19 – The First Season

Eun-soo finished his work much earlier than expected. Actually, it was hard to call it “early.” From the moment he opened his eyes until late in the dawn, he had been shut in the study, staring only at the monitor. In terms of dates, it was a short period, but in terms of time invested, it was immense.

Do-kwon, concerned for Eun-soo’s health, had subtly tried to discourage him, mentioning that there was no rush, but he couldn’t penetrate the ears of the focused Eun-soo.

Eun-soo personally revised not only the design but also the PT script. Staring intently at the papers filled with English, he used a red pen to correct wrong grammar or sentences that didn’t fit the context. He even sat on the sofa, reading the script aloud to himself.

Under the pretext of working, Do-kwon sat beside him with a tablet. Of course, he wasn’t actually working. He was holding his breath, listening intently to Eun-soo’s voice. It wasn’t often that he got to hear Eun-soo speak English.

The English Do-kwon used was completely American, so the English Eun-soo spoke felt incredibly novel and cool.

The characteristic British accent both clashed with and suited Eun-soo perfectly. Hearing that crisp English flow from such a soft-looking person was an ecstasy for both the eyes and the ears.

Occasionally clicking the back of the pen, slightly furrowing his brow as if contemplating something, or gently biting his lower lip… it was truly… enchanting.

Once all the work was finished, Eun-soo handed the USB containing the files to Do-kwon. Do-kwon sent it immediately to the design team, and a week later, the PT took place in the Philippines.

From the moment he handed over the files until the results came out, Eun-soo was anxiously on edge. He couldn’t sleep well, barely ate, and eventually began walking on eggshells around Do-kwon. He seemed deeply worried about what would happen if the work didn’t go well.

Do-kwon sat Eun-soo down and comforted him extensively. He told him he’d heard the atmosphere was great throughout the presentation and that there was even applause at the end. He eased Eun-soo’s worries by saying the client’s expression had been positive.

However, Eun-soo didn’t settle easily. He looked extremely anxious. It was a starkly different face from when he worked at the company. He was likely very tense due to the pressure of taking on a project for the first time in a long while, and the fear that his skills might have deteriorated.

Just as Eun-soo’s face was turning pale with worry, the results arrived.

It was a pass.

Upon hearing the news, Do-kwon came home with a beaming face. He bought the bitter wine Eun-soo liked, as well as fruit and cheese. He intended to use the celebration party as an excuse to have a few drinks with Eun-soo.

However, after hearing the news, Eun-soo didn’t smile even once. He simply let out a deep sigh and went into the bedroom, saying he had to sleep early because he was tired. Then, he slept all day. Truly, all day.

It got to the point where Do-kwon worried if he was suffering from hypersomnia again or if he was sick somewhere.

Sitting on the bedroom sofa, Do-kwon looked at his tablet, then at the sleeping Eun-soo, then the tablet, then Eun-soo again, adding worry upon worry.

Then, around 10 PM, Eun-soo tossed and turned. Do-kwon dropped the tablet as if throwing it and shifted his hips. He craned his neck to check Eun-soo’s condition.

“…Eun-soo?”

He tried calling him softly. At that, Eun-soo seemed to hear the voice and tilted his head. Then, he slowly opened his eyes. His pupils, still cloudy from sleep, blinked slowly.

Do-kwon sprang up and approached the bed. Then, fearing he might fall back asleep, he supported his back to help him sit up.

“You’re awake. Did you sleep well?”

Do-kwon said, gently stroking Eun-soo’s floating head. Eun-soo, having just woken up, was defenseless. Because of this, Do-kwon could engage in brief moments of skinship that he couldn’t do when Eun-soo was fully awake. For example, stroking his hair like this, touching his shoulders or forearms, or rubbing the back of his hand.

“Mmm…”

Eun-soo let out a languid sigh at the touch. Settling himself right next to Eun-soo, Do-kwon whispered in a low voice.

“You must have been tired. You slept for a very long time.”

Eun-soo nodded slowly. Just by feeling the stiffness in every joint of his body, he could tell he had slept a long time. As soon as the tension broke, sleep had come crashing down on him. He had made up for all the weeks he had barely slept.

To sleep this much just for one project. When he was a team leader at Seong-jin, he used to handle three or four projects simultaneously. Was it because he did it alone? Or because he worked from home without the concept of a commute? Or perhaps his mind and body, crushed by pressure, had simply worn out.

It was likely the latter, but Eun-soo decided to leave it as a question.

Taking a deep breath, Eun-soo stretched his arms high. Then, with eyes that had become much clearer, he looked at Do-kwon.

“…I’m hungry.”

Do-kwon, who had been watching Eun-soo stretch like a cat, started up in surprise.

“Oh, oh. There’s plenty of food at home. Do you want a meal? There’s meat…”

“Beer. I want to drink beer.”

Eun-soo’s eyes sparkled. At those words, Do-kwon’s eyes flashed as well. Eun-soo was asking for alcohol. It was the first time since that rainy day at the rib restaurant in Gyeonggi-do.

“Beer. I’ll go buy beer.”

Do-kwon quickly prepared to leave. He had to move fast before Eun-soo changed his mind.

Do-kwon liked it when Eun-soo drank. Because a drunk Eun-soo was cute. His guard lowered, and he laughed more easily. He would sit with his shoulders slumped like a full raccoon and chatter away.

Perhaps today, for the first time in a very long while, he would see that side of him.

Having grabbed his wallet, Do-kwon was about to step out the door when he stopped and looked at Eun-soo.

“And for snacks?”

At that, Eun-soo answered as if he had been waiting.

“Chicken. Chicken and beer.”

Eun-soo narrowed his eyes, imagining crispy chicken that was moist on the inside. He smacked his lips. Do-kwon looked at him warmly and asked again.

“What kind of chicken?”

After a moment of thought, Eun-soo murmured softly.

“Half seasoned, half fried.”

“…”

“No, half seasoned, half soy garlic!”

At the final command, Do-kwon nodded. He left the bedroom like a general entrusted with a critical mission. Just then, a small voice tickled Do-kwon’s ear.

“Uh… if it’s beer, maybe fried is better…”

Do-kwon’s feet came to a dead stop.

“I’ll buy all three. Seasoned, fried, and soy garlic.”

At the clear solution, Eun-soo nodded quickly. Then, he sneakily added one more item to the menu.

“…Cheese balls too.”

At that, Do-kwon let out a small, airy laugh.

Eun-soo couldn’t hide his smile at the fried food filling the dining table. Various kinds of chicken and cheese balls, french fries drenched in butter garlic sauce, and even mini hot dogs. It was beyond diverse; it was enchanting.

Smiling to himself, Eun-soo tried to pull the corners of his mouth down as he watched Do-kwon pour the beer. He wasn’t a child. He didn’t want to show his happiness through food. It would make him look too… trivial.

Do-kwon poured the beer full into a sleek glass and placed it in front of Eun-soo. As Eun-soo quickly reached for the glass, Do-kwon shook his head.

“Eat the snacks first. You’ve slept all day, so your stomach is empty.”

“…”

Eun-soo pouted. Normally, one should start with the beer. And it was only natural to put a mouthful of crispy chicken in when the stomach felt a sting. He wasn’t fond of Do-kwon’s suggestion, but since Do-kwon had prepared everything on the table, he felt he should listen.

Without a word, Eun-soo popped a piece of boneless seasoned chicken into his mouth. He chewed it thoroughly as if to show he was complying. Do-kwon’s expression relaxed considerably.

After swallowing the food, Eun-soo finally brought the beer glass to his lips. The popping carbonation, the sour-bitter taste, and the cool refreshment made the corners of his eyes crinkle pleasantly.

“Haa… this is great.”

Eun-soo let his shoulders slump. Alcohol after finishing work tasted the best. Even when he was at the company, after a big project ended, he always drank with team members, or Do-kwon, or even alone.

As Eun-soo blinked slowly, Do-kwon held up the beer bottle and asked.

“Want more?”

Eun-soo nodded. Soon, the golden beer flowed into his glass. Eun-soo stared blankly at the carbonation bubbling up over the soft foam.

“I’m so glad it passed. I was really worried.”

“I told you it would. It was obviously going to pass.”

Do-kwon smiled faintly and placed a piece of boneless chicken on Eun-soo’s plate. Then, thinking it was too large, he snipped it in half with scissors. After cutting the largest piece in half again, Do-kwon put away the tongs and scissors.

Eun-soo slightly furrowed his brow at Do-kwon’s busy movements.

“By any chance.”

“Yeah.”

“Did you… pull some strings, Do-kwon?”

“No. If I were going to do that, it wouldn’t have been canceled in the first place.”

Do-kwon shook his head with an aggrieved expression. He hadn’t gone that far. He had no intention, not even a shred, of muddying Eun-soo’s independent career.

Of course, if the result had been different, he might have done something. But since it didn’t happen, it didn’t happen. This achievement was entirely Eun-soo’s own.

“…”

Despite that, Eun-soo’s suspicion didn’t fade. Do-kwon moved his Adam’s apple up and down and rubbed his forehead.

“Really. You can ask Secretary Jeong. Or call the design team directly. The team members you worked with are still at the company.”

At Do-kwon’s earnest excuse, Eun-soo finally nodded and gripped the beer glass again. He brought it to his lips, but lowered it again before it touched.

Do-kwon raised an eyebrow, wondering if there was a problem. But Eun-soo suddenly pushed the beer glass toward Do-kwon.

Do-kwon blinked slowly. He couldn’t grasp Eun-soo’s intention. Was the beer insufficient? He had filled it reasonably. Was it lukewarm? No, it was cold. He had even bought the IPA that Eun-soo liked. What was the problem?

As Do-kwon’s face grew increasingly serious, Eun-soo let out a small sigh.

“Let’s cheers. Cheers.”

“…Cheers?”

“How long are you going to just serve my meal? It’s not like you’re a slave, Do-kwon.”

Eun-soo clicked his tongue, gesturing toward the space in front of Do-kwon.

“…”

Do-kwon followed his gaze. There was a beer glass, but no beer had been poured into it, and the tongs and scissors were lined up neatly on the plate. Just as Eun-soo said, it was to serve him.

But wasn’t that natural? Who was he to share a table as an equal with Eun-soo? So, rather than being happy about the suggestion, he felt… yes, apologetic. He wondered if he looked pitiful. No, if that was how Eun-soo saw him, it was actually a relief. A slave? He wouldn’t mind being a dog, something even lower than that.

It was clearly a good sign. It meant their relationship had grown a span closer, and the probability of returning to the past had increased slightly. Yet, he couldn’t be entirely happy. He thought he had thrown away all his shame and conscience, but it seemed a tiny bit remained.

As Do-kwon stood there unsure of what to do, Eun-soo’s lips twisted crookedly.

“Ah, seriously. My arm… is gonna fall off-ff.”

Eun-soo spoke like a robot.

“My wrist isn’t even in good shape to begin with.”

At those words, Do-kwon snapped back to his senses. He poured alcohol into the empty glass almost violently and quickly lifted it. Then, clink. The two glasses met. Eun-soo gulped down the beer. The glass was emptied in one go.

Do-kwon took about two sips and put the glass down. His heart was pounding so hard that, combined with the carbonation of the beer, it felt as if it would reflux out of his throat. Still, he couldn’t stop the corners of his mouth from curling up.

Eun-soo bit into a large cheese ball. The cheese stopped stretching and broke, perhaps because it had cooled down. It was a bit disappointing, but the soft, savory taste was good. After swallowing the food, Eun-soo called Do-kwon in a soft voice.

“Do-kwon.”

“Yeah?”

“Thank you. For letting me work. Thanks to you, I’ve been happy for the first time in a long while.”

Eun-soo smiled, his eyes curving softly. That smile was so fragrant. How long had it been since he’d seen Eun-soo smile? Do-kwon wore a blank, stupid expression, lost in thought. Then, a step late, he came to his senses and shook his head vigorously.

“No. You don’t need to thank me.”

To receive a thank you from Eun-soo for something as trivial as this. It was unthinkable. Moreover, wasn’t this ultimately for his own sake? So that Eun-soo wouldn’t think of other things. So that he would adapt to living a daily life by his side. To build the belief that the happy times of the past could be recreated in the present.

And yet, he couldn’t stop his lips from drifting upward.

“…”

Eun-soo stared intently at Do-kwon. Seeing this, Do-kwon unconsciously followed suit and raised the corners of his mouth.

Eun-soo enjoyed the meal. He didn’t know how long it had been since he’d had such a relaxed meal. Just one thing going well had such a huge impact. It was because he had been proven that he was still useful.

Eun-soo emptied four large bottles of beer. The mountain of chicken had also mostly disappeared. Consequently, his bladder tingled, and he wanted to go to the bathroom.

“I’ll… be right back from the bathroom.”

With cheeks flushed red, Eun-soo gripped the table to balance himself and stood up unsteadily. He felt tipsy, and his mood was wonderful. Alcohol changed drastically depending on when and how it was drunk. It worked a kind of magic, making a good mood even better and a sad mood even sadder.

Thus, the already happy Eun-soo, now quite drunk, felt even better.

“Shall we go together?”

Do-kwon shifted restlessly and asked. In response, Eun-soo looked at him with wide, startled eyes like a rabbit.

