He hung up the phone after only hearing the word ‘bar’. In a flustered state, I called him again, but only the voice saying that the customer was not answering the phone was repeated. I clutched the cut-off phone and blankly recalled what Choi Tae-gyeom had said.
‘Stay there.’
He seemed ready to run over right away. He didn’t even know which bar it was, so how was he going to find me? It was impossible unless he had some kind of superpower.
On the one hand, I was dumbfounded, but on the other hand, my heart fluttered. Because the words that he would give up on me felt so unrealistic.
“Ah…, I’m going to smell like alcohol.”
I was still feeling hazy. If I made a mistake, I might fall asleep like this. The plan to blow away the alcohol with the cold wind also fell through because the weather wasn’t cold.
I closed my eyes tightly and opened them again, looking up at the sky. A rounder moon than ever was floating in the dark sky. Come to think of it, we used to go camping often with our family. But it gradually became vague as Choi Tae-gyeom manifested.
Should I call again?
It had already been 20 minutes since I hung up. It hadn’t been long, but I was still worried. What kind of trick was he going to use to find me? It was impossible unless he had some kind of superpower.
I called with that thought, but the signal was cut off surprisingly quickly.
“Hello?”
—…….
“Where are you…”
“Lee Yoon-woo.”
Suddenly, I lifted my head. After a slight pause, the call of ‘Lee Yoon-woo’ was heard over the phone as well. Choi Tae-gyeom, who was holding the phone to his ear with wide eyes in surprise, was seen.
“I’ve been looking for a while.”
“Oh…”
He strode towards me, sweeping back his tousled bangs. He was wearing a plain t-shirt and athletic clothes, with his wallet and phone in his hand. Anyone could tell he had just come from relaxing at home.
“I went inside the bar because I heard it was there…”
I felt like I was in a dream. I had been waiting for Choi Tae-gyeom the whole time, but when he appeared before my eyes, I felt strange. My stomach seemed to ache, my chest felt heavy, and I felt a bubbly excitement.
“Did you smoke?”
Choi Tae-gyeom smoothed my forehead with a natural gesture. His large hand rubbed my forehead and cheeks in succession. A faint shampoo scent wafted from him, along with a subtle pheromone.
“Your face is hot.”
“…How did you know I was here?”
“I knew you had a club meeting.”
He was breathing shallowly. His hair was a mess, as if he had really been looking for me for a while. Choi Tae-gyeom, who had been scrutinizing my face, gently stroked the back of my head.
“So?”
“Huh?”
His gaze was full of worry. It wasn’t a worry that had just arisen; it was an emotion that had been spreading since earlier. He carefully examined my face and spoke in a very gentle tone.
“How much did you drink?”
I wondered why he had rushed over so urgently, but it seemed he had noticed I had been drinking even over the phone. He was so sensitive to changes related to me that it would have been stranger if he hadn’t noticed.
“I didn’t drink much.”
“You didn’t drink much, you say.”
Your eyes are all glazed over. Choi Tae-gyeom chided me like that and took my hand. I stood up awkwardly, following him, and he carefully brushed off my clothes. It was a delicate touch, as if he were handling a child.
“Let’s go, I’ll take you home.”
I had said I wanted to see him, but he didn’t ask anything. He rushed over in an instant, yet he didn’t expect anything from me. Even the pheromones floating in the air were concealing Choi Tae-gyeom’s emotions.
I gripped Choi Tae-gyeom’s hand tightly. His long fingers intertwined with mine, as if interlocking. I pulled Choi Tae-gyeom towards me, and he turned to look at me. His face, illuminated by the moonlight, sparked a fierce impulse.
“……”
It was fine to blame it on the alcohol. It was okay to regret it later. The moment our faces drew closer and I lowered my eyes, it was because he had tacitly agreed.
Slowly, our lips met. At first, it was light and fleeting, and then it became a little heavier. A faint tremor and subtle pheromones were transmitted from our touching lips.
“……”
Choi Tae-gyeom looked at me with his eyes lowered. He didn’t move his lips, nor did he close his eyes. As if time had stopped. Or perhaps he was just stiffening his expression, as if he was embarrassed.
I parted my lips and spoke in a whisper.
“Close your eyes.”
It was what Choi Tae-gyeom had said once before. We couldn’t touch that day, but today was different. This time, we would touch.
In the fleeting moment when our lips collided, Choi Tae-gyeom’s pheromones poured out like a waterfall. The wildly erupting pheromones numbed my reason and drew out my desires.
In the blink of an eye, he sat me down on the steps and tilted his head. He wrapped one hand around my shoulder and the other around the back of my head, and he pushed his tongue in a little impatiently. His soft tongue parted my lips and invaded the inside.
My legs felt like they would give way at any moment. If he hadn’t sat me down, I might have collapsed in an unsightly manner. Choi Tae-gyeom gradually suppressed his pheromones, but the desires that had already bloomed did not wither and grew instead. Our softly intertwined tongues slowly expanded their territory.
“Ugh…”
A groan escaped my throat. I must smell like alcohol… or so I thought for a moment. The moment he mixed his tongue with mine, as if quenching a parched throat, my mind went blank.
It was definitely not our first kiss, but it felt like the first time. Back then, it was my heat cycle, and now I had been drinking, but it was the same hazy sensation. Of course, if we were to compare the explicitness, it was more intense now. Back then, I was gradually losing my reason, but now I was gradually becoming more lucid.
Lips, inside my mouth, ears and neck, and even the small of my back. Everywhere we touched was hot. My shoulders kept shrinking whenever his hands touched me.
My hair seemed to stand on end. Every time his soft tongue brushed against the delicate mucous membrane inside my mouth, my lower abdomen tensed up. He carefully entangled his tongue with mine, occasionally tickling the underside of my tongue as he continued the kiss. The heightened senses were so intensely pleasurable that it gave me goosebumps.
“……”
“……”
Our lips parted very slowly. Choi Tae-gyeom, who had been holding my lower lip in his mouth, pressed his forehead against mine and blinked slowly.
“…Yoon-woo.”
His voice was hoarse with excitement. Just as I had reacted to him, he must have reacted to me as well. Choi Tae-gyeom, who had been composing himself as if choosing his words, whispered in a husky voice.
“If you do this, I’ll get my hopes up.”
Even this time, Choi Tae-gyeom didn’t expect anything. Even though I had kissed him first, he didn’t hope for anything. Perhaps he had become more accustomed to suppressing his emotions than I had.
“…Then get your hopes up.”
I grabbed Choi Tae-gyeom’s face with both hands and met his gaze. Our lips didn’t touch this time, but the warmth that had lingered was still vivid.
“I’m doing this so you’ll get your hopes up.”
Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad to drink sometimes. To see how easily the words come out, even though I’m so nervous. It was cowardly to fill the courage I lacked with alcohol, but at least I was grateful for that fact now.
“I’ve always hated being an Omega.”
I still felt sick to my stomach whenever I thought back to when I had presented. It would take three days and nights to explain the despair I had felt back then. I was more saddened by the fact that I would have to live as an Omega for the rest of my life than by the fact that I would have to retake the entrance exam.
“I was so afraid that you would hate me, despise me, and feel uncomfortable around me.”
“……”
“I was so scared.”
“How could I,”
Choi Tae-gyeom began in a weak voice. His dark eyes were filled with a sense of injustice.
“How could I hate you?”
A smile that didn’t fit the situation appeared. His gaze towards me was so unwavering that I wondered why I hadn’t realized it until now. What had I been worrying about all this time, when I had been receiving such a gaze?
“Me too.”
I was planning to take things one step at a time. Just as you don’t hate me, I don’t hate you either. So the guilt you have is actually a meaningless emotion.
“No matter what you do, I won’t hate you.”
I needed to give him reassurance. I wanted to be honest so that this timid guy would believe my words completely.
“Not out of a sense of duty or anything.”
“……”
“It’s not because we’re friends either.”
We had come too far to go back to the way we were before. After going around and around, we had finally arrived at this place. Not friends, not lovers, but something ambiguous. At the end of that ambiguity, shouldn’t I at least leave my feelings behind?
“When I was a senior in high school.”
My throat tightened. I was revealing the feelings I had hidden for so long in front of Choi Tae-gyeom for the first time. I couldn’t imagine what kind of reaction he would have, what kind of expression he would make, or anything.
“I liked you even before I presented as an Omega.”
I could see his eyes widening. His dark eyes were filled with confusion. I gathered the wildly erupting emotions and spoke in a small voice.
“I like you.”
My heart felt like it was about to leap out of my chest. How could Choi Tae-gyeom have said such trembling words? Even now, knowing that he likes me, I hesitate to say it. Just how much courage did Choi Tae-gyeom have to muster?
“I like you, Choi Tae-gyeom.”
I liked him so much that the words “I like you” couldn’t express it. Once the emotion came out, it quickly consumed my entire heart.
“I like you a lot.”
It should have been like this from the beginning. When he told me he liked me, or when he told me he would give up on me.
“So…”
“……”
“Can’t you not give up on me?”
Choi Tae-gyeom didn’t say anything. He seemed a little dazed, or perhaps he was lost in thought. But what was certain was that his pheromones were reacting erratically to what I was saying now.
“I want to stop being friends, now.”
I deliberately spoke as if it were nothing. As casually as if I were asking if he had eaten, like a common greeting in everyday life.
“What about you?”
This time, Choi Tae-gyeom didn’t hesitate for long either. His flushed lips quivered slightly.
“…Me too.”
His pheromones were released. The fact that he was saying that with such a tense expression was cute. He had fully understood the meaning of my words, but the fact that he was still stiff was so like Choi Tae-gyeom. So I stroked his cheek and replied.
“Then that’s settled.”
