22 – Everyday Life at Twenty (Side Story 1)

“You know you caused me trouble, right?”

That’s what a guy I took the same elective with suddenly said to me. It was absurd to hear it out of the blue, but I had, quite literally, committed a sin, so I just kept my mouth shut.

“How could you just disappear in the middle of a group project?”

That was the sin. I didn’t participate in the group project for an elective last semester. The reason was Go Yohan, but college wasn’t generous enough to understand such personal reasons. Thanks to that, my grades hit rock bottom. I ended up having to retake the class.

And that guy who looked at me like I was putting on airs in the elective I took with An Jisu in the first semester of freshman year. Kang Suhyun. That guy was this very guy. So Kang Suhyun had every right to ask about my sin. I tucked my lip into my mouth.

I have nothing to say.

“You don’t know how much I suffered because you suddenly disappeared, do you?”

To be honest, I didn’t think I’d ever meet this guy again. To meet again in this wide university, among all these electives. The world is really small. Unluckily.

“Like I said back then, I’m really sorry.”

“You’re sorry? Well, of course you should be sorry. I’ll be generous and let it slide, so come to the blind date I’m setting up.”

“Blind date?”

Why is a blind date suddenly coming up here? I was dumbfounded by the incomprehensible leap in topic when four fingers were spread out in front of my eyes. At the same time, my face scrunched up. It was something like a trauma that had developed since last semester.

Strangely, seeing perfectly normal fingers doesn’t make me feel good.

“Um, move your hand a little……”

“4 on 4. Yangyeong Tent Bar, I’ll send you the exact address later. Time is this Saturday at 7 PM. Oh, and you’re responsible for bringing one more friend. A decent guy who’s up to par.”

Yangyeong Tent Bar? You have a blind date at a bar? No, do you have blind dates at bars? I was pondering common sense that I had never thought I would have to ponder in my life. While I was sorting out my complicated thoughts from the sudden bomb, a direct remark cut me off. The guy who had been spouting only his own words wore a triumphant smile.

“If you don’t come, I’m really going to take your name off the group project this time. For the crime of being impudent.”

“Wait, why? What?”

“That’s what I’m saying, why did you suddenly cut off contact back then? Huh? You didn’t attend class, and your classmate dropped out before even doing anything. Seriously, is everyone from your school like that? Seriously, these guys.”

I avoided his gaze as he scanned me with a pathetic look and closed my mouth again. Either way, I was guilty. I nodded with a queasy feeling, feeling like I was being dragged into a trap, and he clenched his fist tightly, saying, “Good. If you don’t come on Saturday, know that your name will… have the flying off the PPT list effect during the presentation.”

Come to think of it, Kang Suhyun was the team leader. I think he was in charge of making the PPT. No wonder I thought he was amazing for readily volunteering to be the team leader as soon as we ran into each other in an uncomfortable situation…….

“And give me your number.”

“My number? Why?”

“I’m trying to get a guarantee in case you run away again. The world is too scary these days.”

“……”

When I hesitantly reached out my hand, Kang Suhyun quickly put his phone on it. It really wasn’t intentional. I was just out of it. But I didn’t want to explain the situation in detail. Because it wasn’t my situation, it was Go Yohan’s situation.

As soon as I pressed the last number, my phone was snatched away.

“Ah.”

“I’m going to call this number to confirm.”

He stared at me intensely with wide eyes. Not satisfied with that, Kang Suhyun pretended to stab his eyes and my eyes alternately, pointing at the screen with his own number on it.

“Make sure you come on Saturday. Got it? If you don’t come, you’re going to be less than trash.”

Kang Suhyun, who had been walking away triumphantly, suddenly stopped. And he quickly bent down and walked back towards me. It was a hurried walk. I don’t know why he did that, but as soon as he came next to me, he whispered in a small voice.

“Oh, and I’m in the Department of Mechanical Engineering.”

One of his eyelids twitched. Is he winking? I really hope he doesn’t.

“Same year as you. Same age.”

“……Okay, nice to meet you.”

As soon as he finished greeting me, Kang Suhyun hurried away again.

I sat in the spot left behind by the storm and stared at the absurd reality.

“That bastard’s crazy.”

Are you any better? I looked at the shameless guy with bleary eyes. He has no conscience. Doesn’t he feel ashamed of himself for saying that? No, before that, shouldn’t he think about his own character? I cautiously pondered.

“I know. He’s crazy.”

But there’s a reason why I don’t say anything. My character is just as shameless. However, I acknowledged and accepted myself. At least I have a conscience.

The fact that I’m still scraping a cafeteria tray even after graduating from high school hasn’t changed. It’s just changed from school lunch to cafeteria food. In other words, no matter how much you grow up, that’s all there is to it. And my life was the same. Just looking at the guy sitting right in front of me.

Go Yohan. A giant whose height finally stopped at 191 this year. The craziest guy I know. And he’s also a guy who can’t use chopsticks well. The braised quail eggs keep plummeting to the floor several times because of his clumsy chopsticks skills. I stopped eating and scratched the bridge of my nose with my index finger, then put down my chopsticks and grabbed Go Yohan’s hand tightly. Then I stuck the chopsticks into the quail egg.

“Don’t pick it up, stab it.”

“You’re smart.”

