By Zephyria 
The bathroom was filled with wet sounds.
Lips that had been sucking and biting the mole on my cheek moved down to my neck, nibbling on the tender skin and biting firmly into my rounded shoulder before rubbing and kissing my forearm. Every time Kwon Yi-kang’s lips touched me, laughter leaked out from the ticklish sensation.
The lips that had descended to the back of my hand kissed each finger one by one, and upon seeing my shriveled fingertips, he gripped my body and pulled me up.
“Let’s get out now.”
“Carry me.”
As I spoke, stretching out my arms, he rinsed my body with the showerhead and then wrapped me up in a large towel, lifting me effortlessly. Once I abandoned my pride as a man, being carried in his dependable arms was quite comfortable and cozy.
I wrapped my legs around his waist and clung to his neck with my arms, looking down at his neat face. I liked his face, where the corners of his mouth curled up slightly, making him look as if he were smiling. It was because he looked fundamentally kind.
As expected, I like people who are kind and gentle.
As I blocked his vision and pressed my lips against his, sucking them in, the hand supporting my buttocks tightened.
“What if we fall?”
“If we fall, we can just fuck right there on the floor.”
He worries about too many things. When I bit his lip sharply, the hand holding my body tightened even further.
“You have to be careful. Be careful not to get hurt in your daily life, too.”
“Is there anything that would cause a major injury? Oh, right. I heard we’re going to Grandfather’s house this weekend. I guess a month has already passed. Time flies.”
“You’re not going to get your nose bloodied again, are you?”
“Who knows. Depending on how Grandfather acts this time.”
“I don’t know if I can let you wander around like this.”
“What is that supposed to mean?”
As if he were treating me like an object.
After laying me down on the bed and drying the moisture with a towel, Kwon Yi-kang brought over some baby lotion. I couldn’t remember when it started, but applying lotion after bathing had become a habit.
“I don’t want to put it on. It’s sticky.”
“That’s probably a lie. You get soft and smooth in no time.”
He sat at the foot of my bed and slowly rubbed my legs with his palms, which held a generous amount of lotion. The feeling of the thick liquid being applied to the skin wasn’t particularly pleasant. However, I could bear it because the feeling of his warm palms pressing and rubbing the skin like a massage felt good.
Every time his thumb swept across my calf, it felt both painful and refreshing, causing me to curl my toes and let out a low groan.
Giving light, pecking kisses to my chin and neck, he gently applied lotion to my waist and stomach. His touch, tracing circles over my belly, was cautious.
“I feel like you secretly like me.”
“It’s not ‘secretly.’ I like you openly.”
“A month, or maybe a month and a half. It seems like too short a time to like someone, but it’s strange. …Is this what they call ‘fuck-bonding’?”
“What?”
At my words, Kwon Yi-kang’s face went slack. I nibbled on my slightly parted lips and added as if making an excuse.
“We started with fucking. Even now, when we meet, we spend more time fucking than eating.”
“I think that’s more your fault than mine.”
“It can’t be helped. My body heats up the moment I see you. I just want to knock you down and climb on top of you.”
Like a child tasting chocolate for the first time and becoming addicted to the sweetness, I was anxious to embrace and roll around with Kwon Yi-kang every time I saw him.
His broad chest was firm yet warm, and the hands that held me tight were reassuring. Every time he dug deep inside me, I found it hard to keep my senses, intoxicated by the scent that deepened.
“I love eating you up. If the old me saw the current me, he’d be absolutely horrified. Not only rolling around with a man, but acting like I’m in heat? He might despair.”
“Is there a need to go as far as despair?”
“I told you. Men weren’t in my dating range. I didn’t particularly think I’d be able to date, but even if I did date or have sex, I thought the object would be a woman; I never even imagined a man.”
“You sometimes talk like a Beta.”
“…I guess so.”
Even though I’m an Omega now, right? The fact that I have no hesitation or reluctance in overlapping and rolling around with another man seems to be proof of that. Every time this happens, I realize clearly that I am an Omega.
“I’m tired. My head has been hurting lately, but seeing you makes me feel a bit better.”
At my words, he pushed his lips forward to lick my cheek, laughing pleasantly. I liked the movement of his chest, heaving slightly every time he laughed silently.
“Why does your head hurt?”
“There’s something I’m worrying about.”
“If you tell me what it is, I’ll give you a solution.”
He says he’ll give me a solution without even knowing what it is. There’s a limit to confidence. I bit the tip of his nose out of annoyance, but his confident expression didn’t fade.
