By Zephyria 
Elian, who had set my heart ablaze and then fallen asleep.
Feeling resentful towards him, I lured him with a lie.
“You said you’d do the rest today. So I waited patiently.”
I wondered if he would fall for it, but Elian didn’t suspect a thing. What an innocent person he is.
Guilt pricked at me, but Kirendis was not one to refuse a prepared meal. Having only tasted a little, this time I savored him with ample effort.
The kisses I shared with Elian were ecstatically good. To think such a world existed. I felt like I was floating on clouds.
So, whenever I had the chance, I explored his soft mouth with absurd excuses. As I did, my desires grew larger.
‘I didn’t know my heart could grow even bigger.’
I was afraid of my heart growing without limits, yet I liked it. I was happy just that Elian didn’t reject me.
‘Yes. I’m satisfied with just this much.’
I thought this was significant progress. Elian was always in the same place, I could touch him, I could kiss him.
So I thought it was enough. It was enough that he didn’t push me away, even if he didn’t want me.
But…….
“Li…on?”
It was when Lion and Elian met. I thought it would be fine because I had a certain contract with Lion from long ago.
Besides, weren’t they related by blood?
So I thought it would be fine, but it wasn’t at all. He bothered me more than anyone else. It was because Elian’s eyes held affection for Lion.
‘Family…… they’re family.’
I knew it, but I was envious. The fact that there was something between them that I didn’t know about was unbearable.
Perhaps because of that, I often felt a surge of emotion. At first, I didn’t know what that emotion was.
Whenever Elian looked at Lion as if he were cute, I felt like something was about to burst out.
It didn’t take long to realize that it was the emotion called jealousy.
“Oh, you pretty thing!”
When Elian hugged Lion with a radiant smile I had rarely seen, Kirendis’s heart sank. A heat rose from my core and began to boil.
That’s when I realized. That this was the emotion called jealousy.
If I felt this way even for Lion, to whom I could never be connected, what about others for whom there was a sufficient possibility…….
‘What will happen to me?’
I had no confidence to stop. My body, my mind, were not properly controlled. I was afraid I might make a mistake.
So I confessed. I threw a tantrum, blaming Elian. I thought, ‘What kind of person is this?’ But he said nothing.
Although he seemed bewildered, he didn’t push away the person throwing a tantrum. Instead, he comforted me.
As his slender fingers traced my nape and then my lower back, a heat surged within me.
The rough waves of emotion engulfed me, again and again. I felt like I could only calm this intensity by doing so. I felt like I could.
And then, at the moment the emotions somewhat subsided.
“……Are you okay?”
Elian asked, gently stroking the back of my head. I was the one who should have said something, but he was asking me so kindly.
Kirendis felt ashamed of his tantrum. I felt pathetic for acting like a child.
Nevertheless…….
“Calm down…….”
I wanted this person, lying beneath me with a flushed face, for myself. I wanted more than just a kiss.
I wanted to see him cry and moan beneath me…….
“…….”
“…….”
A strange silence fell in the room. Kirendis realized.
‘Ah…….’
I’ve done it now.
Flustered, Kirendis fled.
I can’t believe this.
Elian didn’t know how to react. It was fortunate that Kirendis had fled, otherwise, it was hard to even imagine what might have happened.
‘Wow…… what is this…….’
I hadn’t seen it directly, but it had been so intimately close that whether I liked it or not, I had to gauge its size.
As expected, the protagonist was different; the fullness I felt beneath me was truly extraordinary.
‘That kind of thing…….’
Elian’s face turned red again. I had clearly felt what Kirendis wanted.
He wanted it. He wanted a deeper relationship than just kissing, a desire to pour out his heat.
‘Crazy. I’m crazy. I’m truly crazy.’
My entire body turned scarlet from the natural flow of imagination. I tried not to think about it, but Kirendis’s reaction, his gaze, and the intense kiss kept replaying.
How could I face him again now? I felt like my path was blocked, thinking he must have been so flustered that he ran away.
