By Zephyria 
BANG! BANG! A loud roar echoed every time the bonnet hit the rear of the sedan, and the car body shook violently. Watching that scene from behind, he was driven crazy with anxiety.
“……That psycho, seriously.”
If he had matched speed with the guys following and attacked all at once, there might have been a risk of losing him, but he could have caught him more easily. Why did he insist on taking the hard way?
VROOOOM, suddenly Gyu-oh’s car made a loud noise and increased speed, finally overtaking the sedan. Even then, the car didn’t stop. Seeing the car far ahead of the sedan, he could tell what Gyu-oh was trying to do.
“Hey, stop!”
SCREECH! The car turned sharply as if making a U-turn. Bright red lights flashed over the darkened road. SCREECH, the sedan turned its direction abruptly. It turned so sharply that it headed straight for the shoulder, but it couldn’t avoid the collision. CRASH! Immediately after, the roar of the two cars colliding rang out.
With the loud noise bursting simultaneously from the open window and the phone, his ears hurt. Min-ho gripped the steering wheel and stepped hard on the accelerator. The sound of the engine roared loudly against the road.
The front of the sedan was slammed into the trees lining the road, and the rear had been violently pushed by Gyu-oh’s car. White smoke billowed from the sedan, which had absorbed two collisions. Only when the broken bumper rolled on the ground did the wheels finally stop.
“……I’m going crazy.”
He let out a long sigh, leaning his hand on his forehead. The following cars stopped in a cluster on the shoulder. Min-ho also slowed down and hurriedly jumped out. Then, he saw Gyu-oh kicking the crumpled car door. Soon, their eyes met in the darkness.
“Wow, what a relief.”
The way he exhaled, his shoulders heaving, looked truly refreshed. His forehead seemed to be torn, as blood was trickling down. Even in that state, he grinned and gave a thumbs-up.
“…….”
It felt as if his heart had dropped to his feet and all the blood had drained from his body. His knees wobbled and he almost fell, but he barely managed to stand by leaning against the car.
“Your forehead……”
The guy, who was feeling his forehead with his fingertips, didn’t seem surprised even after seeing the blood. The Bulky Guys rushed toward the wrecked sedan.
“Now I can sleep with my legs stretched out.”
Won Gyu-oh stretched his arms wide in the air. As he said, since the aching tooth had been pulled, it was only right to feel refreshed. But the question of why Won Gyu-oh had acted so recklessly still remained unsolved.
* * *
“Won Gyu-oh.”
Gyu-oh ignored Min-ho’s murderous gaze and played dumb. He acted as if he were looking around the hospital room with both hands shoved in the pockets of his patient gown.
“There’s even a flowerpot here. No wonder the air felt good. Why didn’t I see it earlier?”
“…….”
Even though he insisted he was fine, Min-ho had stubbornly admitted him to the hospital. He claimed that although there were no visible injuries, since there had been a collision, it was necessary to run tests just in case. He put him in the hospital room and made him undergo all sorts of tests. Gyu-oh wasn’t one to like feeling stifled, but he tried to endure it, considering this too as Hyung’s concern.
However, the problem was that as night fell, worry began to creep in. That’s why he secretly escaped the hospital room at dawn. But he ended up getting caught red-handed by Min-ho, who was returning to the hospital after cleaning up the aftermath.
“The air in the van was so stuffy that even when I closed my eyes, it was restless. You know, right? If you sleep in a stifling place, you get sleep paralysis.”
The response to his pointless chatter was a fierce hand striking his back.
“You human. Grow up. How long do you think you’ll stay in your youth!”
“Aaa. Forehead, forehead.”
Even though he was being hit on the back, he held his forehead and exaggerated the pain. Then, the fierce hand stopped immediately. If he was going to scold him, he should do it properly; it never lasted long. This was why he kept wanting to push his luck.
People around them often said, ‘Min-ho is soft on Gyu-oh,’ and at times like this, it felt real. Won Gyu-oh felt as if he were being confirmed as someone special to Cha Min-ho.
