By Zephyria 
23
Annoyed? You were annoyed to save me? Why? How could you? I am, I am… your person. Your Bondmate. And a precious life at that. How could you do that?
Ho-eun stared at Tae-muk with trembling eyes, and Tae-muk spoke with a sneer.
“Oh, so you’re a precious young master?”
It was out of the blue. At least, that’s how Ho-eun felt. What does status matter when saving someone? Besides, he had never treated him like a nobleman or young master. Even in this situation.
“No. It’s because I am your Bondmate, General.”
“Right. That’s why I saved you. So do what you have to do.”
“What I have to do… you mean….”
“Take off your clothes and embrace me. Me.”
“……”
“As vulgar as possible. You.”
That’s my taste.
He stroked Ho-eun’s long, loose hair. His expression was strange as he looked at the hair that wasn’t braided or tied with a Hair Tie. Ho-eun was just looking at Tae-muk without a word. With a face that said he didn’t understand at all. At that, Tae-muk grabbed Ho-eun’s butt tightly with his other hand, as if annoyed.
“I’m saying you have to take me. With this.”
“General!”
Ho-eun, horrified, snatched Tae-muk’s hand. What on earth was he saying? What did he mean, take him with his butt? What could he even take with that, he thought, when Tae-muk’s words from last night suddenly popped into his head.
‘If you don’t want to show your ass here, you better just suck it.’
Show his ass.
Take him with his butt.
So, with his butt, with that place between his buttocks, he would take Tae-muk, Tae-muk’s manhood…….
In an instant, the blood drained from Ho-eun’s face.
Is that what men, the God of War and his Bondmate, do? Is such an act reasonable? No, is that even possible in the first place?
The act between the God of War and his Bondmate that Ho-eun had imagined was, well, that…….
Actually, he didn’t really know.
He had never thought deeply about such things. He spent the whole day suffering, so there was no energy left to think about such things. He had vaguely guessed that he would find out when the time came.
But the end of that avoidance was like this. What should he do about this…….
Ho-eun’s flat chest heaved as he breathed heavily. Tae-muk grabbed his soft cheek roughly and shook it from side to side. Ho-eun’s long hair fluttered and scattered.
“You look like you want to bite your tongue and die.”
“……”
“Yeah, you guys like that, don’t you? Fidelity, integrity, that kind of thing.”
“……”
At those words, Ho-eun frowned slightly. He felt it was wrong for words like fidelity and integrity to be mentioned here. Ho-eun looked at Tae-muk with trembling eyes, but with a straight gaze.
“I am the General’s Bondmate. It is absurd for me to maintain integrity in front of you, General.”
The moment Ho-eun finished speaking, he realized his contradiction. Yes, we are a match made by heaven. Destiny. Why am I rejecting him? Why did I say I didn’t like it when I didn’t even know what kind of act it was?
Because the act I tasted briefly last night was too painful? Scary? Unfamiliar? Embarrassing? Shameful?
Those were plausible reasons, but they were not reasons for rejection. Then what on earth……. Ho-eun was falling into deeper thought when Tae-muk threw his collar away as if discarding it.
“Then take it off.”
“……”
Ho-eun remained still, collapsed on the ground. He had realized his contradiction, but he was still uncomfortable. He didn’t want to take off his clothes. He didn’t want to continue the act.
Why?
Why was he so uncomfortable?
Ho-eun, who was agonizing to the point where his forehead was throbbing, soon realized.
This is not a problem of the act. It’s a problem of emotion.
Ho-eun thought that all the acts he shared with his God of War would be warm, happy, and fulfilling. But there was none of that between Tae-muk and him. Instead, there was command, coercion, and abuse.
“If you don’t like it, go back to your precious house. I don’t need you.”
Tae-muk said in an annoyed tone to Ho-eun, who was stubbornly resisting. Then, as if he would no longer deal with him, he got up and headed for the desk. After that, he took out a cigarette and put it in his mouth.
Ho-eun slowly raised his upper body. And he looked up at Tae-muk quietly.
“……”
Tae-muk doesn’t like me. Not as a partner, not as a Bondmate, maybe not even as a human being.
So, do I want to go back home?
Do I want to go back to that prison-like, sometimes coffin-like room?
That’s not it. Ho-eun liked this place, the outside, the world.
Moreover, no matter how Tae-muk felt, the fact that he was his Bondmate did not change. That meant he couldn’t keep rejecting this act. As Tae-muk said, this was clearly his job and his responsibility.
