By Zephyria 
“Hello.”
—Where are you? I don’t know how many times I’ve tried to reach you.
“I’m at a hotel. I’m sorry I couldn’t get in touch.”
—I hope nothing happened. Your older brother came home yesterday, but you’ve had no contact and haven’t come home. I asked the driver, and he said he dropped you off at the gathering and went straight home. I don’t know why every person I hire these days is like this.
Ugh, I knew this would happen. I told Lee Kyung-jin I’d keep it a secret, but because I didn’t go home, Father must have grilled him. Things had twisted in the worst way possible.
“Please don’t say anything to him. I was the one insisting he go when he didn’t want to. Stop picking on my attendant and stop firing people so indiscriminately. People will start rumors.”
—If they can’t do their jobs properly, there’s no reason to pay them to work. That’s not the point; why did you sleep at a hotel? Why didn’t you call?
Fortunately, remembering the purpose of the call, Father shifted his attention away from Lee Kyung-jin. While it was sad to become the target of attention again, it was better than letting the innocent Lee Kyung-jin take the heat.
“My heat cycle hit suddenly. I wasn’t in a state to go home, so I stayed at a hotel for the night. I just woke up, so I couldn’t call you.”
—Good heavens, were you not taking suppressants?
“I didn’t even know when my heat cycle was, or rather, I didn’t even know what a heat cycle was, so what suppressants? Anyway, I’ve gotten through it, so I’ll head back after resting a bit. I just woke up, so I’m going to sleep a little more, so don’t worry. Bye.”
I spoke unilaterally and hung up before Father could respond. The phone rang again immediately after, but once I rejected the call, it stopped.
Ugh, I’m exhausted.
I tossed the phone onto the nightstand and buried my face back into the bed. The man, who had gotten up at some point, approached while drinking water.
“I guess it was true that you knew nothing.”
“Then what, did you think I was joking all this time?”
I’ve had enough of ‘taking’ me, haven’t I? At my added remark, the man’s expression became ambiguous.
“Water, please. Why that face?”
The man sighed as he handed over the bottle of water.
“I thought you were some wealthy young master, but every time you open your mouth, you speak like a street thug. I can’t figure you out.”
He truly has a keen eye. I replied with a smile and drank the water. I emptied the half-full bottle in one go and threw the empty container on the floor. Since I hadn’t had a single drop of water since last night, it was only natural to be thirsty.
“Get up. It’s time to go.”
“Can’t I sleep just a little more?”
“It’s late, but I have to go to work. If I stay here any longer, I feel like I’ll be swept up in your heat cycle again.”
“But I want to sleep.”
It was certain that in this state, I couldn’t move a single step. Thinking about it again, sex really was an exercise that required immense physical stamina.
The man, who had disappeared for a moment, reappeared just as I was flickering on the edge of sleep. I lifted my heavy eyelids as he gently shook my shoulder.
“I’ll put a DND card on the door, so if you’re really tired, you can sleep a bit more before leaving. I’ve asked them to bring suppressants, so you can take those and rest before you go.”
“Yeah, thanks.”
I didn’t understand half of what he said, but since it sounded like permission to sleep, I expressed my gratitude. The man, who pulled up the blanket that had been crumpled at my feet and covered me, moved away with quiet footsteps. I pricked up my ears at the sound, and then, at some point, my consciousness vanished.
∞ ∞ ∞
Bugs are crawling all over my body. Writhing, they crawl up my arms and legs, eating away at my entire being. I tried to shake off the bugs due to the stinging pain, but I couldn’t move a single finger.
Ugh, haaa. Even my tongue had frozen stiff, and only animalistic cries leaked through my throat.
As I tossed and turned to shake off the bugs, I fell with a thud. My body shatters into pieces. Just like when I grabbed Cha Soo-kyung to save him from the pedestrian bridge.
I writhed my sprawled limbs, and Cha Soo-kyung looked down at me and trampled my crushed body.
‘Do you like being alive? Do you like living with my body?’
The resentment toward me pierced my chest like a dagger. The cold reprimand took physical form and slashed my heart.
‘Stop, stop it. You were the one who said you wanted to die. I tried to save you. I tried to save you. But in the end, you were the one who died.’
Why are you blaming me? You were the one who said you’d die, and you’re the one who made my body die too. I did nothing wrong.
I breathed to survive, and I moved my twisted limbs to escape. Enduring pain to live through life was far too familiar to me.
This kind of pain is almost laughable. I will survive, and you can just watch. Everything you had will become mine, and I will find the guy you tried to hide. While I am doing everything, you will be able to do nothing.