Choi Tae-gyeom kissed me without hesitation. The pheromones he had been suppressing seeped out, until my pheromones were completely consumed. And until our hearts finally touched.
The confession crossed the line without hesitation. The line that had existed between him and me had disappeared without a trace. I showed my heart, and he didn’t refuse. For a long time, the emotions we hadn’t been able to express came and went.
* * *
We didn’t exchange any words on the way home. We held hands as we used to, and I could feel the heartbeat of someone, I didn’t know whose, in our intertwined hands. Choi Tae-gyeom occasionally squeezed our clasped hands and sometimes turned to look at me with disbelieving eyes.
And when we arrived in front of my house, he reluctantly let go of my hand. He carefully stroked my head and said good night. I didn’t want to let him go, so the one word that impulsively came out was this.
“…Do you want to stay over?”
The awkward silence that had settled in didn’t disappear even after we entered the house. He silently followed me, but I had to avoid his gaze because of an inexplicable embarrassment. “Stay over,” it sounded like I was holding onto Choi Tae-gyeom with a lot of ulterior motives.
Anyway, unable to bear the embarrassment, I left Choi Tae-gyeom and went into the bathroom. I had told him to go to sleep if he was sleepy, but he looked at me as if to say, “What nonsense are you talking about?” Choi Tae-gyeom’s eyes seemed to say, “How could I sleep if it’s you?”
“Are you done washing?”
Choi Tae-gyeom was sitting on the bed as he had been last time. He looked a little more relaxed than before, wondering what he had been thinking while I was washing.
“Yeah, did you call home?”
“I told them I was staying over at your house.”
“Good job.”
I sat down next to him, shaking my wet hair. Choi Tae-gyeom, who had glanced at me, put his phone down on the bedside table. Because the surroundings were quiet, even the sound of me drying my hair felt loud.
“……”
“…Honestly.”
Choi Tae-gyeom was the one who spoke first. He naturally took the towel and started drying my hair. He put his fingers through my half-wet hair and gently combed it down.
“I still can’t believe it.”
“What?”
“Just everything.”
A cautious touch reached the edge of my cheek. His fingers, which had been gently rubbing the area under my eyes, left a sensual sensation as they moved down to my neck. He rubbed my cold neck and made eye contact with me.
“The fact that you’re an Omega, the fact that we slept together, the fact that you, like me.”
His gaze was calmer than ever. His thinly double-lidded eyes were as beautiful as if they had been drawn with a brush. I fixed my gaze on his long eyelashes and opened my mouth casually.
“I’m saying this in case you misunderstand, but I’m completely sober right now.”
“……”
“It’s been a while since I sobered up.”
I don’t know how many thoughts I had while showering. What if he thinks I’m acting up, what if he thinks I’m talking nonsense because I’m not sober? After many worries, I decided to emphasize that I wasn’t drunk as soon as I came out.
Fortunately, Choi Tae-gyeom smiled faintly. His reddish lips drew a pretty arc. I could see his neat teeth through his parted lips.
“Looks like it.”
My stiff shoulders relaxed. As soon as I sighed, Choi Tae-gyeom asked cautiously.
“Why do you like me?”
It was a question I had already heard once. The conversation I had with Kim Do-hyun in the alley earlier. The conclusion was already there, but instead, I asked Choi Tae-gyeom in return.
“Why do you like me?”
Choi Tae-gyeom’s eyebrows shot up. He moved his lips as if he was about to answer, then lowered his head and leaned his forehead on my shoulder. His fine hair fluttered and touched my neck.
“I don’t know either.”
“……”
“I just liked you from some point on.”
I carefully hugged Choi Tae-gyeom’s back. He wrapped his arms around my waist and hugged me tightly, and began to mumble.
“You said you liked me since you were a senior in high school, I don’t even remember.”
Choi Tae-gyeom’s pheromones leaked out. I slowly stroked Choi Tae-gyeom’s back. His arms around me tightened.
“If you knew how much I like you, you’d run away.”
“…I told you I wouldn’t.”
“No, I know.”
Choi Tae-gyeom, who had spoken firmly, bit my neck. I was caught off guard, so my shoulders shrank. He licked the area he had bitten and caressed my waist with his other hand.
“Lee Yoon-woo.”
I swallowed hard. His low voice felt so sensual.
“Do you remember what I said?”
“What?”
“That if you were an Omega, I would control you with pheromones.”
The amount of pheromones increased in an instant. As if to prove that he had been suppressing them until now, he quickly filled the entire air with pheromones. I could feel Choi Tae-gyeom every time I inhaled.
“I don’t want to make you cry.”
I wondered what he was talking about. In the end, it was that again. I should have known this would happen, I shouldn’t have cried so sadly back then. How surprised must this fragile guy have been to keep that memory with him?
“…I cried because I liked it.”
I cut to the chase and told him only the main point. Choi Tae-gyeom, who was in my arms, raised his head and looked at me.
“I cried because I liked sleeping with you so much.”
I gently stroked the back of his head. His light-colored hair slipped through my fingers without getting caught. Choi Tae-gyeom still fixed his gaze on me and kept his mouth shut.
“Don’t think I was forced to do it.”
“……”
“If I had really said I didn’t like it, then you would have stopped, right?”
I could say with certainty, no matter what anyone said. If I had truly rejected Choi Tae-gyeom, he would have stopped even in the midst of losing his reason. If it had really been a highly coercive act, I wouldn’t have been crying in pleasure all night.
“I don’t mind if you control me with pheromones.”
“……”
“In the first place, I wouldn’t have gotten so excited if it had been another Alpha.”
No matter how much it was my heat cycle, it wouldn’t have mattered if it wasn’t Choi Tae-gyeom. It’s not like Alphas as dominant as Choi Tae-gyeom are common, and I’ve never felt that any Alpha pheromones other than Choi Tae-gyeom’s were attractive.
“If you want to control me, then control me.”
“……”
“Forcibly hold me, make me cry, hurt me. Try it if you want.”
Faint pheromones flowed out. It was because I had been exposed to his pheromones for a long time that they were flowing out naturally. Choi Tae-gyeom seemed to sense my pheromones and flinched, but he didn’t distance himself from me.
“You can’t do it.”
The corners of my lips turned up into a smirk. It was because Choi Tae-gyeom was gradually withdrawing his pheromones. There was no way that this guy, who was so passive even in these small reactions, would harm me.
“That’s why you’re different from those people.”
I should have told him this sooner. My emotions were so overwhelming that I didn’t consider the pain he must have been feeling. The person with the trauma was Choi Tae-gyeom, but I was too busy rationalizing myself.
“That’s why I like you.”
Choi Tae-gyeom looked at me with a somewhat dazed expression. He was moving his red lips, but he didn’t seem to be able to find the right words to say. I pulled him closer and hugged him as I had done before.
“So don’t think like that.”
I felt sorry that Choi Tae-gyeom was still trapped in his trauma. I didn’t like the fact that this beautiful guy was still suffering. I didn’t want the scars he had left to become a means of judging himself.
“Otherwise, it’ll only be hard on you.”
He hugged me without a word. It was a force so strong it felt suffocating, but I didn’t push him away. Once, twice, Choi Tae-gyeom, breathing evenly, buried his face in my neck.
“I think I’m the one who drank.”
His raw breath tickled. His lips brushed against me like feathers every time he spoke.
“I feel… I can’t control myself.”
“In a good way, or a bad way?”
“In a good way.”
I carefully rubbed my cheek against Choi Tae-gyeom’s head. He must have showered earlier, as a faint scent of shampoo wafted up. He rubbed his nose against my neck and murmured in a dreamy voice.
“You smell good.”
“…You say that sometimes.”
What kind of smell do I have? I think he said something similar last time.
“So this is pheromone.”
I flinched, my body trembling. I had been hiding my pheromones for so long that it was a natural reaction. Choi Tae-gyeom inhaled a little deeper and rubbed the area around my shoulder blades.
“Every Omega pheromone I’ve smelled so far has made me feel disgusted.”
I had heard that before. If I were to borrow Choi Tae-gyeom’s words, he had said it was a creepily unpleasant feeling.
“But you, Lee Yoon-woo, you’re not like that.”
“……”
“I feel like I’m going crazy with how good it is.”
He slowly rubbed his nose along my jawline. I could feel the fine hairs standing on end every time his sharp nose touched my skin. Finally, he reached the hollow below my ear and traced my vertebrae hesitantly.
“How can this be?”
“……Hey.”
I groped for Choi Tae-gyeom’s collar. When I, who had been hugging him, suddenly pushed him away, he raised his head and looked at me. My lower abdomen tightened at his gaze.
“Why?”
This was Choi Tae-gyeom’s fault. To use that voice, to say those words, and even to touch me. It was only natural that my body, which I was already holding back, would react.
“No, nothing…”
But seeing his innocent face, I was overcome with embarrassment and shame. Choi Tae-gyeom hugging me, patting my back, none of it was trivial. I was the strange one for reacting to it.
“Just a minute…”
I hurriedly got out of bed and turned my back. I was just going to go to the bathroom and wash my face. Calm down like that, and lie that my stomach hurt. The moment I took a step with that thought, pheromones poured out from behind.
“…Yoon-woo.”
Choi Tae-gyeom hugged me before he could think. His hand wrapped around my waist from behind and moved downwards. Slowly, his crawling fingers grabbed exactly what was stiff between my legs.
“Hngh.”
I instinctively curled up. I tried to shake him off and sit down, but it was no use. Choi Tae-gyeom, moving his fingers leisurely, bit my ear and whispered sweetly.
“Want to do it?”
“Ah, wait…”
The sound of squelching was loud. My lower abdomen twitched and spasmed every time Choi Tae-gyeom moved his hand. He didn’t take his eyes off me as if observing me, and I curled up and gasped for breath. His long fingers gently wrapped around the stiff shaft.
