By Zephyria “Don’t.”
I pushed Sung Se-han away and jumped up. It was because I was afraid his face would touch the shirt that had fluids smeared on it. My pants were off, so it was okay, but I thought I should change my shirt.
“Wear this.”
Sung Se-han took out new underwear from a shopping bag he had brought with the towel. I had to wear underwear, but I couldn’t help but hesitate.
“You asked Vice Manager to get this, right?”
“Yeah, and the shirt too.”
Seeing Sung Se-han take out the shirt from another shopping bag made me sigh involuntarily. Vice Manager would have a sense of what was going on if I suddenly needed new underwear and a shirt.
“How am I supposed to face Vice Manager from now on?”
I covered my face with one hand, feeling embarrassed, and Sung Se-han grabbed my wrist.
“Who cares.”
I was startled and quickly raised my head at his suddenly cold tone.
“Why do you care about Joong-seop Hyung?”
“No, that’s not…”
I couldn’t help but feel flustered by the annoyance in his eyes as he looked down at me.
“Sung Se-han, Vice Manager has given me rides and helped me many times, so it’s natural to care.”
I moved away from Sung Se-han and quickly put on the new briefs. Then, I unbuttoned my shirt and took the new shirt that Sung Se-han handed me.
“I want to get closer to him, but Vice Manager is so aloof…”
“You want to get closer?”
Sung Se-han was staring at me, so I felt awkward changing my clothes. I quickly put on the shirt, buttoned it up, and then turned to Sung Se-han.
“Yeah, Vice Manager is always protecting you by your side…”
“Lee Tae-kyung.”
Sung Se-han, with one hand on his hip, looked at me with a tilted face.
“You thought I needed protection. You were thinking that? Why?”
Ah. I opened my mouth, but I couldn’t answer right away. I knew about those devilish guys who had locked you up when you were young, and those gangster-like guys who were still chasing you. I couldn’t say that.
“Back then… in the parking lot too… if it weren’t for Vice Manager, we would have been in trouble…”
“Tae-kyung.”
Sung Se-han took a step towards me. I was overwhelmed by the strange atmosphere and unconsciously stepped back.
“I let Joong-seop Hyung do it because that’s what he does.”
I had no choice but to stop when my leg touched the cold piano chair. A large hand that seemed like it could cover my entire face with one hand cupped my chin and made me lift my head.
I had no choice but to force myself to meet the gaze of Sung Se-han, who was tilting his face at an angle.
“I can make those things disappear like cockroaches without even having to lift a finger.”
“Ah, okay…”
I didn’t know why he was making such a cold face, or what he was upset about, so I nodded for now.
“Joong-seop Hyung is only kept around because of Robin Hyung’s stubbornness.”
Okay. I understood, so please stop making that cold face. I nodded diligently, but Sung Se-han’s face didn’t change.
“Don’t give Joong-seop Hyung any unnecessary smiles from now on.”
“Huh…?”
Don’t smile? I didn’t know what that meant. Did it look like I was trying to be friendly on my own…?
“Hey, how can I not smile when I greet someone, eu-ut.”
At the same time that Sung Se-han put strength into the fingers that were holding my chin, my mouth, which was being held, opened wide.
“Don’t do it if I tell you not to.”
Sung Se-han, lowering his face, stuck his tongue into my open lips. I had to open my mouth wide and endure until he was satisfied with sucking my mouth as much as he wanted. The moment his thick tongue changed angles and dug deep, I reflexively opened my throat to make way.
It was because of Sung Se-han’s eyes, which were licking me with a wild look even as he rummaged through my mouth with his tongue.
My heart ached because of Sung Se-han’s ridiculous jealousy.
What was this? What could I call this feeling that made me feel like I could do anything Sung Se-han wanted?
“Ah, Se-han!”
I, who had been lost in a dreamlike, hazy feeling, came to my senses because of the hand that grabbed my butt. I hurriedly pushed away the arm that was hugging me, but Sung Se-han kept rubbing his lips against my cheeks and neck.
“I have to go now.”
“Just a little more.”
I completely lost my strength to the force that tightly bound me with both arms to prevent me from escaping. Trapped in his solid chest, I smelled the lingering warmth and just wanted to sit down like this.
“Tae-kyung.”
I felt his hot breath on my neck and closed my eyes tightly.
“Didn’t you come here because you had something to say to me?”
Sung Se-han’s warm whisper pulled me back to the cold reality. Sung Se-han must have felt that my body had stiffened.
