By Zephyria “I even thought about stopping you from becoming an idol.”
‘Should I cut everything off right now so you can’t do anything….’
“I just held back. Because you wanted to sing on stage.”
I blinked several times and tried to sort out my thoughts. But I couldn’t understand what Sung Se-han was saying without any playfulness.
“I held back a lot, so I should be praised by Lee Tae-kyung.”
“Se-han.”
It felt like there was a dry, gritty sound in my parched mouth.
I wasn’t used to Sung Se-han’s expressionless face like this. Ironically, I had a desire to see Sung Se-han’s friendly smile right away.
“Even if I say I don’t know what you’re talking about, you won’t explain it to me, will you?”
“Yeah.”
While I was blankly standing there, Sung Se-han was putting something on my wrist. When I tried to pull my wrist away, an irresistible force firmly held me back.
“It’s a debut gift.”
What Sung Se-han put on me was a white gold bracelet that sparkled even in the dark car.
“It suits you well because your wrist is pretty.”
One corner of Sung Se-han’s mouth went up as if he was satisfied. I couldn’t say anything and just stared at him at the smile he was finally showing.
“Tae-kyung, no matter how I feel, I came here to congratulate you today.”
Sung Se-han, who had been looking at my wrist, raised his eyes.
“But why won’t you let me touch you as I please? It’s frustrating.”
Even though my head was blank, I was dumbfounded and laughed. I don’t know who’s been constantly touching my ankles and wrists since a while ago.
“Sung Se-han, what am I supposed to think about you touching me like this… and getting excited enough to get a hard-on?”
It was a question that burst out because I couldn’t keep it in my head.
After blurting out words that couldn’t be taken back, I felt like I wanted to run away right away. I could hear my heart pounding in my hot ears.
“It’s embarrassing, Tae-kyung. To ask about such a physiological phenomenon so openly.”
Sung Se-han, who wasn’t embarrassed at all, shamelessly made a troubled expression.
“Okay. Since we’re so close, I’ll tell you everything honestly.”
“No, I didn’t mean tell me everything….”
I waved my hand with a bad feeling, but I couldn’t stop Sung Se-han.
“These days, when I jerk off, I always think of when I hugged you, Tae-kyung.”
Before Sung Se-han could finish speaking, I covered my face with both hands.
“Then I get excited in a good way.”
It seems like my face won’t have a chance to cool down today. I felt like I was going to become dehydrated.
“But Lee Tae-kyung, are you upset by what I said?”
I lowered my hands and looked straight at Sung Se-han. My face must be burning red, but I didn’t care. The one who should be embarrassed isn’t me, but that bastard.
“Sung Se-han, that’s why I said let’s keep some boundaries.”
Before I cross the line. Please, I’m begging you.
“Who hugs their friend and gets excited and… does, does that kind of thing! Don’t you have any self-control?”
“Yeah. I don’t know if it’s because I’m tired these days, but I can’t control myself.”
Sung Se-han turned his gaze to somewhere outside the window as I was just opening and closing my mouth, speechless.
“Maybe it’s because I haven’t been in a relationship for too long.”
What…? Relationship? My hot head cooled down rapidly at the words that came out of Sung Se-han’s mouth.
I realized that my expression had frozen, but there was nothing I could do. I was too flustered right now.
“If I start dating, we’ll bother each other less. Don’t you think so?”
I couldn’t even answer Sung Se-han’s words properly because I was trying to hide my shaking gaze.
“Hanna Sunbae said she’s interested in me.”
I raised my head sharply. I made eye contact with Sung Se-han, but I couldn’t hide my urgency.
“Hanna Sunbae is… into, into you?”
Sung Se-han was staring at me with narrowed eyes.
“She said she would accept me if I confessed.”
His words were cruel. It was as if he had released poison into my head, and everything went dark.
“Sung Se-han, get a grip. You’re a rookie who hasn’t even debuted for a year…! Hanna Sunbae is a representative K-pop idol. If you get caught dating her, you’ll have tens of millions of anti-fans all over the world!”
It seems like poison has spread to my tongue as well.
I should be congratulating him if he starts dating Hanna Sunbae, who is an idol of men. Instead, I was spewing out curses.
“Have you thought about how disappointed your fans will be if they find out? How much your fans have done for you….”
Sung Se-han isn’t the type to consider the situation and date.
He’s the type who would date anyone he likes, no matter what anyone says. As I was spouting out pathetic words in front of such a guy, a dark wave was raging inside me.
