By Zephyria 
“Actually, I was so nervous. And excited.”
“Ah, yes…”
“I don’t know if I did well enough. I had high expectations. Of course, it was amazing, though.”
Was Kwon Rae-i not even embarrassed?
Tae-hwon was so mortified he could barely open his mouth, but Kwon Rae-i, seemingly full of regrets, kept clinging to Tae-hwon and whispering. His languid voice tickled Tae-hwon’s ear, and his toes curled the whole time. It was a strange feeling. Maybe it was the languor, he didn’t know.
“I wish I could have sex with Tae-hwon every day like this.”
“…”
“I’ll do better next time. Not like today.”
“…Young Master, I think today was more than enough. In my opinion.”
“No. Your hole is all raw, Tae-hwon. It was all red back there. I didn’t mean to go that hard.”
“That’s… I said I’m fine. Just drop it.”
“Then let’s wash up and I’ll put some ointment on it. And how’s your right arm? You didn’t overdo it? Was the position okay?”
Already mortified, Kwon Rae-i kept throwing out questions.
This and that, Tae-hwon half-listened, but he felt increasingly overwhelmed. He felt his temperature rising again, his face getting hotter.
“Maybe I pushed too hard from behind. You had to support your weight with your arm.”
“…”
“It looks like missionary is best until you finish rehab. Or you could ride me.”
“…”
“The upside-down position, I’ll try something different next time…”
Aaaargh. Shit. This is driving me crazy.
The more Kwon Rae-i talked, the redder Tae-hwon’s face became. He couldn’t listen anymore. He was so embarrassed he didn’t know where to look. He wanted to hide in a mouse hole.
Tae-hwon was always confident, even when being chased by loan sharks, he was dignified. Even at the young age of sixteen, he had the guts to go to a gambling den alone and set it on fire, but he had never been this embarrassed in his life. He just wanted to shut Kwon Rae-i up right now.
“…Young Master.”
Finally, unable to bear it any longer, Tae-hwon called out to Kwon Rae-i.
“Stop being so loud. It’s distracting.”
‘Woo Tae-hwon. Calm down.’
Tae-hwon steeled himself.
‘Don’t act like a virgin.’
The purpose of this act was to shatter Kwon Rae-i’s fantasy. Whether Tae-hwon was embarrassed or not didn’t matter. He just had to act nonchalant, like it was no big deal.
“You got everything you wanted, didn’t you? Are you satisfied now?”
Then Kwon Rae-i grabbed Tae-hwon’s crumpled chest in the tub and smiled brightly. Tae-hwon’s nipples, swollen red from being tormented all night, stung.
“Satisfied? That’s a cute question.”
The water in the tub rippled, waves forming on the surface. Kwon Rae-i brought his lips to Tae-hwon’s mottled neck and kissed him lightly. Tae-hwon’s exhausted body reacted to the warm breath on his skin, making him itch.
“Do you think your worth is only that much? That I’d use you once and get bored?”
“…”
“You thought if you gave yourself easily, I’d gobble you up and quickly get sick of you?”
Kwon Rae-i caressed Tae-hwon carefully and kissed him. He didn’t miss a spot, touching every part of him. Rather than a bath, it was like he was enjoying a long, lingering afterglow, his large, white hands slowly moving over the inside of Tae-hwon’s armpits, his waist, lower abdomen, and even between his legs. The lips that had been kissing his neck moved up to his jaw and stamped a kiss on his cheek.
Each time Kwon Rae-i moved, the water sloshed, and hot water spilled out of the tub. The entangled bodies beneath the surface reflected the refracted light, creating a mystical atmosphere. Kwon Rae-i’s pure white body and the tattoos covering his arms looked like finely sculpted works of art, while Tae-hwon’s dark skin and scarred body looked like crude industrial products in comparison.
“I knew from the start that was your intention. I noticed, but I let you think that.”
Kwon Rae-i gently brushed Tae-hwon’s hair back. The black hair, soaked in hot water, slid over his white fingers. At first, Tae-hwon thought he was just washing his hair, but that wasn’t it. Kwon Rae-i was trying to touch not only Tae-hwon’s body but also his hair and scalp.