“Wha-at? No!”

“Still…”

“Who goes to the bathroom together? Forget it, forget it.”

Waving his hand dismissively, Eun-soo headed toward the bathroom. Since coming to this house, he had vaguely sensed that Do-kwon was exceptionally attuned to his every move whenever he went to the bathroom. It was likely because he couldn’t forget that moment in the hospital bathroom when Eun-soo had slit his wrists—the sight of him crumpled beside the toilet, blood pouring out.

Because of this, Eun-soo also found himself walking on eggshells around Do-kwon whenever he needed the restroom. He would steal a glance at him and give a subtle nod, signaling that everything was fine. However, perhaps because he was drunk today, he couldn’t even recall the reason for it.

Supported by Do-kwon’s worried gaze, Eun-soo managed to reach the bathroom without falling. He took care of his business quite decently. He washed his hands thoroughly and chuckled at how beet-red his face looked in the mirror; he looked ridiculous. He also splashed some cold water on his face to freshen up.

After leaving the bathroom, he returned to the kitchen.

Do-kwon was moving about diligently. Eun-soo wondered what on earth he was doing to be so busy. Suddenly curious, Eun-soo kept his body in the living room and peeked his head around the corner to watch him.

Do-kwon was transferring the remaining chicken into a bowl, clearing away empty dishes, cleaning up food scraps that had fallen on the table, and taking out fresh beers from the refrigerator. He even checked for ice cream or sorbet for dessert.

“…”

Watching this, Eun-soo’s face twisted awkwardly.

It was a tedious task. Taking care of someone. For Do-kwon, who had never been served by anyone in his entire life, this must be quite an arduous chore. But why… why was he smiling like that?

Seeing the faint smile playing on Do-kwon’s lips, Eun-soo’s mood strangely began to settle, bit by bit.

Does Do-kwon still love him? Then again, he tells him he loves him every chance he gets and looks at him with eyes dripping with affection. He must love him. That’s probably why this great man is personally handling food waste right now.

But why go this far? Simply because he loves him? Because of the sins he committed? No, that wasn’t a sufficient reason.

There must be a clear objective. Do-kwon was a man excellent at calculating gains and losses.

Probably… he wants to go back to the past.

He’s likely imagining Eun-soo coming up behind him, hugging his waist, and whispering words of love. Kissing, and then heading to the bedroom as the mood heats up. Then showering together, celebrating their happiness once more, and falling asleep while feeling each other’s warmth—that’s what he must want.

Just as Eun-soo… occasionally imagined it.

The expression vanished from Eun-soo’s face. After staring at Do-kwon for a while, Eun-soo shuffled into the kitchen, dragging his home slippers. Noticing him, Do-kwon welcomed him with a bright smile.

“Oh, Eun-soo. You’re back? Want more chicken? Or should we have dessert?”

“Just… alcohol.”

Eun-soo answered in a low voice as he sat in a chair. Do-kwon nodded and sat opposite him. He then opened a fresh bottle of beer.

Since he had just handled the food waste and washed his hands, his large hands were drenched in water. Because of that, the ring on his fourth finger stood out particularly vividly. Eun-soo stared at it with blurred vision.

Not too long ago. At a rib restaurant, when Eun-soo had asked if he would put that ring on him, Do-kwon had answered like this.

‘Eun-soo. I’m not greedy enough for that. I’m happy just watching you from afar for the rest of my life.’

‘The ring is just… like a chain. Looking at this, I’ll remember the cruel things I did to you, the reason why Bomi… isn’t here, and I’ll atone.’

Greed. For a lifetime. From afar. Chain. Atonement.

There was a time when such words suited them. He felt anew that they had changed so much from then to now.

They shouldn’t change. They mustn’t.

Eun-soo bit his lower lip hard enough to sting before letting go. The buzz from the alcohol evaporated.

Do-kwon tilted the beer toward Eun-soo’s glass. Eun-soo slid the glass back. Do-kwon looked at him, puzzled. Then, with eyes that had grown calmly cold, Eun-soo murmured.

“Mr. Do-kwon.”

“Yeah?”

“Thank you for today.”

“I was the one who asked for the favor, so there’s no need to be thank—”

“But just in case I’m saying this…”

“Hmm?”

“Just because I said thank you, or because I smiled for a moment… you aren’t expecting something else, are you?”

At the sudden dagger-like words, Do-kwon’s face froze. Expectation. He hadn’t been expecting anything, but it was sad to be rejected before he even could. As Do-kwon’s expression crumbled faintly, Eun-soo slid the glass back even further. He looked at Do-kwon with emotionless eyes.

“I know what you want from me, what you expect.”

“…Eun-soo.”

“But I have no intention of granting it.”

Eun-soo shook his head slightly. Every moment, he wondered. Why was he still in Do-kwon’s house? Why was he by his side? Why didn’t he run away?

The answer didn’t come easily. Was it because Do-kwon threatened him? Because he had handed him a knife and told him to just kill him and go? Or was it because he was lonely? Because he hated the idea of living alone again? Even if it was a Do-kwon he loathed, he was at least a person with warmth, so he thought he’d be less lonely? Or was it because it felt satisfying to see Do-kwon acting like a dog?

Perhaps all of those were reasons. But there was another reason.

Eun-soo was monitoring Do-kwon. I was in so much pain, so sorrowful, I cried and was so terrified. What if Do-kwon lived comfortably? What if he completely forgot me and met another Omega? Because he hated that—absolutely loathed it—and felt it was too unfair, he was monitoring him.

He hoped Do-kwon wouldn’t be happy. He hoped the man who pushed him into the gutter, into hell, wouldn’t smile.

He had even vowed that if he saw any sign of happiness, he would commit every kind of atrocity, scream, and destroy everything Do-kwon owned. He’d set fire to his house or his company.

But how did it come to this? With what thought had he looked him in the face and smiled? Eun-soo felt so pathetic and foolish that he wanted to slam his forehead against the floor.

“It can’t be like that.”

“…”

“Even if you act like a slave and walk on eggshells around me, the past where I suffered won’t fade, and the dead Bomi won’t come back.”

“…”

“This right now… is just a fleeting moment. A moment with no meaning.”

Eun-soo deliberately chose only the most painful words. In truth, while Do-kwon was the one listening, these were words Eun-soo was saying to himself.

Lately, his physical condition had been improving. His pheromone levels had returned to completely normal, he stopped having nightmares, and his sleep pattern had returned to a regular routine. He no longer trembled in fear wondering if the person passing by him was an Alpha, and the habit of scratching his wrists until they bled had disappeared.

It was all thanks to Do-kwon’s devoted care.

And so… Do-kwon was becoming increasingly comfortable. His pheromones no longer felt overwhelming or stinging as they once did. He had grown accustomed to the large shadow that always lingered beside him, and the gaze that tickled his cheek no longer bothered him. He had even adapted to Do-kwon’s service; now, if he ate alone outside, he might spill food like a three-year-old.

Eun-soo was afraid. Afraid that he might accidentally forgive Do-kwon. Afraid that he might slip back into the time when they were dating.

Why he was in this state. Why he had to spend years in the hospital. Why he had to live hidden in a region where he had no connections, under someone else’s name. Why Bomi was no longer by his side.

He had to recognize and remember this every single moment.

Therefore, this was a statement to Do-kwon, but simultaneously a statement to himself.

Eun-soo murmured with eyes that had settled into a quiet stillness.

“It’s just… because I’m in a good mood today. To celebrate that things ended well. That’s all. That’s it.”

“…”

Do-kwon gripped the beer bottle tightly. As Do-kwon’s face grew increasingly dark, Eun-soo lowered his head, as if he himself were hurt by the words he had spoken.

Looking at Eun-soo, who was lovely even to the crown of his head, Do-kwon wore a smile so thin it seemed it might crumble.

“…Right, Eun-soo. That’s all.”

A brief silence followed his answer. Eun-soo pretended to be unfazed and held out his beer glass. Do-kwon, also pretending to be unfazed, poured beer into the glass.

The speed at which the empty glass filled was… very slow.

* * *

Eun-soo became bored again. Now that the work was over, he had nothing to do. Eating, sleeping, watching TV he had no interest in, occasionally reading a book, and taking walks around the house. That was all.

The house became quiet to an uncomfortable degree. Previously, Do-kwon had been trying to strike up conversations here and there while walking on eggshells. Now, he didn’t open his mouth unless it was absolutely necessary.

Not only that, but the amount of time Do-kwon spent away from home increased. He seemed busy with work, but Eun-soo didn’t know what he was busy with. Since they hardly talked.

“…”

Sitting on the living room sofa, Eun-soo slid over onto his side. The silent time was beyond boring; it was painful. Do-kwon’s house without Do-kwon was too wide and empty.

To an outsider, it would seem as if Do-kwon hadn’t come home for a week. But in reality, it had only been a little over three hours since Do-kwon had gone out.

Earlier, he had mentioned that the time Do-kwon spent away from home had increased, but to be more precise, it hadn’t jumped from 1 to 10, but rather from 1 to 3. Before, he might have gone out once every three days, but lately, he went out almost every day.

But even then, it wasn’t for long. From as short as two hours to as long as five. If he left at lunch, he always returned before dinner.

It wasn’t as if he let Eun-soo eat alone. He made sure to provide meals regularly. In fact, Eun-soo could have easily fed himself, but Do-kwon would make a fuss and watch him eat from the side. It seemed that was the only way he could be at peace.

After feeding him, he would hurriedly prepare to leave. And just before stepping out,

“Eun-soo. I’m heading to the office.”

He spoke as if giving a notification, but for some reason, it felt disappointing. When are you coming back? What do you do there? Are you busy lately? There were many things he wanted to ask, but he stopped himself, fearing he’d look pathetic. Having drawn the line and pushed him away, wouldn’t he look like he was overflowing with lingering attachment?

Eun-soo gritted his teeth.

He must be working. He’s not wandering around doing something else, right? Perhaps… his feelings for me have cooled? Is he exhausted because I pushed him away so many times?

Could it be that he’s exhausted, fed up, and is now only doing the bare minimum of duty? Like how one still feeds a dog even after the affection has died.

Ah, do I even have the right to have such suspicions? I’m not even his lover. We’re worse than friends. As Eun-soo thought this, his eyes snapped open.

No, why wouldn’t I have the right? Because of whom, and for what reason, am I here in this place?

Eun-soo stood up. He scanned the wide living room keenly. There was nothing particularly noteworthy. In truth, he didn’t even know what he was looking for.

Then, the curtains drawn against the stinging sunlight caught his eye. More accurately, the tree that should be on the balcony beyond the curtains.

Eun-soo strode toward the balcony. He pushed the curtains aside haphazardly and pressed himself against the glass door.

The ‘Eun-soo Tree’ was still green. However, that alone didn’t tell him if Do-kwon had forgotten the tree or if he was taking care of it. Hadn’t he said it was an evergreen? Hadn’t he said it only needed occasional watering and less attention? That it was a tree that didn’t bloom and didn’t know how to be cold even in winter.

Opening the balcony door, Eun-soo approached the tree aggressively. He squatted in front of the pot and abruptly poked his index finger deep into the soil. He felt a damp moisture. The soil was black and full of water. The spout of the watering can beside it was also glistening with water.

Eun-soo wrinkled his nose.

“…He did water it.”

It seems its owner hasn’t abandoned you.

After absentmindedly stroking the leaves, Eun-soo stood up with a much lighter heart. It was utterly ridiculous that he was riding an emotional rollercoaster over something like this, but what could he do? That’s just how the human heart is.

Returning to the sofa, Eun-soo rested his chin on the armrest.

I can’t keep spending my time like this. Since my body and mind seem healthy enough now, should I look for a job?

He now had to rebuild something called a ‘daily routine.’ Right now, he was a recovering patient, unemployed, a loafer—he had nothing that could be called a routine.

As expected, he felt he should work. He wondered if there would be a company that met his standards. His expectations had risen significantly while working at Seong-jin.

He wanted a place that paid well for the amount of work, and a high base salary even if the workload wasn’t heavy. Also, he needed to be able to use vacations and annual leave freely. He wanted a horizontal corporate culture where people didn’t speak down to others just because they were older or held a higher rank.

He didn’t necessarily expect a flexible working arrangement, but he wanted his clock-out time to be autonomous. It would be ideal to enter as an experienced hire, but since he had been away from work for a long time, an entry-level position was also fine.

One might say he was asking for too much, that such companies aren’t common, or that he was dreaming too big, but Seong-jin had met all those conditions.

“Sigh… to think I have to worry about job hunting again in my 20s…”

Eun-soo covered his eyelids with the back of his hand. He hadn’t even written a resume yet, but he was already exhausted. Choosing a company, submitting resumes, interviewing, second interviews, and if it was a large corporation, taking an entrance exam…

A headache flared up. Eun-soo groaned and shuddered. Everything was a mess. His own state, this ambiguous relationship with Do-kwon, his anger and pain that had dulled as they were eroded by time, and his immeasurable future. Everything was a mess.

Eun-soo bolted upright. It was to go to the study. He decided he had to start looking for work immediately. Staying at home only led to overthinking, relying on Do-kwon, and focusing his attention on him.