If Sung Se-han dates someone, I’ll probably be pushed to the back burner. He won’t even come to see me like he does now.
Because someone beautiful will take up all of Sung Se-han’s time.
“Sung Se-han.”
I wanted to smile as calmly as possible, but there was no way that would happen.
“So what are you going to do? Do you even have the heart to confess to Hanna Sunbae?”
I don’t want to hear anything.
I hate the fact that the words Hanna Sunbae are coming out of Sung Se-han’s mouth, and I hate the fact that he even thought about dating.
But if I don’t get an answer now, I won’t be able to clear my head. I couldn’t spend every day thinking about Sung Se-han’s relationship.
“Last year was really shitty, so I was thinking about dating.”
Sung Se-han swept my hair back. I was so nervous that I didn’t even blink and just stared at Sung Se-han.
“But these days, work is fun and I can tolerate all the shitty things.”
His long fingers kept messing up my vision as he stroked my hair, but it didn’t stop me from focusing on Sung Se-han’s words.
“Because all the stress is relieved when I’m with Lee Tae-kyung.”
The light in his sparkling brown eyes met mine, and cracks began to form little by little in my frozen body.
“I’m starting to wonder if I really need to date.”
Each word that Sung Se-han spat out seemed to open up my breathing holes. Only after the muscles inside my body, which had seemed frozen, were gently loosened one by one did I finally regain a comfortable breath.
“That’s… yeah, Se-han. There’s no need to take on the risk of dating….”
I’m saying this for Sung Se-han as an idol. I’m not saying this because of my dirty jealousy. Absolutely not….
“Tae-kyung.”
The hand that had been touching my hair came down to my neck. Then his thumb started stroking my neck as if he was rubbing it. My shoulders flinched, but I pretended not to notice and lowered my gaze.
“I don’t even have enough time to meet you, so how can I date?”
“Yeah. That’s right…!”
I couldn’t help but nod my head diligently. I was unbelievably happy that things were flowing in this ideal direction….
“……!”
The hand that had been touching my neck gradually widened its range and suddenly came inside my T-shirt.
I was so flustered that I wiggled my butt, but as expected, there was nowhere to retreat in the seat that was blocked on all sides.
“Sung Se-han…!”
My hands couldn’t push Sung Se-han away and were just flailing in the air. My gaze was briefly taken away by the sight of the bracelet that Sung Se-han had put on his left hand, shimmering in silver.
“Do you hate it?”
I met his pale eyes again at the husky voice. As if he had absorbed all the light leaking through the window, Sung Se-han’s eyes sparkled.
“It’s not that I hate it….”
I was just so confused that I couldn’t think of anything. All my nerves were focused on the sensation of his large hand caressing the back of my neck and collarbone at the same time.
Besides, I could vividly feel Sung Se-han’s solid thigh muscles wriggling under my legs. I tried to move my legs, but I couldn’t move as I pleased because we were sitting so close.
“Se-han, doing this is….”
A cracked voice came out, and I shut my mouth. In the meantime, Sung Se-han pulled down the Windbreaker I was wearing. And he pulled the T-shirt hard, revealing my left shoulder. With a dazed head, I had thoughts like my newly bought T-shirt might be torn.
“Tae-kyung, are you okay?”
I didn’t know what Sung Se-han was saying and just shook my head.
Stop now. I shook my head, telling him to stop touching me, but it seemed like he didn’t understand me.
His long arms dug into my waist and pulled me into a tight hug. In an instant, I stuck my head to the car body and held on so I wouldn’t be pulled away.
However, Sung Se-han, who hugged me without paying attention, rubbed his nose and cheeks on my shoulder. My vision shook at the shock of his solid chest colliding with my chest.
“Lee Tae-kyung’s scent… is amazing.”
The moment I heard his rough, cracked voice, I squeezed my eyes shut.
The Cologne scent mixed with Sung Se-han’s hot breath seemed to paralyze my head.
Even though his moist lips and tongue were licking my shoulder, I couldn’t react at all and just curled up like a guilty person.
“Ugh…!”
I wanted to endure it quietly, but it was hard to endure Sung Se-han’s hair touching my bare skin. It felt like it was tickling my whole body, so I couldn’t help but curl up and struggle.
“Ah!”
Suddenly, my hair was grabbed and my head was snapped back.
My eyes widened at the rough action, and hot lips stuck to my exposed neck.