‘Want to do it?’
The sweet temptation, like the devil’s whisper, made me unable to shake him off. How could I push him away when he lowered his voice like that and made such a pleading expression? Even if my lower body hadn’t risen, it would have perked up the moment I heard those words.
Anyway, nodding with my face flushed was the beginning of this act. Choi Tae-gyeom naturally led me to the bed and grabbed my genitals before I could refuse.
“Hngh…”
My pants and underwear were already half off. It was because Choi Tae-gyeom, who was good at everything with his body, was even amazingly good at hand-job. It felt good to rub the glans with his thumb, to occasionally wrap the shaft with his palm, and to have his fingers intertwined.
This was the extent even though I hadn’t released any pheromones. Since he had intentionally kept his pheromones in check, the surroundings were full of Omega pheromone, so the fact that I was feeling a pre-ejaculatory sensation was solely due to Choi Tae-gyeom’s touch.
“Ah, I think I’m going to cum…”
“You can cum.”
If I stayed like this, I would cum without doing anything. Maybe I would be the only one naked again like last time. While my head, soaked with the feeling of ejaculation, was barely thinking, Choi Tae-gyeom rubbed the glans strongly with his palm.
“Uht…!”
My lower abdomen tightened sharply. My toes curled up and my pupils dilated. I grabbed the duvet and threw my head back, and my swollen penis ejaculated.
“……Ha.”
The climax I had after a long time gave me a different pleasure than during my heat cycle. It was clearer than that, and more embarrassing than that. The fact that I was the only one unilaterally stripped naked also played a big part in that shame.
I’m the only one who came again. It was the moment I looked at Choi Tae-gyeom with that thought. I was about to tell him to take off his clothes too, that this wasn’t fair, but as soon as I saw his face, my mouth dropped open.
“……”
He had his left eye closed and his brow furrowed. His long eyelashes, his slightly parted lips, there was nothing that wasn’t like a painting. Especially his lips, which were as red as if they were stained with flower water, were extremely obscene.
The problem was that there was a lump of liquid splattered on that pretty face. It couldn’t be Choi Tae-gyeom’s since he hadn’t even taken off his pants, so it must be the semen I had just ejaculated. How on earth could it have splashed all the way up there?
“Hey, sorry…”
I was so embarrassed that I couldn’t express it. It wasn’t intentional, but a boulder fell on me as if I had committed a crime. Just in time, the liquid that had gathered on his long eyelashes trickled down his clear cheeks. Even in this situation, the only thought that came to my mind when I saw his face was ‘sexy’.
“Didn’t it get in your eye? Let me see.”
“No, well…”
Choi Tae-gyeom grabbed my outstretched hand and wiped his eyes with the other hand. His fingertips were covered with opaque liquid.
“I was looking and that’s what happened.”
“……Looking at what?”
“Never mind.”
Instead of pointing out anything, I handed him a tissue that was next to me. Fortunately, it didn’t get in his eyes, and he blinked a couple of times after wiping his face roughly. His wet eyelashes looked thicker than usual.
“Go wash up.”
Even if he was okay now, he wouldn’t be okay as time passed. He would definitely feel more and more uncomfortable.
“Later.”
But Choi Tae-gyeom ignored my words and came towards me. And without hesitation, he grabbed my lower body. He had just ejaculated, so it should have been dead, but the tactless penis was still stiffly raised.
He stared at the lower part for a moment and playfully raised the corners of his lips.
“Did you get hard looking at my face?”
“……”
The corners of his lips that curled up were annoying. The way he leisurely wiggled his hand was also embarrassing. When I avoided his gaze without saying anything, Choi Tae-gyeom called my name softly.
“Yoon-woo.”
His call was nothing more than a kind of signal. A signal that he was going to kiss me now, so close my eyes and raise my head. At the same time as I turned my head as if possessed, Choi Tae-gyeom’s lips met mine deeply.
Choi Tae-gyeom was good at kissing. Not only was he good, but he was also skilled. The way he rubbed my earlobes, the way he soothed me without rushing, and even the sensation of sucking deeply from time to time were not the skills of someone who had only done it once or twice.
The moment I had that thought, a sense of rebellion arose. He asked me if I had ever slept with an Alpha, but the fact that he was so skilled at even kissing. No, to be exact, the fact that he was even skilled at kissing.
“……”
I grabbed Choi Tae-gyeom’s fly with my lips still touching his. The comfortable sweatpants I wore at home easily allowed my hand to invade. As I traced his firm lower abdomen and lowered my hand, I soon felt something bulging out. Choi Tae-gyeom flinched and took his lips away.
“……Why suddenly.”
The feeling was different from seeing it over his clothes. His penis was long, thick, hot, and terrifying. How could he have this face, this body, and this thing? It wasn’t that my hands were small, but it didn’t fit in one hand, so I didn’t need to say anything more.
“Your hand…”
I ignored Choi Tae-gyeom’s words and carefully moved my hand. As I stroked the long shaft and rubbed the glans like he had done, a reaction came back immediately. He groaned through his teeth and slightly furrowed his brow.
“Uht…”
Choi Tae-gyeom’s penis was so hot it felt like it would burst. He had been teasing me leisurely until now with this hard-on. A deep shadow formed between his handsome eyebrows every time I moved my hand.
“…! W-wait a minute…”
It was at that moment that my vision flipped. Choi Tae-gyeom laid me down on the bed and naturally climbed on top of me. He kissed me on the lips and murmured in a low, growling voice.
“Later.”
Pheromones flowed out slowly. It was a very small amount, but it was enough to make me horny. Choi Tae-gyeom’s pheromones, filled with his excitement, densely filled the surroundings. Hot pheromones were transmitted from everywhere I touched him.
“I’m a little impatient right now…”
Choi Tae-gyeom’s hand groped my upper body over my shirt. He was sucking on the vague area between my chin and neck with his lips. Choi Tae-gyeom, chewing on my tender skin, twisted my nipple hard over my clothes.
“Hngh!”
A tingling pleasure washed over me. When I flinched and hugged him, he patted my chest as if soothing a child. Then he came closer and pushed his tongue into the gap between my parted lips.
“Hng, hng…”
My nipples, hidden by my clothes, were being teased by his hands. Choi Tae-gyeom pinched my nipples, scratched my areolas, and spun them around playfully. His other hand had been holding my erect penis since earlier and gently repeated the movement.
The actual act hadn’t even started yet, but I felt an unusually strong pleasure. Even though Choi Tae-gyeom’s pheromones hadn’t even been released by half. If it was already like this, what would I really do later? It seemed like a meaningless worry, but it was more serious than ever.
Meanwhile, Choi Tae-gyeom, who had gone down to my neck, bit the edge of my neck. It didn’t hurt, but I could tell that it would leave a mark since he was sucking on it from time to time.
“…I can’t wear a turtleneck now.”
How surprised I was last time when I saw my neck all red and blotchy. I wore a turtleneck back then, but now the weather was getting warmer, so that was impossible. If I wore a turtleneck in this weather, not only Kim Do-hyun but also Park Seong-jae would definitely notice.
“I’ll leave it where it can’t be seen.”
Choi Tae-gyeom answered in a calm voice and rolled up my T-shirt. He didn’t take it off completely, but raised it to my chin and brought his lips to my chest. The sensation of sucking on the area around my chest was unfamiliar.
“Ah…!”
He rubbed his lips softly and rummaged through my entire chest. Even if I didn’t bother to check, I could imagine what my upper body would look like tomorrow morning.
From my collarbone to my chest, his lips, chewing softly, stopped exactly at the part he had pinched a little while ago.
“Ah, that… hng…”
My nipple, which was sticking out, was crushed by his tongue. He bit, licked, and bit my nipple again and again as if he was eating candy.
It would be better if he just rushed in. Pleasure was piling up little by little. Since the hand that had been touching my lower part had also stopped at some point, all my nerves were focused on where Choi Tae-gyeom was biting. It was a ticklish, sensual sensation that made my whole body twist.
“It feels weird, that.”
“How is it weird?”
“I don’t know, it’s ticklish… just.”
It’s just weird.
I put my hand on the back of Choi Tae-gyeom’s head and spoke as if begging. If I could, I wanted to get through it mindlessly like last time. The fear of unfamiliar acts was quite great to accept foreplay with a clear mind.
“Tell me if you don’t like it.”
But Choi Tae-gyeom put more effort into teasing my chest than before. He sucked on my chest as if a child was drinking milk, raised his head, and looked down at me.
“I’m going to take it slow today.”
Why did I think that word was a kind of warning? Was it accepted as he wouldn’t allow me to lose my mind, so remember everything clearly? I opened my lips to refute something, but Choi Tae-gyeom didn’t wait and took off my pants.
My exposed legs felt cold. It was clothes that had been half-stripped off, but taking them off completely felt different. Choi Tae-gyeom, who had dropped my pants and underwear on the floor with a thud, thud, took his place between my legs in earnest.
“…You take yours off too.”
I barely managed to utter these words and raised my upper body. Choi Tae-gyeom, who was about to put his penis in my mouth, glanced at me.
“You ruined all my clothes last time.”
That day, all my clothes must have been a mess. I even wondered how I wore them, so I couldn’t do that this time.
Choi Tae-gyeom obediently got up and took off his clothes. His still well-toned upper body came into view smoothly. Choi Tae-gyeom, who grabbed my ankles and spread them apart, asked with a gentle smile.
“Take off my pants too?”
He was definitely smiling, but my spine tingled. The lust that had spread throughout his dark eyes flickered as if it would devour me. I swallowed hard and reached for Choi Tae-gyeom’s fly.
“…Yeah, take off your pants too.”
