Chapter 143 – GOY 143
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I hurried toward where he had been. However, even after rounding the corner, Joo Seung-hyuk was nowhere to be seen.
Where did he go? Did he go down the stairs?
It seemed we had missed each other. Just as I was about to make a call, I heard Joo Seung-hyuk’s voice from one side.
“Kim Joon, how much longer do I have to wait?”
I looked toward the sound. Joo Seung-hyuk was standing in an empty classroom next to me. And beside him was Kim Joon.
Could it be that he came all the way to the West Wing to meet Kim Joon, not me? And [Read on Read BL Novels]what did he mean by waiting?
In my confusion, I stared at them.
“Please don’t do this.”
“What did I ever do?”
“What do you mean what! Even last night, you came to see me…!”
…Joo Seung-hyuk was with Kim Joon last night? He didn’t go to handle business, but to meet Kim Joon?
Thud.
My grip loosened, and my phone fell. Startled, I quickly picked up the phone and hurried away from the scene as if fleeing.
After running mindlessly, I found myself in front of [visit our site]the library. It was the place I had promised to meet [stolen content]Joo Seung-hyuk. To think I’d end up here even now, I really am…
But was the Original Plot Constraint actually at work…?
Did something happen in the dormitory on the first day of the second semester, and have they been meeting behind my back since then?
No. That can’t be. To bring up the original plot now, it’s nonsense…
Besides, thinking back, the atmosphere wasn’t far from romantic. Rather, wasn’t it serious? It felt more like it was hostile…
Right, it’s nothing. Seniors and juniors can just be together. Someone could go meet a Hubae late at night while keeping it a secret from their lover… No, they couldn’t. No matter how close they are, you don’t go at night.
Ah, no. They could! Come to think of it, I’ve been to Park Geon-woo’s dormitory room before. So Joo Seung-hyuk could…
No, even so, it’s different from me; I’m a Beta. An Alpha shouldn’t go to a room where an Omega lives alone late at night, right?
I looked at the ring shining on my finger.
Even after his Rut, Joo Seung-hyuk asked me to wear couple rings. He even gave me a ring he got from the Linked Gate. So there’s no need to be anxious.
As I clenched the finger wearing the ring tightly, someone gently wrapped their arms around my neck from behind.
“Hyung.”
It was Joo Seung-hyuk, the only person in this school who called me ‘Hyung.’ I held his hand.
I hadn’t heard any explanation yet. But just by feeling his warm body temperature, my anxiously trembling heart calmed down in an instant.
“You’re here?”
“I’m sorry. I’m late, aren’t I?”
“No. It’s okay. …But why were you late?”
“I had a bit of work.”
“…I see.”
He’s not mentioning that he met Kim Joon…
“Seung-hyuk-ah…”
“Yes?”
“No, it’s nothing.”
I wanted to ask if he saw Kim Joon, if he had been with Kim Joon every night until now.
But I couldn’t bring [visit our site]myself to [stolen content]unauthorized copyopen my mouth. I was too afraid of Joo Seung-hyuk’s answer to even ask.
Today, Joo Seung-hyuk went out again, saying he had work late in the evening.
After he left, I read the books I had borrowed from the library. They were all books related to Omegas.
If a Guide manifests as an Omega, the amount of mana increases. In some cases, it rises dramatically, as if they had undergone a Re-awakening.
Furthermore, the matching rate generally increases, and it is said that they can share a deeper communion with Alpha Espers when performing Guiding. Therefore, even within the same rank, those who have manifested are more highly valued.
There were more than a few people who gave me well-wishes, saying they hoped I would manifest too.
However, I wasn’t envious of Omega Guides, nor did I have any desire to manifest.
If you manifest as an Omega, you are affected by Pheromones. Heat Cycles occur, and the excitement felt during Guiding becomes stronger. Although medical technology has advanced and it’s possible to control it with Pheromone Suppressants, there are still limits.
The books detailed the hardships of Omega Guides. They repeatedly [stolen content]emphasized that while everyone thinks Omega [visit our site]Guides Read on Read BL Novelsare superior, there are actually many difficult aspects.
Even without books, I knew well how hard it was for Guides who manifested as Omegas. I had seen people around me struggle continuously.
Aside from Heat Cycles and excitement, there were other problems.
Among Alpha Espers, there were quite a few malicious individuals who tried to manipulate Guides using Pheromones. It is said that the number of people doing such things has decreased because safety measures for Guides are well-established and Esper ethics education has been strengthened, but there were still many.
Until now, I had adhered to Level 1 Guiding. While the ability to control Guiding is a skill in itself, it wouldn’t have been easy to endure if I were an Omega.
No matter what people said, I was satisfied with my trait. I didn’t have the slightest desire to manifest as an Omega. Even after reading the related books, my thoughts didn’t change.
Even if I manifest as an Omega, it’s just full of inconveniences. I prefer being a Beta.
But…
Before useless thoughts could surface, I picked up another book.
‘Jeokrunhwa Manifestation Shock’
This book dealt with experiments and achievements regarding manifestation conducted in the United States during the Jeokrunhwa craze, as well as the side effects.
Various human experiments were conducted, from inducing manifestation in Betas to turning Alphas into Omegas, and even returning Omegas to Betas.
And numerous side effects occurred, ranging from physical symptoms like cardiovascular disease or loss of hearing and taste, to mental symptoms like depression, lethargy, hallucinations, and auditory hallucinations, and even superpower symptoms like a drop in matching rate or mana Rampage. In many cases, lives were lost. However, compared to the number of people sacrificed, there were almost no achievements.