“……”

Doesn’t Yohan hate me? The guy’s face, chewing on the quail egg stuck on the chopsticks, was more peaceful than anyone else’s. It’s just that my insides are at war. I lowered my gaze and stared intently at the act of tapping the next side dish to eat. After that day, Go Yohan changed the way he held his chopsticks. But it was still just as clumsy. Just like our ambiguous relationship.

Scratching the back of my neck, I secretly looked at Go Yohan, and as always, my gaze went to Go Yohan’s lips.

It’s still a habit I haven’t been able to get rid of. The moment I realized my gaze, I quickly turned my gaze away and pretended to look elsewhere. The leg under the table, where no one was looking, was twisted inward.

“How’s class?”

“How’s class, it’s disgusting.”

Go Yohan, who had been chewing on quail eggs for a while, swallowed and said. I lowered my hand and pressed down hard on my thigh. Only Kang Jun on the table was fine.

“They’re already making cliques, saying they’re from foreign language high schools, private high schools, or whatever. The kids only learn to be mean.”

“Ah, I did that too.”

I nodded at the memory that came to mind naturally. It was a few days ago. A senior from the same department as me, who knew how, greeted me first and patted me on the back. He just told me to ask him anything if I didn’t know anything. That was all.

“……What?”

Suddenly, Go Yohan’s voice dropped. The hand holding the chopsticks twitched. The sensitive reaction stung me. I put down my chopsticks and stroked my arm. I tried my best to answer as casually as possible.

“There was a senior from the same school as me in our department. I don’t know if he heard it from the teachers, but he just said hello to me and told me to get along. There’s no contact after that, and we just say hello if we happen to run into each other in the major.”

The sharp reaction doesn’t leave my side and lingers around me. “Ah-.” Go Yohan’s short answer wasn’t refreshing. It felt like he wasn’t answering, but just reacting out of obligation. A short silence flowed as the dishes clattered.

“Is he a guy?”

“Yeah.”

I quickly added.

“But I haven’t really talked to him since then.”

Why am I making these excuses? I couldn’t stop even while wondering.

I kept looking at Go Yohan’s face and picked up my chopsticks again. I’m trying to act as casual as possible. The side dish I put in my mouth was rough. The side dish couldn’t be prickly, so it must be my mouth that’s prickly. The chopsticks I was about to stick into the quail egg slipped and stabbed the tray violently. I raised my head at the loud noise. Go Yohan’s face was as cold as a snake.

“What’s his name?”

Ah, I made a mistake. I bit my gums slightly without a sound.

“I don’t know, I don’t remember.”

“Why don’t you remember?”

I stirred the side dish I didn’t want to eat and continued.

“Just, I didn’t remember.”

“……”

The sound of crunching in my mouth fills my head. It was that quiet. I endured this silence and waited for Go Yohan’s words. It wasn’t that difficult. Because it was faster than I thought.

“What kind of senior doesn’t remember his name. Do you want to ruin your social life?”

“Let it be ruined.”

I glanced up. Go Yohan was already back to his original face, chewing on the side dish. Still, his voice tone was low and heavy, and his chopsticks stayed on the tray without thinking of moving. He had a face lost in thought. My chest felt strangely tight. It was uncomfortable, but it wasn’t an unpleasant feeling.

I twisted my foot under the table. A fish is jumping in my heart. I opened my mouth, which wouldn’t open easily.

“I’m going to be with you anyway, so I don’t care about social life.”

“……”

I don’t know if he liked my answer or if he was holding back. I secretly looked at his eyebrows, they weren’t twitching. Ah, he liked it. The face that appeared and disappeared like a midsummer night’s dream was imprinted in my memory and then disappeared. The sharp voice became strangely affectionate.

“Let’s match our schedules next time. Let’s take electives together.”

“Okay.”

“And don’t just pick them randomly like this time.”

“Hey, randomly? I put a lot of thought into it. Unlike you, who took a leave of absence, I had to recover my grades.”

“Freshman year grades are supposed to be a mess. It’s a long-standing academic tradition.”

“Then why didn’t you mess it up first? You took out all the required electives.”

“What are you saying so harshly? You’re not even thinking of jumping into the job market anyway.”

“Aren’t you?”

We’re both in the same boat, with our destinations decided. I looked at him with an absurd look, and Go Yohan looked back at me with the same look. Then he raised one corner of his mouth.

“I’m not, I’m watching the competitors trying to eat each other with their eyes wide open.”

“Ah……”

“What? Brothers are a gift? Tell them not to bullshit. The one who laughs last is the only child.”

Go Yohan smiled, showing his teeth. Seeing that, I let out a hollow laugh.

“Then you should only have one child later.”

“Wow, amazing Kang Jun.”

He lightly bent his neck once and smirked with a half-joking, half-mocking expression.

“You’re also revealing your ambition to get pregnant as a man.”

“……Hey.”

“I’m kidding.”

Go Yohan lightly waved his hand and said quietly, avoiding my eyes.

“Don’t take it seriously.”

“……”

Our relationship is ambiguous. We were maintaining exactly this distance without saying anything.

Go Yohan, who had been depressed all along, suddenly hit rock bottom and returned to being a playful guy. To be exact, it was from the moment I accepted Go Yohan’s jokes. Since then, we have continued to maintain this atmosphere. Jokes that make your feet twist on their own and a space with a thin glass wall where you can see the other side. I started accepting Go Yohan’s jokes when Go Yohan’s chopsticks skills changed.