He didn’t resist and raised his knees. Then, he just looked at me, and it seemed like he wanted me to take them off for him. Even though I had reached out, I didn’t have the intention to take them off myself. My heart was pounding with tension.
“Take them off for me.”
His low voice sounded like he was begging. His penis was erect enough to be clearly outlined even over his pants. I put my fingers on the waistband and slowly lowered it, and black briefs came into view.
“Underwear too.”
Choi Tae-gyeom whispered as he kissed the top of my head. At the same time as I lowered his underwear as if possessed, his terribly erect penis popped out.
“……”
It was something I had seen many times when I was young. We had showered together, changed clothes, and come out naked after washing. I hadn’t looked at it in detail, but I knew the shape and size roughly.
But the size had changed so much that I couldn’t imagine it back then. It was natural for it to grow as the body grew, but I thought it had grown a little too much. The penis, which was erect near my navel, was so fierce that it was hard to believe it was Choi Tae-gyeom’s.
“You’ll wear it out.”
Choi Tae-gyeom gently cupped my cheeks. His fingers, which were a word longer than mine, gently touched the corners of my eyes. I reflexively frowned and opened my mouth reluctantly.
“What did you eat to get so…”
Before I could finish speaking, our lips met. Choi Tae-gyeom wrapped his hand around the back of my head and pushed me roughly. I wondered what part of his patience had run out, and there was impatience in his tangled tongue. I collapsed onto the bed with a thud, and he grabbed the back of my knees.
“…Ah!”
Before I could even push him away, my lips were bitten. Choi Tae-gyeom, who bit my lower lip softly, pressed his lips against my cheeks and ears repeatedly. Then, he chewed on my earlobes and touched my upper body as if playing the piano.
“Yoon-woo.”
“…Hng, why.”
“Release some pheromones.”
I panted and rummaged through Choi Tae-gyeom’s hair. When I squeezed out the little pheromones I had, he buried his nose in my neck and inhaled deeply. Choi Tae-gyeom’s penis kept poking my thigh.
“You seem really… impatient.”
“I am impatient.”
He said that, but his voice didn’t sound impatient at all. He rubbed his nose as if enjoying the pheromones a little more, and soon raised his upper body and took his place between my legs. Then, he bit the leg he had been holding hard.
“It hurts…”
“It doesn’t hurt.”
I don’t know why he was acting like a puppy today, like a kid who was teething. It didn’t hurt, but the act of chewing softly was extremely embarrassing.
Choi Tae-gyeom continued to leave bite marks and moved to the inside of my thigh. His soft lips were constantly rubbed against a part that no one else had touched.
“Ah, hng…”
“Is it ticklish?”
There was laughter in his voice. Even while laughing softly, Choi Tae-gyeom didn’t stop moving his lips. He bit the tender flesh and sucked it, and then moved a little higher.
“Wait… a minute.”
I pushed Choi Tae-gyeom’s shoulder with my hand that was hovering in the air. He glanced at me and waited for my words with an expression that didn’t care at all. I swallowed hard.
“You’re not going to do it with your mouth again, are you?”
“…Then is that not okay?”
Why does he still look cute even during this lewd act? He definitely has something not cute down there, but how can his pleading expression be so fatal?
“It’s not that I can’t… it’s because you’re swallowing it.”
I felt heat rushing to my face. The image of Choi Tae-gyeom’s Adam’s apple moving was still vivid. Even him nonchalantly commenting that it was thin.
“I won’t.”
Whether he understood me properly or not, Choi Tae-gyeom moved his lips closer to my member. I couldn’t see it, but I knew that every time his lips touched, a heat rash would bloom.
Was his saying he’d leave marks where they couldn’t be seen really mean he’d leave them everywhere except visible places? It was such a persistent movement that I couldn’t help but think that.
“Ugh…”
Smack, smack, embarrassing sounds echoed. The sensation of his lips rubbing, the feeling of his tongue touching, and the subtly rising pleasure. He wasn’t even touching below, but heat was boiling inside me. It wasn’t a heat cycle, nor was I drunk on pheromones, but this desire was new.
Choi Tae-gyeom grabbed both my legs and hooked them over his shoulders. I felt embarrassed by his gaze, observing my crotch as if examining it. Leaving aside the member that had already ejaculated once, this position would surely reveal even my embarrassing rear.
“Don’t look at me like that.”
Just as I couldn’t bear the embarrassment any longer and tried to push him away, placing my hands on his shoulders to pull my legs down, Choi Tae-gyeom buried his face between my legs.
“…!”
Something soft and hot licked my lower area. From the already damp area to the base of my erect member. I grabbed Choi Tae-gyeom’s hair, but it was no use. As if that was a signal flare, he began to move his tongue in earnest.
“Wait, ah, wait a minute…!”
His lips, which had been moving along the shaft, lightly nipped near the base. Leaving marks here and there, was he now planning to leave them even there? The sensation of sucking made my back tingle so much I thought it would twist. He even went down and held my testicles in his mouth, rolling them around.
“Hngh…”
I covered my mouth with one hand and squeezed my eyes shut. Every time the soft sensation touched me, pleasure shot up my spine. Meanwhile, Choi Tae-gyeom, who had been caressing my member to his heart’s content, finally moved his lips to my rear.
The pointed tip of his tongue circled the edge of the hole. Thin saliva mixed with the Love nectar that was already flowing out. His tongue, as if checking each wrinkle, now began to pry into the gaping hole.
“Haa, ugh… don’t…”
The hand holding Choi Tae-gyeom’s hair didn’t have any strength. I was definitely planning to push him away firmly, but it was all thanks to the steadily surging pleasure. Noticing that I didn’t dislike it, Choi Tae-gyeom spread my legs without any hesitation, and even turned his head to bite my butt.
This wasn’t that I disliked it, but that it was strange. It wasn’t repulsive, but unfamiliar; it wasn’t unpleasant, but frightening. The fact that Choi Tae-gyeom had his face buried there was also unbearably shameful.
“…Haa, hngh.”
Pheromones burst out in waves. I didn’t even try to suppress them, but I probably couldn’t have stopped them anyway. Whether it was saliva or the Love nectar I had released, an unknown liquid was pooling below.
“Pheromones…”
“…”
“Some pheromones…”
I was upset that my pheromones were all around me. My mind was already mush, but the fact that I still felt embarrassed was driving me crazy. It definitely wasn’t the first time, but it was more embarrassing than the first time.
“No.”
Choi Tae-gyeom spoke as firmly as when I was in heat. He lifted his head and bit around my ankle, looking down at me.
“Or else you’ll lose your mind.”
“This is too much…!I suddenly sat up, but in an instant, I was laid back down. It was because Choi Tae-gyeom pressed down on my upper body. With trembling hands, I grabbed his shoulder, and he took my hand and kissed it on the palm.
“Are you embarrassed?”
“…”
His red tongue tickled my palm. Wrist, thumb, back of the hand, and fingertips. Choi Tae-gyeom, who diligently kissed me, turning me this way and that, rubbed his face against my hand.
“I feel like I’m… dreaming right now.”
As if to prove that his words weren’t a lie, he blinked slowly. His hazy eyes seemed to barely maintain reason.
“If even you’re out of it, I’ll really think it’s a dream.”
I could see a desperation in Choi Tae-gyeom’s expression that I had never seen before. He seemed to find this situation unbelievable, and he also looked a little uneasy. In the midst of all that, his affection for me was so clear that my throat felt ticklish.
Just how much does this guy… like me?
“…Are you anxious?”
“Yeah.”
He answered casually and moved his hand down. His fingers, reaching between my buttocks to the damp area, gently traced around the hole.
“I’m a little anxious because it’s too good.”
“That’s, ah…!”
Thwack, a finger forced its way in. Even if it was just one finger, could it really enter so easily? Choi Tae-gyeom, who had pushed his finger deep inside, groped around, caressing the inside. The finger, turning around, quickly stimulated the spot I was feeling.
“Hngh!”
My back arched. My lower body, which was loosened, trembled slightly. As I curled my toes and tightened my thighs, Choi Tae-gyeom pressed that area once again.
“Ugh, hng, hngh…!”
I bit my lower lip and tilted my head back. In the meantime, the fingers, which had increased from one to two, rummaged through my narrow inner walls. Choi Tae-gyeom, already gnawing on my red and swollen nipples, grabbed my thigh with his other hand.
“You’re so wet, do you need pheromones?”
“Hngh, hngh…”
Pleasure-intoxicated, my mind blurred. I already didn’t know how many fingers had entered below. It felt like it would be okay to insert it around now, and at the same time as I thought that, his fingers were pulled out. The entrance, which had suddenly become empty, floundered, losing its target.
“Haa, haa…”
The main act hadn’t even started yet, but I was exhausted. It was because every moment was excessively clear, unlike the first time. Choi Tae-gyeom kissed my lips softly and reached out to grab the wallet on the side table.
“…Why the wallet?”
I barely managed to gasp out the question. Choi Tae-gyeom, glancing at me, took something out of his wallet. If my eyes weren’t deceiving me, the silver wrapper was definitely a condom.
“You that…”
Why would a condom come out of a wallet? Of course, there was a saying that money would come in if you put a condom in your wallet, but Choi Tae-gyeom wasn’t the type to believe in such things.
“Don’t misunderstand.”
He had a slightly awkward expression. He roughly threw the wallet aside and, raising his upper body, tore open the wrapper with his teeth. His face, with a condom in his mouth and his eyes narrowed, was indescribably sensual.
“The kids put it in.His broad shoulders were magnificent. It was evident that strength was being exerted in the firm abs below the moderately muscular chest. For a moment, while admiring that sight, I recalled the friends of the guy who asked if we were dating.
“Your friends are funny.”