Then how should he overcome this situation?
Ho-eun, who was scratching the Straw mat with his fingertips, swallowed hard. And just as Tae-muk was about to light a match, he said in a voice that was barely audible, as if muttering.
“Yesterday, you said you were going easy on me because I was a nobleman, right?”
Ho-eun remembered every syllable of what Tae-muk had said last night.
‘I’m going easy on you because you’re a nobleman. Be grateful.’
He didn’t know what showing his ass was, or how not doing that act was ‘going easy’ on him, but looking at the current situation, it seemed that was really the case.
“Then please go easy on me today too.”
“……What?”
“I don’t want to take off my clothes here. As you said, General, maybe it’s because I’m a precious young master.”
“……”
“So please go easy on me.”
Tae-muk paused for a moment at the neat words, then let out a dumbfounded laugh. Then, just as he was about to open his mouth to say something, Ho-eun said something unexpected.
“Dick……”
The metallic voice was split into several strands.
“What?”
When Tae-muk frowned, Ho-eun said again in a faintly trembling voice.
“You said… to practice sucking dick.”
“……”
“I’ll do it. Practice.”
Ho-eun knew that this was not a fundamental solution, but just a short escape. But he didn’t want to do such an act in this shabby tent. At least the first time, he didn’t want the first time he did it with his destined partner to be so miserable.
“Until we arrive at the garrison, could you go easy on me with that?”
“……”
“Please…….”
Ho-eun pleaded, lowering his eyelids as much as possible, which were so pale that all the blue veins were visible.
“……”
Tae-muk was silent for a while. Ho-eun guessed at a rejection in the lengthening silence. But suddenly, Tae-muk squatted down in front of Ho-eun.
“Say it again.”
“Please……”
“No, before that.”
“……”
Ho-eun looked back and forth between Tae-muk’s eyes, reflecting on what he had said before that. Then, when he sorted out the words that Tae-muk had ordered him to say ‘again’ from the many sentences, there was only one left.
“Dick… sucking practice……”
Ho-eun’s eyelashes trembled as he said that. So did his lower lip.
“……”
Tae-muk stared intently at Ho-eun’s lips. As if he was trying to find the words Ho-eun had just uttered on his lips. Ho-eun bit his lip at the persistent gaze. Indeed, the word he had just uttered remained tingling on the tip of his lips.
“……”
“……”
Silence fell. Occasionally, the tent fluttered in the wind, and the charcoal in the brazier crackled. Then, in an instant, one corner of Tae-muk’s mouth lifted as much as it could, to the point where it looked sharp.
Ho-eun, who was somehow uneasy at that smile, stared at Tae-muk with fearful eyes. He commanded.
“Again.”
“……Yes?”
“Try it again.”
“……”
Ho-eun blinked rapidly and looked at Tae-muk. Then he moved his lips very slightly.
“Dick… sucking practice.”
It was embarrassing. Although it was less embarrassing than showing his ass, it was still in the same vein. Ho-eun felt as if something inside him was collapsing. It felt like Tae-muk was teasing him in a new way.
But Tae-muk chuckled again. It was a laugh with a subtle madness mixed in.
“Again.”
“……Again?”
“Yeah. Again.”
Ho-eun sighed and opened his mouth again. Tae-muk intently watched the neat face pronouncing the vulgar words. Then he made him do it again, and again. By the time it was about ten times, Ho-eun didn’t care about saying the word anymore.
He thought, a person can become vulgar in an instant.
When Ho-eun’s throat became hoarse from repeating the same words endlessly, Tae-muk sat down on the bed with a thud. His large Durumagi, like a blanket, fluttered and landed a beat later.
“Do it, then.”
Tae-muk nodded his head.
“Yes?”
“You said you were going to practice sucking dick. Do it.”
“Ah……, yes.”
Ho-eun was dazed, wondering if Tae-muk was going to listen to his request. He got up and headed for Tae-muk. And he sat down in front of him in a formal posture. His half-erect penis was visible between Tae-muk’s wide-open legs.
“……”
Yesterday, it was so embarrassing and mortifying to see that. Was it because he had been pronouncing ‘dick’ all the time, or was it because he had narrowly escaped showing his ass? It wasn’t as miserable as yesterday.
Hoo, Ho-eun took a deep breath. But before he could even touch Tae-muk’s thing, his unkempt hair flowed down in front of him. Ho-eun swept it back behind both ears.