“There’s something I want to confirm. But I was told that the person who knows it won’t answer no matter what question I ask. That means they’re either incredibly firm, or they’re ignoring me.”
“Hmm.”
Kwon Yi-kang, lying beside me, slid his hand under my neck to give me an arm pillow and pulled me close. As I licked his exposed nape with my tongue, he pressed the crown of my head down with his chin.
“It hurts.”
“Did it hurt, my baby?”
“What is that? I’m getting goosebumps.”
“I was trying to set the mood, but you’re saying things that hurt my feelings.”
“Are your feelings actually hurt? I don’t think so.”
As I asked, tracing his muscle-firm waist with my hand, he laughed and gripped my hand, pressing it down. I had heard that while abdominal muscles are relatively easy to build, side muscles require immense effort; I couldn’t imagine what kind of effort went into these muscles.
“Want me to take him and make him open his mouth? I can do it very simply.”
“How?”
“Humans become powerless in the face of violence. In just one hour, you’ll be able to hear the answer you want quite simply.”
“Don’t joke. I’m being serious.”
I had asked with some expectation, but he was playing around. As I scolded him by digging my nails into his side, which didn’t give way to my fingers, he licked the edge of my eyebrow and replied, “I’m not joking.”
“Didn’t you say you really wanted to know? Then you shouldn’t care about the means or methods.”
“No. I should care about the means and methods. I can’t beat someone just because they won’t answer my question.”
“If you want an answer, you can beat them. If it’s an answer you want that badly. …I guess it’s not that serious?”
My feelings are deeper than that, and I want to find out no matter what… but I don’t know if using violence is justified.
I have been beaten for no reason too many times, so I feel in my bones how sorrowful and unfair that is. I know how effective it is, but I didn’t want to become a person who wields violence.
“Still, I don’t think that’s right.”
“Taking the long way around a simple path; how difficult.”
“It wasn’t a simple path to begin with. You told me I sound like someone who rolled around in the back alleys, but you’re the one talking like a back-alley thug.”
I criticized him, but he only let out a nasal hum.
“Then there’s no other way. You just have to ask.”
“The problem is that he probably won’t answer.”
“When you ask, phrase the question so it can be answered with ‘yes’ or ‘no.’ You said you have a guess and just want to confirm it. Don’t listen to the answer coming from the mouth; focus on the answer the expression tells you.”
There were times when I couldn’t understand what Kwon Yi-kang was saying. Now was one of those moments. Every time that happened, I felt sad, as if I hadn’t even learned the language properly.
“You have to succeed in bluffing. As if the hand you hold is real. As if you know everything. Put on an act. So that bastard believes it and wavers.”
Even with the added explanation, my confused mind didn’t clear up. As I just rolled my eyes, Kwon Yi-kang, who had been looking down at me, grabbed my chin to fix my gaze and spoke.
“You fucked another Alpha besides me, didn’t you? I saw you going into a hotel with that bastard yesterday.”
What kind of bullshit is this? I let out a breath of disbelief, and Kwon Yi-kang asked, “You saw, right?”
“Don’t ask ‘What did you do yesterday?’ Ask directly about what you suspect. Even if you don’t hear an answer, you can tell from the expression.”
“So that’s what you suspected and wanted to ask me just now?”
Is this bastard kidding? I wanted to grab him by the collar, but since he wasn’t wearing any clothes, I grabbed both his cheeks and shook them instead. Even as he was pinched and shaken to the point where his cheeks flushed red, Kwon Yi-kang only laughed. He took the hand pinching his cheek and kissed the fingertips, whispering sweetly.
“You don’t actually like me. You just want to use me, don’t you?”
“…What on earth.”
“It’s fascinating. Your eyes always answer ‘no.’ As if you actually like me. Your face is so honest that I sometimes wonder if you’re actually a poker face that surpasses mine.”
“What… what could I possibly gain by using you? Are you that great? Am I so insignificant compared to you? You’ve got nothing but a face and a dick. It’s not like you can give those to me, so besides that, what could I possibly get from you?”
Don’t be mistaken. I am no longer the Min Jae-hee of the past. I am Cha Soo-kyung, who possesses a lot. I can live without begging or stealing from others anymore. Without taking things from others…
Feeling irritated, I grabbed Kwon Yi-kang’s hair and pushed him away. As I turned my back and sat up on the bed, he approached and hugged my back.
“You said the same thing at first. As if I had approached you with a deliberate intention. Have you been suspecting me of that all this time?”