I thought they were just spouting nonsense like Park Seong-jae, but it seemed they were even worse. At least Park Seong-jae wouldn’t think of putting a condom in my wallet for me.
“…Did you meet them when I wasn’t there?”
Choi Tae-gyeom, hearing my words, furrowed his brow. He stopped trying to take out the condom and looked at me.
“Last time, by chance.”
“Is that so?”
He didn’t ask any further and closed his mouth. He seemed to be lost in thought, but he quickly shook it off. Choi Tae-gyeom, taking the contents out of the wrapper, lowered his head and began to put the condom on his member.
“…”
The member, which looked like it would be a handspan long, took a long time just to put it on. The stiffly erect thing felt a little like a weapon.
He’s going to put that in me now? No, I used to put that in?
I swallowed hard. Recalling my memories, it was difficult to insert even when I was in heat. I barely managed to insert it by releasing pheromones, and even after inserting it all the way, it took a long time to adjust. But he was going to insert that raw, without pheromones.
“Lee Yoon-woo.”
Choi Tae-gyeom stroked my hair and kissed my forehead. After positioning himself as if he were about to insert it at any moment, he blinked languidly. Thwack, the tip of his member touched my hole.
“Are you scared?”
It was a very affectionate question. His lower body, which had stopped without advancing, was the same. I hugged Choi Tae-gyeom’s neck and nodded.
“Yeah. A little.”
I couldn’t relax at all. My body definitely remembered the pleasure, but it was still difficult to let go. The vaguely remaining reason kept stimulating my fear.
“It’s not that I don’t like it, though…”
I rubbed my face against Choi Tae-gyeom’s neck. It was an instinctive action because of the tension that was flooding in. Choi Tae-gyeom flinched and soothed me, and suggested in a lower voice.
“Want to do it from on top?”
I blinked my eyes. From on top? Before I could even recognize the words, the top and bottom had changed. He hugged me tightly and rolled to the side. Before I could even resist, I was lying on top of Choi Tae-gyeom.
“It’ll be less scary for you to put it in than for me to put it in, right?”
It was a fairly persuasive argument. It would be better for me to control and insert it than for Choi Tae-gyeom to force it in. I could stop if it hurt, and I could pull it out if it was too much. If it really didn’t work, I could just ask him to release pheromones.
“That… that would be better.”
I nodded and slowly raised my body. Placing my hands on Choi Tae-gyeom’s stomach and raising my knees, the member that had been lying below popped up. He looked at me as if telling me to come down, positioning his member straight at the entrance.
“…”
It was a completely unexpected part. It wasn’t scary, but it was embarrassing in its own way. Just as I had watched Choi Tae-gyeom putting on the condom, he would be watching me insert it. Even now, his persistent gaze was scanning my body as clearly as if he were touching it with his hands.
“Slowly…”
First, I slowly lowered my lower body as Choi Tae-gyeom told me to. As soon as the member touched, my rear spread tightly. The blunt tip forced open the narrow entrance, pushing its head in.
“Ugh…”
It was more difficult than I had thought. If I put my weight on it, the insertion would be quick, but if I did, something would definitely go wrong inside. Moreover, the fact that I had to insert it voluntarily, not by force, was driving me crazy.
“Haa, haa…”
A groan escaped my throat. I couldn’t even swallow the glans, let alone insert it properly. At this rate, I wouldn’t be able to insert it or move, and I would only get terrible muscle pain tomorrow.
“Relax, Yoon-woo.”
Choi Tae-gyeom’s hand gently caressed my waist. At that tantalizing sensation, my thighs momentarily lost strength. Thwack, the member that had only been barely touching went in a little further. My butt tensed up.
“Heoeok…!”
I could feel my back trembling. I hadn’t even entered half of it yet, but I already felt overwhelmed. The thought of pulling out if it hurt, or inserting it slowly, had long been erased. All I could do was grip his firm stomach and bow my head.
“Hng, it hurts…”
I felt like I was going to cry. Why did I say I would do it from on top? I regretted it before long. I should have just stayed still and let Choi Tae-gyeom do as he pleased. If I had, I wouldn’t have been in this dilemma.
“Does it hurt?”
Choi Tae-gyeom reached out to me and carefully brushed my hair back. In that short time, beads of sweat had formed on my forehead. He pressed his thumb on my lower lip and lowered his hand to gently caress my member.
“Insert it slowly, relax.”
The pleasure that I had forgotten about rose at the sensation of being touched in front. My member was half-dead, probably because I was so tense. Of course, it quickly raised its head when Choi Tae-gyeom rubbed it a few times.
“Hoo.”
I took a short breath. I felt a strange confidence rising, perhaps because my front was being stimulated. So I once again sat down on top of him.
“Agh…”
But as expected, it was too much. No matter how wet I was below, and no matter how much I loosened up, it was useless because the thing that had to be inserted was too big. Moreover, the pheromones that would relax me like a drug had been cut off.
Thwack, thwack, I lowered my waist several times, but the narrow hole kept spitting out Choi Tae-gyeom’s member. I had to be able to relax to insert it a little, but no matter what I did, my back kept tensing up.
“It won’t… it won’t work. It won’t work.”
I shook my head and raised my knees. The hole that had been half-swallowing my member spat out what it had been swallowing. It was at that moment that Choi Tae-gyeom, who had squeezed his eyes shut and bit his lower lip, let out a low breath.
“…Haa.”
It sounded like something had snapped. Our eyes met, and Choi Tae-gyeom’s lips parted. Sorry, I quickly realized the meaning of that short apology. In the blink of an eye, my lower area was roughly pierced.
“Agh…!”
My mind went blank. A scream, like a death rattle, disappeared due to the intense pleasure. It was because Choi Tae-gyeom, who had firmly grabbed my pelvis, put his strength into lowering his waist. The member, which had been inserted all the way to the root in an instant, filled my inner walls as if it would burst them.
“Ah, ah… no…”
My thighs twitched slightly. I definitely thought it hurt, but I reached my climax at the same time as the insertion. The ejaculate I had released was scattered messily on Choi Tae-gyeom’s upper body. It was already the second time, the second time I had ejaculated on Choi Tae-gyeom.
“Hng…”
“Good boy.”
While I was panting with my toes curled, Choi Tae-gyeom patted my bulging lower abdomen. It looked as if he was checking how far his member had gone in.
“You, you really…”
I felt wronged. He told me to do it from on top, and even positioned me to insert it myself. How could he suddenly insert it like this? I had reached my climax so suddenly that the tip of my tongue was numb.
“Sorry, I’ll release pheromones.”
Only then did he begin to release pheromones. The pheromones that flowed out in waves loosened my tightly tense back. The pheromones that filled the air were so thick that they couldn’t be compared to what I had released.
“Hngh…”
My upper body collapsed. Choi Tae-gyeom stroked my back and increased the amount of pheromones. The pheromones that permeated my skin and breath slowly devoured the faintly remaining reason. I trembled all over and inhaled Choi Tae-gyeom’s pheromones.
“Shh…”
The sensation of carefully pressing down on my back was erotic. His fingers, as if trying to remember every bone, traced from my neck to my tailbone, caressing the tightly spread hole. At that, my inner walls flinched and tightened around his thick member.
“Does it still hurt?”
How could a voice that worried about me be so resentful? It was definitely sweet enough to melt in my mouth, but it was hard to be happy.
“Ugh…”
But apart from that, I couldn’t help but feel a tightening in my heart. Not because it hurt, but because I was holding the pheromones I had longed for so much. Choi Tae-gyeom’s unique pheromones were so attractive that they couldn’t be compared to anyone else’s. As if it had never hurt, only pleasure remained below.
I rubbed my forehead against Choi Tae-gyeom’s chest and swallowed a groan. It felt like it was okay to be spoiled now. The hand that gently embraced me and the sound of his pounding heart made me feel excited.
“Cute…”
Choi Tae-gyeom chuckled and showered my crown with kisses. He gave me his arms as I rubbed against him and carefully stroked me. Even the pheromones, which had a sweeter energy than usual, revolved entirely around me.
Choi Tae-gyeom, who had been comforting me for a while, put strength into his arms and raised his upper body. I had been drooping and had to hug Choi Tae-gyeom without knowing why. The moment I clung to him like a koala, his member shot up from below.
“Hngh!”
It was a deeper insertion than ever before. Because of the weight, the tip reached deep inside without any effort. I felt a sense of déjà vu, and as I thought, he had driven me in a similar way last time.
Still, thankfully, this time I could hug and cling to Choi Tae-gyeom. I wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist, and he hugged my back and lifted his lower body.
“Ugh, hng, heuk!”
His deeply inserted penis briefly cut into my insides. Each time it poked and prodded my inner walls, my vision intermittently flickered. Choi Tae-gyeom held the back of my head with one hand and my waist with the other, embracing me as if he would crush me.
“Haa… Lee Yoon-woo.”
“Ugh… hng…”
“Yoon-woo-ya.”
Instead of answering, I rubbed my forehead against his shoulder. My sweat-soaked hair was a mess. Choi Tae-gyeom, who had been touching my insides with his penis deeply inserted, grabbed my buttocks with both hands.
“Tell me if it hurts.”
“Wa, a, wait, hng…!”
The word ‘wait’ was utterly useless. Each time my body heaved, the blunt head pushed its way inside. Was this how a fish skewered on a skewer felt? All I could do was thrash my body and cling to Choi Tae-gyeom.
Choi Tae-gyeom held my buttocks firmly and repeatedly lifted and dropped me. He moved effortlessly, as if handling a small child, seemingly unfazed by my limp body’s weight. Each time my body dropped onto Choi Tae-gyeom, his penis reached deep inside my belly.
“Too, hng, dee, ah!”