Just as Eun-soo placed his foot on the stairs to the second floor, the sound of the door lock opening echoed down the long hallway. Eun-soo’s ears perked up. It must be Do-kwon.

Eun-soo, who had been striding up to the study, stepped back down four stairs. Then he began to climb the stairs slowly again. A few seconds later, Do-kwon entered the living room. Spotting Eun-soo, a faint smile appeared on his lips.

“Eun-soo. Are you going to bed? I bought dinner.”

Do-kwon shook the paper bag he was holding. In response, Eun-soo made a humming sound in his throat, pretending to contemplate. He wasn’t hungry. He had eaten a hearty lunch, and since then, all he had done was lie on the sofa alternating between useless worries and suspicions; there was no way his stomach was empty already.

“…Shall we, then?”

Eun-soo descended the stairs, acting nonchalant. Do-kwon headed toward the kitchen. Eun-soo followed him, chewing on his lip. Eventually, he couldn’t hold it back and asked.

“You… seem busy lately.”

Eun-soo hoped Do-kwon would give him a long, detailed answer. Do-kwon knew everything—when he woke up, when he slept, where he was hurting, when he went to the hospital. But Eun-soo knew nothing about what Do-kwon did.

But Do-kwon.

“Ah… yeah, a little.”

He finished his answer with those ambiguous words. Then, as if signaling not to ask further, he walked quickly to put distance between himself and Eun-soo. He then scurried into the kitchen first.

Do-kwon had avoided the conversation.

Eun-soo’s cheeks froze cold.

* * *

His cheeks were cold. Resting his face on the smooth, stone-like desk in the study, Eun-soo let out a sigh.

Eun-soo became depressed again, but in a different sense than before. It was sunny outside, but a black rain cloud hung only over his head.

The house was quiet again today. Do-kwon had gone to work as usual. Furthermore, for the past two days, they hadn’t even had lunch together. Saying there was too much work and that he’d have to eat alone, Do-kwon had left the house in a great hurry with an apologetic face.

Thanks to that, Eun-soo had been alone for nearly ten hours. And for those full ten hours, Eun-soo’s world had been crumbling.

He had tried to turn on the computer to look for work, but the letters simply wouldn’t enter his eyes. He had barely managed to write his name on the resume and couldn’t fill in anything else.

“Sigh…”

Eun-soo sighed again and flopped over to the other side. His mind was cluttered. It was entirely filled with worries regarding Do-kwon.

Could Do-kwon be exhausted by him, who only picked the meanest words and pushed him away again and again? Was that why he had given up on the knife in the bedroom, the ring on his finger, and Bomi’s shoes in the study?

It felt like being abandoned all over again. It wasn’t as if he and Do-kwon were lovers like before, nor was Bomi in his womb, nor did he love Do-kwon fervently. He couldn’t understand why he felt this way.

It felt like a close friend had suddenly started ignoring him. Like the friendly neighbors had begun to ostracize him. Like everyone in the world had moved to a different planet. He felt as though he had been left entirely alone.

He was that empty and lonely. There was also a fear accompanying his state of solitude.

He felt as if he were gradually becoming younger. Every time Do-kwon left the house, he became anxious and frightened, like a five-year-old who had lost his mother.

A few days ago. When he had pushed Do-kwon away so decisively during those drinks. He should have noticed then. He should have known that Do-kwon had already seeped into him. He should have realized that was why he had forgotten the past and kept smiling feebly in front of him.

Right now, Eun-soo was certainly in a distorted state. It wasn’t as if Do-kwon had openly cheated, or come home smelling of another Omega, or been away from home for a long time. To have his mind crumble this much over something so trivial—there was clearly a problem.

After thinking it over, Eun-soo concluded that a defect had occurred in his psyche. It seemed his fragile spirit was faltering once again.

“…….”

Pushing himself up, Eun-soo took a deep breath. He squared his shoulders, straightened his back, and puffed out his chest. He even tried forcing the corners of his mouth up in an unnatural smile to change his mood.

Regardless… he should go back home now. Even if he left, it wouldn’t be difficult, as Do-kwon likely wouldn’t desperately try to hold onto him like before.

If he distanced himself from Do-kwon and lived alone, he would adapt to that as well. He couldn’t say he had lived well before meeting Do-kwon, but hadn’t he lived reasonably humanly?

Eun-soo gave a small nod.

Right. It was time to leave this house. The time had come to sever his ties with Do-kwon. Perhaps settling things like this now was the best way. A relationship that burns out quietly over time and naturally snaps, without a big fight, without crying, and without screaming.

If his relationship with him was settled smoothly, Eun-soo could now live as ‘Yoo Eun-soo’ anywhere. Because Do-kwon would no longer look for him.

Eun-soo stood up abruptly. Since he hadn’t brought anything with him in the first place, there was nothing to pack. Do-kwon had bought him clothes from time to time, but since Do-kwon had bought them, disposing of them was his responsibility.

Eun-soo went down to the living room and sat on the sofa. He sat with his back straight and waited for Do-kwon to return home.

He wouldn’t do something like leaving without a word. He thought that an untidy ending would only leave useless lingering attachments for both himself and Do-kwon.

Because he, being weak and pathetic, would surely go back home and harbor a hope—not quite a hope—that Do-kwon might come looking for him, wondering if he would come tonight, or perhaps tomorrow morning.

How long had he been there? Around 7 PM, Do-kwon finished work. Eun-soo rose from the sofa to greet him.

“You’re home?”

“Yeah. Did you eat lunch? I’m sorry I couldn’t take care of it.”

“It’s okay.”

Eun-soo shook his head lightly. Then, after swallowing hard, he spoke.

“Do-kwon. I have something to sa—”

“Shall we eat dinner out?”

Do-kwon cut him off. It didn’t seem intentional; his face was flushed, and he seemed excited about something. That was likely why he hadn’t heard Eun-soo’s small voice.

Eun-soo’s eyes widened.

“……Suddenly?”

Since they lived in the same house, eating out wasn’t such a big deal that it required a separate appointment, but it was still a surprising suggestion. For the past few days, Do-kwon had barely spoken to Eun-soo. He had spent the whole time staring into space or at the edge of a table with a slight frown, as if he were thinking and agonizing over something.

Eun-soo had interpreted that behavior as an expression of ‘boredom.’ And yet, suddenly eating out.

Surprised by Eun-soo’s bewilderment, Do-kwon became flustered in turn. He had expected Eun-soo, who felt stifled staying at home, to agree readily.

“Uh, no, tomorrow is fine too, but… I suddenly wanted to go today.”

Do-kwon stammered, offering an illogical explanation that was unlike him. Tomorrow is fine, but suddenly today. What did that even mean? Eun-soo wrinkled his nose. Seeing this, Do-kwon quickly added:

“Tomorrow is fine. The day after is fine too. Then should we just eat at home today?”

Do-kwon took off his suit jacket as if to show he was staying. Eun-soo stopped him.

“No. Let’s go.”

Well, talking outside wouldn’t be so bad. With many eyes watching, perhaps both he and Do-kwon could have a more rational conversation. He thought it would be good to pour out his inner feelings in a quiet place and discuss how strange this ambiguous relationship was and how much discomfort they were causing each other.

At Eun-soo’s agreement, Do-kwon’s face brightened.

“Really? Are you okay with that?”

“It’s just… eating, after all. Wait. I’ll just change my clothes and be right back.”

Eun-soo gave a faint smile and headed to the dressing room.

Do-kwon’s car drove for quite a while. It was about 30 minutes, but it took a long time because it was peak rush hour; the distance wasn’t actually far. To describe the location roughly, it was a bit further up past Teheran-ro in Gangnam. It wasn’t as dense as Teheran-ro, but it was a place where quite a few large companies were gathered.

And the place where Do-kwon’s car stopped was…

“You… wanted to eat out… for sandwiches?”

It was a sandwich shop. That green multinational franchise that everyone thinks of when they hear ‘sandwich.’

Eun-soo’s mouth twisted strangely. He wanted to eat sandwiches for a meal out. Of all things, sandwiches from a brand optimized for takeout. Of course, it was a brand Eun-soo liked, but why bother? Moreover, there was one in front of Do-kwon’s house, and they even delivered. He had insisted on coming all the way here during rush hour to eat.

Eun-soo couldn’t believe it until Do-kwon parked the car in a nearby lot and they stood in front of the store.

“Yeah, to eat sandwiches.”

Do-kwon opened the door and gestured with his chin for him to enter. Eun-soo couldn’t close his lips, which were hanging open like a fool’s.

The shop was excessively bright. It was almost stinging to the eyes. The interior, a mix of white and green, was very… cheerful. Eun-soo let out a sigh secretly. To think he would have such a serious conversation in a place this fresh and healthy.

Thinking about sitting here, each holding a sandwich, and discussing their relationship and the future made his temples throb. It wasn’t like a scene from a drama with heavy product placement. What on earth was happening?

While Eun-soo was debating whether to say he didn’t really want sandwiches and suggest something else, or just wolf down the sandwich and leave quickly, Do-kwon ordered several things without asking.

A steak and cheese sandwich, removing the olives that Eun-soo hated, adding extra cheese, and adding avocado. It all happened at a very rapid pace. Eun-soo gave up and stood beside Do-kwon. He felt like he should just go home and talk.

Eun-soo roughly picked a sauce and stepped back. Only after ordering plenty of cookies and drinks—which he hadn’t even asked for—did Do-kwon take out his card.

“Will you be eating here?”

The clerk asked. Do-kwon shook his head lightly.

“To go, please.”

Surprised by those words, Eun-soo’s eyes grew round as he approached Do-kwon.

“We’re not eating here?”

“No. There’s a place we need to go.”

Do-kwon said with a beaming smile. Eun-soo bit the inside of his cheek. Ah… this was also unexpected. The pattern that always flowed similarly was different today of all days, leaving him mentally dazed.

He shouldn’t be like this. He was currently very depressed and serious. But on top of these fresh sandwiches, he was taking them out to go somewhere else?

Eun-soo felt like screaming.

Unaware of this, Do-kwon finished the payment with a black card, took the rustling white bag, and left the store. Eun-soo followed him with the face of someone who had been given a terminal diagnosis.

Leaving the store, Eun-soo instinctively headed toward the parking lot. But Do-kwon,

“Eun-soo. Not that way.”

Stopped him with a soft voice. Eun-soo’s head tilted to one side. Were they walking? Where on earth were they going to eat? There was no Han River or park nearby. Was he planning to eat on the street? In that case, the store would have been much better.

As Eun-soo stood frozen, Do-kwon strode over and met his eyes for a moment. Then, slowly, carefully, and deliberately wrapping his hand around Eun-soo’s wrist, he asked:

“Do you not want to walk?”

“It’s not that, but…”

“It’s the building right next door. It’s not far.”

Do-kwon pulled Eun-soo with a gentle force. Eun-soo was reluctantly dragged along.

Just as Do-kwon had said, the destination was the building right next door. The building was dim. Rather than being dark because the employees had all gone home… it just seemed like an empty building. However, it wasn’t shabby. It was overall white, polished, and sleek, and seeing as there were still protective sheets on the windows, it looked like a building that had just been completed.

Eun-soo stared blankly up at the building. Was Seong-jin building a new building? Was it an affiliate? It seemed a bit small for that. It looked to be about ten stories high. Seong-jin’s affiliate buildings were all massive and reached toward the sky.

And they didn’t use this soft, beige-toned white color. To show off their majesty, they used sophisticated navy or charcoal.

Then what on earth was the identity of this building? Had Do-kwon finally been kicked out by Myeong-hui? Was he planning a new business? If so, it explained why he had been so busy lately.

While Eun-soo looked at the building and guessed its purpose, Do-kwon didn’t rush him and just smiled beside him. Then, the moment Eun-soo turned to him, he hid his expression as if he had never been smiling. He then led Eun-soo into the building.

The inside of the building was as dark as it had looked from the outside. The geometric sculpture in the lobby was still covered in thick packaging as it hadn’t been installed yet, and things like chairs and lamps were neatly stacked to one side, perhaps because installation wasn’t finished.

“Is it okay to just come in here?”

Eun-soo asked with an anxious face. It was unlikely Do-kwon would trespass into a building he had no connection to, but he was worried. After all, didn’t Do-kwon… sometimes… occasionally… seem like a crazy person?

“It’s okay. It’s okay.”

Do-kwon said with a smile. He looked as excited as a child at an amusement park. With the bag of sandwiches dangling in one hand and Eun-soo’s wrist held in the other, he crossed the building lobby.

Deep in the lobby, eight elevators faced each other in groups of four. There were quite a few elevators for the number of floors. He wondered if it was a company building where large items or equipment were moved.

Fortunately, the elevators were working. Do-kwon, stepping in first, pressed the floor button with a familiar motion. After hesitating for a moment, Eun-soo followed him into the elevator.

The floor Do-kwon pressed was the 8th floor of 12.

“Where is this?”

Eun-soo asked, watching the numbers climb steadily.

“Hmm…….”

Do-kwon groaned in his throat.

Eun-soo waited for an answer. But Do-kwon didn’t open his mouth. Eun-soo frowned and glared at Do-kwon. No, if you drag someone all the way here, you should tell them the reason or where it is. What was the point of blindly suggesting eating out just to do this?