‘He seemed… flustered.’
It didn’t seem like an intentional act. While it wasn’t something he could control intentionally, he seemed more surprised than Elian.
‘He’s twenty now…….’
He also had no experience in this world, but since he had a past life, it was hard to say he had none at all.
However, Kirendis was different. If he had liked me since he was young, given his personality, he wouldn’t have strayed. So, everything must have been his first time.
“Haa…….I never thought I’d have to face such worries.
My head was a mess, but I still had to make a decision. I had to think of something to move forward.
Procrastinating and pretending not to know wasn’t my style.
‘What… do I want to do with Kirendis?’
I pondered, burying my face in the pillow. As I pondered, and pondered, and pondered, the sun had already set.
Even though I hadn’t eaten anything all day, I wasn’t hungry. It was probably because I had drunk too much, but I didn’t feel like eating anything.
However, even after hours of contemplation, no answer emerged.
‘He’s not coming in… today?’
I was worried because he always made sure I ate my meals. Where was he, doing what, that he hadn’t shown his face?
“Ah, really!”
I decided this wouldn’t do and jumped up. I hadn’t made any decisions, but I felt like I would find an answer just by seeing his face.
Since I couldn’t find an answer even after this much deliberation, I had no choice but to confront it now.
Elian washed himself aggressively, grumbling. He washed his face, tidied his hair, and changed into new clothes.
I felt proud of myself for being able to manage on my own now.
After finishing my preparations, I took a deep breath and opened the door. But then…….
“Huh?”
As soon as the door opened, something large crashed into me.
“Whoa?!”
It was Kirendis. He was falling towards Elian.
“Aargh!”
Because he was so tall and bulky, I couldn’t fully catch him. Elian was knocked over and fell backward.
“Ouch…….”
Fortunately, I didn’t hit my head, but my hips protested. I wondered if my tailbone had broken, but thankfully, even that pain gradually disappeared, and I could breathe a sigh of relief.
‘That was a close call.’
Elian then confirmed the large body that had fallen on top of him. His black hair was scattered messily on his chest.
“Kiren…dis?”
I called out to him softly, but there was no answer. Why on earth was he leaning against the door?
As I tilted my head, I smelled a familiar scent from him, as if answering my question.
“You…….”
Alcohol.
I wondered what he had been doing all day, but it seemed he had been drinking.
I couldn’t understand why he was doing this when he wouldn’t even take a sip when offered.
‘Is he that flustered?’
Thinking he was so flustered that he drank alcohol made him seem a little cute. It was a natural physiological reaction towards someone he liked, but it seemed very unfamiliar to him.
‘I shouldn’t be like this.’
I shouldn’t find this cute, but it was quite awkward.
“Kirendis, wake up. Are you okay?”
Given his state, I could treat him a little more casually. At least, I had to move him somewhere since we couldn’t stay like this.
“Ugh. The smell of alcohol. You drank a lot. You really drank a lot.”
The smell of alcohol stung my nose, indicating how much he had drunk. His weight also increased, and I groaned as I tried to move the large body.
“You, tomorrow…… we’ll see.”
Even though I was dragging him, he was so heavy that I couldn’t help but groan. For a desk worker who was far from exercise, he was too heavy to move.
And then, finally……
“Aargh!”
The moment I reached my destination, I lost my balance.
“Ouch…….”
Fortunately, I fell onto the mattress, and my tailbone was safe. But I was pinned down again and couldn’t move an inch. It was even more so after I had lost my strength.
“This is crazy. Really.”
What should I do?
Elian stared at the ceiling, lost in thought. Seeing Kirendis completely drunk made me feel like a fool for pondering all day.
‘First… let’s get out from under him.’
I couldn’t stay like this. I wondered if I could muster the strength again, but I had to at least try.
“Kirendis. Kirendis.”
I tried shaking him awake, but he remained motionless. Elian had no choice but to start pushing him away. I twisted my body, trying to escape with all my might.
At that moment.
“…….”