Even if they lived like sworn brothers, was it right to feel such emotions? The question of reflecting on the time passed since that day became more frequent.
“My head hurts because of you, seriously.”
“Are you thinking of me so much that your head hurts?”
A sigh leaked from the gap of the lips that had opened to say something. Then, he pushed Gyu-oh’s shoulder. Pretending to be pushed by the force, Gyu-oh lay on the bed, and Min-ho pulled the thin blanket up to his shoulders. The rustling sound of the blanket rubbing against the patient gown felt strangely good.
“Why is that mouth of yours still perfectly fine?”
The tone was cold, but at least he was responding consistently. Of course, he wouldn’t meet his eyes. Since that day, the opportunities to look into Min-ho’s eyes had decreased. It wasn’t a mistake or a fluke on his part, but it seemed to reach Hyung that way.
“Other places are fine too.”
Gyu-oh grabbed Min-ho’s hand, which was moving away after tidying the blanket. He slid his thumb between the sleeves of the neatly buttoned shirt. He could feel the thin skin and the slightly prominent outline of the veins.
“Want me to let you check?”
As he whispered as if into his ear, Min-ho’s expression cracked. A cold gaze soon turned toward him. Although the eyes were filled with fatigue and irritation, he felt that even this was something.
“……If you keep acting like this, I might even change your number.”
It was a threat to treat me the same as any other guy, but Hyung could never actually do that. If he intended to, he would have changed my saved name and blocked me the very day we had sex. Although he did bolt back to the office, leaving me all alone, I was still a brat to Cha Min-ho, and a troublesome younger brother.
“Ah, alright.”
Though it was a bit disappointing to be limited to just a ‘brother.’ For now, I had to be satisfied with the fact that I wasn’t being ignored like his previous partners. When I stopped subtly rubbing the inside of my wrist, Min-ho turned his body as if he had been waiting. He then headed toward a sofa a short distance away and took out his things.
“You’re going to work and sleep here?”
“Yeah, on the sofa.”
“The bed is wide.”
He shifted around, making a spot for himself. It was tight for two people to lie down. Still, wouldn’t it be enough if we lay on our sides and hugged each other?
The fact that I was imagining being tangled up with Min-ho felt unfamiliar, yet a silly grin kept forming on my face.
“Why are you smirking? It’s creepy. I’m turning off the lights.”
Min-ho flicked his eyebrows and clicked off the hospital room lights. After the sound of rustling in the darkness, the bright light of a laptop flickered on. His eyes would hurt if he kept doing that. Knowing full well that if I told him not to work, he’d just pack his things and leave, I simply turned and lay down, quietly watching Min-ho.
Even in the dark, the sound of typing on the keyboard was loud. The light pouring from the laptop screen stained Min-ho’s face.
“…….”
He looked like such a dry, withered person, yet he had been quite proactive during their encounter. That day, Min-ho wore an expression I hadn’t seen in nearly ten years and let out moans.
How many people had he done that with without my knowledge? Countless business partners who had passed through his life flashed through my mind. How many of them had seen that erotic side of him long before I did? Just imagining it made my blood boil.
Because heat was rushing through my body, I whipped away the blanket Min-ho had meticulously covered me with. Immediately, a sharp gaze followed.
“Cover up.”
“…….”
A chilly air had settled in the hospital room, but Gyu-oh’s insides were boiling over. Before, Min-ho’s secret had felt quite heavy, but now he felt resentful that he hadn’t realized it sooner.
“If you don’t cover yourself properly, I’m leaving.”
“……I got it.”
Only after confirming that I had pulled the blanket over me did his gaze drift away. Min-ho poured all his attention into the laptop, as if he were a man who saw nothing but work. Because of the darkness, it was hard to read his expression.
As I stared quietly at Cha Min-ho’s face, he began to look new to me. Were Hyung’s eyes always like that? His bridge of the nose was high, and though his lips were chapped, they were very red. I had always thought he was handsome, but perhaps because of that sensitive aura, he seemed to exude a strangely erotic atmosphere.
