By Zephyria 
“Oh, come on, guys. Don’t be like that. Shouldn’t we squeeze out everything we can while we can?”
“Of course, but… it’s not really pleasant to be called out for something other than singing.”
Ra Ho-yeon mumbled while drinking his ion drink.
“Besides, isn’t there someone else who deserves more attention than us?”
He pointed at me, who was lying still.
I flinched, but pretended to be asleep, snoring away.
[Coward.]
‘Don’t curse.’
What’s wrong with being a little cowardly? I can enjoy a honey-like rest!
It had been a few days since I was discharged from the hospital, but I insisted on resting and didn’t show my face on any programs.
‘I’ll just get cursed at if I go out anyway.’
I was tempted by the appearance fees… but right now, rest was more crucial.
It was because I wanted to focus on recovering from the aftereffects of the forced Guiding.
Even at the hospital for Ability Users, they didn’t notice anything strange about my body and told me I was fine to be discharged.
I almost let out my dirty temper from my past life then.
‘I’m sick! It really hurts, my whole body aches! Are you a quack?!’
…I couldn’t shout that. Since I couldn’t run away anywhere without paying the penalty, I obediently agreed and pretended to have a body ache and lay down.
Yeon Yujin had done this often before, so the members asked a few times and then stopped, and the Manager didn’t push me any further.
I was glad they didn’t bother me, but at the same time, I felt a little lonely.
‘Manager Hyung and those members are probably worried that I have amnesia and might cause trouble if they take me along.’
So I stayed alone in the dorm, rolling around aimlessly. Sometimes I played games. At some point, I even watched Secrety’s first music video.
In the uneventful and quiet days, I melted away.
‘I wish I could just live like this, doing nothing…….’
But then I got angry thinking about the culprit who tried to kill me and steal my ability, Potato, walking around freely in this society.
“No. I have to kill that bastard before I go.”
My mood was jumping and leaping like catching a wild sea bream. The members who occasionally peeked at me going crazy while sleeping would say, ‘Yeon Yujin is alive,’ and ignore me.
And now.
I didn’t want to be noticed, so I completely buried myself under the blanket.
‘My abilities from my past life seem to be almost 99 percent back while resting……. It’s not good to get noticed by the government at times like this.’
It was enough for the four young Esper members of Secrety to be praised. I didn’t need people’s attention or admiration. I never had any of that when I was a Guide in my past life.
It wasn’t that I didn’t think about Jae-ha noticing me if I filmed a broadcast. But I was more afraid that the government would recognize my abilities and become suspicious.
What if it was revealed that my rank had rapidly increased to SSS-Class?
What if the culprit attacked me again…….
Or, in the worst case, what if Jae-ha thought of me as someone closely related to the person who killed ‘An Ga-hyeon.’
‘That would be a direct path to the worst possible ending.’
Thinking about that made me avoid most schedules.
But then Ra Ho-yeon hit my back where I was lying and said to Hyung-soo Hyung.
“If you think about it, Yeon Yujin is the reason we’re doing so well, since he gave us Guiding and pushed us forward. It’s unfair that he’s not getting any benefits.”
‘What’s wrong with this bastard?’
Weren’t you the one who was so cold and mean to me?
Why are you so eager to take care of me? It’s annoying.
The Secrety members themselves were also dissatisfied with the situation where Yeon Yujin was constantly excluded, though he didn’t know it.
‘It’s a schedule we wouldn’t have gotten if it weren’t for Yeon Yujin.’
At first, they were happy. They thought that Yeon Yujin, who only caused trouble, was finally proving his worth.
But as more and more work came in, and the public praised them as heroes who saved the citizens, their hearts grew heavier.
After all, they were still young men.
Even though Yeon Yujin only caused trouble, he had changed since he almost died, and their resentment was slowly melting away.
The awakened Yeon Yujin didn’t seem interested in this at all.