While I was staring at the chopsticks crossed in an X shape, Go Yohan suddenly opened his mouth.

“That’s right, and take me to the blind date too.”

“……?”

Did I hear wrong? But Go Yohan’s face is just calm. I asked again, just in case.

“What did you just say?”

“You said to bring a decent friend. That’s me without a doubt.”

I tried hard to stop the empty air coming out of my mouth. Seriously, Yohan is amazing in a different way.

“You said it’s Saturday at 7 PM, right? Let’s leave together.”

“Me, you…… why?”

No, why there? Now? I was so flustered that I even stuttered. Go Yohan now…… does he want to go to the blind date? I was saying I didn’t want to go in a roundabout way. Why are you saying that?

An unpleasant feeling rises like moss that grows hidden and damp. No, why? I was so annoyed by the incomprehensible way of thinking that I closed my mouth tightly, and Go Yohan put his chopsticks down on the tray and looked at me askance. It’s absurd. Why are you looking at me like that?

“What, why are you looking at me like that?”

“You’re unbelievable. You were going to go without me?”

“No, I wasn’t going to go at all.”

“Why aren’t you going? You’re already suffering from retaking the class, are you determined to ruin your grades?”

“……”

“This guy’s crazy……”

Go Yohan glared at me and looked at me pathetically.

“Are grades easy?”

Is college easy? Your score last semester was completely Professor’s farmland. You planted a big C. The farmers this year don’t have to worry about crops. They can harvest from your grades. It’ll be a great harvest, right?

This…….

An unbeliever who would have been executed in medieval Europe. That guy must have been burned at the stake in his previous life for insulting Jesus. I took a deep breath to lower the rising heat.

This time, I slammed my chopsticks down on the tray. The tray, which was stainless steel, had turned into white plastic when I came to college. It’s telling me to eat environmental hormones and die quickly. This. I threw a crooked gaze at the innocent tray for no reason. Go Yohan picks up the chopsticks he had put down again. Again in an X shape.

Damn it. I leaned back in the worn-out chair.

“Am I really going?”

“Yeah, go.”

“I’m asking if I can really go.”

“Who’s saying anything? I’m telling you to go?”

He picks up the vegetables without sincerity and puts them down. However, half of the side dishes he picked up fell to the floor. Disgusting.

“Ah, shit……”

Go Yohan frowned and shook his thigh. Dirty side dishes fell on the floor. Bad guy, who’s going to clean that up? It’s a dirty floor anyway, but is it okay to throw it away like that?

I don’t like him. Go Yohan is always unlucky.

“Wow, friend……”

Kang Suhyun reached out and pretended to scan Go Yohan’s tall body. His face was etched with clear admiration.

I know exactly what he’s thinking. That’s because Go Yohan is a particularly noticeable guy. His flashy appearance played a part, but the presence of his body, which seemed to be twice as big as others, was overwhelming. Even though he was just wearing a simple T-shirt and jeans. It would be unfair that Go Yohan stood out more than Kang Suhyun, who was all dressed up, but humans are born and live unequally.

“Friend, do you happen to be interested?”

“You said to bring a decent guy.”

“That’s not what I meant!”

Kang Suhyun fell into deep despair. He even groaned, tearing at his face.

“What kind of bait brings Psychedelic lighting? You’re crazy.”

“Then shall we go back? I can just go.”

“No? Where are you going?”

I turned around as if I had been waiting for it, but this damn team leader grabbed my clothes.

“This blind date was barely set up with your picture. If you don’t come, I’m going to get all the blame.”

“What? Hey, where did you get my picture?”

“Where did I get it? Your super expensive number, huh? I saw it with that number I got in a hurry because I thought you’d run away again. What are you going to do about it.”

I closed my mouth at Kang Suhyun’s words that he saw it in my profile picture. Either way, I was a traitor for ditching the team project.

“Ahem, okay. I see.”

Ha, damn it. I secretly turned my face away from Kang Suhyun and muttered curses silently. Why is Go Yohan staying still at times like this? It’s ridiculous that the guy who used to sneer and hate women’s stories until a few years ago came to the blind date. What is it? Is he full of curiosity now? Or does he want to experience a new world?

Whatever he’s thinking, the fact that I’m uncomfortable with this situation doesn’t change.

I looked at Go Yohan with a face full of malice. To be honest, it was a bit blatant. But the damn Go Yohan was just watching the situation quietly, and only slowly stroked his chin with his index finger.

Unlucky guy, annoying guy. As expected, all of Go Yohan’s words were lies. What? He listens to me well? Am I a religion? I was an idiot for being fooled by it and having foolish thoughts. Son of a bitch.

“Hey, friend?”

“Huh? Me? Did you call me?”

“Yeah.”

While I was biting my lip and glaring at Go Yohan, Go Yohan glanced at my eyes and immediately looked away and said that to Kang Suhyun. Honestly, I had a little expectation there. A firework of hope exploded in the midst of the heat.

“Yeah, why don’t you express your intention to quit this pathetic act right now? Cause a scene and leave like you always do.” But contrary to expectations, Go Yohan’s gaze slowly traveled down Kang Suhyun’s arm, only to look at the hem of my shirt he was holding.

“You’re gonna wrinkle my friend’s clothes.”

“Really?”

“Wouldn’t you think?”

