By Zephyria 
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“I did it because I felt like I was going to get a boner.”
A brief silence followed those words.
“…….”
“…….”
Yoon Tae-hee, frozen like a stone, doubted his own ears before asking back a beat late.
“……A boner?”
To this, Jae-gyeom nodded with a feigned nonchalance.
“Yeah.”
Unable to find the words, Yoon Tae-hee repeated the term as if he were someone learning a word for the first time.
“A boner…….”
“What?”
“No, it’s just been so long since I’ve heard that word.”
It was while Yoon Tae-hee was stroking his eyebrow with his head bowed low.
“Then what should I call it? I’ll just call it ‘the thingy.’”
“‘Thingy’ is also a bit… I’d understand even if you just said you felt like you were going to get hard….”
Yoon Tae-hee, who had been on edge, suddenly felt the strength drain from his entire body.
As the tension eased, a sense of relief and emptiness washed over him, and he felt a laugh bubbling up. The foul mood he had been in for the past two days vanished in an instant with a single sentence from Jae-gyeom. It felt as if something dark and sticky that had been tightening around his heart was suddenly washed away.
‘You are my younger brother. I will be your Hyung.’
In truth, Yoon Tae-hee had been preoccupied with those words.
It was shortly after having that conversation that Jae-gyeom had started avoiding him. Whenever Jae-gyeom defined their relationship in that way, Yoon Tae-hee grew anxious. It was because of the shadow called Myo-jeong cast over the boy’s life; he feared that perhaps he, too, was standing within that shadow.
Yoon Tae-hee didn’t need any other descriptors. He simply wanted to be Jae-gyeom’s lover.
He was terrified that Jae-gyeom might accept his own love as ‘brotherly love.’
“Hey.”
Then, Jae-gyeom spoke up hesitantly.
“Do you have dirty thoughts often?”
Yoon Tae-hee paused and looked at Jae-gyeom.
“…….”
It was a topic he hadn’t expected. With a subtle expression on his face, Yoon Tae-hee gazed down at Jae-gyeom. Before Yoon Tae-hee could open his mouth, Jae-gyeom continued.
“I mean, you said it before. That you imagine rolling around with me like dogs. I was wondering if you still think about that these days.”
“What do you think?”
“How should I know….”
With his gaze fixed on Jae-gyeom, Yoon Tae-hee spoke without hesitation.
“Yeah. Every day. Every time I see your face, I feel like I’m going to get hard at any moment, to the point where I feel like I’m screwed if I don’t masturbate morning and night.”
“…….”
Jae-gyeom was momentarily speechless at the raw expression. In other words, it was safe to assume that Yoon Tae-hee also had dirty thoughts about him. If so, there was one question.
Jae-gyeom blurted out exactly what came to mind.
“Th-then, why haven’t you kissed me until now?”
Pecks or hugs weren’t dirty, but to Jae-gyeom, kissing was. He was inwardly puzzled as to how someone who had dirty thoughts every day could go over two months without kissing.
Then, Yoon Tae-hee spoke in a voice laced with amusement.
“Did you want to kiss me?”
Jae-gyeom replied instantly.
“Yeah.”
Yoon Tae-hee’s lips parted as if to say something, but he closed them again.
“…….”
It was Yoon Tae-hee who was shaken by the hesitation-free, immediate answer. Then Jae-gyeom said,
“Since it’s just the two of us in the room, you can just do it without asking for permission, whether it’s a peck or a kiss.”
In truth, he wouldn’t have been able to speak so honestly just a few days ago. However, he had received advice from Sesi-girl, and having experienced a nocturnal emission two days ago, he had just realized his sexual desire for Yoon Tae-hee.
Even if they had to keep up appearances in front of the family, wouldn’t it be okay to act like they used to when they were alone?
Then, after a moment of contemplation, Yoon Tae-hee spoke slowly.
“……A proper kiss, later.”
At the unexpected answer, Jae-gyeom paused and asked.
“Why?”
“Just in case it puts too much strain on your body.”
Jae-gyeom looked bewildered.
“Let’s do it again when your body has fully recovered. The kissing.”
Yoon Tae-hee meant that he had been postponing the kiss because Jae-gyeom’s health hadn’t been stable.
At those words, Jae-gyeom went beyond absurdity to sheer disbelief. He knew he was being treated as frail since waking up, but anyone watching would think he was a patient with a terminal illness who could pass away any day now.
“Hey, kissing is done with the mouth; what does that have to do with my physical condition?”
“Is that what you think?”
“What?”
“I don’t just use my mouth when I kiss.”
Jae-gyeom reflexively shut his mouth. He had remembered what happened at Geoyeo Island.
“…….”
Yoon Tae-hee muttered as he picked up a book from the nightstand.
“I didn’t intend to kiss you this morning either, but…….”
In fact, there were several reasons why Yoon Tae-hee had been acting so reserved.
The first was, as he said, because Jae-gyeom’s body wasn’t fully recovered, but that wasn’t the only reason. Since becoming lovers with Jae-gyeom, Yoon Tae-hee had been intentionally matching his pace slowly. One could argue that since they had kissed and done even more before they started dating, what was the point now? However, this was the first relationship for both Jae-gyeom and Yoon Tae-hee.