Elian’s movement abruptly stopped. At first, I couldn’t fully comprehend the situation. But soon, my face turned red, and I yelled.
“You!!”
Elian, flushed crimson, was completely flustered. In doing so, I made the wrong choice to struggle, which only worsened the change happening below.
“M-my god…….”
Elian stopped moving, his face contorted in a grimace. His face was still flushed red and showed no signs of cooling down.
What had happened this morning was happening again below.
This time, since the other person wasn’t running away and had stopped, the fullness was transmitted directly. Something hot and hard was pressed between Elian’s legs, displaying its immensity.
‘Is he… is he really asleep? Isn’t he actually awake!’
I felt like it would grow larger if I kept moving, and staying still was also strange.
Elian, not knowing what to do in this unprecedented situation, began to wake Kirendis.
“Ki, Kirendis. Hey… wake up. You… you like this…….”
My shy nature made my movements cautious. I couldn’t help it. Shaking him hard felt like it would lead to a disaster.
“Kirendiisss…….”
What should I do?
Elian continued to shake him, his face still flushed red. He whispered his name repeatedly in a small voice.
After a few more attempts, his heavy body twitched, showing signs of waking up.
Elian was so happy that he shouted with joy.
“Kirendis. You’re awake? You’re awake, right?”
Finally, I thought I could escape this awkward and embarrassing situation. But fate was not on my side. Something happened that shattered Elian’s expectations in an instant.
“Elian…… Hooo…….”
Kirendis exhaled a hot breath and pressed down firmly on his lower body.
“Gasp…….”
Elian’s body stiffened. Hot breath was being exhaled near his ear, and the weight was stimulating him.
“It’s hot…….”
To make matters worse, Kirendis complained of the heat and was lowering his hand. It seemed less like he was genuinely hot and more like he wanted to relieve the tightness below.
“W-wait a minute…!”
Elian, flustered, quickly grabbed his hand. It was too dangerous now. I couldn’t handle it.
But… that’s what I thought…
“Elian…?”
Kirendis slowly lifted his body and looked down at him.
Elian could do nothing. Kirendis was trapping him with his gaze, preventing him from moving.
All tenderness had vanished, and all that was before him was a predator drooling.
‘If this continues….’
I felt like I was going to be eaten. Elian was certain. Kirendis’s eyes were truly wild.
Fueled by alcohol, he was expressing his emotions as they were, wanting Elian. He wanted to swallow him whole.
His desire was so clear that my heart began to pound violently.
‘This is…….’
Where was this noisy sound coming from?
Fear?
Anticipation?
A complex mix of emotions tangled and tormented me. But one thing was certain.
“Elian…….”
Kirendis lowered his head next to Elian and let out a long sigh. It was a sigh filled with many emotions, as if he were holding something back.
Elian realized that he was trying to hold back even in his state of losing control.
His eyes were half-glazed, yet he was holding back while drooling.
‘Ah… what should I do.’
Elian squeezed his eyes shut. He was afraid of the large beast exuding a menacing aura, yet he also found it endearing.
He felt like a large beast who didn’t know what to do and wanted to help. He wanted to do something for him.
‘I shouldn’t….’
It was unfair to do this without making any decision. But… still…
‘I don’t want to turn away.’
Elian cautiously lowered his hand.
Carefully, he unbuckled his pants and gently pulled down his underwear. Then, with a ‘thump,’ a giant pillar sprang out.
‘Ah…….’
It was bigger than I expected, and I was startled. But it was too late to turn back. Elian swallowed dryly and took the pillar in his hand. Kirendis let out a short groan.
“Ngh…….”
For some reason, it felt satisfying, so I gently stroked upwards, moving my hand.
What filled my hand was hot, and the breathing that echoed in my ears was the same. If I wasn’t careful, I felt like I would be swayed by this air.
“Haa…….”
As satisfied sighs poured out one after another, Elian’s heartbeat began to quicken.
I wanted to hear more, and the thought that he might be satisfied crossed my mind. So, I decided to move a little more actively.