Damn it, figures. The flame of hope died out faintly.

Kang Suhyun, noticing Go Yohan’s sudden change in mood, subtly gauged my reaction and slowly unfolded his fingers. Then, smoothing out my wrinkled clothes, he said,

“Oh, yeah… Jun? I guess I wrinkled your clothes a bit. Your friend’s really mad.”

The time had come to realize my learning ability once again. Go Yohan always did things beyond or below my expectations. There was no in-between. Honestly, I didn’t care about my clothes at all.

“Hey, your friend’s kinda creepy.”

But this mechanical engineering student wasn’t right in the head either. Definitely.

Seeing him stick so close to me and whisper everything in my ear, he must have heard Kang Suhyun calling himself weird, considering the distance and volume, but Go Yohan didn’t seem to care. He just crossed his arms and stared. Seeing the lukewarm reaction, Kang Suhyun settled in and continued whispering.

“Is he usually not good at first impressions?”

“…I guess.”

The problem was that he was right. It was the moment when a weird guy was redefined as a slightly less weird guy. Let’s forget the hot breath on my ear. Because it was a disgusting sensation I didn’t even want to remember.

“Why is your voice so low? Wow, this is, like, really attractive…”

“What’s the point? His personality’s boring.”

I ambiguously replied to his subtly sarcastic tone. Agreeing without agreeing. And I didn’t really want to whisper. It was a way to embarrass Kang Suhyun, who was openly backstabbing, and vent my anger on Go Yohan at the same time. As I shouted it out loud, Kang Suhyun was horrified and tried to cover my mouth, but then he realized that we weren’t that close, so he just twisted his hand and waved it in the air. “There’s a lot of fine dust in the sky…” His faint muttering lingered in the evening glow.

But Go Yohan, who hadn’t reacted at all, cocked an eyebrow.

“Boring?”

“Yeah. Super boring.”

I openly stepped on words that were subtly thorny. Go Yohan forcibly pulled up his cheek with his fingers. His pressed cheek lifted, forming a twisted smile. This meant things would be uncomfortable for a few days. I knew it, but I kept doing it. I didn’t want to say anything more, so I looked down at the floor.

“Just so you don’t misunderstand, I think you’re attractive.”

Surprisingly, it was Kang Suhyun who shattered the atmosphere that would last for days in an instant.

“I said you were attractive.”

His face, smiling obsequiously, twisted his body while clasping his hands together. That wasn’t really obsequious. His face clearly read, ‘Why are these bastards fighting again?’ Looking back and forth between me and Go Yohan, he suddenly changed into a serious face and said,

“Even if you fight, fight after the meeting. In a place where I’m not! We have to achieve our primary goal for sure. How high-level is this meeting? It’s the dance department, the dance department. Oh, there’s my friend coming!”

Kang Suhyun’s thick eyebrows gathered in the middle. His greasy hair, covered in wax, sparkled under the streetlights. The person who threw a pebble into the sinking atmosphere greeted his friend as if he were a savior.

Rather, me and Go Yohan looked at each other and scratched our necks in embarrassment. We looked like kids fighting.

What was even more infuriating was that Go Yohan was shockingly bad at drinking games.

“What’s with him, he got caught again.”

“Wow, Yohan is really bad at games.”

Soju and beer mixed in a beer glass with white stains. Go Yohan readily accepted the murky water. This was already his ninth glass. In addition, because Go Yohan kept getting all the penalties, I, who was sitting right next to him, couldn’t even take a sip of alcohol.

“You guys are too much. It’s not like I’ve ever played these kinds of games before.”

The way he said it with a slight smile was ridiculous. He slammed so much alcohol into his mouth in one gulp that it even flowed down his chin. Go Yohan, putting down his glass, pointed at the four guys with his thumb.

“We’re just nerds who only know how to study. Korea University.”

“Come on, I don’t think so? At least you look like you partied a bit.”

The bob-haired girl, So-yeon, I think it was. I didn’t remember her last name. The girl, who had been sparkling her eyes at Go Yohan since the first time I saw her, leaned forward and asked. Go Yohan, holding the cup with his right hand that didn’t move much, tilted his head slightly.

“No, I was a loser.”

Liar.

Who would have known that the guy who shook one high school in his hand would go to college and say he was at the bottom?

Each and every one of his gestures, slowly blinking his eyes as if he was a little drunk, was shameless and nonchalant. Kang Suhyun, who had been subtly excluded from the conversation, secretly looked at me, taking advantage of the gap when Go Yohan was half-lying on the table, resting his chin. His mouth moved greatly.

‘Is it true?’

How could it be true. I couldn’t bring myself to say no to Kang Suhyun because we weren’t that close, so I just gave a distorted smile.

‘From what I saw, he ruled the world.’

I ignored the rebuttal on his face that he couldn’t believe it.

“How much of a loser was I…”

Go Yohan’s drawn-out tone suddenly turned to me. I was a little flustered by the sudden encounter. Why was he looking at me? Feeling strange, I leaned back slightly, and Go Yohan’s quickly extended hand grabbed my shoulder and said,

“This guy is my high school classmate. But he had so much power that if I said I didn’t want to be friends with him, I had to kneel and beg.”

A total of six gazes followed me. Sparkling with curiosity. My hand automatically went up at the absurd lie. The hand that went up in vain moved weakly from side to side.