A squelching sound echoed in my ears, along with the sound of flesh rubbing against flesh. I wondered if his penis would come out of my mouth; the insertion was that deep.
So, without realizing it, I dug my fingernails into his shoulder. My hand slid down, leaving a long scratch. It looked like a pretty painful wound, but he didn’t seem to care, thrusting his hips up. No, he seemed even more excited by the stimulation.
“Haa-euk!”
The pleasure of being slammed down made my hair stand on end. Unable to bear the excessive pleasure, I clenched my teeth, and Choi Tae-gyeom grabbed my chin and forced my mouth open. A long finger entered through my parted lips.
“Lee Sang-hae, don’t bite.”
“You, euup…”
He pressed down on my tongue and moved his hips. When I shook my head, he kissed me instead of using his finger. The moans that leaked out of my mouth were all consumed by Choi Tae-gyeom. As he twisted his head and mingled his tongue with mine, he passed on a mouthful of pheromone.
“Eueung…”
All the strength drained from my body. The hole that had been holding his penis somewhat tightly due to the condom gradually loosened. Choi Tae-gyeom patted my back and twisted his hips with his penis deeply inserted.
“Eueueung, hng, th, at… ah…”
My insides quivered. He licked away all the saliva that had flowed from my lips and kissed my ear. A flushed voice, filled with excitement, reached my highly sensitive ear.
“Were you… with Kim Do-hyun earlier?”
“Haa, hng, I don’t know…”
“That bastard, he left a lot of pheromone on you.”
It wasn’t ‘left’, he just touched me. Before I could even make excuses, he hugged me and lifted my hips again. My trembling inner walls clung to his thick shaft as if they were reluctant to let go.
“Eoheuk!”
Thwack, his thick penis pushed its way in. A tingling pleasure, like an electric shock, ran down my spine. Choi Tae-gyeom, who had been continuously stabbing my insides, suddenly grabbed me and threw me back. Perhaps because the angle had changed, the slightly misaligned head pressed down hard on my prostate.
“Aaa, ah, heuk, wait…!”
It felt like sparks were flying in front of my eyes. I trembled and grabbed Choi Tae-gyeom’s shoulder, but he was busy biting my chest. Choi Tae-gyeom nibbled on my nipple with his front teeth and fiercely sucked on my areola.
“Ah…!”
Bang, it sounded like something exploded. My whole body stiffened, and the tip of my tongue went numb. I must have come without realizing it. A lump of fluid gathered below my neck and trickled down.
“Haa, haa…, ha…”
My whole body trembled. I had clearly reached my peak, but the afterglow of ejaculation didn’t fade. I could feel the hole that had been holding his penis clamping down. Choi Tae-gyeom shuddered and let out a short breath.
“You’re being really… sensitive today.”
“Hng!”
Choi Tae-gyeom touched my erect nipple. He crushed the bud with his fingertip, and rubbed it between his index and middle fingers. Even that trivial stimulation was sublimated into a pleasure that tickled my lower abdomen. As I shuddered and tilted my head back, he kissed me and caressed his limp penis.
“What are we going to do, you’re exhausted.”
“I don’t know, ah, haa…”
His soft penis was crumpled this way and that. Choi Tae-gyeom looked at his limp member as if it were fascinating. Then, he gently massaged his penis. Having already come three times, that level of stimulation wasn’t enough to make him erect again.
“Don’t touch it…”
I pushed Choi Tae-gyeom away as if whining. He chuckled and kissed my forehead.
“It feels nice and soft.”
I don’t know what was so good about it, but he looked at me with eyes full of affection. He swept back my sweat-soaked hair and kissed my forehead several times. Then, he gently cradled the back of my head and laid me down on the bed. The penis that was still inserted squirmed inside.
“Ah… this, it feels weird.”
“How is it weird?”
“I don’t know, just… it’s too big.”
Choi Tae-gyeom gently patted my cheek and lowered his hand. Every time his fingertips touched my bare skin past the messily rolled-up t-shirt, all my nerves stood on end. Finally, he went down to the protruding part below my navel and pressed down on it.
“Here?”
“Haa-eut!”
My inner walls writhed in agony. I tried to open my eyes wide and raise my body, but Choi Tae-gyeom was faster. The sensation of him tracing the protruding part made my belly clench.
“Ah, don’t, ah… haa-euk!”
Thwack! My lower body was pierced. Choi Tae-gyeom pulled his penis out halfway and entered without giving me time to prepare. The skin on my belly covered by Choi Tae-gyeom’s palm bulged out again.
“Heuk, ah… wait, ah, hik!”
“Lee Yoon-woo needs to eat a lot.”
He pressed down on my belly and repeated the insertion. Choi Tae-gyeom’s words were cut off each time his penis went in and out.
“There’s, no, fat at all.”
“Ah, no…, heuk!”
My waist twisted wildly. The more Choi Tae-gyeom pressed on my belly, the more pleasure I felt surging up. The glans that rubbed against the inside of my abdomen scratched exactly where I felt it. Hot air scattered from my parted lips.
“Th, at, stop… hng…!”
I flailed and grabbed Choi Tae-gyeom, but I couldn’t put any strength into my arms. Choi Tae-gyeom quickly took the hand that slid down. He intertwined his fingers with mine and gently kissed the back of my hand. Then, he pressed down on my head and fixed it in place.
“Heoeuk!”
My lower body shook wildly. The penis that had been dead was erect from the moment Choi Tae-gyeom pressed on my belly. He grabbed my knees, spread my legs, and moved his hips more comfortably.
A sense of ejaculation washed over me. I hadn’t moved many times, but my already heated body was overly sensitive to stimulation. As if he realized that fact, the pheromones that had been pouring out gradually decreased.
“Slo, slowly, heuk…!”
It felt like my head had gone stupid. Even though the pheromones had been erased, rational thought was almost impossible. The legs that Choi Tae-gyeom was holding dangled in the air.
“Haa…, Lee Yoon-woo.”
It seemed that I wasn’t the only one feeling the surge of climax. Choi Tae-gyeom was also frowning and clenching his teeth. Choi Tae-gyeom, who had collapsed on top of me as if pouring down, began to slowly rotate his hips.
“Heueung…”
The hole that held his penis quivered. The penis, which had been groping around the inner walls, accurately crushed the part I was feeling. The heavy stimulation made my vision go white again, and a sense of ejaculation welled up.
“……!”
But before I could reach my peak, his penis was grabbed. Choi Tae-gyeom grabbed my penis with his large hand and blocked the tip of the glans with his thumb. The penis, swollen to its limit, lost its freedom in his hand.
“Haa, ha, you…”
I panted and glared at Choi Tae-gyeom. Knowing how painful it was for a man not to be able to come, it was too much to stop me right before I reached the edge.
“You’ll be tired if you keep coming.”
But Choi Tae-gyeom spoke in a firm voice and moved his hips. The penis, which had been pulled out leaving only the head, thrust upwards with a thwack!
“Haa-eut!”
A tingle ran down my spine. It was a pleasure that struck my entire body from head to toe. As I stretched out my legs and arched my back, Choi Tae-gyeom bent down and grabbed my face. My eyelids were fluttering.
“You didn’t come… did you.”
I definitely didn’t come. No, I couldn’t come. But I felt an orgasm that was even more intense than coming. The sticky ecstasy had turned into tears and was flowing down my temples. Choi Tae-gyeom looked into my eyes with a look of desire.
“……”
Why does he have to be so handsome even in this situation? I heaved my chest and hugged Choi Tae-gyeom’s neck. Choi Tae-gyeom, who was dragged along as I led him, quietly offered his lips. As our lips parted, his eyes curved beautifully.
“Why?”
“Just…”
Because you’re handsome.
The tears disappeared into Choi Tae-gyeom’s lips. As if my words had been some kind of catalyst, he quickly resumed his movements. He didn’t let go of the hand that was holding his penis, but he did let go of the hand that had been holding my head in place. I scratched his shoulder with my fingertips and swayed up and down.
“You, hng… why… heueung!”
It was a question of why he wasn’t coming. I had already come four times, but Choi Tae-gyeom showed no signs of coming. His penis hadn’t swollen like last time, so it was clear that he was far from coming.
As if he understood my words, he looked at me. The way he frowned and moved his hips made my heart pound. Every time Choi Tae-gyeom opened his mouth, sweet pheromones poured out.
“Slowly, hoo… I said I would, do it slowly.”
“Ahheut, hng, heueut…!”
The tightly held penis was frustrating. It seemed that I was unintentionally digging my nails in. Choi Tae-gyeom lowered his head and bit my neck, and grabbed my buttocks with his empty hand. It was with such a strong force that it would leave a mark.
“Please, euheut, le, t go… heuk…”
I put my hand on Choi Tae-gyeom’s hand and pleaded desperately. I wanted to come right now, even if it was hard later. Because if this continued, I really felt like my penis would explode. I don’t know why I always have to suffer from such threats when I’m with this guy.
“Hoo.”
A drop of sweat trickled down Choi Tae-gyeom’s chin. He ran his hand through his hair as if he was going crazy and let go of my penis. It was clear that he had realized that it was really impossible now.
“Aaeugh…!”
Semen flowed out. Unlike the first time, it was a weak ejaculation. The slightly thin semen soaked my lower abdomen and flowed down my side. Choi Tae-gyeom’s hand rubbed the sticky lower abdomen.
“Haa, too…”
And Choi Tae-gyeom buried his face in my neck and growled. He bit the upper part of my collarbone and inhaled, as if trying to feel the pheromones. Every time he moved, I could hear a squelching sound from below.
“Why are you so tight, Yoon-woo-ya.”
His cracked voice stimulated my desires even more than when I heard it on the phone. Choi Tae-gyeom’s body temperature was so high that every part that was touching was hot. Hot, stuffy, hard, and my head was mushy.