“No matter how many times I confess, you never take it well. You treat it like kids playing house when I say I love you. So, I guess I have no choice but to show you with my body now.”
Kwon Rae-i opened his red lips and let out a long sigh. Only then did Tae-hwon feel a sense of unease, wondering if he had taken a wrong turn somewhere. Maybe the thoughts and judgments he had made while looking at Kwon Rae-i had been too naive.
Was Kwon Rae-i’s pure affection really just a fleeting crush? A tantrum from a child desperate to have something he couldn’t, a momentary delusion?
“Then you should realize it with your body, Tae-hwon. How much fucking do we have to do for Kwon Rae-i to be satisfied with Woo Tae-hwon? Is it even possible to get tired of you?”
“Rae-i, Young Master…”
“It’ll probably take a lifetime.”
“…”
“I’ve been prepared for that lifetime, but you’re just naively ignoring it.”
Kwon Rae-i chuckled, grabbed the back of Tae-hwon’s head, and pulled him closer. Their lips naturally met and pressed together softly. He licked and explored every corner of Tae-hwon’s mouth. Even after a night of intense sex, Kwon Rae-i was still burning with passion, as if that had only been an appetizer.
His clear, gray-blue pupils stared at Tae-hwon like a black hole. His eyes seemed to suck everything around him. Even Tae-hwon.
It was as if the gravity in this space, centered around Kwon Rae-i, had doubled. Tae-hwon felt a murderous aura, as if he had bared his neck to a wild beast’s fangs. It felt like a knife was hanging over his head. Tae-hwon was already cornered at the edge of a cliff. If he took one more step forward, he might fall into Kwon Rae-i’s gaping maw.
But, but not yet.
Not yet…
“No. It’ll be temporary.”
Tae-hwon pushed away from Kwon Rae-i’s lips, which had been talking about a lifetime, and wiped away the traces of him with the back of his hand.
“Humans are weak, and emotions are even more fleeting. Even if you say that with such conviction now, you’ll change your mind soon.”
Tae-hwon corrected his slurred pronunciation with tenacious, indomitable patience and replied clearly. He didn’t care that he was dizzy, dazed, and exhausted. He didn’t care that he was embarrassed and ashamed. This too shall pass.
“Frankly, the world is wide. Right now, you’re just Kwon Rae-i in a well. I’m the wind that will pass over you.”
“Haha, that’s an interesting expression. You, the wind? More like a storm, don’t you think?”
Even when Tae-hwon pushed him away, Kwon Rae-i didn’t bat an eye and only smiled languidly. He hugged Tae-hwon’s waist again and clung to him, caressing Tae-hwon’s skin in the water. He traced the small scars, the hollows, and the long wound across his chest, savoring Tae-hwon.
“You know, Tae-hwon, with amnesia, is like a tiger who thinks he’s a puppy.”
“What kind of expression is that…”
“It’s a compliment. I’m sometimes taken aback? Because you’ve become so soft.”
“Soft…”
“I like it. I like the cute, soft you too.”
Everywhere he touched tickled. There was no reason for the old scars to hurt now, but the feeling of being touched was awkward and strange. It was probably because no one had ever touched Tae-hwon’s body so thoroughly before.
“You said you’d show me with your body anyway. Whether it’s temporary or for a lifetime, we’ll see.”
The situation was difficult. Hot, heavy, and Kwon Rae-i was consistent.
“From now on, let’s have sex every day. As soon as we open our eyes in the morning, after we finish eating, let’s stick together day and night like mating beasts and have fun.”
“Huh? What are you talking about? Why is the conversation going that way?”
“Don’t worry. I’ll adjust it so you won’t be scared.”
He was consistently crazy.
He wasn’t in his right mind, and it was more serious than Tae-hwon had initially thought. Tae-hwon swallowed hard. He felt like he had dug his own grave.
“I’ve been patiently waiting for you for a long time. I can be a little more patient.”
Kwon Rae-i, who had been given a sedative, was like this today, so what would Kwon Rae-i be like without a sedative? Where was the bottom of that desire? Even if it wasn’t for a lifetime, it didn’t seem like it would fade away as quickly as a passing wind.
‘So, how many more times do I have to deal with him…?’
Like this…?
His mind went blank. He felt dizzy, like he was about to have a nosebleed.