There were several cases where Omega and Alpha Pheromones disappeared, but this was seen as a type of side effect rather than a research achievement. There was one case where a Beta manifested as recessive, but it was said to be difficult to determine whether this was an effect of Jeokrunhwa or a natural manifestation.
The experimental data I saw in Ju Gyeong-chan’s study was similar to this…
However, it is said that experiments related to manifestation continued even after the Jeokrunhwa craze of the 90s ended. It was mentioned that quite a few people volunteered for the experiments, saying they wanted to manifest even if side effects occurred.
If I had seen this book last year, I [visit our site]would have thought it was [Read on Read BL Novels]utterly incomprehensible. What could a mere manifestation [Read on Read BL Novels]be that people would risk their lives for?
But now, I felt I understood their feelings a little.
Closing the book, I lay down on the bed. I buried my face in the blanket, but I couldn’t feel anything.
I heard that Dominant Alphas have such strong Pheromones that a lingering scent remains even on bedding… If I were an Omega, I would have been able to feel Joo Seung-hyuk’s Pheromones…
I couldn’t even feel the intense Pheromones of the Rut, so there’s no way I could smell a lingering scent. I know. I know, but the gloom wouldn’t disappear.
I want to manifest. I don’t care about mana or an increase in the matching rate. I just want to smell Joo Seung-hyuk’s Pheromones.
To want to become an Omega for such a trivial reason. It’s truly a stupid thought.
I know. I know, but those thoughts wouldn’t stop.
I understood why the original Lee Yeon-soo tried so hard to manifest.
How foolish. Joo Seung-hyuk might be with Kim Joon right now, yet I’m having these thoughts. I felt pathetic and stupid.
“Hyung. I have something to say. Sit down.”
Joo Seung-hyuk’s voice was low. It was a tone closer to a command than a suggestion.
Feeling a sense of anxiety, I sat in the seat opposite him.
“What is it…?”
When I asked cautiously, he spoke in a cold voice.
“Let’s break up.”
“What…?”
What did Joo Seung-hyuk just say? Did I hear wrong?
“I said let’s break up.”
He said it once more. I hadn’t heard wrong. Joo Seung-hyuk was talking about a breakup.
I stared at him, unable to say a word. Joo Seung-hyuk continued, frowning as if just facing me was irritating.
“Joon will arrive in ten minutes. Leave before then. And leave the ring.”
“…Are you breaking up with me because of Kim Joon?”
“Yes. Great, right? Lee Yeon-soo always wanted to break up with me anyway. No, you never even thought of us as dating, did you? You were always racking your brain to escape from me.”
“…….”
It was as he said.
I wanted to escape from Joo Seung-hyuk. If he abandoned his obsession with me and chose Kim Joon, nothing could be better.
I could escape the embrace of an obsessive yandere and enjoy my freedom.
I could perform Guiding freely as I wished and even join a corporate guild.
The dream I had longed for from the moment I realized the original plot was coming true. So I should be happy. I should leave joyfully.
“Get lost.”
“I don’t want to.”
But words opposite to my thoughts burst from my lips.
“That’s unexpected. I thought Lee Yeon-soo would welcome it with open arms if I told him to get lost.”
I thought so too. Although an unknown anxiety occasionally weighed down my chest, I thought I would feel relieved if Joo Seung-hyuk actually told me to leave. But I was wrong.
“No…”
“What’s ‘no’? Now that you’re actually breaking up with a chaebol, you’re feeling regretful?”
I knew there were many people who sneered at me, saying that after acting all high and mighty for kicking away the position of the Seong Han Group heir’s Guide, I ended up dating a chaebol anyway. I had even heard them whispering directly. But it didn’t bother me.
Because it wasn’t the truth.
But hearing those words from Joo Seung-hyuk, sorrowful tears burst out.
I covered my mouth and shook my [unauthorized copy]head. But even though I was crying, Joo visit our siteSeung-hyuk’s voice remained cold.
“Then why?”
Because I don’t want to leave Joo Seung-hyuk. I don’t want to break up with him. That’s because… because…
“I love you! Joo Seung-hyuk, I love you! I don’t want to break up. Seung-hyuk-ah, please don’t abandon me!”
“Hyung. Hyung!”
I snapped my eyes open at the urgent voice. Then, I saw Joo Seung-hyuk’s face, which looked full of worry.
“Seung-hyuk-ah…”
“Hyung, are you okay? Did you have a nightmare?”
“A nightmare…?”
“You were tossing and turning so much in your sleep that I woke you up.”
“It was a dream?”
“Yes.”
Joo Seung-hyuk nodded and brushed the corners of my eyes.
“What on earth did you dream about to be shedding tears?”
“Is it really a dream? This isn’t the dream?”
I was anxious that the Joo Seung-hyuk who coldly declared a breakup was the real one, and the Joo Seung-hyuk gently wiping my tears was the dream.
And if this moment were a dream, I didn’t want to wake up. I hugged him blindly.
“Hyung…?”
Joo Seung-hyuk seemed flustered, but without asking why, he quietly hugged me back.
His firm chest and warm body temperature told me that this was reality. Relieved, I burrowed into his embrace.
I don’t want to be apart from Joo Seung-hyuk. I don’t want to break up. I want to smell his Pheromones. I want to keep being with him like this.
I had been in love with Joo Seung-hyuk.
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