By Zephyria 
Seo Baek-han, who tilted his head several times to find the right angle, didn’t seem to have any leeway. Short, exploratory kisses were repeated until Joo Tae-hyun’s mouth unconsciously opened naturally. Rather, Seo Baek-han stopped everything and only caught his breath.
“Ah, what to do.”
Seo Baek-han muttered with his lips touching.
Tae-hyun, Joo Tae-hyun. What to do, really…
Seo Baek-han called his name several times, not really expecting an answer. It was no joke that steam seemed to rise from his entire body at any moment.
“…Hah.”
When a groan involuntarily leaked out because his sensitive spot inside his mouth was stubbornly touched and crushed, Seo Baek-han’s body swelled even more. Swollen forearms that seemed about to burst, blue veins standing out on his temples, neck, and even the back of his hands, and the small creaking sound that echoed whenever he turned his head. It felt like a beast that had been crouching all along was slowly raising its huge body.
“Ah, haa…”
Fortunately, Seo Baek-han didn’t spare sounds that were hard to tell whether they were admiration or lament, so perhaps his panting was somewhat buried.
“A little, it hurts, my back…”
“Did I squeeze you too hard?”
He tried to hug him tightly enough to burst him, but he only paused several times, suddenly coming to his senses. This kiss now… was similar to what Joo Tae-hyun remembered, but completely different. The current Seo Baek-han, well. He wasn’t unskilled, but he seemed very urgent. No, should I say desperate? He acted like a person who had to kiss like he was going to die like this.
“Wait… a minute. Let me, catch my breath…”
Unable to endure it, he gently pushed Seo Baek-han away. He thought he would endure without backing down since he was kissing like he was having sex, but unexpectedly, he was easily pushed away. Rather, he acted nimbly, like someone who had been spacing out and belatedly came to his senses.
“Good, just a little slower.”
He slowly stroked his forehead in time with the rhythm, as if trying to regain his breath. Even though he himself was very excited and panting.
The fingers that wiped the sweat from his forehead tapped his chin and earlobe. When he didn’t resist, Seo Baek-han grabbed his cheeks as if he had made a big decision. Then, he gently bit his cheeks. It was truly an act that could only be described as nibbling.
“What, are you… doing?”
“Because you’re cute.”
He twitched his lips because he was dumbfounded, but Seo Baek-han seemed to like his reaction. He chewed on Joo Tae-hyun’s cheeks here and there, leaving bite marks evenly, and then kissed him densely from his eyes to his cheeks, as if stamping a seal.
What am I doing now? While feeling such self-loathing, his body was so hot that he felt like he was going to die at any moment, so the ambivalent feelings of not wanting to care about anything tempered Joo Tae-hyun in turn.
…Right now, self-loathing and regret are washing over him a little more strongly.
He wanted to ask him why he was like that in the past, even though he knew how to kiss like this. He wanted to see Seo Baek-han looking guilty and helpless in front of him, after not even letting him say he was sorry.
“It’s okay.”
“…….”
“It’s all because of me, Tae-hyun.”
As if reading Joo Tae-hyun’s mind, Seo Baek-han whispered with the tips of their noses touching.
“You’re a little drunk, and in the meantime, you feel sorry for me, who is unilaterally imprinting on you… so you’re just pitying me, you kind person.”
You’re not at fault at all, so you can be a little more comfortable.
Trying to relieve Joo Tae-hyun’s guilt, who had lost both the subject and the object, Seo Baek-han caressed Joo Tae-hyun’s body here and there in his arms.
“The problem is that I can’t refuse you even in this situation. Isn’t it?”
So you’re not at fault at all. Just take the good things and push me away right away when you don’t like it.
“…….”
Moist, tearful eyes ripple, creating ripples.
Even if he tries to soothe him with all his heart, there will be parts that can’t be helped. Anyway, he’s the perpetrator. He’s the one who stabbed and slashed Joo Tae-hyun’s heart several times…
“Besides, I didn’t intend to go all the way anyway.”
Joo Tae-hyun, who was staring up at him blankly as if asking what nonsense he was talking about, ah. Too… cute. Seo Baek-han barely swallowed the harsh words that were about to come out and raised the corners of his mouth as gently as possible.
“I won’t do anything to make it hard for you. I’ll just make you feel good… um, that’s all.”
“…….”
“If you feel uncomfortable or in pain like before, tell me right away. Stop me anytime if you want to stop.”
Joo Tae-hyun, who had been frozen for a long time, nodded very slightly. It was such a subtle movement that he wouldn’t have noticed it if they weren’t this close.
So this is what it feels like to want to harm someone because they’re so cute and pretty. Seo Baek-han swallowed the groan that burst out like a sigh and suddenly pushed his hand into the knit. Joo Tae-hyun quickly huddled up, startled by the sudden touch of another person’s body temperature. Seo Baek-han felt like he was going to ejaculate just from that movement. No, had he already done it? Shit, I don’t know.
“Ugh, that…”
When he gently rubbed his hands together with his index and middle fingers pinching his nipples, Joo Tae-hyun didn’t know what to do and only gasped for hot breath. Perhaps he was embarrassed because the sensuality he encountered after a long time was unfamiliar. He wanted to kiss his flat lower abdomen, which had become flat because he was holding his breath due to tension. He wanted to soothe him and caress him as much as he wanted, but unfortunately, Seo Baek-han was human, so he only had one mouth and two hands.
“Can I suck here?”
