By Zephyria 
Mikael was more mischievous and persistent than I had imagined.
My body shuddered every time Mika’s fingertips touched a certain spot. Even when I did it myself, it was a weakness I had never touched for long because I would become so desperate that I’d lose all my energy after just three or four rubs.
My waist twisted, and fluid dripped from the tip of my penis. My entire body tightened and convulsed.
Reflexively, I covered my own mouth. I intended to block the moans that kept leaking out, but it was of little use as I lacked the strength to keep my wide-open hand pressed firmly.
I shook my head violently. The vivid sensation felt below, where Mika’s fingers were being swallowed of their own accord, caused my knees to repeatedly close and open involuntarily.
“No, ah, no. Wait, wait a second, Mi— hng, Mika. There, stop! Sto-op, don’t press. Ah.”
“…Mm.”
“Don’t rub, hnggg, I didn’t say rub. Ah, ah, I don’t— I don’t want… Together, hng, you too, ah, me.”
“Yes.”
A violent pleasure blurred my vision.
At some point, I began to cry. No matter how much I struggled or writhed, Mikael did not show me the slightest mercy.
His polite response only made me feel more ashamed. I wondered what kind of expression he was wearing while watching me like this, but my vision was blurred by heavy tears, so I couldn’t see clearly.
The squelching sound echoed continuously from below. My lower entrance convulsed on its own under the hand that pressed down with a regularity that was enough to drive me mad. I began to plead for more.
I think I’m going to come.
I want to go together.
Hurry, hurry, fuck me with yours.
The hand I had reached out in supplication returned to cover my face. I simply didn’t have the capacity to manage my expression.
It was difficult to swallow, so the corners of my mouth remained wet. My body kept arching back, further and further. I shook my head, wiping my face with the back of my hand.
Occasionally, when the gaps between his thick fingers opened, holy oil flowed through, soaking the sheets into a mess. While the front was fine, I came from the back first. My entire body trembled, and my waist arched sharply. My inner walls bit down on Mikael’s hand of their own accord.
Mika continued to look down at me calmly.
Only I, only I am… My entire body flushed bright red with shame.
My waist swayed up and down as if pestering him. It felt as if the body moving against Mikael’s hand, as if thrusting, was not my own.
I can’t wait any longer. I can’t do this anymore. Unable to endure it any longer, I pushed Mika’s thigh with my foot. Only then did Mika’s fingers slide out.
The area below was hot from how persistently he had tormented me. It felt slightly swollen.
It was the moment I opened my mouth to complain out of frustration.
Mika, who had been looking down at me without a single word the entire time, smiled softly. The flushed cheeks and the deep kiss that touched me as if it were only natural blocked my words. Our touching chests beat loudly and violently.
And then, something hot and stiff touched me below.
Mika was clumsy yet skillful. Skillful, yet clumsy.
From the act of placing a pillow behind my waist to using plenty of holy oil to widen me before starting, it was obvious he had looked something up to do this with me, but he seemed… unable to find the right way.
Even when I spread my legs further or grabbed Mika’s shoulders to adjust the angle, he didn’t insert it immediately, merely sliding above the hole.
If I had been a bit more relaxed, I might have thought it was cute, but right now, I felt like I was truly going crazy.
Fuck, should I just push him down and climb on top? Just as those thoughts crossed my mind.
The thickest tip pressed against the entrance and entered.
It was a moment I had anticipated and longed for for dozens, hundreds of days.
I learned for the first time that one could feel a pulse in the lower abdomen. I was so extremely tense and expectant that my head felt dizzy. My entire body was tightened with an unbelievable sensitivity.
I bent the legs draped over Mika’s shoulders and pulled him closer. With hands drenched in sweat, I fumbled and scratched at Mika’s knees.
Hurry, hurry.
Even as I shook and pestered, Mika was steadfast. He only looked down at me with a calm gaze.
After sobbing and shaking my head, I burst into tears, and then my vision cleared. I thought he was wearing a face so elegant it was irritating, but that wasn’t the case. A terrifying amount of arousal was pooled in Mika’s face.
As I met his reddened eyes and heated gaze, my aroused inner walls tightened once again.
Taking a deep breath, Mika asked in a low voice.
“…More?”
Since when? Since when did Mika… use informal speech?
“Nng, hng, stop, stop asking…”
“But, Ruben.”