Eun-soo felt a phantom sensation as if steam were puffing out from the top of his head. Just as he opened his mouth to say something, the elevator doors opened with a ‘ding.’

Do-kwon stepped out quickly. Eun-soo, whose wrist was held, had to follow as if being dragged.

The scenery outside the elevator wasn’t that unusual. It was a common office. However, it was dark, so he couldn’t tell what was what. He just thought it seemed clean and spacious. The floor was marble and white, making him think they had spent quite a bit of money.

As Eun-soo scanned the space with narrowed eyes, Do-kwon clicked a switch on the wall. Then, the dim surroundings brightened instantly.

“…….”

The office was very large. It was a space as wide as Seong-jin’s. And unlike the lobby, it was completed. Only the computers were missing; the chairs and desks were all in place.

Centered around a large oval meeting table, desks and chairs were arranged regularly, and bar-shaped lights descended from the ceiling over the desks, giving it the feel of a nice cafe.

The overall interior was white, and the panels or accents were wood-textured, with a subtle red tint that felt both natural and luxurious.

Expensive-looking large potted plants stood here and there, and long sofas or beanbags were also placed. The pantry visible in the corner looked quite nice as well.

All four walls were floor-to-ceiling windows, and one side had a cluster of large and small meeting rooms.

In a word, it was a great office.

It looked like the office of a successful venture company, or perhaps an office specializing in architecture or design; regardless, it was cool.

After taking a wide look around the spacious office, Eun-soo raised an eyebrow.

“Did you move your office, Do-kwon?”

“No, it’s not my office.”

“Then whose is it? Are you starting another business?”

Eun-soo asked again. Since he had brought him here, it must be an office related to Do-kwon. Because he wasn’t telling him properly, he couldn’t help but ask many questions.

Do-kwon licked his dry lips. He swallowed hard. The plastic sandwich bag in his hand was rustling frantically.

“Uh… it is a business, but it’s not exactly like a business…”

“……What on earth are you talking about?”

Eun-soo furrowed his brow. At that, Do-kwon took a deep breath and let it out before speaking.

“It’s a kind of public institution. The goal isn’t to generate profit, but to provide help.”

“I don’t understand. Are you talking about something like a charitable foundation? The Seong-jin Foundation already exists.”

“Ah, it’s similar to that. But it’s a bit different.”

“Exactly what? What is different?”

A hint of irritation mixed into Eun-soo’s voice. He could just say what kind of company it was, what its purpose was, and why he had brought him here. It didn’t seem like a place doing something secret or illegal. He couldn’t understand why such a smart person was beating around the bush.

Do-kwon cleared his throat. Then he looked at Eun-soo with a steady gaze.

“It’s something I’ve been preparing for a long time… it’s a project being carried out in collaboration with the Ministry of Family.”

“Collaborating on what?”

“Providing help… to pregnant women and children.”

“……What?”

Eun-soo’s eyes widened at the appearance of words he had not expected at all.

Pregnant women? Children? Providing help? Do-kwon? It wasn’t impossible, but it felt… alien.

He had seen Do-kwon donate many times. But those weren’t donations that came from the heart. They were showy donations meant for news and articles.

That’s why what he was saying now felt very strange. It would have been much easier to understand if he had said it was a business targeting pregnant women. You know, like insurance, or baby products, things like that.

Eun-soo tilted his head with a puzzled expression. Then Do-kwon rubbed his face with one hand. He then spoke with an expression as if he had made a decision. Unlike before, his sentences were fluent and clear.

“First, we provide subsidies to pregnant women. Hospital fees and postpartum care costs are a given, and we also provide subsidies so they can take taxis instead of the subway during pregnancy. The support will cover a much wider range than previous services.”

“…….”

“There are care services for unmarried pregnant women, and a service that dispatches domestic helpers for free. There is counseling for depression, and if there are problems at home, we provide temporary shelter.”

At those words, Eun-soo’s mouth hung open. It wasn’t hard to understand what Do-kwon was talking about, but he couldn’t believe that Do-kwon was the one saying it. Whether he noticed Eun-soo’s reaction or not, Do-kwon continued in a low voice.

“We also operate a separate hotline for emergencies. So that we can provide help more quickly and promptly.”

“…….”

“So that no one… loses a child due to unavoidable circumstances.”

“…….”

“It’s completely different from existing organizations or companies. We will provide help in a much more direct, active, and close-range manner.”

“…….”

“The method is simple and efficient. People lacking services, support, or internet access will visit in person through their medical records.”

“…….”

“Lectures on pregnancy, childbirth, and childcare are also provided. There’s a lot more besides that. I’m so ignorant in those areas… that I can’t remember it all. The business plan is over there, so you can look at it if you want.”

Do-kwon pointed to the thick documents lying on the main table. As if possessed by something, Eun-soo approached the table. Do-kwon pulled out a chair, telling him to sit and look. Sitting there, Eun-soo flipped through the plan with the Seong-jin Group logo prominently displayed, the text that read [‘First Season’ Project], and the documents signed by CEO Seo Do-kwon.

While Eun-soo looked through the papers, Do-kwon sat beside him and unwrapped a sandwich. He neatly laid out some cookies and opened a canned drink, inserting a straw.

Do-kwon held out the sandwich to Eun-soo. Eun-soo took it and began to nibble on it. Watching him, Do-kwon smiled contentedly.

It had been like this before.

Even when they were dating, Eun-soo strictly separated public and private life. Whenever Eun-soo skipped meals because he was too busy with work, Do-kwon would try to eat with him, even if it meant throwing a fit at Secretary Jeong. On the other hand, Eun-soo would simply send a message saying [I’m too busy to eat together today] and then go completely silent.

Then, worried sick that Eun-soo might starve to death, Do-kwon would buy and offer sandwiches. He used to sigh in relief from a distance, watching Eun-soo bite into a sandwich while his eyes remained fixed on the monitor.

Recalling those times, Do-kwon let out a small chuckle. Back then… whether Eun-soo ate or didn’t eat was the biggest worry and, simultaneously, the greatest happiness of his life.

“Whenever you were so busy you didn’t even have time to eat, you always ate this sandwich. I remembered that, so I suggested we have them.”

“…….”

“If it’s not enough, let’s buy tteokbokki on the way home.”

Do-kwon held the straw of the drink to Eun-soo’s lower lip. Eun-soo took a large sip.

It was unclear if Eun-soo was even listening to Do-kwon; he looked at the documents with a serious expression. He was reading through the densely packed text one by one. On the page regarding estimated costs, including the capital, there were so many zeros that he had to lean forward and count them.

While Eun-soo did that, Do-kwon added unnecessary comments. It was because he desperately wanted this business, this space, to look good to Eun-soo.

“A kindergarten and a kids’ cafe are moving into the lower floors. The whole building will be buzzing.”

“…….”

“And… I’m spending a lot of money to abolish the laws that force Omegas to have abortions. My mother is putting in a lot of effort as well.”

“…….”

Eun-soo responded with a slight nod. Since all his attention was focused on the documents, he barely heard Do-kwon’s words. Seeing this, Do-kwon smiled faintly. After staring at Eun-soo’s profile for a moment, he called his name in a soft voice.

“Eun-soo.”

“Yes.”

“This is a business I started… after you died. It was my own way of… atonement for Bomi.”

“…….”

At those words, Eun-soo whipped his head around to look at Do-kwon. It was because the sentence contained a word that was impossible to ignore. Anticipating this reaction, Do-kwon wore a bittersweet smile.

“All I have is money. And the only thing I can do for Bomi is spend money. But our Bomi… is no longer here. So I wanted to give the things Bomi would have enjoyed, and the things Bomi couldn’t enjoy, to other children and pregnant Omegas.”

“…….”

Eun-soo’s lips twitched. There were many things he wanted to say. Many things to argue about.

What’s the point of doing something like this? Why take care of children who have nothing to do with us? Bomi is dead anyway. No matter what you do, they won’t even know. He could have torn through Do-kwon’s heart with such cruel words.

But he didn’t. Shouting at and blaming Do-kwon, who was pouring money and time into trying to atone, would only make him feel more miserable.

So, Eun-soo decided to think positively. It was better than completely forgetting Bomi. If anyone could give birth to a child happily, that was a good thing. Anything would be better than having another child leave the world without ever seeing the light, like Bomi.

Tears and resentment brought nothing. Rather than huddling in a corner and sobbing like he had, it was better to do something, like Do-kwon. That was what his experience over the past few years had taught him.

Knowing that, the things Do-kwon had built didn’t look so bad. You were thinking of our Bomi too. The shoes you put in the study weren’t everything. You just had a different way of grieving than I did, he thought.

Setting down the sandwich, Eun-soo wiped the sauce from the tip of his thumb with a tissue.

“Is that why… you’ve been so busy lately?”

“Yeah. It’s in the final stages. There were many things I had to see and decide personally, and people to hire. Since it’s a project I started, I felt it would be rude to miss every meeting.”

“…….”

“Actually, there was no real need for me to attend. What would I… know so well about pregnant women and children?”

“…….”

“But I just wanted to show people that I’m sincere about this. That I’m paying close attention, so they’d better do a good job. A kind of threat, in a way.”

“…….”

“Honestly, I wanted to show it to you proudly when it was completely finished. When the lobby was polished and there were plenty of staff. When the project was a success. But I just couldn’t wait. You know how impatient I am.”

“…….”

“That’s why I just blurted out the proposal in the car without even a ring.”

Do-kwon wrinkled his nose as if thinking he had been an idiot.

Resting his chin on the table, Eun-soo let out a laugh. Right. That proposal had been a real surprise. Back then, they were… so happy. Bomi was in his womb, and they were overflowing with love. There was nothing to be afraid of, nothing to worry about.

How did it end up like this?

It was a question he had asked hundreds of times, yet he still hadn’t found the answer. The faint curve of Eun-soo’s lips slowly faded. He looked at Do-kwon with sunken eyes.

“Why did you want to show this to me?”

“Huh? Well…”

“Because you thought I’d like it?”

“…….”

“Or… because you thought if you showed me that you’re doing this, that you’re atoning this much, I might forgive you?”

It was a piercing observation. Eun-soo knew Do-kwon surprisingly well.

Do-kwon’s mouth hung open. The words It’s not like that hovered on the tip of his tongue. However, he lacked a reason to make excuses. What other reason could there be for stubbornly bringing Eun-soo to a place that wasn’t even finished yet? It was obvious.

Do-kwon’s pupils grew darker than before. He gave a small nod.

“Yeah. I hoped so.”

“…….”

“I hoped that maybe, just maybe, you would forgive me a little. That you would look at me kindly.”

“…….”

“It’s true that it started because of Bomi. But after I found out you were alive, I cunningly thought only about using this project to win your favor.”

Eun-soo let out a hollow laugh. He hadn’t expected Do-kwon to be ashamed of having his inner thoughts exposed, but he was flabbergasted by how confident he was. As Eun-soo brushed back his bangs with the hand that had been supporting his chin, Do-kwon added something that didn’t need to be said.

“I know I’m a shameless bastard, so I won’t bother lying.”

“…Yes, well.”

Eun-soo replied half-heartedly. A shameless bastard. It was a truly excellent expression. Strangely, the fact that Do-kwon seemed to know himself so well made Eun-soo’s heart soften a bit.

Eun-soo sucked on the straw in the carbonated drink. One eye squinted at the stinging bubbles. Just as he reached out to eat the sandwich again, Do-kwon’s low voice resonated softly in his ear.

“Still, I’m sorry.”

“…….”

Eun-soo snapped his gaze toward Do-kwon. The man who had called himself a shameless bastard had vanished; Do-kwon was looking down at the floor with his head bowed low.

“Eun-soo, I keep… hoping. I think I’ll probably keep hoping in the future, too.”

“…….”

“I keep feeling this thirst. I want to stand by your side, and once I’m there, I want to hold your hand, and hold you.”

“…….”

“I try not to, but it doesn’t go as my heart wishes.”

Do-kwon clenched his fist tightly. Veins bulged over the back of his broad hand. He rubbed his shoe against the floor as if pressing down on it. Then, he slowly raised his head and met Eun-soo’s eyes.

“I can’t help it because you’re the only reason I live.”

“…….”

“I’m sorry.”

There wasn’t a hint of hesitation in Do-kwon’s eyes. He was acting selfishly, but his apology seemed sincere. Eun-soo let out a long sigh and picked up the sandwich.

“Forget it. We both know by now. Whether you apologize and I accept it or ignore it, nothing changes.”

“…….”

“If I say, ‘Fine, I’ll accept your apology, just don’t expect anything from now on,’ will you stop expecting? You’ll just do it again.”

“That’s true, but…”

Do-kwon’s voice trailed off. Eun-soo waved his hand as if to tell him to stop. Regardless of everything, this was clearly a good place and would continue to do good work. That was definitely a good thing.

And… he had received confirmation that Do-kwon’s interest in him had not cooled, so that was enough for today. Hearing that he was still the center of Do-kwon’s world, that he was such a significant existence to him, made him feel a bit proud.

Today, whether Do-kwon hoped for something or did something else, he could forgive it all. He wanted to push other worries off to tomorrow.