“Ah, no.”

“The kids trembled just hearing his name, you know? His personality is really bad.”

“No, no. He’s just kidding.”

“Do you know how much I begged him to let me be friends with him? I really knelt on the ground and begged. I even kissed his feet, you know? So spread the word. Got it? Kang Jun from Korea University only has a pretty face, but his past is dirty and his personality is bad.”

“Ah! What is it! Is he lying again? Stop joking around!”

The girl named So-yeon laughed and slapped the table with her palm. The heavy sound cut off Go Yohan’s words, and a loud laugh spread among the group. Everyone read the lie in the exaggerated sentence.

But there’s something they don’t know. Among the many lies Go Yohan had told before the drinking party opened and the atmosphere ripened, what he said now was the only truth.

That damn bastard really knelt on the ground and kissed my feet. I, who had been denying it all along, closed my mouth. It was because my head suddenly turned red.

Why did he have to bring up that time now…

Rolling my tongue in my mouth, I grabbed my hot neck with my cold hands. I didn’t know where to put my eyes and just stared at the air. Just thinking about that time makes my hands and feet cold, and my body uncontrollably hot.

“You’re the one with a bad personality. What’s with dissing a friend who came to college with you just to score points with girls? Look at your character. You’re just for friends. A friend.”

So-yeon pointed at Go Yohan with her finger and laughed. It was a carefree laugh that clearly showed that she had no intention of trying to look good. It was really pleasant. It was uncomfortable that she lightly hit Go Yohan’s arm hanging on the table while laughing, but thanks to that laugh, the stuffiness that had been building up for days instantly subsided.

Unknowingly, I rubbed my chest with my palm. The crazy Kang Jun was relieved. Damn it, I felt my mouth twitch strangely.

“I’m going to the bathroom for a bit.”

I got up, hoping to get some fresh air, but all eyes were still focused on Go Yohan. Geez, he sure likes his friend in a flashy way. Sarcastic thoughts surged here and there. Anyway, it seemed like no one cared about my absence. Figures.

Shrugging at the now familiar situation, I left my seat.

The second time I met Kang Suhyun alone was in the bathroom. And it was a bathroom outside the store. In fact, I hesitated a thousand times in front of the bathroom outside the store. Should I go in or not. It was such a disgusting and dirty place that I couldn’t bring myself to step in.

But I couldn’t help it. I had to get used to everything. Honestly, wasn’t the high school bathroom no different from here? They’re all the same. After comforting myself like that, I went to the bathroom and was washing my hands when the door opened, and the person who came in was Kang Suhyun.

Kang Suhyun, whose eyes met mine through the mirror, lightly raised his hand and clicked his tongue.

“This meeting is ruined because of your friend.”

“Well, it’s always like that.”

It wasn’t anything new. I, who had been closest to Go Yohan for three years, knew it best.

“He always monopolizes everyone’s attention.”

“What, why are you talking like that? Aren’t you guys that close?”

“…Not really.”

“Aren’t you friends?”

“Friends?”

It was a strange relationship to call it that. I hesitated, shaking my hands, and continued to answer.

“No, just so-so.”

“No wonder, so you didn’t play fair.”

“Play fair?”

“Then does that look like a fair situation to you? That guy’s going to get his number taken at least three times. You, hey! You really shouldn’t do that. I told you to bring him well, why are you acting so clueless!”

“No, the girls said Go Yohan is just for friends?”

“Do you believe that? Do you know how many times I’ve experienced this situation? They’re all just pretending to test the waters.”

“……”

His expression gradually frowned fiercely. The subsided stuffiness returned.

“Ah, I see.”

Damn it. The illness that had plagued me throughout my school days had returned. The stuffy feeling tormented me again. My mood slowly sank. Why did I come here?

“So why did you bring him here? You should have stopped him somehow, even if he wanted to come.”

I couldn’t hear the complaining resentment. I was lost in my own emotions. Why did I bring him? Thinking about that, Go Yohan’s clumsy chopsticks were tattooed on my head. The reason why I was weak to Go Yohan was chewed over a hundred times.

“I guess so.”

“Ah, first, I need to, need to go.”

Kang Suhyun, who had been grumbling with dissatisfaction, quickly contracted his body. The way he walked with his legs gathered in the middle was a bit unsightly. I shook my head at the ugly sight I didn’t want to see anymore and opened the bathroom door. And there, I saw a familiar face.

“Oh… Oh, hello.”

One of the four people who came to the meeting. The girl who had been the most passive. I didn’t hear her name well because she introduced herself in a small voice. It was roughly Lee Ga-hee? Or Yoon? Something like that.

Commonly known as ‘Ga-hee’ was suspiciously not going into the bathroom, but just standing in the small alley leading to the bathroom with a bad expression. At least we had been facing each other for a few hours, so I couldn’t just ignore her and pass by, and it was awkward to suddenly talk to her. So I looked around in the state of opening the door.

“Ah.”

After rolling my eyes a few times, I immediately understood. In the narrow and dark alley, there was an old men’s bathroom right next to it, and on the other hand, there was a women’s bathroom door that closed loosely. The gap was so wide that you could see inside with just a slight turn of your eyes.

“I’ll wait in front.”

“Huh?”

