By Zephyria 
“Why are you really being like this.”
“What.”
“Why do you keep doing useless things.”
“Is it just for a day or two?”
Gu Hae-bin answered nonchalantly and put an electronic cigarette in his mouth. Eun-ha raised his eyebrows.
“I’ll do anything.”
He paused when he said that. It was a word that, when interpreted, contained a kind meaning, implying that there was nothing he wouldn’t do for you, no matter how much effort it took. And to Eun-ha, it still sounded like he was afraid of you.
That day acted as a catalyst for Gu Hae-bin becoming so extreme.
If he doesn’t keep an eye on you even for a moment, he’s afraid that you might go back to that hideous state at any time.
Eun-ha himself evaluated his condition that way, but it seemed that he didn’t look completely sane in his eyes either.
When he couldn’t find anything to say and remained silent, Gu Hae-bin brought up the main point.
“Just have a normal relationship. Take this opportunity.”
“……”
“After talking to him, I don’t think he’s that immature.”
That was something Eun-ha was well aware of. He realized it almost every moment they were together. Yeon-jun was thoughtful, to the point where he sometimes thought there were things he could learn from him. It wasn’t that he didn’t have any childishness at all. But at least he was a much better person than himself.
That’s why it shouldn’t happen even more, Eun-ha thought. What does he lack? Eun-ha was not in the right state of mind to meet anyone, and he didn’t have the confidence to meet anyone. That’s why he didn’t want to be in a relationship. All he had to do, all he could do, was hope that Yeon-jun would be able to sort out his feelings while they spent some more time together.
“It’s not normal for me to meet him at my age.”
“I don’t think that’s something you should be saying, considering you were following the department teaching assistant around at the same age as him?”
“Hey. Gu Hae-bin.”
“Look at you getting angry because I’m spitting facts.”
“……”
Gu Hae-bin sarcastically sneered at Eun-ha, who was raising his voice. Eun-ha glared at him with all his might. He was a guy who had a knack for making people angry. Whether he did or not, Gu Hae-bin was just puffing out smoke with a face that showed no hesitation.
“From the beginning, that’s why you’re worried.”
“What are you worried about.”
“Because he’s so much like you.”
“……”
“It looks like that to me.”
Isn’t it? He couldn’t answer the question. He couldn’t answer. Like you. Lee Eun-ha. It’s like seeing you in the past.
Eun-ha stood still for a while with a stiff face. When the silence grew longer, Gu Hae-bin glanced at Eun-ha and smirked.
“You look like you’ve been hit right on the mark.”
“……I’m leaving if you’re going to talk nonsense.”
“Yeah, go quickly. And take good care of your baby?”
Eun-ha responded to his friend by raising his middle finger. After warning him not to call Yeon-jun out like this again, he got into the driver’s seat. At the noise, Yeon-jun stirred slightly and turned his body. Looking at him, he was completely drunk.
Eun-ha, whose eyes softened for a moment towards him, stared at his side for a while, then quietly started the engine and drove the car. Arriving at the Officetel, he got out of the car, opened the passenger seat door, and stood there blankly for a moment. He had managed to park, but he wondered how to take this big guy with him.
He tried to pull him out by using various tricks, but it was all in vain. As expected, he couldn’t even think of moving him alone. Eventually, Eun-ha bent down and shook Yeon-jun’s shoulder gently.
“Yeon-jun.”
He patted him under the shoulder and touched his cheek lightly, calling him for a long time. A faint smile appeared on his face as he mumbled something incomprehensible, as if it were annoying.
How long had he tried to wake him up? Finally, his eyelids twitched. Soon, Yeon-jun opened his eyes thinly and cast a blurry gaze at Eun-ha.
“Are you awake?”
He didn’t show any reaction and just stared blankly. His eyes were completely gone, but he was grateful for even this. He was about to reach out his arm to support him. At that moment, Eun-ha gasped in dismay. He opened his mouth and looked down at the passenger seat. Because Yeon-jun, who had been looking at him loosely, suddenly showed tears.
There was no change in his expression at all. He just stared at Eun-ha with blurry eyes, and the sight of his eyelashes just glistening and getting wet was even more unbelievable.
“Yeon-jun… are you crying?”
When he asked in surprise belatedly, his pupils, which had only been blurry, briefly focused and then quickly blurred again.
“I’m not crying……”
His voice was completely wavering. And then he lowered his head as if he didn’t want to show it. As a result of the reaction, a drop of the pooled tears fell, and Eun-ha became even more embarrassed. No, he’s really crying…
“Why… why are you crying.”
“I’m not crying.”
“If this isn’t crying.”
“So this is… because I’m annoyed……”
“……”
“It’s definitely not that Hyung is annoying… it’s just, too……”
His voice, mumbling with unclear pronunciation, was also filled with tears. A hollow smile flowed out at the mentality of denying that it was because of Hyung until the end, even though he was so drunk that it was difficult to reason. How can he… how can he be so consistent? That kind of melting feeling came over him.
“…Let’s go home first, Yeon-jun.”
Eun-ha, who had been struggling for a while, finally spoke. After supporting Yeon-jun so that he could get out of the car, he wrapped his arm around his shoulder. While heading home, he staggered and put his weight on Eun-ha. He clung to him like a flirtatious person, and he felt embarrassed when his lips and cheeks occasionally brushed against his neck, but there was nothing he could do. What can I do about Drunken behavior… He couldn’t just abandon him here. Eun-ha focused only on supporting him, enduring the occasional creeping sensation.
He struggled to open the front door and entered the living room. In the end, he almost dragged Yeon-jun and sat him on the sofa. As he was helping him balance his swaying body, the arm that had been around his shoulder came down and wrapped around Eun-ha’s waist. Before he could react, he was quickly pulled in and trapped in his arms. Because he was sitting almost sideways to look at Yeon-jun, his legs were completely pulled up onto his thighs.
“…Yeon-jun.”
Eun-ha called out embarrassedly, but Yeon-jun leaned his head against Eun-ha’s shoulder as if he couldn’t hear him. His eyelashes, which were rubbing against his cheek as if he were acting spoiled, were still soaked with tears. It wasn’t enough to flow, but it didn’t seem like they would dry.
And he didn’t seem to have any intention of letting go of the body he was holding tightly as if he would lose it as soon as he let go. It was an embarrassing Drunken behavior, but there was nothing else he could do. He’s crying like this, what can I do…
He felt sorry. He had nothing to say and nothing he could do. Eun-ha, who had been looking at his constantly wet eyelashes with regret, finally reached out his hand. He stroked his head, hoping the tears would stop. But he was quickly stopped.
“Don’t do that.”
It was a muffled voice filled with tears.
“I’m just a younger acquaintance.”
“……”
“You don’t even like me……”
He was a little surprised. Because it was the kind of resentment that he would never bring up normally.
“Why are you always so nice to me……”