Eun-soo took a large bite of the sandwich. The crunch of the lettuce and cucumber somehow made him feel even better. I should eat quickly and have the cookies too. I’ll buy tteokbokki on the way home. I think something spicy would be good today. While Eun-soo focused on his late meal with those thoughts, Do-kwon spoke up again tentatively.

“Actually, there’s another reason I brought you here.”

“What?”

Eun-soo asked back, mumbling with his cheeks puffed out. Looking exactly like a hamster, he made Do-kwon let out a chuckle. Wiping the sauce from the corner of Eun-soo’s mouth with his thumb, Do-kwon spoke.

“I want you… to be the design team leader here.”

“…….”

Eun-soo’s jaw, which had been moving busily, stopped dead. His eyelashes shot up, and his lips froze in a small circle. Worried that he might choke, Do-kwon gently rubbed Eun-soo’s back and said,

“It’s not like I know any other designers besides you. We’ll be making a website and an app, posters and pamphlets… there’s a lot to design, and I can’t just hire anyone.”

“…….”

“So I was wondering if you’d like to do it…”

Eun-soo blinked slowly. He couldn’t understand what Do-kwon was saying. In response to Eun-soo’s absolute silence, Do-kwon coaxed him gently.

“You’ll do great, Eun-soo. You’re talented.”

“…….”

“No one here will butt in regarding the design. Because there are no clients. If you approve it, that’s the design that goes out.”

“…….”

Eun-soo didn’t respond. He just stared blankly at Do-kwon with an expression that said he didn’t understand at all. Do-kwon licked his lower lip twice in a row.

“The staff are all Beta women or Omegas. There isn’t a single Alpha. Because there’s no need for one.”

“…….”

“Of course, if you hate the idea… I’ll hire someone else… but still, I want you to do it.”

Do-kwon grew anxious. He desperately wanted Eun-soo to work at this company. Although he had told Eun-soo that it was okay to work anywhere, he was actually worried sick.

There were so many strange companies. And even more strange people and bosses. It would be a disaster if Eun-soo went to a place like that and got hurt.

It wouldn’t be hard for him to use his money and power to tear down a company and punish the bad people, but even then, what about the wounds and stress Eun-soo would have already suffered?

It was a situation where he should be treating the precious Eun-soo like royalty, but if someone worked him too hard, made him do overtime, or didn’t even feed him properly, Do-kwon felt like he would lose his mind.

That’s why it had to be here. This place was close to the Seong-jin headquarters where he was, and close to home. There were no Alphas among the staff, and the interviews had been extremely rigorous. The benefits were at the same level as Seong-jin, and he had paid extra attention to the cafeteria.

Moreover, it was a company he could fully control. If Eun-soo was given too much work, he could subtly apply pressure, and if any problems arose, he could solve them himself.

In other words, it was the perfect working environment for both him and Eun-soo.

At Do-kwon’s desperate gaze, Eun-soo slowly opened his mouth.

“Uh…”

However, what came out wasn’t an answer, but a groan of contemplation. For a while after that, Eun-soo continued to hum in his throat—mm… hmmm, mmm… Do-kwon felt his mouth go dry, as if his blood were condensing. He felt as if his body were flattening like a piece of paper. One of his legs trembled nervously.

Glancing at Eun-soo’s reaction, Do-kwon let out a short exclamation.

“I’ll pay you a lot.”

“Huh?”

Eun-soo raised an eyebrow in disbelief. Do-kwon spread his arms and spoke clearly.

“I’m serious. I’ll pay you more than when you were at Seong-jin. Double.”

“Double that would be almost 200 million won. This is a support project, and you’re giving a salary of 200 million? What, are you planning to pay from your own pocket, Do-kwon?”

“Why wouldn’t I?”

Do-kwon bragged as if it were no problem at all. Whether it was 100 million or 200 million. If Eun-soo wanted it, he could give him 500 million or a billion. It wouldn’t even be hard to give him the entire building.

Spending money as a condition to keep Eun-soo by his side was the most trivial and cheapest method for Do-kwon.

“…….”

Eun-soo let out a series of hollow laughs. There was nothing more foolish than mentioning money in front of Do-kwon. He just couldn’t get used to it. Every time he heard it, it wasn’t just absurd; it was appalling.

After a few more seconds of silence, Eun-soo picked up a cookie and spoke.

“Honestly, it’s tempting. I was thinking I should look for a job anyway.”

“…Really?”

“Yes. A design team leader with no clients. That’s the best.”

The fact that there were no clients meant that all decision-making power rested with Eun-soo. He wouldn’t have to deduce what was meant by phrases like make it flashy but clean, bright and simple, a bit paler, more organized, a bit cooler, something like…

As far as design jobs went, it couldn’t be better. It was no different from being a shop owner who got a salary without having any customers. Even if he returned to Seong-jin, he wouldn’t receive this kind of treatment. There, he would have had to get the ‘OK’ sign from the relevant department instead of a client.

But still, saying I’ll start working immediately felt a bit off. No matter how he looked at it, this was a position Do-kwon had created for him, and it felt shameless to jump into it just because the conditions were good.

No, but maybe it’s okay to accept this much. I’m the one who quit that great company and lived pretending to be dead.

Eun-soo’s eyes moved slowly from side to side. His lips parted as if to say something, but no words came out. Unable to wait any longer, Do-kwon urged him.

“Then do it. Why are you hesitating?”

“Still… it’s just…”

“What else can I do for you? What else will make you say yes?”

Do-kwon pulled his chair closer and sat right next to Eun-soo. He stared at Eun-soo with wide eyes. His determination to grant anything Eun-soo asked for was boiling over.

The employer was clearly Do-kwon and the employee was Eun-soo, but the situation where Do-kwon was practically begging was truly strange. Eun-soo laughed silently at the sight. He couldn’t even ask for something as a joke. Because if he asked for the kidney inside Do-kwon’s body, he felt Do-kwon would nod without hesitation.

Eun-soo bit into a cookie. The sweet and chewy chocolate cookie was delicious. He ate the entire cookie very slowly. Then, picking up a raspberry cookie, he asked.

“When should I start working?”

* * *

The start date was set for next week. Like all firsts, Eun-soo spent his days half-expecting and half-anxious. Sitting in front of the computer in the study, his hand clicked and moved incessantly.

There was more to prepare for the first day of work than he had thought. No matter how much Do-kwon had pushed him into the position, he didn’t want to do the work carelessly.

So, he studied and spent time exploring various newly updated design programs. While reading the business plan, he tried to visualize the color palettes and primary design frameworks in his head.

Then, it suddenly hit him—he had nothing to wear for work.

Since Eun-soo worked in design, he put a great deal of effort into his fashion. While he couldn’t dress as flashily as a celebrity, he still tried to dress according to the season, ensuring he didn’t wear the same outfit twice in a week. He had an interest in new arrivals and enjoyed zoning out while watching fashion magazines or fashion shows.

But how long had it been since he last bought clothes?

In the past, he had made it a point to visit the department store once a month. However, after being discharged from the hospital, he hadn’t shown any interest in it. He had simply piled up basic, versatile clothes that could be worn anytime and rotated through them. He had no one to show them to, nor did he have the mental leeway to care about such things.

Of course, the clothes he wore to the office weren’t for the sake of showing off to others. It was simply a matter of personal satisfaction—an attitude. An attitude that showed how seriously he took this profession and this job. Moreover, since he held the position of team leader, he couldn’t help but be more mindful.

Besides, doesn’t buying clothes make one feel good? Aside from unavoidable expenses—hospital bills or taxes, for instance—there was nothing as joyful as buying something for himself. Eun-soo had forgotten that pleasure for a very long time.

Since Do-kwon said he would provide a generous salary, maybe he should go shopping today.

He’d buy suits, some casual shirts for light wear, and accessories including a watch and shoes. He planned to roam the department store until the soles of his feet felt hot.

After shutting down the computer, Eun-soo stood up with an excited look on his face. Just as he was about to enter the dressing room, he came to a sudden halt.

…Should he tell Do-kwon?

Eun-soo scratched under his chin. Do-kwon had told him he could go out freely, but if he really started coming and going without a single word, Do-kwon might have a fit.

The image of Do-kwon flashed before his eyes—the man who had rushed down the stairs with a look of utter shock upon finding him missing from the bed in the dead of night, and whose face had turned pale as if he’d seen a ghost when he discovered Eun-soo standing at the entrance.

After pondering for a moment, Eun-soo turned back and entered the bedroom. He then began searching for his phone, which he had lived as if forgetting existed.

Do-kwon must have put it somewhere…

Eun-soo rummaged through drawers, lifted pillows, checked the sofa, and searched under the bed. But in the end, he couldn’t find the phone.

Pouting, Eun-soo headed back to the study. He found his tablet and pressed Do-kwon’s number. It was a number he hadn’t dialed once since two years ago, yet it felt as familiar as if he had dialed it this morning.

When he pressed the call button, the screen changed and the ringing sound—ring, ring—began. Since it was a tablet, the call automatically switched to the speaker, causing the ringing to echo loudly throughout the study.

Eun-soo perched on the desk, waiting for Do-kwon’s voice. But the electronic sound suddenly cut off. There was no polite automated message saying the call couldn’t be connected; it just stopped. The other party had pressed the end-call button.

Eun-soo glared at the tablet screen as if it were spiteful.

“I mean, why isn’t he picking up…”

Is he busy? He knew Do-kwon was working, but being rejected felt irritating for some reason. It reminded him of the time when Do-kwon, having lost his memory, had ignored his calls countless times.

Pressing his lips tight, Eun-soo dialed again. If he didn’t answer this time, he planned to just leave a message and head out.

After about ten rings, a low voice finally flowed through, unlike before.

-What is with all these calls?

Eun-soo caught his breath at the sharp tone. It had been so long since he’d heard such rude and overbearing words. He couldn’t bring himself to speak. He was frightened. Two years ago, he had heard this voice and this tone of speech countless times. The voice that had criticized and sneered at him.

Stiff and frozen, Eun-soo belatedly snapped back to his senses. Fearing the call might be cut off, he exhaled his held breath and hurriedly spoke.

-…Eun-soo?

Do-kwon called his name first. Eun-soo’s eyes widened at the sudden call. He felt like he’d been caught while playing hide-and-seek. How did he know? Thinking it might be a video call, he looked at the tablet screen, but it wasn’t. Eun-soo’s brow furrowed slightly.

“…How did you know it was me just by the sound of my breathing?”

-I just know. Because it’s you.

Do-kwon answered with a low chuckle. Eun-soo pulled his chin in and frowned. If this situation had happened while they were dating, he would have been touched. He probably would have splashed around on the bed, saying that Do-kwon even knew the sound of his breathing.

But now, it was a bit… scary. What the… How does he know my breathing… That’s weird… It was that kind of feeling.

Goosebumps rose along his spine, and as Eun-soo shivered, Do-kwon asked.

-What number is this?

“It’s my tablet. I couldn’t find my phone…”

-Ah. I see. Is something wrong?

“I’m going shopping.”

-…Shopping?

“Yes. Come to think of it, I don’t have any clothes to wear for work. So I’m heading out, but I thought… if I’m not home… you might be… surprised…”

Eun-soo trailed off. Now that he’d said it, it felt strange. Calling in advance because he thought Do-kwon might be surprised. It made it seem like he cared far too much about Do-kwon. He should have just left a message.

Eun-soo wrinkled his nose, blaming his impulsive fingers. Feeling embarrassed, he started to say, “Then I’ll hang up,” but—

-I’ll go with you. I’m coming now. I can be there in 30 minutes. Wait at home.

Do-kwon spoke urgently. Then, the sound of movement followed. The rustle of clothes, the jingle of car keys, and the distant voice of a horrified Secretary Jeong trying to stop him could be heard.

Eun-soo laughed silently, the scene vividly imaginable. He thought to himself that Secretary Jeong was still enduring a difficult professional life.

“No, it’s okay. I can go by myself.”

-I’ll be there really fast. Just a little, just wait a little bit.

Do-kwon spoke desperately. It wasn’t like he was doing something grand without him. He was just going shopping alone; he didn’t understand why Do-kwon was being this desperate.

As Eun-soo let out a humming sound in his throat, the ‘ding’ of an elevator sounded over the receiver. It seemed Do-kwon had already left the director’s office and was standing in front of the elevator.

-Ah, Director! You can’t do this!

Secretary Jeong’s scream was also audible. Eun-soo let out a hollow laugh. Do-kwon didn’t even pretend to hear Secretary Jeong’s scream. He was probably waving his hand with an expressionless face as if telling him to get lost, while repeatedly pressing the elevator’s close button.

Indeed, after a few seconds, Secretary Jeong’s voice was cut off. Eun-soo, who had been dangling his feet under the desk, spoke slowly.

“Do-kwon.”

-I’ll be there in 10 minutes. So…

“Have you seen my phone?”

-…Huh?

“I can’t find it anywhere. Did I… leave it at the gallery?”

-….

“You haven’t seen it either, right?”

-Uh… I… haven’t. Let’s buy a new one today.

“…Right. I should buy one.”

Eun-soo ended the call after saying he would wait in front of the apartment. Then, as he headed to the dressing room, he clicked his tongue.

“He must have thrown it away, he must have.”

He definitely threw it away. Why would anyone throw away a perfectly good phone? He really is a strange person.