She leaned against the door with a blank face and took out the earphones that were stuck somewhere in her pocket and plugged them into her ears. Then, she slightly gestured with her chin and buried her eyes in her phone. Only then did Lee Ga-hee, who had grasped my intention, say in a small voice that could barely be heard.

“…Thank you.”

I didn’t answer. Because it seemed like she wanted that more. It was also a bit suspicious and disgusting to stare intently at the scene of entering the bathroom.

The girl named Ga-hee came out after about three songs had passed. A small presence poked my back, so I turned off the music that was playing and turned around, and the timid face slightly lowered her head and said.

“Did you wait long, sorry.”

“No.”

And Kang Suhyun came out at the right time. What was he doing that made him come out so late?

I felt like I knew if I thought about it a little, but I didn’t really want to know. It made me feel sick for no reason. I lightly patted my chest, which was stuffy again, and shook my head, and Kang Suhyun, who was looking back and forth between me and the girl, suddenly approached. His face, full of wrinkles, contained deep sadness.

“Look, look. Birds of a feather flock together. There’s no such thing as male friendship.”

What was he talking about? I rolled my eyes, wondering what kind of pathetic nonsense he was talking about again.

“You’ve got the concept down well… I should have done that too.”

I ignored Kang Suhyun, who was trembling with a serious expression.

First, I took the earphones out of my ears and was about to go into the store when I almost bumped into a figure next to me. I reflexively stepped back. It was her again. She was moving her mouth as if she was about to say something, but her voice was so small that I couldn’t hear her well.

I felt strangely similar to someone. Then I suddenly realized. The reason why this girl was hesitating here. Well, it was a bit like that. There were a lot of drunk people, and the alley between the buildings without streetlights was a bit gloomy. But still, she was a girl. I thought it was natural to be considerate, so I hesitated a bit and spoke first.

“Do you want to go in together?”

“Wow… Finally.”

But Kang Suhyun had been glaring at me as if he was sick of me since a while ago. He even covered his mouth and made a grotesque expression when I opened the door and waited.

“So what.”

I glared at him fiercely once and followed him in, and the table, which had been noisy until just now, was quiet. I was embarrassed by the unfamiliar atmosphere and approached quietly, and then I knew.

“Why is he suddenly lying down?”

Kang Suhyun asked seriously. Obviously, it was because the main character had fallen asleep. The four people who were awkwardly looking at the collapsed Go Yohan said in unison.

“I think he’s drunk.”

“Yeah, it looks like that.”

Kang Suhyun put his hand on his chin and nodded. The girl named So-yeon suddenly looked like she was about to cry.

“Did I feed him too much from the beginning? What should I do. Was I a bit too much earlier?”

“A bit too much?”

“No, he kept dropping his chopsticks like a child, so I teased him about it…”

“Looking at him earlier, his chopsticks skills were weird.”

“……”

I flinched my shoulders. I didn’t mean to, but I looked at the back of Kang Suhyun’s head with sharp eyes. I was a little annoyed that Kang Suhyun was subtly taking So-yeon’s side.

“No, I think I was the one who was wrong. After that, he didn’t say anything, and he didn’t answer even if I talked to him.”

“So he just lay down and fell asleep right away? In the middle of a conversation? Really?”

“No, I was looking around, wondering why the atmosphere was like this, and when I came back after smoking, he was like this.”

The girl named So-yeon looked at me, looking around. I pushed past Kang Suhyun and the girl and quickly dug into the space between them.

“…Let me see.”

I was repeating what I did when I was seventeen when I was twenty years old. To put it a bit self-deprecatingly, I was a veteran. I had some know-how in this kind of thing. Yeah, I knew. I was so pathetic that I was a little annoyed.

“Hey, Go Yohan. Wake up.”

“……”

Go Yohan twisted his body, avoiding the hand that was shaking his back. I heard a small mumble. “I feel nauseous… Don’t do it.” The large back shrank on the table. What was he, a caterpillar? I was finally convinced. He was drunk. A drunk Go Yohan became subtly timid.

“I think he’s really drunk.”

“Really? Was that why the atmosphere was like that earlier.”

The girl named So-yeon was flustered and fussing around on her own.

“What should I do? Should I send him home?”

“Really? Do you happen to know his house?”

The person who asked next was Kang Suhyun. He was too transparent. Why did he suddenly bring it up at a time like this? The way he was looking at me with an expectant face was really bright and sunny.

“Well, I do know…”

“Then you can take him home! Okay, Yohan is taken home by Jun, and those of us who are still sober can run some more!”

He suddenly cut off the words and popped out. Wow, his intentions were really clear. I just closed my mouth at his intentions, which were as clear and transparent as first-class water. A guy with obvious intentions. I wanted to sneer that I didn’t like it, but if Go Yohan was the cause, things changed.

“Call a taxi before you play.”

“Huh? Are you going to take a taxi? Isn’t it time for the surcharge?”

“I can’t carry him on my back.”

“Well, that’s true.”

Seven pairs of eyes, including mine, fell upon his vast back. Kang Suhyun’s friend, from afar, spread his hands wide, measuring the length of his broad shoulders for all to see. Then, he groaned.

“Hey. Take a taxi. You must.”

“……”

“Yeah, you can just pay with your friend’s card anyway.”

