosed to the public.
I held the hand of Joo Seung-hyuk, who was sitting next to me.
If it was a matter so secret and serious that an S-Class Alert was issued, Joo Seung-hyuk would have to step forward. I was afraid he might get hurt.
Joo Seung-hyuk stroked my head and let me lean my head on his shoulder.
“It’s okay. There’s nothing to worry about.”
As his soft voice brushed against my ear, my anxiously trembling heart calmed down a bit.
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