What is Hyung thinking? Does he want to bury this and pretend nothing happened? Does he want to dismiss it as a one-time mistake? Is that why he vowed to send me far away?
Then… what about me? The question mark that had been directed only at Min-ho now turned toward myself.
“…….”
I want to interfere with Cha Min-ho a bit more. I want to carve the sights I’ve never seen into my eyes. I’ve come to want to know every single habit and small quirk I couldn’t perceive until now. I want to get closer. I hope he is no longer swept away by loneliness.
Is this really the kind of emotion that arises between a close Hyung and younger brother? The question mark only grew larger.
“Hmm.”
As I continued to stare intently at Min-ho’s face, the area below slowly began to feel tight. Here we go again. Is it because of the memory of our bodies matching once? The image of him shaking his hips above me, and the hot body temperature and pressure as he tightly clenched his aching hole, came flooding back.
“Huum.”
Actually, this wasn’t the first time. After mixing bodies with Min-ho, memories of that day would suddenly resurface at any given moment. There had been more than a few times over the past few days where I was troubled by the accompanying arousal. When I closed my eyes, the face enduring excitement with tightly shut eyes in the hazy darkness filled my mind.
“…….”
Come to think of it, the atmosphere is similar to now. I feel my lips drying out. I swallowed the arousal that kept surging up along with a dry spit.
If only it were a dream, it would disappear upon waking. But no matter how many times I closed and opened my eyes, the Min-ho in front of me did not vanish.
“Ahem, ahem.”
After clearing my throat once more, I bolted upright. I hurried my steps toward the bathroom attached to the hospital room. My gait was awkward because of the throbbing below, but since it was dark, he wouldn’t see. I locked the door tightly so no sound would leak out and turned on the faucet.
Swoosh—even with the loud pouring of water, I couldn’t regain my composure.
“Won Gyu-oh, you piece of trash, you human scum.”
See. The slut isn’t Hyung, it’s me. With my hand on my forehead, I glanced down. One side of my patient gown pants was bulging thick.
“Haa.”
My eyelids grew hot as if tears were about to well up. If I went out like this, he’d definitely notice. Biting his lower lip hard, Gyu-oh glanced around. After double-checking the closed door, he lightly pulled the top of his patient gown and bit into it.
“……Ha, fuck.”
At this age, I can’t even handle getting hard and have to masturbate. Won Gyu-oh has truly become trash. Clenching my teeth as hard as possible so no sound would escape, I slid my hand inside the waistband of my pants.
In the end, I ejaculated while thinking of Min-ho, who was just one wall away. Self-loathing washed over me, but what could I do when my body kept reacting? I scrubbed my hands with soap until the scent of arousal was completely gone, then cautiously left the bathroom.
“…….”
The hospital room was silent. The laptop screen that had been lighting up the darkness was gone. Standing there blankly, Gyu-oh belatedly turned on the room lights.
“When did he leave?”
Did sound leak out while I was masturbating? I held it in until my jaw felt sore. I quickly tried calling, but the other party didn’t answer. Only a half-hearted automatic reply—’Currently driving’—came back.
How can he leave without leaving a single trace or saying a word? The empty hospital room felt exceptionally wide.
“……If I knew he was leaving, I would’ve done it while looking at his face.”
No matter how much I indulged in this absurd regret, the bus had already left. Licking his lips in lingering disappointment, Gyu-oh trudged toward the sofa instead of the bed. He lay down in the spot that had cooled so much that not even the warmth of someone having stayed there could be felt.
He stared blankly up at the ceiling filled with bright light, then quietly closed his eyes. As he breathed slowly, he felt as if he could faintly smell Min-ho’s hand cream.
He had always lived believing that humans were simple beings. Weak creatures who wavered with just a little bit of affection. That’s why he had been arrogant, thinking he was a guy who knew how to cunningly use such humans.
But after spending a lonely night with Min-ho, he realized. That he, too, was nothing more than a human. He realized that he had sneered because he didn’t want to admit that.