Eun-soo was the type to be cautious when buying clothes. Even for a single item, he examined it thoroughly and considered if it would match the clothes he already owned. He didn’t care much about the price, which actually made choosing harder. It widened the range of options significantly.

Eun-soo decided to buy shirts first. It was easier to pick pants or jackets once the basics were sorted.

At a brand characterized by school-uniform-like designs, he picked out about five straight-fit Oxford cotton shirts in different designs. After examining them, he decided to buy only the three he liked most. He didn’t pick any jackets or pants. He didn’t particularly prefer the style here, where ankles were exposed, like in cropped pants.

Instead, he bought a couple of short-sleeved t-shirts and a shirt-jacket with a neat yet boxy design.

By the time he finished choosing, he had spent over an hour in a single store. He felt rushed because the department store’s closing time was approaching. It had already been past 6 PM when he met Do-kwon in front of the apartment.

When staying home, one’s sense of date, as well as time, becomes blurred. He only realized the department store closed at 8 PM upon arriving. One might think, ‘You can just come back tomorrow, why is buying clothes such an emergency?’ but since he was already there, he wanted to buy as much as possible.

Having decided on the next brand in his head, Eun-soo stood at the checkout counter. Two clerks were meticulously packaging the clothes he had chosen. As Eun-soo took out his card, an employee wearing a store manager’s name tag smiled and said, “You can just go.”

“…”

Eun-soo blinked rapidly at those words. To just go without paying? He wondered if Do-kwon had paid, but Do-kwon had been stuck to his side the entire time he was picking clothes. Moreover, there was no way clothes that cost a million won per shirt were free. In the end, the only person who could make this possible was Do-kwon.

“…Do-kwon.”

Eun-soo called Do-kwon in a voice that sounded like a growl. Most likely, everything Eun-soo bought today would be totaled and billed to Do-kwon’s name later. Payment my foot; he wouldn’t even get to see the receipt. He had a history of this happening when they were dating.

“…”

Do-kwon, standing beside Eun-soo, slowly turned his head the other way. Eun-soo tugged on Do-kwon’s sleeve and whispered.

“When did I ever ask you to buy me clothes?”

“No, you never did.”

“Then what is this?”

“Well… I just thought there was no need for you to spend your own money when I’m right here.”

“Huh?”

“And it’s not like I spent the money myself. It’s just because I’m acquainted with the owner of this department store.”

Do-kwon, who had switched his concept back to ‘shameless bastard’ in an instant, spoke nonchalantly. A deep furrow formed between Eun-soo’s eyebrows. He irritably let go of Do-kwon’s sleeve.

“Of course you are, right? Because this is Seong-jin Department Store? I believe the owner is your aunt.”

“…”

Do-kwon’s mouth shut in a straight line. His eyes held a look of longing. He was touched that Eun-soo still knew so much about him. Unaware of Do-kwon’s inner thoughts, Eun-soo clenched and then released his jaw.

“This is exactly why I said I’d go to a different department store!”

He had suspected this from the moment he saw Seong-jin Department Store, but he didn’t think it would actually happen. He glared at Do-kwon with eyes brimming with unfairness and irritation. This took away the fun of spending money. Shopping is all about the thrill of swiping the card. Whether he swiped a million won or ten million won against Do-kwon’s trillions in assets, would it even leave a trace?

He really is hateful. Truly hateful.

Just then, the clerk handed over three paper bags. Do-kwon reached out, but Eun-soo grabbed them slightly faster. He gave a short nod of acknowledgment to the clerks and strode out of the store.

Do-kwon hurriedly caught up to him with his long legs. He looked anxiously at the paper bags in Eun-soo’s hand. To an outsider, it might have looked like he suspected there was a bomb inside the bags.

“I’ll carry them, Eun-soo.”

“They’re not heavy.”

“Still, let me carry them.”

“I said they’re not heavy.”

“Your wrist isn’t in good shape. The doctor told you to be careful. Let me carry them.”

The trivial bickering continued. The conclusion ended in Do-kwon’s victory—a victory brought about by Eun-soo’s surrender. Eun-soo knew very well that he couldn’t beat Do-kwon’s stubbornness in these matters. In fact, the physical therapist he saw every weekend had told him not to overstrain his wrist.

With a heavy sigh, Eun-soo handed over the paper bags. Do-kwon quickly took them. Then, he beamed with a smile, as if something were wonderful.

Eun-soo shook his head and looked away. He was debating whether to just go home or visit another brand when he suddenly realized the department store was excessively quiet. There wasn’t a single person in the wide corridor. It was so quiet that he could hear the sound of the central fountain in the distance.

“Why are there no people…”

Because… Before Eun-soo could finish his sentence, he looked at Do-kwon. Do-kwon replied with an indifferent face.

“It’s closing time. That’s probably why.”

“…Then why are we here at closing time?”

“Because we’re people who aren’t affected by closing times.”

Eun-soo rubbed his face at the utterly shameless remark. Every time this happened, he became acutely aware, ‘Ah, I’m dating a chaebol.’ Of course, he was only aware of it; he hadn’t adapted yet.

As Eun-soo pondered whether to continue today’s completely ruined shopping trip or not—

“Eun-soo. Look, that’s a brand that just came in from New York. You said you liked it when we went to New York last time. Let’s go.”

Do-kwon pointed to a brand with a concrete and silver interior and gently pushed Eun-soo’s back. After hesitating, Eun-soo let out a hot huff of breath.

Since it had come to this, he decided he might as well try to put a dent in Do-kwon’s fortune.

* * *

Lying on his side in bed, Eun-soo glanced at the clock. 1:31 AM. He had lain down at 11 PM, and two hours had already flown by. Eun-soo sighed through his nose and pulled the duvet up to his shoulders.

Tomorrow was his first day of work. According to Do-kwon, the company was formed by absorbing an organization that had already been doing related work, so 80% of the employees were experienced and knew each other. He said they would help Eun-soo adjust well, but that didn’t make the anxiety disappear.

It’s only human to lose sleep even when transferring schools during student days, so how much more so for a first day of work? It would have been less burdensome if he were just a regular employee. But what if he fumbled while going in as a team leader? If he’d known it would be like this, he should have asked Do-kwon to let him go as a regular employee.

Eun-soo sighed again and slowly rolled over to the other side. Then, Do-kwon, who had been sitting on the sofa like a gatekeeper today as well, asked in a low voice.

“Can’t you sleep?”

“…No.”

“Do you want a glass of wine?”

“No. I don’t want to go to work after drinking.”

“Then should I warm up some milk for you?”

Eun-soo shook his head. He felt like if he put anything in his mouth, even if it were just air, he would get indigestion. At Eun-soo’s repeated refusals, Do-kwon’s brow furrowed. He seemed to be contemplating what he could do for him.

Eun-soo curled his fingers like hooks and scratched at the duvet. Then, suddenly, a pheromone scented candle standing on one side of the bookshelf caught his eye. It had been left by a counselor who had visited Do-kwon’s house once.

Seeing it, a way to fall asleep without alcohol or medicine flashed through his mind.

Eun-soo licked his lower lip. Then, he spoke softly.

“Um…”

“…”

Do-kwon focused on Eun-soo’s words without even blinking. Feeling burdened by that gaze for no reason, Eun-soo lowered his eyes and mumbled.

“Pheromones… just a little… if…”

I think I could sleep. The last part was so quiet that even Eun-soo could barely hear it. But Do-kwon seemed to have heard it perfectly. The corners of his mouth curled up into a smirk. Setting down the tablet he was holding, he asked in a voice as small as Eun-soo’s.

“Can I come beside you?”

“…”

After hesitating for a moment, Eun-soo nodded. As if he had been waiting, Do-kwon stood up and climbed onto the bed. He lay down long beside Eun-soo. Tense, Eun-soo stiffened like a log and stared at the ceiling as if trying to pierce through it.

On the other hand, Do-kwon, looking completely relaxed, moved Eun-soo’s pillow and took its place. Supporting Eun-soo’s head with one thick arm, Do-kwon wrapped his other arm around Eun-soo’s waist and pulled him closer. In an instant, Eun-soo was sucked into Do-kwon’s embrace. Eun-soo’s cheek pressed firmly against Do-kwon’s solid chest.

Startled, Eun-soo’s eyes widened.

“I just meant the pheromones…”

“I know. I just tried hugging you sneakily.”

“…”

The words ‘crazy bastard’ naturally came to mind. Just as he opened his mouth to say it out loud rather than just swallowing it, Do-kwon’s pheromones instantly conquered the surroundings.

“Ah…”

Eun-soo’s eyes grew languid. His eyelids felt heavy, and his clear pupils became clouded. The muscles that had been rigid with tension melted away. The bed felt as soft as a cloud, as if his body were being pulled deep inside.

Watching Eun-soo succumb to the pheromones, Do-kwon tidied the disheveled duvet. Then, he gently stroked Eun-soo’s shoulder and upper arm over the blanket.

Eun-soo was a sensitive sleeper. Because of his dark past, there were times even when they were dating when he couldn’t fall asleep easily and tossed and turned. In those moments, Do-kwon would hold Eun-soo and release pheromones, just as he was doing now.

Eun-soo blinked a few times and then finally closed his eyes. His thick eyelashes rested neatly against his cheeks. Do-kwon buried his nose in Eun-soo’s hair. Eun-soo’s scent flooded deep into his lungs. It was ecstatic. An elegant and sweet fragrance.

After savoring Eun-soo’s scent for a long while, Do-kwon murmured in his characteristic low bass.

“You’ll do great.”

“…….”

“It’s what you’re best at, after all.”

“…….”

Eun-soo gave a slight nod. It wasn’t that he agreed with the statement that he was the best; it was simply a sign that he was listening. Do-kwon continued to whisper in a low voice into Eun-soo’s ear.

“If anyone says anything, I’ll just cut them off. I’ll put them on a blacklist so they can’t work anywhere else, sue them—I’ll do everything I possibly can.”

“…….”

“I’ll keep cutting and cutting until everyone is gone and only you are left, then I’ll just change the company name to Yoo Eun-soo’s Company.”

At those words, Eun-soo let out a faint laugh. Do-kwon, on the other hand, did not smile. It wasn’t a comment made as a trivial joke. Do-kwon carefully brushed Eun-soo’s hair back with his fingertips. The hair that slid back so smoothly was lovely. And the pheromone scent that wafted faintly every time it fluttered was wondrous.

“So don’t worry.”

“…….”

“You have me.”

“…….”

“I’ll be by your side, behind you, and beneath you. Anytime, anywhere, always.”

Do-kwon spoke each word slowly and with great care. Eun-soo answered by rubbing his forehead against Do-kwon’s chest. It was neither an affirmation nor a denial, but to Do-kwon, it was a more than sufficient answer.

Do-kwon released his pheromones more densely. Eun-soo seemed to take a deep breath, and soon his head slid to the side. Do-kwon smiled faintly.

“Sleep well, Eun-soo.”

“…….”

“I love you.”

Do-kwon’s sincere confession settled cozily over the bed.

* * *

Eun-soo moved busily. He took great care with his shower and put on a fresh pair of underwear. He put on the clothes he had picked out yesterday and looked in the mirror, muttering, “Ah, first impressions are important. Should I dress more neatly?” In the end, he rummaged through his clothes and changed into something that wasn’t too static yet wasn’t too free-spirited.

By the time he finished, there was less than an hour left before he had to leave for work. Startled, Eun-soo hurriedly grabbed the hairdryer. However, it had been so long since he’d styled his hair that it wouldn’t listen to him at all.

As a result, hair styling that would normally take less than ten minutes took a full twenty. Eun-soo sighed, twisting his stiff forearms and shoulders. Still, the result was quite satisfying, so the time spent wasn’t a waste.

With a wide grin, Eun-soo grabbed his jacket and left the dressing room. With a short knock, the door opened. It was Do-kwon, dressed in a perfectly tailored suit, unlike Eun-soo.

Do-kwon had decided that since Eun-soo was starting work, he would also report to Seong-jin as usual. This was because Eun-soo had wanted it. Since Eun-soo wouldn’t be home anyway, there was no reason for Do-kwon to stay.

“Eun-soo, did you eat breakfas—”

Do-kwon stopped mid-sentence and shut his mouth. His black pupils stared intently at Eun-soo. Eun-soo shook his head.

“I don’t have time to eat. I probably wouldn’t be able to eat well anyway. I feel like I’ll get indigestion if I eat anything. Do-kwon, you should eat alone—”

“You… pushed your bangs up?”

Do-kwon spoke softly, staring at Eun-soo’s exposed forehead. The fine hair was neatly swept diagonally, revealing Eun-soo’s round forehead. A forehead as white and smooth as soft tofu. Beyond that, the gentle curve of his eyebrows and his pale temples were also visible.

Do-kwon’s brow furrowed slightly. At that expression, Eun-soo fumbled to touch his own forehead.

“…Is it strange? I thought a neat first impression would be better…”

“No. It’s not strange. It’s just that seeing it after a while… makes me realize all over again how handsome you are.”

“Ugh… what are you talking about? Anyway, I’m not eating breakfast. I think it’s better to leave early.”

Shuddering, Eun-soo brushed past Do-kwon and left the room. Do-kwon followed closely behind him.

“Should I go to work with you?”