What an absurd bastard. I sighed deeply and grabbed Go Yohan’s shoulders with both hands. Appallingly, he didn’t budge an inch. Seriously, why is he so heavy? He looks skinny, but his frame must be big because his body was solid. I wondered if I could even carry this bulk to a taxi, and concluded that it was impossible. If this guy thought about his size, he should’ve drunk less. Didn’t he think about the size of the guys who would have to take responsibility? Such an irresponsible bastard. What was so fun that he drank like water, drinking, drinking. I almost strangled him out of anger.

Then, a scar was revealed beneath the thin t-shirt that had slid down a little due to my hands. A scar that had spread brown.

“……Damn it.”

I released the strength with which I had firmly gripped his shoulders. Then, I carefully adjusted Go Yohan’s clothes so that people nearby wouldn’t see. At that moment, a voice butted in. It was the girl who often chimed in with what that girl So-yeon said. Was it just my imagination? I think we just made eye contact.

“No. Since it’s already late, should we just call it a night here? We can barely catch the last bus now.”

“Huh? Al, already? We can drink more.”

“What’s the fun if two people leave? Let’s exchange numbers and split up, and meet up again next time. We haven’t even talked properly yet. Let’s meet again and go for a third and fourth round.”

Ah, so that’s what this was.

A brilliant gaze is directed at Go Yohan. My stuffy insides become endlessly heavy. It feels like I’ve swallowed a heavy weight. It was the first time in a while that I witnessed a strange ulterior motive that I had seen sometime. It was that atmosphere that I often saw when I hung out with Han Jun-woo. This undercurrent of subtle sexual interest is always so uncomfortable to see.

“Ah, then like that……”

However, what’s more annoying is that it wasn’t a bad suggestion for Kang Suhyun either. Since he has two chances anyway. Also, that guy who’s Kang Suhyun’s friend seemed to already be interested in another girl. Then that friend would naturally accept it too. Because they can continue to contact each other under the guise of exchanging numbers. I bit my lip tightly and gripped the table with my hand. Now it’s tightening down to below my solar plexus. It’s stifling.

“Then let’s exchange numbers first.”

I don’t know why that woman So-yeon keeps looking at only Go Yohan’s phone while saying let’s exchange numbers together. There’s no need to pay attention to the phone of someone who’s passed out on the table anyway, right? My stomach is twisting. Wasn’t it for a friend earlier? My lips, which I was pointlessly gnawing on, protruded out.

It was then.

“No.”

A pronunciation closer to ‘No-uh’ than ‘No’. A long hand suddenly went up on the table. And following the hand, a small face and shoulders so wide that they were grotesque also rose. Half-closed eyes quickly closed and opened. All eyes were focused on this sudden declaration of opposition. As expected, Go Yohan is naturally talented at attracting the attention of others.

“I’m going to a third round separately.”

That was what Go Yohan said after closing his eyes tightly once, frowning, and then relaxing. At those words, the atmosphere at the table stirred with excitement. And my insides were endlessly turning upside down.

“Wi, with who?”

It’s Kang Suhyun who’s asking that again. Seriously, annoying mechanical engineering bastard. I felt like pushing away the snacks in front of me. Go Yohan smiled bashfully for a long time with his eyes closed, then suddenly turned his head sharply. At the end of that direction was me.

“……?”

Again, the group’s gaze turns to me. Go Yohan is also in it. What, what is it. While I was turning my head, wondering what the situation was, suddenly a large figure jumped up. Lips full of the smell of alcohol touched my cheek.

Words of lukewarm emotion were rubbed against my skin. The subtle vibrations that escaped from the hot lips rubbed against my cheek. Even after the words stopped, a faint tremor touched me. What am I being subjected to right now. By the time I realized the reality, my face was already red to the tips of my hair. When I hurriedly turned my head to avoid it, Go Yohan, with his eyes tightly closed, followed. Soft lips keep brushing my cheek.

“Hey, hey, hey…… what are you doing!”

“Ah, why-uh.”

“Wh, wh, what is this……”

“Why?”

Of course, everyone in front of me was shocked and lost for words. Kang Suhyun took a step back with a terrified face. And he said, shrinking as if trying to avoid Go Yohan.

“Guys. He’s really drunk.”

“First, you take responsibility and invite them to the group chat.”

“Me?”

“You brought him, didn’t you? Right?”

So-yeon said, smiling brightly at Kang Suhyun. At the end of her pointed finger was Go Yohan. For reference, Go Yohan is dragging his feet while lying on my back. He’s really drunk, mumbling bizarre words that I can’t understand in any language I know. It would be fine if it was just that, but the lukewarm breath that comes out when he opens his mouth keeps touching my neck, making me uncomfortable.

“I don’t have his number?”

“Then who has Yohan’s number?”

“Well, it’d be Jun. He brought him.”

Honestly, he’s so heavy that I feel like I’m going to throw up. This uselessly tall bastard. A bastard who’s only uselessly big. First, I reached out and struggled to grab a utility pole and held on tightly. My mind doesn’t have the capacity to focus on that conversation right now. I put strength into my legs and squeezed out the strength to ask the most urgent question right now.

“When is the taxi coming?”

I asked with difficulty, but no one answered. Damn it. Just as I was about to ask again, full of all sorts of annoyance, the girl I met in front of the bathroom looked at me and hurriedly approached Kang Suhyun and asked again.

“Um, when is the taxi coming, he’s asking……?”

This is why people say to live kindly. That damn Kang Suhyun finally looked at his phone.