“Haa…”
The fluid that flowed out from behind made a wet sound as it rubbed. It was tight before, but now it was slippery as if it had been tailored to him. His penis was relaxed when it came in, but it shrank when it tried to get out. It was as if it regretted that the inside was empty.
“Heueung… slowly, hng…”
“Slowly?”
His thick penis slowly retreated. The entrance tightened tightly and expressed its regret. Choi Tae-gyeom, who had been pulling his hips back with a frown, pushed his penis in again.
“Haa-eugh…”
A groan echoed in my throat. I was out of my mind when he was fast, but it was driving me crazy when he was slow. Either way, I was only feeling pleasure, and in the midst of all that, he pulled his penis back again.
“Ah… wait…”
I rubbed the back of my head against the blanket and wrapped my legs around Choi Tae-gyeom. When I hugged his firm waist and pulled him towards me, he was pulled without resistance.
“No, don’t pull out…”
I felt like I was going crazy every time he moved. Even if he didn’t poke my prostate, just the rubbing of my inner walls made my belly ache. I could only accept this overwhelming sensation if I felt his skin and pheromones.
“How can I not pull out, huh?”
Choi Tae-gyeom whispered softly in a drawn-out voice. His deeply inserted penis touched the inside. Even that small movement was so erotic that it was hard to bear. Choi Tae-gyeom, who had kissed my forehead, nose, cheeks, chin, and lips deeply, slowly released his pheromones.
“Is it too hard?”
“Eueung.”
I wrapped my arms around Choi Tae-gyeom’s neck and shook my head. Last time, the problem was physical exhaustion, but this time, it was more mentally exhausting. I was accepting the pleasure of thinking, ‘Was I this horny? Was I this sensitive?’, with relatively clear reason.
“Shall we stop?”
He said that and crushed the part I was feeling. He didn’t seem to have any intention of stopping at all. When I glared at him with that intention in my eyes, a gentle kiss landed.
“I’ll come quickly.”
Choi Tae-gyeom accepted my silence as tacit consent. He thrust his penis in and out with clean movements. Every time he was deeply inserted, a distant sense of floating enveloped my body.
“Heueut, eung, heueut!”
Because I had lost my strength, my legs lost their way and shook. Choi Tae-gyeom, who had been holding my thighs and continuing the insertion, hooked his arm around my right leg and twisted my body slightly. As I helplessly turned to the side, he stabbed my insides violently.
“Aheuk!”
The penis, which had been half-erect, shed a liquid that I didn’t know whether it was water or semen. The moment of reaching my peak was so frequent that I couldn’t even tell when I was ejaculating anymore. While I grabbed the disheveled blanket and hunched my shoulders, Choi Tae-gyeom bit my calf and increased his speed.
His hot hand caressed my upper body. I was already quite hot, but Choi Tae-gyeom’s basic body temperature was hot from the start. Choi Tae-gyeom, who had taken off the t-shirt that I hadn’t taken off yet, grabbed my chin and mixed his tongue with mine.
It was a pheromone that felt like it would melt my whole body. The pheromones that were forced down my throat made me forget even the thought that it was hard. My dazed head craved Choi Tae-gyeom’s pheromones even more.
Breath, saliva, and pheromones. Many things came and went as our tongues intertwined. And the moment a slight groan flowed from Choi Tae-gyeom’s neck,
“Heoeok!”
The glans that had been deeply inserted began to increase in volume. The inner walls, which had already been filled to the brim, were so tight that they felt like they would tear. It was a pain that would have been difficult to endure if I hadn’t inhaled the pheromones. The head that had been caught inside widened the inner walls to their limit.
“Euek…”
Choi Tae-gyeom grabbed my legs tightly and lowered his head. Through my blurred vision, I could see that he was putting a lot of strength into his lower abdomen. The penis, blocked by the condom, squirmed and continued to ejaculate.
“Aaaak…!”
The blanket caught on my fingertips. The glans, which had become so large that it felt like my belly would cramp, did not shrink until he finished ejaculating. My breath was cut off, and my chest was constricted. I gasped and scratched the blanket wildly.
“It hurts, heuk, it hurts…”
It hurt as if my body would break. It hurt, and it hurt again, but even in the midst of that, the swollen glans pressed down on my prostate. The stimulation, as if rubbing with a fist, made me gasp and lose my breath.
“……Haa.”
Choi Tae-gyeom bit his lower lip and savored the feeling of ejaculation. Sweat trickled down his tightly clenched upper body. His flushed breath scattered in the air, and he fluttered his eyelids. His neat front teeth crushed his red lips.
The ejaculation lasted longer than the day I had my heat cycle. I was afraid that my trembling body would lose its senses. I was just glad that he wasn’t moving while knotting. Not only tears but also saliva flowed down like crazy.
“Haa…”
Choi Tae-gyeom breathed out like a sated lion, tilting his head back. His prominently protruding Adam’s apple moved lightly up and down. The glans, which had been twitching and ejecting semen, began to slowly subside at some point. As soon as his manhood had completely returned to its original state, he grabbed the shaft and slowly pulled his hips back.
“Haa…”
I flinched, my lower body reacting. I wondered how long I had been holding it in; it felt strange to have my insides empty. Choi Tae-gyeom, having slowly withdrawn everything from the root to the shaft and the thickest part of the glans, collapsed onto me.
“…Yoon-woo.”
It felt like I was covered with a large blanket. His hot, sticky body wrapped around me without feeling heavy. His lips pressed against my ear, occasionally accompanied by rough breaths.
“Lee Yoon-woo.”
He caressed me very carefully, gently stroking my hair and wiping my messed-up, wet face. After taking away tears, saliva, and everything else, he finally hugged me tightly.
“I like you.”
I don’t know why I felt like I was going to cry then. Was it joy at the end of the arduous act, or emotion at the outpouring of feelings? Or was it pure love for Choi Tae-gyeom?
“I love you.”
Choi Tae-gyeom repeated the words like someone unable to control his overflowing emotions. He hugged me as if he would crush me and continued to kiss me. The swelling joy pointed solely at me.
I lifted my powerless arms and hugged Choi Tae-gyeom back. As I embraced his broad back and buried my face in his chest, an unknown emotion filled me. I felt a little choked up.
“…Me too.”
I think I understood Choi Tae-gyeom’s feeling that all of this was like a dream. I couldn’t believe that he liked me, that he was giving me this great emotion. The touching bodies, the hearts that had become as close as the bodies, and even the syllables coming out of my mouth were all thrilling.
“I love you.”
The hidden heart bore fruit the moment it took shape. Heartbeats, belonging to who knows who, throbbed in my ears. It was the moment when the feelings that had bloomed at the young age of nineteen finally became honest.
* * *
Choi Tae-gyeom continued to hold me for a long time after that. He trapped me in his arms, constantly pressing his lips against mine and occasionally touching various parts of my body. His still-erect penis kept poking my thigh, but I didn’t feel any intention to arouse me in his actions.
Then, without any particular lingering feelings, he got up. He even picked up my limp body and kindly carried me to the bathroom. It was quite unexpected. I had come several times, but Choi Tae-gyeom had only ejaculated once. I naturally thought he would do it two or three more times, but…
Even after arriving in the bathroom, Choi Tae-gyeom’s kindness continued. He firmly held onto my staggering body and washed various parts of me with warm water. Every time the sponge with body wash touched my bare skin, a slight tickle popped up.
“…I can do it myself.”
I felt a strange sense of guilt. I felt like I was the only one who was satisfied, both last time and this time. I wondered if I lacked stamina, or if Choi Tae-gyeom was some kind of monster. The latter seemed more likely, but that didn’t mean I wasn’t sorry.
“You can’t even stand up properly.”
He stroked my back with a look that said it was impossible. His fingers, tracing each vertebra, grabbed my buttocks at the end of my tailbone. When I slightly frowned, he lightly kissed my eyelids.
“Turn around.”
I obediently turned my back and placed my hands on the wall. I suddenly thought the position was strange, but he didn’t care at all. After carefully washing my body, Choi Tae-gyeom suddenly burst out laughing.
“Why are you so obedient?”
“…No, well.”
I turned my head and looked at Choi Tae-gyeom. He smiled broadly and kissed me as if I were cute. His moisture-laden lips rubbed against mine, slippery.
Choi Tae-gyeom’s hand lightly embraced my waist. The sound of our tongues tangling wetly was drowned out by the sound of the shower. I was happily accepting his tongue when I suddenly felt a heavy presence between my buttocks.
“…”
I broke away from his lips and turned to face Choi Tae-gyeom. His eyes, consumed by heat, looked at me steadily. As I met his gaze, I reached out and touched his fully erect penis nearby.
“You’re hard.”
He didn’t back away but frowned. The shadow on his brow deepened as I gently rubbed it. Choi Tae-gyeom, exhaling a heated breath, slowly closed and opened his eyes.
“…It’s been like this since earlier.”
“Then why aren’t you doing it?”
I gently rubbed the area around the glans with my thumb. The pre-cum from the tip heightened the sensation, slippery. Choi Tae-gyeom, wrapping his arms around my waist and resting his forehead on my shoulder, replied in a small voice.
“That was all the condoms we had.”
I blinked blankly. A completely unexpected reason popped out.
“Even if you’re recessive, it doesn’t mean you can’t get pregnant, so we have to be careful.”
It wasn’t wrong. No matter how close to zero the possibility was, it didn’t mean it was zero. As Choi Tae-gyeom said, we had to be careful.
“I can’t be irresponsible like last time.”
I awkwardly moved my lips and lowered my gaze. Somehow, he had kept enduring even with his lower body this erect. Not knowing that, I had unnecessarily touched him, and the moment I thought that, I impulsively blurted out.