“Go out together? Yes, sure.”

“No. I mean go with you. I can introduce myself while I’m there and subtly give them a hint not to mess with you.”

“…Are you serious?”

Eun-soo’s footsteps stopped abruptly as he descended the stairs. He tilted his head back and looked up at Do-kwon. At this, Do-kwon swallowed hard. Early morning Eun-soo sparkled a bit more than usual. It was even more so because his forehead was fully exposed.

His skin was exceptionally bright, and his cheeks, flushed with tension, were rosy. His lips were bright red and swollen, as if he had been biting them in anxiety. And beyond the scent of shower cologne, his pheromones were blooming brilliantly.

Do-kwon’s eyes darkened. An impure desire surged up his spine. Still, Do-kwon managed to suppress it. He swallowed hard again.

“If I’m serious, would you hate it? Then I won’t.”

“…Please. Don’t do that. Even elementary school students these days transfer schools alone. Alone.”

It’s not like Do-kwon is some overbearing parent. Eun-soo shook his head and finished walking down the stairs. Do-kwon followed him.

“Then I’ll just drop you off.”

“…Just drop me off?”

“Yeah. I won’t go inside the building. I’ll drop you off and then head to my office.”

“…….”

Eun-soo stared at Do-kwon, trying to discern if his words were true or false. Do-kwon gave a beaming smile. His face, which was handsome but somewhat cold, instantly became bright.

“…Alright, then.”

Eun-soo nodded reluctantly.

Do-kwon’s car arrived in front of the white building. Looking out the window, Eun-soo took deep breaths. Had he been this nervous when he first started at Seong-jin? No, back then, the excitement had been greater. He had beamed with a silly grin at the glittering, massive building.

But today, he was only about a thumbnail’s worth of excited. On the other hand, his worries were as high as a mountain.

“Thanks for the ride.”

After a brief greeting, Eun-soo tried to open the car door. Do-kwon called out, “Eun-soo.” Eun-soo turned to look at him. With his fingers hooked on the steering wheel, Do-kwon’s lips parted.

“In the breakroom.”

“…What? The breakroom?”

“There will be cookies you like. Eat some if you’re hungry.”

Eun-soo blinked at the sudden remark. Cookies I like, in the breakroom. What were those again? After thinking for a moment, Eun-soo’s mouth fell open.

“…You put hotel cookies in the breakroom?”

Those cookies that cost 80,000 won a tin? Why on earth? For what reason? As a bewildered Eun-soo stammered, Do-kwon added with a calm face.

“Yeah. And there are roasted chestnuts, macarons, and orange juice. There’s ice cream in the freezer, too. I wanted to put tteokbokki there, but Secretary Jeong said that was too much.”

“Yeah… that would be too much…”

Way too much… It’s not like the breakroom is a buffet… It feels like I should pay a 30,000 won entrance fee every time I go in…

Eun-soo wiped his face with his hands. Suddenly, he wondered if he had joined the wrong company. He had thought Do-kwon’s influence would be strong since it was a company Do-kwon created, but he hadn’t imagined he would reach into something as trivial as the breakroom.

“If you were going to do that, you should have just brought in a hotel bakery.”

Eun-soo spoke with a hint of sarcasm. However, contrary to his intention, Do-kwon’s eyes sparkled.

“Should I?”

“…No. I misspoke. I’m going.”

Eun-soo shook his head. Then, fearing Do-kwon would drop another bombshell, he quickly got out of the car.

Tsk-tsking, Eun-soo entered the building. Since the building was still half-empty, there weren’t many people in the lobby. Pressing the elevator button, Eun-soo repeated Do-kwon’s words in his head.

Hotel cookies in the breakroom. Macarons were already pushing it, but he even tried to put in tteokbokki. He couldn’t tell if this was a dream workplace or a nightmare.

Eun-soo tsked again. Just then, the elevator arrived. Eun-soo stepped inside.

The tension that had dominated his entire body had vanished before he knew it.

“Team Leader Yoo. See you tomorrow!”

“Yes, see you tomorrow, Dong-min.”

“Team Leader Yoo, great job today.”

“Yes, great job to you too, Ha-yoon.”

“Team Leader Yoo, get home safely!”

“Yes, you too, Seo-young.”

Eun-soo nodded continuously, exchanging greetings with his team members. The four of them parted ways in the lobby with bright faces. They had just finished a short meeting at the first-floor cafe to build rapport before heading home. Eun-soo smiled as he watched them head toward the underground parking lot.

He was called a Team Leader, but he only had three team members. One male Omega and two female Betas. Unlike when he was at Seong-jin, it was a very close-knit team, which made it even better. It was easy to adjust, easy to memorize names, and easy to become friendly.

In just one day, Eun-soo had developed a very intimate relationship with them. He felt he could get even closer when he went back tomorrow. He would also get that much busier. He had to start creating the webpages in earnest and make promotional materials for internet pop-ups and banners.

Leaving the company, Eun-soo loosened his suffocating tie and put it in his bag. He could see a deep sunset rolling in between the tall buildings. Although it was summer, a fairly cool breeze blew gently.

“Hmm…”

Should I walk home? It would take 30 to 40 minutes, but he felt good and wanted to walk a bit. He thought it would be perfect to get home, take a cool shower, and go to bed early.

I wonder when Do-kwon will finish work. I should tell him I enjoyed the cookies in the breakroom. Still, he should probably be scolded a bit for piling up cookies with short expiration dates in the cupboard.

Eun-soo walked, swinging his bag back and forth. The sound of his shoes echoing on the neat pavement was incredibly pleasant.

After walking for about ten minutes, a familiar street appeared. It was Teheran-ro. The Seong-jin Group building was visible not far away. The skyscraper soaring high into the sky was as large and imposing as ever.

“…….”

Eun-soo’s mouth hung open. For no reason, goosebumps rose on his arms. He had been thinking it was hot because he was walking in summer, but suddenly his body cooled down as if he had been drenched in ice water.

Memories he had kept buried resurfaced. Himself getting off the subway while clutching his swollen belly, himself scurrying into the company, Seong-heon’s smirk, Do-kwon smelling of cigarettes, Secretary Jeong smiling at him with pity.

Eun-soo looked around. People were pouring out of the company. He hurriedly turned back. He was afraid someone might recognize him.

Quite some time had passed, but hadn’t there been many articles? The news had talked about it for a long time, and he heard Myeong-hui had held a large press conference.

So, if no one else did, the employees of Seong-jin would recognize Eun-soo. The Omega Team Leader who dated the company director. The Omega Team Leader who was almost victimized by the company’s executive director. The Omega Team Leader whose whereabouts became unknown afterward.

If they met, they would definitely be surprised. They would whisper, and his forgotten name might circulate through the company again. He’s back. I saw him around here. Is he returning to the company? He’s the victim, but still… things like that would probably be said.

Pale, Eun-soo began to retrace his steps. It was the opposite direction of Do-kwon’s house, but he had no room to think about that. First, get away. Get as far away as possible. Hide in a place where no one knows him.

As Eun-soo walked quickly, his breath grew labored, and suddenly the inner pocket of his jacket vibrated. He jumped in surprise, his shoulders twitching. His chest felt tight because he had forgotten to breathe.

Stiff as a board, Eun-soo belatedly pulled out his phone at the second vibration. Do-kwon’s name was on the screen. Staring at it blankly, Eun-soo swallowed through his dry throat. Then, he pressed the call button.

“Hell… hello?”

Eun-soo. Are you finished with work?

“…Yes.”

Where are you? Did you leave the office?

“No. I’m at the office. I’m… I’m about to leave now.”

Eun-soo slowly continued the lie. Office, my foot. He was on a street with cars zooming past. Fearing Do-kwon might hear the traffic, Eun-soo covered the bottom of the phone with his hand.

He didn’t know why he was lying. He hadn’t done anything wrong, and there was nothing to be ashamed of. He just… just didn’t want to be caught. He wanted to hide. Even though it was Do-kwon, who knew everything about him.

Should I come pick you up?

“…No. I’ll take a taxi.”

I can be there quickly.

“It’s okay. I’ll… see you at home.”

Alright.

For once, Do-kwon backed down easily. The call ended. Eun-soo put the phone back in his jacket and started walking again. However, he stopped before he could even take five steps. Then, he suddenly turned and entered a narrow alley between buildings. It was an alley filled with cigarette butts and stained paper cups.

Having gone deep into the alley, Eun-soo crouched down under a flowerbed where cigarette butts bloomed like flowers. Let’s just stay like this for a moment. Just 3 minutes, no, 5 minutes. Or… maybe an hour or two. It’ll be fine if I leave when most people have finished work and the streets are empty.

Eun-soo bit his lip. He didn’t know why he was acting like such an idiot.

He had spent the whole day well, so why suddenly now? How could it be so out of the blue? Neither Seong-heon nor Do-kwon, the starting points of his nightmares, were here. To think his trauma would flare up out of nowhere on the street.

Eun-soo wiped his forehead with the back of his hand. His whole body trembled with an inexplicable chill, yet cold sweat beaded on his forehead. It was a bad sign. If he didn’t quickly escape this strange and depressing atmosphere, he might fall into a deep abyss.

He could never build an immunity to being hit by fragments of the past that arrived without warning. That’s why he often fell and coughed up blood, attacked by those intrusions.

Closing his eyes tightly, Eun-soo took urgent deep breaths. Then, a jacket filled with warm heat settled over his shoulders. At the same time, a familiar scent enveloped Eun-soo’s entire body.

It was Do-kwon’s pheromones.

No way… how… Eun-soo snapped his head up. Do-kwon, who had approached silently, was standing beside him. Eun-soo looked up at Do-kwon with disbelief.

“…Do-kwon?”

“Why are you here like this?”

Do-kwon asked in a gentle voice. Eun-soo stared at him blankly. Looking up from below, Do-kwon felt exceptionally large and tall, almost unreal.

Eun-soo slowly stood up. His legs were numb from crouching for so long. As he staggered, Do-kwon grabbed Eun-soo’s elbow to support him.

“How… how did you know I was here?”

Eun-soo asked.

“Because I saw you come in here.”

“Since when did you… see me?”

“Since you answered my phone call.”

Eun-soo’s eyes widened. He had been watched while lying. His cheeks burned. What did Do-kwon think while watching him hide something that didn’t need to be hidden? Did he think, I guess he’s lying about being at the office so he can run away? And while watching him crawl into an alley, did he think, What kind of idiot is this?

As Eun-soo’s eyes darted around in confusion, Do-kwon gestured with his chin toward his car parked at the end of the alley by the road.

“Actually, I’ve been watching you since you left the office. I’ve been in front of the building since an hour before you finished work.”

“…….”

“I told you. Anytime, anywhere, always. I’ll be by your side.”

Do-kwon had intended to make his presence known as soon as Eun-soo left the office. But since Eun-soo had suddenly started walking, he just watched him. He worried repeatedly about where he was going and if he was leaving him. But the face of the walking Eun-soo was completely elated.

He smiled whenever the wind blew, and his gait was incredibly light. He looked like someone who had something good happen to him. Do-kwon chuckled. He figured the first day of work hadn’t been bad.

Is he trying to walk home? It’s quite a distance. Should I pretend to run into him by chance and give him a ride? While he was quietly stalking him with those thoughts, Eun-soo suddenly stopped. Do-kwon hit the brakes accordingly.

Eun-soo’s gaze was fixed on one spot. It was the Seong-jin Group building in the distance.

After staring at the building for a long time, Eun-soo suddenly turned around. The smile that had been in full bloom on his face just seconds ago had vanished without a trace.

It wasn’t hard for Do-kwon to see through what Eun-soo was remembering and what he was worried about. Because he knew Eun-soo well. That’s why he called, and why he quietly listened to the stuttering lies.

Is he trying to pull himself together alone? Is he okay on his own? Shouldn’t I stay by his side? But the nightmare that made him turn away likely includes me. Maybe it’s better not to approach. Just as those thoughts crossed my mind…

Eun-soo, who had stepped into the alleyway, slowly collapsed. I couldn’t help but go to him.

Do-kwon asked as he adjusted the jacket he had placed over Eun-soo’s shoulders.

“Do you want me to hold you?”

“……What?”

Eun-soo snapped his head up. Do-kwon gently stroked Eun-soo’s cheek.

“No one will see. I’m quite big, you know. You’ll be completely hidden; no one will know it’s you in my arms.”

“…….”

“Just… think of me as a big tree or a doll.”

“…….”

Do-kwon took a step back. Just as he said, his frame, blocking the alley, was imposing. If Eun-soo hid beneath those broad, high shoulders, no one would recognize him.

Eun-soo licked his lips. He swallowed hard. Behind Do-kwon, people could be seen glancing past the alley. They were all dressed in suits, making them look identical. More accurately, they all looked like employees of the Seong-jin Group.

Just then, someone entered the alley. It was a man with a cigarette in his mouth. Likely someone smoking on his way home from work. But to Eun-soo, it didn’t feel that way. It felt as if the man had recognized him and was observing him.

Eun-soo urgently dove into Do-kwon’s embrace. He buried his face in that broad chest and focused on the presence of the man standing a short distance away. What if he recognized him? What if he called his name? He was riddled with anxiety. After a few seconds, the acrid smell of cigarette smoke drifted over.