“Yeah, I had something to say.”
I pulled away from Sung Se-han and picked up the pants that had fallen under the sofa.
“I’ll just do it next time. It’s not urgent anyway…”
I had already spent too much time, so I didn’t have the time to talk calmly. It wasn’t difficult to avoid it because I gave myself a reason.
After putting on my pants and smoothing out my shirt, Sung Se-han fixed my hair.
“Yeah, there’s no rush.”
Even though he readily agreed, I couldn’t say anything and lowered my gaze. That wasn’t true. I was so anxious that I had run all the way here, but when I saw Sung Se-han’s face, I couldn’t muster the courage to confirm the truth.
“Se-han.”
When I raised my head, his brown eyes met mine as if he had been waiting. Sung Se-han was also waiting. For something to come out of my mouth.
“Se-han.”
“Yeah.”
Sung Se-han, raising the corners of his lips, tilted his face towards me. As if he was ready to listen, no matter what I said.
“I’m sometimes… afraid of everything.”
Sung Se-han’s pretty pupils narrowed slightly.
“Of what?”
I grabbed the large hand that was stroking my arm with both hands.
“I’m afraid that you, Sung Se-han, being alive in front of me is all a dream. Se-han, what if the things I’ve experienced are all a dream…? What if I open my eyes and you’re not there?”
The moment I took out the fear that I had hidden deep inside, an uncontrollable terror washed over me.
If all these things I’ve experienced are just a dream that I’ve been hoping and wishing for, then I definitely won’t be able to bear it.
“Tae-kyung.”
Warm hands gently wrapped around my cold hands.
“I’m right next to you, why are you worrying about that?”
My heart felt like it was going to burst with the desperate desire for Sung Se-han, who was looking at me with a kind face, to be real.
“I don’t know. I don’t know if I’ve become an idiot, but I keep thinking you’re going to disappear…”
“Maybe.”
The eyes with long eyelashes slightly lowered gave off a strange light.
“Are you worried that I might get into an accident or something?”
Huh…? My vision went black from the dull shock, as if I had been hit in the head. Accident, an accident…!
“What on earth, what…”
I opened my mouth without thinking, but my voice didn’t come out properly.
“Calm down, Lee Tae-kyung.”
I must have been staggering back without realizing it. Sung Se-han wrapped his arm around my back and pulled me closer.
“I was just saying it, why are you so surprised? It hurts my heart.”
I shook off the arms that were firmly hugging me and the hands that were gently stroking my cheeks. I couldn’t bear to look at Sung Se-han’s face, so I took out my phone from my pocket.
“Ah… I’ve really been here for too long. Jeong-min called…?”
My fingers were trembling as I touched the screen, and my head was a mess, so it was hard to pretend to be okay.
“Tae-kyung.”
Sung Se-han, with one hand around my head, buried his lips in my hair. I closed my eyes, feeling his hot breath.
“I told you. Everything’s okay.”
His heavy voice ringing above my head calmed me down instantly, as if by magic. My eyes were burning, and I felt like I was going to cry.
“Se-han, I’m going to go now.”
I put my phone in my slacks pocket and turned around.
“Okay.”
Sung Se-han moved first and opened the door to the studio wide. The moment I squinted at the much brighter lights in the hallway than in the studio, a new air rushed into the space that had been filled with Sung Se-han’s scent.
“Joong-seop Hyung will be waiting in the underground parking lot.”
“Okay.”
I didn’t look at Sung Se-han. He didn’t bother to check my face either.
“I’m going.”
Thump, thump. Sung Se-han didn’t follow me or take me to the elevator as I walked down the long hallway.
Judging by the fact that I couldn’t hear the sound of the studio door closing, he was probably still watching me.
I saw someone getting off the elevator on the left. I almost bumped into them as I hurriedly got on before the door closed.
I finally let out a big breath after pressing the close button quickly and the elevator closed.
“Hoo…!”
I grabbed my head with both hands, suddenly overwhelmed by self-loathing.
Why did I even come here, even lying?
When I was just going to run away like this. When I wasn’t going to be able to say anything.
“What do I do now…!”
I definitely shouldn’t be spending time like this. It was as if I was trapped in a swamp, and it was hard to even move one step.
Actually, I don’t know. If I want to confirm the truth with Sung Se-han, I have no choice but to tell him what I’ve experienced. I wonder if it’s okay to do that.