By Zephyria 
His wide eyes trembled, and his whites were bloodshot. What was even more terrible was that Tae-hwon couldn’t even dare to make excuses.
Could he dare to say that he didn’t remember?
Could he draw a line and pretend not to know that the Chairman’s death wasn’t his doing? Was that something he could do to Kwon Rae-i?
Tae-hwon was dying of unfairness, but he was also someone who shouldn’t be unfair. If he had to blame someone, he had to blame himself for losing his memory as he pleased.
“…I’m sorry.”
In the end, he had no choice but to apologize again. It was getting harder to even look at Kwon Rae-i.
Kwon Rae-i sighed softly in Tae-hwon’s ear and rejected Tae-hwon’s apology in a husky voice.
“Tae-hwon. No. I told you I don’t want an apology. I just want to kiss you.”
“That…”
“I just wish you would, please, accept me. That’s all I need.”
Tae-hwon pulled away from him, and Kwon Rae-i continued to chase after Tae-hwon and trap him in his arms. His back hit the mirror as he leaned over the sink, and his face came closer. Now, all he could see was Kwon Rae-i.
He, who had completely taken over his vision, smiled desperately and murmured like a madman.
“You called me an adult last time. I really am. I’m twenty years old this year, and you’re twenty now too, Tae-hwon. So, aren’t we friends now? We’re the same age? We’re friends the same age? Why can’t we kiss? Did I say I want to have sex right now? It’s not like that. It’s just a kiss.”
Wh-what…
Kwon Rae-i was treating Tae-hwon as if he was going to scrape him up and swallow him whole. His eyes were glazed over as he craved and yearned for every single one of Woo Tae-hwon’s cells. The fierce light swirling in his gleaming blue-gray eyes threatened to tear Tae-hwon apart.
He was precarious, and clearly, something was wrong with him.
‘Th-that’s right. There’s no way he could be okay.’
Tae-hwon, who had been momentarily dazed, soon understood him.
In a situation like this, it would be more surprising if Kwon Rae-i’s mind was okay. With Tae-hwon, whom he had trusted, betraying him and the Chairman passing away, who would be in their right mind? What’s more, Kwon Rae-i was young. Of course, he was the same age as him now, twenty, but in Tae-hwon’s eyes, Kwon Rae-i still looked like a cute ten-year-old young master. Young, pure, and clear, and in any case, a child who needed to be protected.
What could Tae-hwon do when a child was having such a hard time?
He had committed an act that he couldn’t even repay with death, so what would it matter what he did if it could make Kwon Rae-i feel even a little better?
‘Of course, the fact that the method is a kiss… is a bit concerning.’
Tae-hwon let out a miserable sigh and replied awkwardly. His deeply sunken voice was still severely hoarse.
“Haa… Is it just a kiss?”
“Yes. That’s right.”
“But, just because I kiss you doesn’t mean I can reciprocate your feelings, Tae-hwon. Rather, I think I might be committing an even worse act in this situation.”
“Ugh, I’m sick of it. I’ve heard that pattern enough to be sick of it. I don’t care, so just, huh?”
“Is that really what you want? Before that, regarding the memories, I still haven’t….”
“I said it’s fine. Stop saying things like that and just stick your tongue out. I said it’s fine!”
Finally, Kwon Rae-i snapped. He really seemed to be in a bad way. He was suffering. Startled, Tae-hwon opened his lips as he was told. It didn’t seem like this was the right thing to do, but he didn’t have any other good ideas. Honestly, Tae-hwon was in a situation where he couldn’t get a proper grasp of things either.
“……”
Tae-hwon lowered his eyes to avoid his gaze and stuck his tongue out a little. Just a little, resting it on his front teeth. Seeing the tongue peeking out slightly through the parted lips, Kwon Rae-i became quiet as if he had never shouted, and focused only on Tae-hwon’s tongue.
“Thank you. I’d appreciate it if you could stick it out just a little more.”
“……Ugh.”
Tae-hwon stuck his tongue out a bit further. As the area of the crimson tongue became more visible, Kwon Rae-i took a deep breath and smiled contentedly. He gently grabbed Tae-hwon’s face with both hands, observing and admiring the sight of him sticking out his tongue, and then, as if he had been waiting for this moment, he pressed his lips against his.
As their lips met urgently, he sucked on Tae-hwon’s tongue intensely. He gently bit and licked, pushing Tae-hwon further against the sink. He felt like his whole body was being crushed and overwhelmed.
He felt indescribably strange.