“I— hng, I’m waiting…”
A crying sound leaked out. No, I just wailed openly. The legs draped over Mikael’s shoulders no longer had any strength. In my heart, I wanted to grab Mikael’s body and pull him in hard, but all I could do was bump against him.
Why is he so strong? It was a moment where I felt aggrieved even by things I had always taken for granted.
Mikael’s hot hand, which had been enduring for a long, long time, gripped my waist firmly.
And he pushed in to the deepest part.
“…!”
My body jolted without me even being able to make a sound. I didn’t know he would plunge in all at once like that.
The moment my vision blurred white, a chilling pleasure scraped through my entire body. An unintentional convulsion shook me.
I thought I would be good at this. I mean, even if it was the first time, I had touched myself quite a bit, and I had always been good with my body, so I thought I could feel it moderately and move my waist moderately.
I was too confident. When it actually happened, I couldn’t do that at all.
It was too big. It was overwhelming. Even though my hole had been loosened by several shallow Peaks, it was still difficult. Mikael’s thick penis, which penetrated to depths my hand could never reach, scraped through every fold of my inner walls before sliding out, crushing everything.
And then it entered again.
“Hah, …ah, ah! Ah, hng, Mi, Mika.”
“…Huu…”
“Ugh, nng, hng, ah!”
As if he had never been so relaxed or stalled for time, Mikael showed no mercy.
My hurriedly outstretched hands gripped Mikael’s shoulders. My body was folded halfway. His face—flushed, shimmering, and though not smiling, softened with a heart-fluttering tenderness—was surprisingly close.
Touching, then distancing, then touching again.
My entire body was filled with Mikael. Mikael’s sweet tip of the tongue crushed inside my mouth, and below, I was stretched wide enough to be tight with Mikael’s thick and heavy penis. The sound of flesh colliding repeated.
Hot hands gripped my chest and then supported my waist to pull me closer. I was startled by the lips that bit my cheeks, ears, and jaw. All sorts of body parts I had forgotten existed burned with an unbelievable ecstasy.
“Wait, hng, ah! Ah, wa-wait, ah…!”
Now it was almost scary. I was helplessly terrified. Unless my brain melted, I couldn’t understand how a person could feel this good, and then feel even better.
I felt completely intoxicated. The inside of my inner walls tingled. The squelching sound didn’t stop. It felt as if my entire body had become a genital. It felt as if I were born to be fucked by Mika…
“Ah, ah! Hng, nng…! Nng, mmp, hnggg, ah, I’m, I’m going to…!”
I shook my head wildly. Tears dripped down, soaking my entire face. My whole body convulsed. A pleasure greater than pleasure kept shaking me over and over. I gasped for air, my mouth wide open. Even as I panted heavily, the inside of my chest kept tightening. No, the area below, gripping the penis, was tightening even more.
Mikael did not stop.
His blue gaze fixed once again on the area of my lower abdomen. My body went wild with pleasure every time he thrust. Even without touching, fluid leaked from the tip of my penis. My semen, which had become thin, was soaking us both.
The moment my body tightened and then released at that shameful sight.
Because of Mika, who split through my inner walls without slowing down for a second, my waist twisted again.
“Ah, hng, ah, Mi, Mikaa. Mika… Wa-wait. I just, I just came…”
It was then that Mika’s eyes, which had been focused on ravishing me with his mouth shut the whole time, curved beautifully.
“…I like you, I love you…”
My eyes widened at the sudden confession.
A happiness that was difficult to digest all at once surged. I smiled back. I was deeply immersed in a fierce love. My body still greedily swallowed Mika.
Suddenly, I felt like I could achieve anything. In fact, I felt like it would be okay even if I died like this.
I wrapped my legs around Mika’s waist. I begged him to come inside. Mika no longer held back. As if it were only natural, he ejaculated plenty inside me, looking down at me with an unbelievably loving expression.
When I held out my hand, he licked it; when I offered my chest, he bit it. When I lacked the strength to do anything, he lifted me up and shook me as he fucked. Because of that, my posture would often slip, and Mika’s gaze would land on the junction. I tried to cover it as much as possible, but it didn’t work well.
When I cried a lot, Mika ejaculated inside me as much as the tears I squeezed out. Still, I was hungry. I wanted to eat more. So I wailed as if to cover every single moment I had been sorrowful because of Mika.