“…Should I do it with my mouth?”
Choi Tae-gyeom didn’t answer immediately but looked at me. He frowned and carefully examined my face, then rubbed his lips around my cheek. Then, leaning me against the wall, he held my hand tightly.
“It’s okay if you’re doing it because you feel sorry.”
“…”
“It’s not like I’ll die if I don’t do it.”
Saying that, he slowly moved my hand. The thick penis was rubbed in my hand as he moved it. Choi Tae-gyeom trembled his eyebrows and buried his face in my neck.
“Just… do it with your hand.”
Pheromones flowed from Choi Tae-gyeom. I slowly moved my hand, pouring out the suppressed pheromones. Haa, Choi Tae-gyeom, disrupting his heated breath, grabbed my hand and moved it with him.
Swish, swish, the sound of skin rubbing was heard. Warm water was still flowing from the shower. Choi Tae-gyeom occasionally shook his shoulders and rubbed his forehead, and sometimes bit his neck as if he was going crazy. It was too clear how much he was enduring to tell him not to leave marks or anything like that.
My face flushed. I was amazed that he could maintain his reason with his lower body this erect. I couldn’t believe that the reason was solely because of me, and I was surprised that he was even holding back the pheromones that occasionally burst out. The thought that he cherished me as much as he liked me made my heart race childishly.
Choi Tae-gyeom ejaculated without dragging it out for long. It was the result of focusing solely on my pheromones and gestures. As he continued to ejaculate, Choi Tae-gyeom’s pheromones filled the bathroom.
“…Haa.”
He bit his lower lip tightly and released my hand. His palm was soaked with the liquid he had ejaculated. After carefully washing my hand with the shower, Choi Tae-gyeom gently caressed my cheek.
“Let’s wash up and get out of here.”
After showering, I applied ointment to Choi Tae-gyeom’s back. I didn’t know, but it seemed I had made a mess of his back with my nails during the act earlier. I didn’t know because I didn’t have a reason to look at his back after it was over. I only realized it when I saw the red lines drawn all over it when I was drying myself and getting dressed.
“You should have said something, it must hurt.”
I don’t know why I was so full of apologies. His skin was already weak, and I had even made nail marks on it.
“It doesn’t hurt much.”
“It doesn’t hurt much my ass.”
His firm back twitched every time my fingertips touched it. It was stranger if it didn’t sting with this much damage. The reddish marks were so flamboyant that being under the shower was torture. I don’t know how he managed to stand under the shower for so long.
“Sorry… I need to cut my nails.”
“It’ll probably be the same even if you do.”
Choi Tae-gyeom smiled and put on his top. He told me not to worry, saying it would heal in a day or two, and hugged me tightly. I quietly snuggled into his arms and inhaled his scent. As expected, there’s nothing better than Choi Tae-gyeom’s pheromones to calm my mind.
“Let’s sleep, I’m tired.”
I turned off the lights and lay down next to Choi Tae-gyeom. He had changed the sheets while I was drying my hair. Although there was only a summer blanket, it wouldn’t be cold since we were sleeping together. The problem was that there was only one pillow this time too.
“What’s this?”
Choi Tae-gyeom shamelessly monopolized the pillow and offered his arm. Choi Tae-gyeom, with that handsome face, pulled my wrist and trapped me in his arms.
“We end up like this when we sleep anyway.”
I let out an absurd laugh, but I just leaned against his chest, unable to resist. He pulled the blanket up to my shoulders and smiled pleasantly. His softly curved eyes made me feel excited.
“Do you have class tomorrow?”
I naturally closed my eyes and asked Choi Tae-gyeom. A gentle voice soon returned.
“No, it’s Friday.”
“That’s good, I can sleep in.”
“You sleep in anyway.”
“Hey, I don’t skip class.”
He and I exchanged pointless conversations while staying close together. What we should eat tomorrow, how bad the hangover would be, what wind had blown to make us drink, and why we didn’t usually drink. The quiet conversations were not much different from usual.
“The club members asked if you’re not coming.”
“Ah… right. I completely forgot.”
I couldn’t believe that we had confessed our love so passionately just a few hours ago. Even now, as we lay in bed together after mixing our bodies until we were exhausted, I couldn’t believe that I felt the same way as he did.
“But do you really like Shakespeare?”
“Do you think I would?”
But the familiar comfort completely erased the remaining anxiety. Even if I took one step, two steps, or three steps forward, nothing would change. The worry that the formless relationship would crack and eventually break was just a premature fear.
“It’s not Shakespeare I like, it’s you.”
Choi Tae-gyeom spoke in a leisurely voice. He lightly kissed my lips and then pressed his body closer to mine. As I wrapped my arms around his waist and snuggled into his chest, his large hand gently stroked the back of my head.
“Tae-gyeom.”
I quietly spoke and lifted my eyelids. In the dim surroundings, only Choi Tae-gyeom’s eyes opening were clear. His deep eyes were filled with affection for me.
“You were really going to forget me in a month?”
“No.”
Choi Tae-gyeom denied without a moment’s hesitation. Sleepiness was faintly visible in his slowly closing eyes again.
“I was going to pretend to forget.”
“…”
“Because I knew I couldn’t forget anyway.”
A bubbling emotion arose inside me. The emotion that had filled me from my stomach flowed out of my mouth even after filling my throat.
“Sorry for telling you so late.”
“…”
“About being an Omega, and about liking you.”
It was the first apology I had given. I was sorry for telling him my feelings late, and for hiding that I was an Omega. It wasn’t just a passing remark, but a sincere apology.
“Lee Yoon-woo has a lot to be sorry for today.”
Choi Tae-gyeom pulled up the corners of his mouth as if he had heard something funny. The hand patting my shoulder tickled my chest. He let out a deflating sound and added in a voice that was barely audible.
“I wouldn’t have believed you even if you had told me.”
It was a sentence mixed with various emotions. How long he had liked me, how much he had given up and lived with it.
And that was a feeling that I also knew well, and a thought that I still hadn’t completely abandoned.
Since there was no answer I could give back, I chose to remain silent. Choi Tae-gyeom didn’t say anything, as if he fully understood me. Even breaths circled the quiet surroundings.
And as if we had made a promise, we fell asleep leaning on each other.
In my dream, a memory that I had never forgotten came to mind.
It was around the time when he and I were in our third year of high school, on the day when the school told us to write down the universities we wanted to apply to. First choice, second choice, third choice. The desired major and the reason for it.
It was something Choi Tae-gyeom and I had talked about since before entering high school. Naturally, as I was writing it down without much difficulty, I suddenly had that thought. Even if our first choices were the same, the probability of us going to the same university was very low.
It was a strange feeling. From kindergarten to elementary school, middle school, and high school, Choi Tae-gyeom and I had never been to different schools. We were often in different classes, but even then, we were in the same class twice for every one time we were in different classes.
A school life without Choi Tae-gyeom… The imagination didn’t easily continue. He was so naturally ingrained in my life that the assumption that he wasn’t there was impossible. I even had the childish thought of wanting to go to college with Choi Tae-gyeom.
‘Did they tell you guys to write down your college preferences too?’
Choi Tae-gyeom, who came as soon as it was lunchtime, brought up the topic I was worried about as if it were nothing. I silently took out my college preference form, and he burst out laughing as soon as he saw it.
‘Seriously, your handwriting is terrible.’
‘Hey, I’m not that bad.’
‘Sure.’
I don’t know what was so funny, but he kept laughing. His beautifully curved eyes were very pleasing to look at, but they didn’t ease my troubled heart.
So, without realizing it, I blurted out those words.
‘…We’re going to different colleges.’
Choi Tae-gyeom looked at me with his eyes narrowed. He put the college preference form on the desk and tilted his head slightly. His deep eyes sparkled in the sunlight.
‘Why?’
‘Why…?’
I avoided his gaze and took the college preference form. As he said, I saw the handwriting that I couldn’t say I had written well. When I hesitated without saying anything, Choi Tae-gyeom pointed to the university written at the top with his fingertip.
‘Our first choices are the same.’
Honestly, I think I was just happy. The fact that he naturally thought of the same school as me melted away some of my complicated feelings. But unlike my thoughts, words that were not in my heart flowed out of my mouth.
‘Well… we might fail, or if we get into a better place, we might go there.’
Choi Tae-gyeom snorted at me as if he was dumbfounded. The corners of his mouth, which were curled up, tilted crookedly.
‘Where’s a better place?’
‘…’
Well, why is the first choice the first choice? Where is there a better university than here?
‘And why would you fail with your grades?’
Choi Tae-gyeom’s voice was really dumbfounded this time. He shook his head, saying that if Lee Yoon-woo failed, no one in our school would get in. I lowered my eyes and asked Choi Tae-gyeom back.
‘…What about you?’
It wasn’t that Choi Tae-gyeom’s grades were lacking. He was originally smart, and he wasn’t the type to neglect studying. However, I just wanted to hear the assurance that he would go to the same school.
‘Of course I’ll get in.’
Choi Tae-gyeom accurately saw through my thoughts. He smiled handsomely and snatched the college preference form, rolled it up, and tapped my head with it.
‘So work hard.’
‘…’
‘We have to go to college together.’
I felt relieved. The fact that he also had ‘childish thoughts’ like me, the fact that I wasn’t the only one feeling anxious, the fact that I wasn’t the only one feeling uneasy, was fortunate. Although that might not be a desire befitting the name of a friend, the heart that yearned for him was clear.
And belatedly, various questions arose. What was the reason why he wanted to go to the same school as me back then, what was the feeling that so firmly confirmed ‘together’? Perhaps he also had feelings for me that were too deep to be called friends.
Then, I naturally realized. Back then, and even now. The fact that Choi Tae-gyeom liked me.