A vivid pleasure and primal arousal made him hot, but the persistent sense of depravity, revulsion, and guilt that constantly swirled in his head sent shivers down his spine. It was true that Tae-hwon cared for Kwon Rae-i, but he couldn’t care for him in this way. It wasn’t a simple kiss that briefly touched and parted, but a skillful deep kiss that completely poured oil onto the fire, leaving him dazed.
‘Besides, why is he so good at this.’
Tae-hwon grabbed his arm and clung to him. The thought that the clothes brushing against him were mourning clothes made him sigh involuntarily. Tae-hwon groaned and panted heavily.
“Hngh, ugh.”
Kwon Rae-i had clearly said that it wasn’t the first time they had kissed, and that Tae-hwon had become skilled from accumulating experience through various forms of entertainment. But that was still the story of thirty-year-old Woo Tae-hwon. Twenty-year-old Woo Tae-hwon was a virgin who had no experience with kissing or anything else. He had lived a hard life, working only in factories, and had just entered Gyeongjeong, a youth who had tasted only the bitter flavors of life and none of the sweet.
The mucous membrane inside his mouth was rubbed thickly, and his tongue was entangled. He was getting more and more breathless, and he felt hot as if he was going to sweat. Tae-hwon shuddered, shaking his neck.
He couldn’t keep going any longer. Heat was building up below, and his body was starting to react. Tae-hwon pulled his arm again to signal him to stop. Of course, Kwon Rae-i didn’t stop.
“Wa, ah, wait. Stop….”
“I don’t want to.”
He refused firmly, completely out of his mind.
“I can’t stop. Keep going.”
He ran his fingers through Tae-hwon’s hair and clung to him again. The black hair wrapped well around his snow-white fingers. Kwon Rae-i kissed Tae-hwon, kissed him, and kissed him again. Even though their lips were completely wet with saliva and dripping down to their chins, he didn’t stop.
Why was he being so persistent?
What on earth had happened in the past 10 years? Not only Tae-hwon, who had betrayed the Chairman, but Kwon Rae-i had also become so strange.
“Hng, hmm……. Ugh!”
Tae-hwon, who didn’t even know how to breathe through his nose while kissing, had his tongue sucked until his face turned red and he was about to suffocate.
“Heugh, cough, cough!”
Feeling like he couldn’t take it anymore, he coughed loudly, and only then did Kwon Rae-i reluctantly pull away. A transparent strand of mucus stretched between their lips before snapping.
Tae-hwon coughed repeatedly and shook his head, and Kwon Rae-i gently stroked Tae-hwon’s back, soothing him.
“Tae-hwon, is it hard? You’ll get better at kissing as you do it. I’ll teach you. You can learn it gradually.”
Tae-hwon didn’t know what Kwon Rae-i was talking about.
What was he going to teach, and what was he going to learn?
Besides, it was very awkward for Kwon Rae-i to be comforting Tae-hwon. Tae-hwon had taken care of and comforted Kwon Rae-i, who was often sick and ill, but the opposite situation was hard to accept and hard to believe.
“No, it’s not. I’m fine…… Ugh.”
“Shh, don’t talk for a moment and rest. Actually, I went a little too far. I didn’t mean to do it so rashly. I want to take it slow and cherish it with you, Tae-hwon, but I got excited and lost control.”
“Young Master, are you alright…… are you alright?”
“Me? Of course, I’m alright. I feel so good right now. Too…… I feel so good that it’s a problem.”
Kwon Rae-i muttered as if he couldn’t believe it. He stared intently at Tae-hwon, stroked his cheek, caught his breath, and tried to suppress the rising impulse, as if trying to restrain himself. Even if he didn’t want to know why he was treating Tae-hwon like this, he had no choice but to know now. He was feeling sexual desire for Tae-hwon.
Tae-hwon slowly calmed his breathing. Kwon Rae-i waited patiently for Tae-hwon. And then a moment of silence began. The silence grew longer as they stared at each other, and they embraced each other with different emotions.
Tae-hwon felt affectionate, pitiful, and regretful towards Kwon Rae-i, and Kwon Rae-i desired, loved, and obsessed over Tae-hwon.
“Then shall we go back to bed? You shouldn’t overdo it yet. You need to rest, Tae-hwon. It would be better to lie down and rest.”
For some reason, his voice, which sounded so affectionate, made his throat tighten. Tae-hwon moved his wet lips and asked a question.
“Don’t you resent me……? Even in this situation…….”
He should resent him. He should.
But Kwon Rae-i simply curved his eyes lightly and helped Tae-hwon up.