Beyond the sound of Do-kwon’s breathing, he could hear the man smoking. The sound of a long exhale of smoke. It wasn’t even a loud sound, yet it reached him with an uncanny clarity.

Eun-soo gripped Do-kwon’s shirt tightly. Do-kwon pulled the jacket he had draped over Eun-soo’s shoulders up over his head. As the smell of cigarettes faded, Do-kwon’s scent completely dominated the surroundings.

Strangely, he felt at peace. It felt as if a thick, black wall was surrounding him, ensuring no one could see him. In short, he felt protected.

Eun-soo’s shoulders, which had been tense, relaxed significantly. Even so, he couldn’t quite steady his ragged breaths. Hidden inside Do-kwon’s black jacket, his eyes moved busily from side to side.

Eun-soo remained hidden within the wall Do-kwon had created for a long time. Until the man smoking carelessly tossed his short butt and left. Until his nose grew numb to the scent of Do-kwon’s pheromones. Until his knees began to ache from standing motionless.

Dropping his head, Eun-soo looked down. He saw Do-kwon’s shoes and his own tangled together. The light glancing off the shoes began to darken bit by bit. The sunset was bleeding into night. It meant they had been like this for at least an hour.

An adult in his thirties, hiding in the arms of an ex-lover, covered by a jacket, simply because he was afraid of other people’s gazes.

What was so special about a few glances? What did it matter if others whispered? He hadn’t done anything wrong. He didn’t know why he had to hide, nor why he had to be in pain. He couldn’t understand why he was so terrified and frightened.

A hollow laugh escaped him. That laugh soon turned into self-derision. Eun-soo grit his teeth. However, stubborn tears relentlessly occupied his eyes. Because his appearance, his situation, felt so foolish and pitiful. Because he felt so wronged and sorrowful, he couldn’t help but cry.

“Hic…….”

A single sob leaked through his bitten lips. Do-kwon, who had been standing still, fulfilling his duty as a wall, flinched.

“……Eun-soo?”

Surprised, he tried to move the jacket. At that, Eun-soo urgently pulled the jacket back down.

“Huu……. N-no, you can’t…….”

“…….”

Do-kwon slowly closed and opened his eyes. Then, letting out a silent sigh, he stroked Eun-soo’s back.

“Why are you crying? Don’t cry.”

At that consolation, Eun-soo’s sobbing grew louder. The jacket covering him trembled with spasms. The hands gripping the jacket turned white, and the tears falling onto the asphalt doubled.

Do-kwon’s brow furrowed. He wanted to do something. He wanted to do anything for him. But because his own shameless past was mixed into those tears, he couldn’t bring himself to speak carelessly.

All Do-kwon could do was……

“Eun-soo, I’m sorry.”

“Huu…….”

“I’m sorry.”

It was nothing more than a pathetic apology. Do-kwon held Eun-soo close. His own selfishness, his greed to keep him near, had once again scratched Eun-soo with pain. Eun-soo would likely suffer this same pain every time he walked this street in the future.

Yet, even knowing that, he couldn’t let him go elsewhere.

In times like this, he wished Eun-soo would simply command him to go die. Then he would throw himself between the speeding cars without hesitation. Eun-soo would be free, and he would no longer have to hurt because of him.

But he knew Eun-soo wouldn’t do that. He knew Eun-soo couldn’t. Because Eun-soo was neither cold nor cruel. That was why he held onto him so stubbornly. Because Eun-soo was the kind of person who would let himself be held if held.

He found himself disgusting and loathsome for this, but what could he do? He didn’t have the confidence to live a single day without Eun-soo.

Do-kwon hugged Eun-soo deeply. And for a brief moment, he remained still, as if dead, until Eun-soo’s sobbing subsided.

* * *

Assorted gopchang sizzled on the grill. They had already finished one round and were grilling the second. Do-kwon placed the first pieces of cooked heart on Eun-soo’s plate. Eun-soo blew on them with his wooden chopsticks before putting them in his mouth.

The savory meat was delicious. After swallowing the appetizer, Eun-soo downed the soju Do-kwon had poured for him in one go.

There were already three empty soju bottles on one side of the table. While Eun-soo had been depressed when emptying the first bottle, he started saying the gopchang was delicious from the second, and by the third, he was occasionally laughing. It meant the alcohol had hit him quite a bit.

This sudden drinking session had happened haphazardly when Do-kwon, while comforting the sobbing Eun-soo in the alley, asked, “Want to eat gopchang?” Eun-soo had stood there awkwardly with a foolish expression, asking, “……What?” but Do-kwon had put him in the car, dropped him off in front of a gopchang restaurant in Gangnam, seated him in the shop, and ordered the food, leaving him with no choice.

But the gopchang, which he hadn’t eaten in a long time, was too delicious, the alcohol went down smoothly in his gloomy mood, and since it was a drinking session after work while still in his shirt, he felt strangely excited.

Whether it was from crying or the alcohol, Eun-soo, with a reddened nose, rinsed his mouth with water. Then, he began pouring out his impressions of his first day of work, though he hadn’t been asked.

“I got my employee ID today. Seong-jin had design guidelines, so I just had to follow them, but here there’s nothing, so I think I’ll have to build it up step by step. But it’s fun. It’s the first time since my college days that I’ve done something starting from nothing.”

“…….”

“I ordered from a nearby vendor, but they said it won’t be ready until next week. Unlike Seong-jin, where they make them internally, I have to place an order. That was fun too. I called the owner and asked for a discount since I’ll be making other things in the future, and he gave me 15% off.”

The chatter that continued was utterly adorable. One might wonder why he’d bother getting a discount on something as cheap as an ID card, but Do-kwon found himself regretting that he hadn’t seen how cute Eun-soo must have looked, feeling proud over a discount of a few ten thousand won.

Eun-soo continued to recount the day’s events in detail. Rather than having a conversation with Do-kwon, it felt as if he were writing a diary aloud.

“I had lunch at the cafeteria and it was delicious. It was seafood soft tofu stew and sweet potato cheese pork cutlet, and it was buffet-style. I didn’t eat breakfast before I went, you know. So I ate two pieces of pork cutlet. I wondered if I was eating too much, so I asked the server if it was okay, and they told me they’d fried plenty, so I could eat five. It was the best.”

Or,

“There’s someone on my team named Lee Ha-yoon, and he has twin sons. I was surprised. He looked so—young. I thought he was in his twenties, but he’s actually a year younger than me. He said he applied to ‘The First Season’ because his sons were entering elementary school. He mentioned that other places wouldn’t usually accept someone who had taken an eight-year break, but they accepted him here. But eight years is a really long break. So I was actually a bit worried too, but his hands are incredibly fast. He’s the best.”

Or,

“There was a general meeting after lunch today. You know, like how at Seong-jin, only those with the rank of team leader or above would gather for meetings. But here, the entire staff gathered for the meeting. Since there are fewer than forty people in total. I guess it’ll increase later, right? Anyway, it was a meeting to decide on a slogan, and everyone’s ideas were really good.”

“So. Was it decided?”

“Uh…… the slogan isn’t decided yet, but we decided to install an electronic display in the company.”

“An electronic display?”

“Yes. Like the ones you see in insurance or service companies. It’ll say, ‘As of today, 0 parents have welcomed the first season with their child.'”

“…….”

“Once I start working in earnest next week, 0 will become 1, then 10, and someday 100, right? We decided to have a party when it reaches 100. It’s so cool. It was the best.”

After swallowing his soju, Eun-soo clapped his hands. Since every story ended with “it was the best,” it seemed his mood was at its peak.

Do-kwon chuckled and placed a plump piece of large intestine on Eun-soo’s plate. As Eun-soo quickly grabbed it and brought it to his mouth, his eyes met Do-kwon’s. Eun-soo froze. Then, his cheekbones flushed red. It was a blush slightly different from the effect of the alcohol.

“I talked too much, didn’t I? I’m sorry.”

“Talk more. It’s interesting.”

“……Really?”

“Yeah. Even if you just breathe, it’s interesting to me.”

Do-kwon spoke in a flat tone as he pushed the gopchang to one side. He looked at the shimmering grease with disgust and scrubbed it away with a napkin. Then, noticing the entranced Eun-soo, he smiled broadly.

“If you’re actually talking, how could it not be interesting?”

“…….”

Eun-soo couldn’t find the words to answer and just let his lips flutter. Do-kwon’s flirting was definitely flirting, yet it wasn’t funny. It was because he said it so seriously, in such a solemn voice.

Regardless of whether Eun-soo was frozen or not, Do-kwon continued his tasks. He was attending to him. Grilling the gopchang, filling Eun-soo’s empty glass, checking the empty soju bottles, and calling the server to order another bottle. At that, Eun-soo belatedly widened his eyes and canceled the order.

“Not soju, but cider. One cider, please. And fried rice too. Two portions.”

The server nodded and disappeared.

“Why? Not drinking more?”

Do-kwon asked, sounding puzzled.

“I have to go to work tomorrow. I shouldn’t drink too much. And I promised to drink with my team members on Friday.”

Eun-soo answered while pouring water into his glass. At those words, a strange crack appeared on Do-kwon’s face.

“……Drinking? Already?”

“Yes. My team members all say they love drinking. Isn’t that great?”

“……I don’t know. I’m not sure if it’s great for me.”

Do-kwon bit the inside of his cheek. Promising a drinking session after only one day of meeting. These people, instead of thinking about work, they’re already slacking off……. Do-kwon’s lips twisted in dissatisfaction.

Unable to hide his overflowing irritation, he flipped the gopchang aggressively, when suddenly Eun-soo burst into laughter. Do-kwon’s tongs slipped, and the gopchang fell.

“……Why are you laughing?”

“Because I think I know what you’re thinking.”

“What am I thinking?”

“That you want to fire all the team members who asked me to drink?”

“…….”

Do-kwon’s mouth shut tight. It wasn’t exactly right, but it wasn’t wrong either. He had been thinking of something slightly more sinister than firing, but there was no need to tell Eun-soo that. With an ambiguous expression, Do-kwon tossed the fallen gopchang into the area where the grease residue had gathered.

“Don’t do that. They seemed like good people.”

Eun-soo gently soothed him. He was worried that Do-kwon might actually do something.

Do-kwon answered with a nod. Just then, the server appeared with a can of cider. As Eun-soo reached to open it, Do-kwon deftly snatched the can away. He opened it and handed it back to Eun-soo.

His wrist wasn’t great, but not to the point where he couldn’t open a can. Eun-soo stared at the cider, listening to the bubbling sound of the carbonation. He felt a strange sensation.

“Do-kwon.”

“Yeah.”

“I’m…… going to work hard. Since I’m building everything from scratch, I already feel a sense of loyalty to the company. It feels like my own company. The people are nice, the work is interesting, and I think it’ll be rewarding.”

Do-kwon smiled faintly. Since Eun-soo liked it, he was happy too. He decided to forgive the team members who had asked him to drink. Since Eun-soo liked it, that was enough.

Feeling better, Do-kwon lifted his water glass to his lips, but Eun-soo quietly met his gaze.

“So, Do-kwon, you should…… work hard at your job too. You don’t need to be by my side all the time. Don’t wait for me for an hour and things like that. I’m grateful for today, but you must be busy too…….”

The smile vanished from Do-kwon’s lips. He looked directly at Eun-soo with sunken eyes. Eun-soo lowered his head at the strangely stinging gaze. Do-kwon called him in a low voice.

“Eun-soo.”

“Yes.”

“If anyone heard you, they’d think I’m doing this for my own benefit.”

“What? What do you mean…….”

Eun-soo frowned. He didn’t understand Do-kwon’s words. Then, Do-kwon spoke in his characteristic deep voice, as if warning him. It wasn’t a loud voice, but it cut through the noise of the bustling restaurant and lodged heavily in his ears.

“Me following you, waiting for you, attending to you like this. I’m doing it for my own benefit.”

“…….”

“It’s a pathetic attempt at atonement, a trick to win your favor.”

“…….”

“So don’t worry about it. You can find it annoying, but you can’t feel sorry.”

“…….”

“That’s not your burden to carry.”

The sentences Do-kwon spat out piled up in Eun-soo’s chest. He felt as if his heart and lungs were being crushed. He understood what he was saying. He realized now that he had been foolishly feeling pity for Do-kwon.

Right. Why am I feeling sorry?

Compared to how I waited for Do-kwon, Do-kwon waiting for me was nothing. The nights I spent longing for him, the tears I shed because of him, were still piled up like mountains. The traces Bomi left behind remained as scars deep in his gut. Even the unsightly sobbing in the alley today was because of Do-kwon.

And yet, for just, for just that little thing…….

He had been naive. Foolish. He felt frustrated that he couldn’t be more cold-hearted.

Eun-soo clenched his fists tightly.

“……Yes. It’s not my burden.”

He murmured as if talking to himself. Do-kwon swallowed his water without a word. Just as a suffocating atmosphere enveloped the two of them…

“Fried rice is here.”

The server placed the fried rice between them. Eun-soo gave an awkward smile and thanked the server. Then, pretending everything was fine, he picked up his spoon. Do-kwon, also with an expressionless face, poured water into Eun-soo’s glass.

『To be continued in Volume 6』