By Zephyria The only kisses they had shared were just touching lips. But now, he was kissing like an adult, like something out of a book.
The thought of Winston kissing someone else made Yu-jin’s heart ache. Seeing Yu-jin’s eyes welling up with tears, Winston was startled and widened his eyes.
“What are you talking about? Why would I kiss someone else?”
“B-but.”
Yu-jin sniffled, trying not to cry, and replied.
“You’re too good at kissing… You didn’t, used to do this.”
Winston was embarrassed by the absurd situation, but seeing his upset expression made him feel strange. His eyes, filled with tears, were so pitiful, but also so unsettling. He wanted to devour him right there and then. Winston’s fingers were tingling, and he hurriedly clenched and unclenched his fists several times.
“Don’t be silly, I only have you.”
How could he be so lovely? He couldn’t resist the urge and hugged Yu-jin tightly. As he showered kisses all over his face, Yu-jin frowned and opened his mouth.
“R-really…?”
At the trembling voice, he kissed him on the lips this time. Winston opened his mouth wide and blocked Yu-jin’s mouth as if to swallow him, inserting his tongue and mixing their saliva wildly. He held the back of his head with one hand and hugged his waist tightly with the other, making it impossible for Yu-jin to move. Yu-jin was completely trapped in his arms and accepted the kiss mindlessly.
Haa, haa.
Their lips barely parted, and they gasped for breath, but Winston kissed him again. After sucking on his tongue and biting his lower lip, he finally answered.
“Really, I don’t. I don’t want to kiss anyone but you. It makes me want to throw up just thinking about it.”
“But… then, how did you learn this?”Winston laughed out loud at Yu-jin’s hesitant question.
“Let’s go see it together next time.”
“Go see it?”
Yu-jin asked, startled. Seeing his nose red and his eyes glistening as he blinked, Winston showered him with kisses instead of answering. When he sucked hard on his neck, Yu-jin couldn’t help but flinch and groan.
“S-Stop…….”
“Does it hurt?”
He asked, licking him lightly with his tongue, and Yu-jin hesitated before answering.
“It doesn’t hurt, but…….”
Winston smiled and kissed him again when he couldn’t finish his sentence. He was so lovely that his heart felt like it would burst.
“There are so many things I want to do with you.”
“Like what?”
Yu-jin asked, his eyes shining with curiosity. Winston just smiled.
“I’ll teach you one by one. You’ve never been outside, have you?”
“Uh…… yeah.”
Yu-jin hesitated and nodded.
“I’ve been here the whole time.”
As he added in a small voice, Winston kissed his lips.
“Why do you keep kissing me…….”
As soon as their lips parted, he complained softly, and Winston pinched Yu-jin’s cheek gently.
“You don’t like it?”
“No…… I like it…….”
Yu-jin hesitated before answering.
“You keep kissing me, so the conversation keeps getting cut off…… I want to talk a lot too…….”
“You’re right.”
Even after saying that, Winston kissed Yu-jin again. He kissed him all over his face, making little ‘mwah, mwah’ sounds like he was kissing a baby, and Yu-jin eventually had to turn his head and refuse.
“Stop, stop, stop it for today!”
He said urgently, blocking his mouth with both hands and pushing him away, and Winston frowned as if he was upset, then suddenly licked Yu-jin’s palm.
“Eek!”
Startled, he let go of his hand, and Winston didn’t miss the opportunity to kiss Yu-jin. Eventually, Yu-jin, who had been taken advantage of again, looked at him with resentful eyes, and Winston burst out laughing.
“Sorry, but I can’t help it.”
Seeing him interlock his fingers with Yu-jin’s and kiss each knuckle, Yu-jin’s face flushed. He also loved kissing him so much, but he also wanted to talk. He wanted to read books together like they used to, or just walk in the garden together. Should they drink lemonade? Should they make dinner together?
His heart felt like it would burst because there were so many things he wanted to do. But unlike what was in his head, they kissed again, shared breaths, and spent time together.
“I have to go now.”
Before he knew it, several hours had passed. Yu-jin knew that it was time to let him go. Even as he said that, Winston rubbed his lips against Yu-jin’s cheek.
“The time is too short.”
As Yu-jin murmured as if complaining, Winston kissed his lips.
“Don’t worry, we can see each other every day from now on.”
He promised again, kissed him once more, and carefully lowered Yu-jin from his lap. It wasn’t even a few steps to the front door, but it took a long time because they kissed and hugged each other so many times. As soon as he managed to open the door, sadness already washed over Yu-jin’s heart.
“Don’t make that face.”
Winston also said in a pitiful voice, cupped Yu-jin’s cheeks, and kissed him. Still caressing his cheeks, Winston whispered.