Sometimes I cried with little whimpers. Still, the result was not much different.
* * *
Mikael became skillful very quickly.
Actually, he might not have become skillful. It might just be that because my body trembled all the way to my stomach just by touching Mikael, we both became overconfident in each other’s skills.
After feeling it to the point where my breath was cut off, I would lie limp, but Mikael hardly ever seemed to tire.
Then, out of greed, I would open my knees even if it was hard. Then Mika would smile shyly and kiss my knees. Then he would plunge deep inside me again.
I heard the words “I love you” more, more often, and more overflowingly than I had ever heard before.
I also told him I loved him as much as I possibly could.
I thought it wouldn’t be enough even if I heard it hundreds of times, but surprisingly, it wasn’t. The confessions exchanged while touching the deepest and most intimate parts were addictive enough to dull the sharp edges of my nerves.
Mika was easily aroused even by the ugliest sights I showed. And he was tender the entire time.
In front of that gaze, I could be a lover more precious, erotic, and sexy than anyone else.
I loved it when Mikael buried his face in my chest, sucking deeply while his eyes narrowed. I loved it when he pounded deep into my inner walls. When he stroked my waist and buttocks carefully as if handling something precious, and then gripped and shook them with unbelievable violence, I felt as if I owned the whole world.
I became a bit more greedy.
For a long time, I never thought Mikael would desire me. That’s why I had thought that on our wedding night, I would have to climb on top of a troubled Mikael and grind my waist. Perhaps that’s why this was the position I desired most.
“…You want to climb on top yourself?”
“Nng. Do you… hate it…?”
“How could I. Then, I… what should I do?”
“If you just sit here, I… I can do it.”
“Mm. Yes, let’s do that.”
Mikael was compliant no matter what I suggested.
Everything was mine.
It felt as if it were a lie that he had been desperate to touch this body. This moment of being connected with Mika felt completely natural.
I looked down. Mika’s lips, which had been bitten and licked several times until just now, were slightly swollen. It was strange and wonderful that Mikael’s lips were swollen this much, and that my bite marks were all over his shoulders and neck.
Dragging my strengthless legs, I crawled up onto the thighs of Mikael, who was leaning against the headboard of the bed. Semen leaked from the slightly open interior. For some reason, I tightened my back, feeling it was a waste.
Now, Mika was not surprised even if I gripped his penis or stroked it upward. He simply smiled gently. I gripped the thick shaft and rubbed the tip against my entrance. When I slightly swallowed the thick tip, Mika’s brow furrowed a bit. So, I gave a loud kiss on those pretty eyebrows.
We looked at each other and smiled again. And then, I slowly sat down.
“Haa, hng…”
“…Mm.”
“Hng, ghk, ah. Don’t, don’t move. Wait, just a second…”
In my dreams, I could climb on top easily, but doing it in reality wasn’t as easy as I thought.
I clearly inserted it from below, but my mouth fell open. I knew it was impossible, but it felt as if it had been driven up to my solar plexus. I could tell that when Mika fucked me, he moved with leisure out of concern for me. It was very enjoyable to realize that even after doing it so much, I learned something new every time.
As I swallowed him deep without a gap, a hot heat permeated to an unbelievably deep place. I spent a long time panting and catching my breath.
Mikael did not rush me. Instead, he tenderly caressed my body and kissed me several times, truly several times. I loved how his hot hands slowly massaged my shoulders and shoulder blades, and how he stroked down each vertebra of my spine.
But still, I loved it most when he gripped both my buttocks firmly.
“…Do it more.”
“…More? What… this?”
“Nng, …ugh, hng. Yes, …gently. Ah… I like it. That… like that…”
I want you to be more greedy for me. I want you to have naughty thoughts about me and be more desperate. I want you to love me more every single day.
With such greed, my insides seethed. As I gently shook my body back and forth while being gripped tightly by his hand, the veins on the back of Mikael’s hand stood out. Yet, it didn’t hurt at all. It was irritating that he still had the leisure to be considerate of me.
I lifted my body a bit more, then sat down, biting into Mika’s member with force. Mika tilted his head back for a moment, then gripped my thighs as if supporting them, helping me move.
My already hot insides burned with a tingling sensation.
I wanted to be connected like this forever.