He took off Joo Tae-hyun’s top and asked, deliberately unbuttoning the shirt he was wearing as well.
He wasn’t trying to read his expression and ask for permission.
“I’ll only do what you allow.”
…I admit it. He did it on purpose because he wanted to see Joo Tae-hyun, who was hesitant, looking troubled a little more because he was cute. Where would his shitty temper go?
“…….”
“I’ll suck it and make it hard. Then your nipples will get bigger than they are now, so you’ll feel it more when I rub them with my hands.”
Joo Tae-hyun, who had become a gentle sheep again, as if he had never commanded him crookedly like a reigning king, hesitated several times and then closed his mouth.
There was nothing more he could do.
I love you.
Only that sentence floated around in Seo Baek-han’s head. He only found his previous self, who was leisurely and teasing Joo Tae-hyun for no reason, ridiculous. He had completely conquered him like this, but he couldn’t even beg him to suck it.
“Okay, I won’t tease you and I’ll do it.”
“…”
“If you don’t like it-.”
“…I’ll, push you away.”
“You’re smart as always, Joo Tae-hyun.”
He gently grabbed the back of his neck and lightly kissed his reddened eyes. As he did so, the afterimage of the past repeatedly appeared and disappeared, as if telling him not to forget what he had done to him.
‘Th, that’s…’
‘If, if you hug me… can’t you? I’ll, I’ll make sure my dick, doesn’t show to Hyung, ugh, I’ll, I’ll hold on tight, sob, I will.’
‘So just a little tighter than now, please hug me.’
Why… why was he like that back then? He could have done this. It wasn’t difficult to take care of him a little more kindly, even if it wasn’t to this extent. Why was he so eager to make Joo Tae-hyun cry?
Moreover, wasn’t the last sex terribly miserable? Even after making Joo Tae-hyun exhausted, he wasn’t satisfied, so he pushed and swayed him to the very end.
‘H, here…? But this is a parking lot.’
‘Why? We’re the only ones here anyway.’
…What can he do now that he regrets it? It was because he was a fool who didn’t even know how to recognize his own feelings.
“Huh? Tae-hyun.”
Joo Tae-hyun, who knew that he was deliberately urging him in a loud voice, sighed lightly and then slammed his head into his chest. Even so, his forehead only bumped into his pectoral muscles, so it didn’t hurt.
Such a kind Joo Tae-hyun.
The Joo Tae-hyun I love, who I didn’t even know I loved.
The Joo Tae-hyun who fiercely loved me on a certain day in the past…
“Ah, hng…”
As soon as he put his mouth on his slightly swollen nipple and swept it with the tip of his tongue, a moan like a cry burst out. Joo Tae-hyun’s body trembled as he massaged and groped his still firm chest, even though he had lost some weight.
He unbuckled his pants and pulled out his half-erect cock, lowering only his underwear.
“Relax.”
Joo Tae-hyun froze as he was, forgetting to even breathe. He didn’t know if it was due to excitement or aversion. Maybe it was both…
“Remember? You’re the one who can end it.”
“…”
“I’ll stop right away if you tell me to stop, so just say the word.”
I can grant any request, so feel free to use me. Use me and throw me away. Enjoy yourself to the fullest and then coldly push me away as if you don’t care about my condition.
No, please do that.
“Ah, a little… slo, slowly…”
“Like this?”
His pronunciation was somewhat slurred because he still had his nipple in his mouth.
“Is this… o, okay?”
“…Uhm.”
While stroking Joo Tae-hyun’s spine with one hand, he slowly stroked his dick with the other hand.
“…Ah, hng.”
As direct stimulation poured into the sensitive spot, Joo Tae-hyun’s pheromone became thick like mist. He could feel his pheromone desperately trying to cling to the heavy scent of trees.
“Ah…!”
Joo Tae-hyun twisted his body as he quickly rubbed his urethral opening with his thumb.
“So sud, hng, suddenly, ru…bbing, th-there, ugh, then…”
“Can I change the position a little? I want to put your toes in my mouth.”
Horror settled in Joo Tae-hyun’s eyes, which had become blurred with pleasure. Was he serious? His thin eyes, as if he was trying to gauge it, had already hardened. He seemed to have concluded that that bastard was capable of doing enough.
He didn’t bring it up just to tease him. Seo Baek-han was extremely serious. He literally wanted to suck and bite every corner of Joo Tae-hyun. He also wanted to bury his face in his asshole, which he said was ruined so he couldn’t help it, and he wanted to lick and chew his nipples so much that they would swell up so much that it would be difficult to wear clothes. He just… wanted to swallow Joo Tae-hyun whole like this.
“…You, did it.”
“Huh?”
Joo Tae-hyun, who was panting, pushed away Seo Baek-han’s face, which was clinging to his chest.
“To me, so, so to Hyung, hng, spit, you told me to, do it.”
Ah… that’s right. He definitely said that, and he was more than sincere. Seo Baek-han didn’t care what Joo Tae-hyun did to him now. What’s the big deal about spitting a little? If that makes you feel better, if it can offset the painful memories even a little, what can’t I do for you?
“Then what would I be doing?”
Would it be better to show my face? As he was trying to gauge the angle at which he could be insulted, Joo Tae-hyun nervously grabbed his collar.
“Open, your mouth.”
“Huh?”
“I’ll do it for you.”
Joo Tae-hyun’s tongue pushed into his slightly surprised lips. His saliva, which contained a strong scent of trees, unconsciously went down his throat.