I increased the speed of my stroking and gently rolled my fingertips over the glans to stimulate it. Then, a pained sound escaped him.
“Ngh, Elian…….”
Kirendis properly recognized the person bringing him pleasure. It felt a little strange. But at the same time, I felt an inexplicable sense of exhilaration.
What was this feeling? Why did I feel this way?
“Haa…….”
His excited voice was pleasant to hear. His low voice and hot breaths seemed to lead Elian into a strange world.
Elian, now immersed in the atmosphere, moved to further excite Kirendis and watched his reaction.
“Ngh… Ugh…….”
Even in his excitement, I could see him clenching his fists, trying to hold back. It was a little commendable, but also pitiful. So, I gently pulled him closer, hugged him, and whispered.
“It’s okay. It’s okay, Kirendis.”
Was that the signal? Kirendis immediately lunged forward, pinning me down, and kissed me. He devoured my lips, releasing his excitement.
Elian also helped him, mixing saliva and moving his hand. He made sure to excite him further.
‘I think I’m getting addicted.’
I could clearly feel the heat and pleasure in my hand. It was good to see him pouring himself out as he was.
The raw emotion, poured out with blind desperation, was transmitted directly. It became a giant wave that crashed over Elian.
‘My heart…….’
I felt like my heart was overflowing. Elian actively clung to him, kissing him and stroking Kirendis’s back.
“Haa…….”
As my fingertips brushed against him, a sigh of unbearable pleasure escaped him. Elian pulled Kirendis’s face closer, kissed him again, and moved his hand upwards.
The hot pillar pulsed, moving as if alive. With every touch, stroke, and stimulation, something surged and overflowed.
‘Ah…….’
I really felt like I was getting addicted. A great satisfaction washed over me. The heat Kirendis conveyed filled my heart.
“Elian. Elian.”
As the end approached, Kirendis’s eyelids fluttered. Elian quickly stroked the pillar, taking in his excited face.
His disheveled black hair, his brow furrowed with excitement, his red lips, and his still white, smooth jawline.
I couldn’t tear my eyes away. I took in every detail, observing how he became aroused and how he reached his climax.
“Ugh…….”
With a short groan, the evidence of his arousal poured out. At the same time, his large body collapsed, falling on top of Elian.
“Haa…….”
The predatory look of wanting to devour was gone. Seemingly pleased, he buried his face in my neck and nuzzled.
“Elian……”
Elian flinched at the unexpected display of affection.
“Elian……”
Kirendis continued to nuzzle him, cooing.
‘Wait, just a moment.’
The heat that started at his nape began to rush downwards rapidly. Before he could do anything about it, his lower abdomen grew heavy, and his core began to swell firmly.
“Elian……”
Elian froze completely. He couldn’t understand what had stimulated him. Hadn’t everything been fine until now?
But as if to tell him the reason, Kirendis whispered in his ear.
“I love you.”
Ah…
A low sigh escaped him, and his face flushed red. His lower body grew harder, standing at attention. It revealed its powerful presence.
Fortunately, Kirendis couldn’t fight off sleep and simply passed out. The worst situation was averted, but Elian could only bite down on his lip.
‘Damn it.’
The situation was not much different from before things had escalated. He was still pinned beneath a large body and couldn’t escape. However, everything else had changed.
The evidence of his arousal remained in his hand, and his own body, not Kirendis’s, had become aroused. Kirendis’s satisfied voice, his affectionate charm, and his sweet confession of love had truly stimulated Elian.
‘I… I’m weak to affection.’
And not just affection.
He was weak to cuteness, weak to kindness, and weak to the rough side he occasionally showed.
In short, he was weak to Kirendis. Kirendis had always been the exception, but Elian had just been ignoring it. He had come up with countless excuses, telling himself it was impossible, that he didn’t have the time.
But even so, feelings that had once taken root couldn’t just disappear.
Elian could only let out a long sigh at the naked evidence his body had shown.
“Haaaaaaa……”