Without knowing the direction, I began to crawl with difficulty, reaching out my tattered hand toward a faint light in the distance. Suddenly, a sharp pain struck my cheek.
“Wake up.”
I gasped for air and opened my eyes. In the darkened room, the familiar face of the man appeared blurred.
“My body… hurts.”
“I told you to take the suppressants… you really don’t listen.”
The man spoke in a suppressed voice as he pulled my sprawled body up onto the bed. Even so, my body, which had quickly figured out what it needed since this was the second time, clung to the man.
“Hold me. Hold me, touch me, come inside me and come.”
“You really are…”
His face was full of disapproval, but despite that, the man’s crotch, touching me, was swollen as if it were about to burst. I urgently reached out, lowered his zipper, and took the heavy object into my mouth. The man’s rich chocolate scent swirled around the tip of my nose.
Without any technique, I simply sucked on it like an ice cream, making wet sounds. The man grabbed my hair and pushed his penis deep into my throat. The stiff rod filled my mouth, pressing down my tongue and rubbing against the back of my throat.
“Hng, ugh…”
Pubic hair rubbed against the tip of my nose. As I trembled convulsively, unable to breathe, the man pulled his hips back and withdrew. The glans caught on the edge of my lips, and just as I managed to take a breath, the penis plunged back in.
The spurting pre-cum mixed with saliva and dripped through the gaps of my lips. I made choking sounds along with small coughs, but the man’s actions remained rough.
My lips were stretched to their limit, aching as if the corners were about to tear, and my mouth felt as if it were being crushed and gouged by a hard club.
Even as I looked up at the man with tears welling in my eyes, I moved my tongue to rub against the entering penis.
Even though the penis bent and poked past my throat, the thick, long object couldn’t fit entirely in my mouth, leaving the base outside. I gripped the man’s penis with my hand and sucked so hard my cheeks hollowed.
The scent entering my nose, the heat spreading from my mouth, and the fingertips of the man gripping my hair tightly were all maddeningly good.
I grabbed the penis that had roughly inserted and withdrawn, rubbing it against my face while wiggling my hips. I wanted him to thrust that thick thing into my back. I felt around with my hand as if caressing something precious and sucked the glans, which was glistening with saliva.
“The back, put it in the back… please?”
“Turn over and lie face down.”
The man spoke low, like a growling beast, and I turned over and arched my hips high.
Since I was naked, I felt no shame in exposing my private parts clearly before the man’s eyes. I was only waiting for him to thrust into my back.
I shook my hips as if pleading, and the man, with a strong grip, pried my buttocks apart and rubbed the slippery tip of his penis against the crease of my backside.
“Quickly, quickly…”
“Stop pestering me.”
He reached around and felt the area around the hole. What the man had spent the whole night pumping into me yesterday had dried. As he poked his fingertip inside, he felt the scorching hot inner walls. Semen that had pooled inside and hadn’t yet escaped flowed over his finger in clumps.
“Haah, ngh…”
With the finger still inside, the man forced the insertion. Feeling the glans press against the entrance and enter, I hurriedly pulled my hand away. The dry entrance had already become wet, swallowing the man’s penis without resistance.
“It hurts…”
The feeling of the hole stretching was still unfamiliar, so I whimpered like a nursing puppy, and the man, as if mocking me, inserted so deeply that his crotch rubbed against me.
As my body sank under the pressure, the man wrapped his arm around my waist, lifted me into the air, and slowly began to move his lower body. In my blurred vision, the crumpled white sheets looked like undulating waves.
“Ah, haaa… ngh…”
Pleasure surged wherever the man thrust. Not just where the penis rubbed, but everywhere the man’s touch reached and his skin brushed felt like an erogenous zone.
Like a bird with torn wings, I hunched my shoulders and trembled, clutching the bedsheets. Every time the man dug deep and thrust upward, an indescribable sensation colored me. I was afraid of that sensation, yet I welcomed it.
The man’s insertion was so rough it could be called violent. The rampaging penis was ferocious, and the man unleashed that ferocious beast without hesitation.
Even as I let out cries because the inner walls were burning from the friction, the speed of the thrusting did not slow down. The friction-heated inner walls felt as if they would catch fire at any moment, and the entrance gripping the man’s penis was stretched taut, as if it would snap.
“It hurts, hng… huh? It hurts…”
As I whimpered like a child, rubbing my face against the sheets, the man pulled my body and turned me around. Suddenly pulled up to face him while sitting on his penis, I shrugged my shoulders as the man licked the tear-soaked cheeks with his lips.
“Does it really hurt? Only hurt?”