He was different from before. He used to love singing and dancing, but he refused to work like a rebellious and stubborn child…….
Now, he was completely ignoring everything.
He should have become an idol because he liked it. But the awakened Yeon Yujin often stared blankly outside, as if he had a completely different goal.
Sometimes, he couldn’t breathe well in his sleep and choked, perhaps because of the trauma of the past. When the members couldn’t stand it and woke him up, he would smile brightly with a face they had never seen before and say.
“What……. Is Jae-ha here?”
‘Who is Jae-ha?’
Hadn’t he mentioned Jae-ha last time too?
Strangely, when they felt bad, Yeon Yujin, who wasn’t fully awake, would come over and put his face on the member’s palm.
When they tried to pull their arm away, startled, Yeon Yujin would blink his black star-like eyes and plead.
“Are you going?”
“…….”
“Don’t go. Stay with me.”
Ra Ho-yeon, Shin Tae-beom, Seo Yun-chae, and Cha Si-yoon all experienced this.
One person experienced it, and they couldn’t wake him up a second time, so they passed it on, and eventually everyone experienced it.
For the first time, they felt a little guilty towards Yeon Yujin.
‘Are we making him suffer like this because we’ve been neglecting him too much?’
Were they the only ones revealing their loneliness in a place where no one knew?
They didn’t realize it, but they were becoming interested in Yeon Yujin by experiencing the sensation of being connected to a Guide for the first time during the Dungeon Break incident.
Guiding is an act that gives Espers a very euphoric sensation.
The Guiding that Yeon Yujin, who was an SSS-Class Guide, gave them showed them a new world.
The euphoria of Guiding, which they never thought they would experience while choosing the path of an idol.
Because of that, a small amount of goodwill grew and took root in their hearts, and they couldn’t help but worry about Yeon Yujin.
Whenever they were asked about Yeon Yujin on a program they were invited to as guests, all the members became sensitive.
“What is Yeon Yujin doing these days? I heard he’s only focusing on resting due to the aftereffects of the Dungeon Break incident.”
“Citizens who witnessed it said that Yeon Yujin was very close to the members, unlike what the world says…….”
There were mainly two reasons for bringing up the story of Yeon Yujin, who was not present and was known for his bad reputation.
They were really interested in Yeon Yujin because they saw him differently after this incident.
Or, they were poking at the Secrety members to extract sensational stories.
No matter which program they went to, there were people like this mixed in.
Each time, Ra Ho-yeon, the eldest and leader of the Secrety members, avoided the dangerous atmosphere by glossing over it with appropriate answers.
But they didn’t know how long they could avoid it like this.
What the Secrety members, who became overnight stars thanks to Yeon Yujin, felt while receiving work was…….
“They came out again, excluding that member.”
“There were rumors of discord. They say it’s not true, but who knows what they’re really thinking.”
“It would be better for them to reorganize and come out with only the Espers, excluding that member altogether. It would be better for them to prepare a new album now that their reputation has risen and make a grand splash, wouldn’t it?”
People kept bringing up their stories and chewing on them without knowing anything.
They weren’t tofu-hearted enough to be scared by this, but they wondered if Yeon Yujin had been so sensitive because of these hyena-like groups.
Yeon Yujin, who came in when rumors were circulating that he was a parachute or an illegitimate child of a wealthy family, was originally a friend who was full of longing and responsibility for becoming an idol.
‘P, please take care of me!’
He used to practice with sparkling eyes back then.
At some point, Yeon Yujin, who had become twisted, had completely changed.
After losing his memory, Yeon Yujin was always eager to go somewhere, like someone who was there but not there.
So they didn’t want to exclude Yeon Yujin from the schedule anymore.
To the guy who might have thrown away his passion for being an idol in his lost memories.
It was late, and they didn’t deserve it, but they wanted to tell him to run together again as members.
“Manager Hyung. I hope Yeon Yujin will join us on the upcoming schedules.”