Therefore, Yoon Tae-hee didn’t want to rush ahead like before. He wanted to move forward together, step by step.
However, Jae-gyeom, who had no way of knowing Yoon Tae-hee’s heart, found Yoon Tae-hee’s lukewarm attitude quite annoying. Not only was he being treated like a patient, but he felt that Yoon Tae-hee held all the initiative. Moreover, after telling him not to avoid him, the leisure with which he postponed the kiss was somehow irritating.
“What a ridiculous bastard. Before, he just did whatever he wanted with kissing and everything.”
Jae-gyeom spoke with a grumpy face.
“I had a dream about you the day before yesterday.”
Yoon Tae-hee’s hand, which had been flipping through the pages of the book, paused briefly.
“……What did we do in the dream?”
As Jae-gyeom hesitated for a moment, Yoon Tae-hee asked suggestively while keeping his eyes on the book.
“Did we do something dirty?”
“Yeah.”
Jae-gyeom nodded once and continued.
“Since then, every time I see your face, I feel like I’m going to get hard… that’s why I avoided you.”
“…….”
After a moment of silence, Yoon Tae-hee slowly shifted his gaze toward Jae-gyeom.
“What kind of dirty things did we do?”
“You touched me at Geoyeo Island. That happened in the dream.”
“So you had a wet dream?”
“Yeah.”
In the deepening silence, their gazes clashed.
“…….”
“…….”
Jae-gyeom, who had been sitting on the floor, slowly stood up. As he did, Yoon Tae-hee, who had been sitting on the edge of the bed looking down at him, raised his head to match the rising eye level.
“Why are you telling me this?”
“Because I had a wet dream, and it seems like my body is doing pretty well.”
Jae-gyeom said with a shrug.
“…….”
“So don’t worry too much, and you should dream of me too.”
Having said that, Jae-gyeom turned his back as if to provoke him.
“…….”
Yoon Tae-hee silently stroked his eyebrow with his fingertip and then snapped the book shut. He immediately stood up and reached out. He grabbed Jae-gyeom’s wrist just as he was about to open the door and pulled him into his embrace.
“Are you doing this on purpose right now?”
Jae-gyeom asked back, playing innocent.
“Doing what?”
Yoon Tae-hee hugged Jae-gyeom tightly, caught his breath, and spoke quietly.
“Can I kiss you?”
Yoon Tae-hee closed his eyes, feeling Jae-gyeom’s breath against his neck.
“…….”
After a moment of silence, Jae-gyeom answered as if to show off.
“I told you earlier. At times like this, you don’t have to ask for permission.”
With those words, the kiss began.
Yoon Tae-hee held Jae-gyeom’s cheeks and slowly pressed his lips softly against them. Then, he naturally sat Jae-gyeom down on the edge of the bed. The hand that had been stroking his waist along with the kiss slid under the short sleeve of the t-shirt at some point and caressed his shoulder blade. As the kiss grew deeper, Jae-gyeom began to pant.
If the kiss in the morning had been hasty, this was a thick, lingering kiss done with slow care.
It felt as if time had stopped. Jae-gyeom was perched on the bed, and Yoon Tae-hee was standing, half-bent at the waist, kissing him. Absorbed in the kiss, Jae-gyeom unconsciously raised his hand and slowly traced the muscles of Yoon Tae-hee’s back. He could feel the back muscles twitching against his palm.
It was then. Yoon Tae-hee pulled his lips away and suddenly knelt.
“Hey! Wa-wait a second… Ah!”
Sensing something, Jae-gyeom tried to push Yoon Tae-hee away in a hurry, but he was a step too late. The moment Yoon Tae-hee buried his face in his crotch, Jae-gyeom’s shoulders jerked up as if burned by fire. Even though they were lovers, it was shocking that he could take another man’s genitals into his mouth without a shred of hesitation, and the unfamiliar, overwhelming stimulation—something he had never experienced in his life—made him feel dizzy.
“Ah, ngh, hng!”
Jae-gyeom groaned, trembling uncontrollably, unable to do anything. He gripped Yoon Tae-hee’s hair while panting, and unable to bear the pleasure any longer, he collapsed his upper body over Yoon Tae-hee’s back. It felt as if carbonation had been poured into his brain. In the silent room, only the wet, squelching sounds of something being sucked echoed. He couldn’t believe such lewd sounds could be made.
“Ah… I’m gonna, I’m gonna cum, hey! Wait….”
Jae-gyeom’s toes began to curl. Unable to ejaculate in the mouth, he tried to pull away by practically clawing at Yoon Tae-hee’s back, but Yoon Tae-hee didn’t budge. Eventually, Jae-gyeom ejaculated into Yoon Tae-hee’s mouth.
Since it was his first time experiencing such a thing, he ended up coming in the blink of an eye.
Yoon Tae-hee swallowed what was in his mouth without hesitation. Seeing this, Jae-gyeom was horrified. Gasping for air, he covered his face with both hands. No way, so this is… this is what it’s like?…….
Then, Yoon Tae-hee spoke to the dazed Jae-gyeom.
“How does it feel to be sucked by your younger brother? Hyung.”