“Let’s go out together tomorrow. Is there anywhere you want to go? I’ll take you anywhere.”
“Really? Ah……”
The light in Yu-jin’s face, which had widened his eyes in delight, soon faded. Sensing an unusual atmosphere, Winston looked at him questioningly, and Yu-jin lowered his head and mumbled.
“Harold is coming soon…… if he comes when I’m not here and finds out I sneaked out, it could be a big problem…….”
It felt like the words were caught in his throat as he spoke. Yu-jin finished speaking painfully, as if squeezing his vocal cords. He had been so happy until now, but the sudden reality made him depressed again. Winston misunderstood his reaction as not wanting to part.
“I can’t help it, how often does your father come?”
“About once a month…….”
As he answered quietly, Winston said, “Okay,” and kissed Yu-jin’s forehead.
“Let’s go out after your father has been here. Then it’ll be okay, right?”
No, it’s not okay.
Yu-jin looked up at him, feeling like his throat was blocked. Winston kissed Yu-jin’s lips again and took a step back.
“Go to sleep, Yu-jin. I’ll come again tomorrow.”
With those words, he stepped back. He almost fell down the stairs because he couldn’t take his eyes off Yu-jin, but fortunately, he regained his balance right away. Seeing Yu-jin, who had gasped in surprise, patting his chest, Winston smiled and then groaned. Winston, who had returned in just a few steps, hugged Yu-jin and this time locked their lips deeply. Licking inside his mouth and sucking frantically, he hugged him so tightly that his whole body felt like it would break, and Yu-jin instead felt a sense of relief and clung to him with all his might.
“At this rate, the sun will come up.”
Winston, who barely managed to part his lips, smiled bitterly as he gasped for breath. He wished it would. Yu-jin didn’t want to let him go. Stay with me, don’t leave me alone.
Winston let go of Yu-jin and moved away again. This time, Yu-jin’s face lost all color at the sight of his back as he turned away as if he had made up his mind. His heart, which had been pounding so much, began to flutter with anxiety. Winston is leaving. And Harold will come. Then I. If that happens, I.
“Don’t go……!”
He couldn’t stand it because he was so scared. Yu-jin screamed in terror and ran to Winston. Winston looked down in surprise at his actions of grabbing his arm urgently. The face of his lover, who had been looking up at him so lovingly in his arms just a moment ago, was pale.
“Yu-jin, what’s wrong? What’s the matter?”
Winston was startled and hurriedly hugged Yu-jin and stroked his back.
“It’s okay, don’t worry. I’m here. Why? What are you scared of?”
Yu-jin’s trembling was transmitted to his whole body. Winston hugged him even tighter and waited for the trembling to stop.
“It’s okay, Yu-jin. It’s okay. Relax, it’s okay.”
As he repeated the same words like a spell several times, he could feel Yu-jin calming down little by little. Once the trembling breaths that had been flowing out heavily had subsided to some extent, Winston was finally able to release the tension in his shoulders. He still didn’t let go of Yu-jin in his arms and kissed his forehead. Judging that it was okay to ask now, Winston spoke gently.
“What happened? Why? It’s okay, tell me.”
He asked the reason in a soft voice as if soothing a child, but Yu-jin couldn’t open his mouth easily. What will happen if I tell him? Will Winston get angry at me too? Like Mrs. Campbell?
The memory of being slapped so hard that his cheeks felt like they would burst made his spine tingle. He felt like he couldn’t bear it if even Winston looked at him like that.
Seeing Yu-jin, who was soon filled with tears and unable to say anything, Winston couldn’t shake off an ominous feeling. What on earth could have happened to make him so scared?
“Yu-jin, please. Tell me, if you trust me.”
Still, Yu-jin couldn’t speak easily. Winston didn’t give up and continued to comfort him.
“I won’t blame you no matter what. Tell me honestly, what’s wrong? You have something you want to say to me, right?”
A rough breath, like a groan, leaked out from inside Yu-jin’s throat. He was so scared, but Winston was the only hope left for him now. Conversely, if even Winston turned away from him, Yu-jin felt like he would want to die.
“Really…… really? You won’t say anything to me……?”
Yu-jin asked in a choked voice, his eyes filled with tears. Winston nodded and kissed his cheeks and neck. It was then that he realized that Yu-jin had a faint pheromone scent. Winston suppressed his excitement and instead answered with strength.
“Of course. I will never betray you no matter what. Yu-jin, if you like me, trust me.”
Yu-jin swallowed hard once more and closed his eyes. The tears that had been welling up flowed down his face.
“Harold, does.”
He barely opened his eyes and continued speaking with difficulty in a choked voice.
“Does strange things to me……”