“Uh-. It’s a bit late, it’s usually hard to catch a taxi around here at this time. It’d be a miracle if you get connected.”

“Call anywhere and tell them you’ll pay triple, so come quickly.”

“This guy, you’re spending like it’s not your money. You admirable bastard.”

Have you ever experienced your voice trembling because your body is so tired? There’s definitely no such thing in my memory so far. While I was sweating and holding on, I saw Kang Suhyun making an admirable expression. He doesn’t seem to have much intention of helping. Look at how he’s subtly avoiding my eyes. Bad bastard. But I’m the one who did wrong, so I have to bow down. What can I do. Damn it.

“Any, anyway, call quickly.”

“Alright, you guys go quickly before the last bus is cut off. You said there’s not much time left, right?”

“Uh-huh.”

A timid voice answered quietly. The moment I frowned and raised my head, I made eye contact with the owner of the timid voice. Since we’ve already made eye contact, it’s hard to avoid it. Besides, I’ve already conveyed the message to Kang Suhyun, so I just smiled awkwardly for now.

“Goodbye.”

“Y, you too, goodbye.”

A face that’s not clearly visible in the dark averts its gaze slightly and waves its hand.

“Then you invite him, and then invite Yohan later. Then that’ll work, right? I really want to apologize to Yohan. I made a mistake while drinking.”

“Alright, alright. I’ll take care of everything, so just take the last bus.”

“Yeah, th, Jun-ah. Sorry we can’t help you. Go carefully!”

“Hey, aren’t you going to say goodbye to me?”

“You have my number!”

It’s so awkward how they’re calling me ‘Jun’ when we just met today. It’s all uncomfortable for me. I just lowered my head and roughly raised my hand. Then I knelt down and squatted. Go Yohan’s feet were dragged along the floor, stretching out. It’s probably like a frog being pressed on the back, but who cares. Damn it. I feel like I’m going to throw up from the weight that’s pressing down on my back so terribly right now.

The noisy place was left with only three people again.

“Aren’t you going?”

I glared while panting. It would be a lie if there wasn’t a bit of resentment in it. Kang Suhyun, who slightly avoided my gaze again, said.

“Actually…… I’m sorry. The last bus to our house has already been cut off.”

“……”

Then the words to continue drinking earlier must have really contained a sly plan.

“So?”

“Can I sleep at your house?”

“What kind of sound is that again…… Ah!”

“Is it heavy?”

“If you know, help me a little?”

“My back is a bit weak. I got a Grade 4 physical exam. I’m a public service worker, a public service worker.”

“I don’t know, you bastard.”

I resent the fact that I couldn’t go to school last year to death. Was it the butterfly effect? They say a small flap of wings causes a storm? If I had known I would encounter such a storm, I would have just abandoned Go Yohan and diligently attended classes.

“The taxi is going to be paid for by that friend anyway. I also have a neat side, you know? I’ll make sure your parents like me.”

“What are you saying…… Ah!”

At that moment, a hot tongue licked my neck. The dry fluff rose with goosebumps.

“…Hey, Go Yohan.”

“Why, why?”

“Hah……, no, it’s nothing.”

I bit my lip and cut off my words.

It’s definitely intentional. Every time Kang Suhyun looked away, the lips that touched my neck moved softly. It seems like he’s blatantly trying to get away with it by pretending to be drunk. Besides, every time a soft touch reaches me, he subtly lets out a laugh, and the lukewarm breath that comes out with that laugh touches the moisture that Go Yohan left behind. A low laugh rides my skin. I clenched my fist tightly at the dizzying sensation that ran down my spine.

Damn it, if I wasn’t drunk, I would have thrown him down and abandoned him right away.

“Hey, wait a minute, your, your friend is laughing right now? What, why is he like this?”

“……He’s crazy.”

“He’s really drunk. Is this friend usually like this when he’s drunk?”

“No, he’s usually like this even when he’s sober.”

I said, stiffening my neck and pushing away Go Yohan’s head, which was subtly pressing down on me.

“I’m seriously giving you advice, Go Yohan is a really crazy bastard, so be careful with every word you say.”

“You guys are really weird.”

“What.”

“Then why do you hang out together? You’re not friends, you’re not close. You criticize each other’s personalities as dirty…… But you take care of each other like crazy, and how do you know each other’s houses?”

“……”

That’s right, why do I hang out with him.

I let out a hollow laugh. It took me almost two years to realize that. But this logical mechanical engineering bastard who makes me speechless is taking out the key to the answer just a few hours after meeting me.

“Is this what they call love-hate relationship?”

That guy should have gone to philosophy instead of mechanical engineering. While I was lost in absurd thoughts, sharp Canine Teeth lightly bit between my neck and shoulder.

“Ah!”

“What’s wrong!”

“Ah, it’s nothing.”

Taking advantage of my carelessness, I pushed away Go Yohan, who had moved his head and started obsessing over my nape again. He’s putting so much strength into it that I can’t even push him away properly.

“Ah, get off a little……!”

“No-uh.”

This time too, it was “No-uh.” He smiled lightly and rubbed his head against my cheek. The rustling sensation tickled my skin. Damn it. My lower body is hot. While I was having a silent war, Kang Suhyun shouted.

“Hey! It’s here!”

“Where?”

“Uh, here! Over here!”

Kang Suhyun, who completely ignored me, suddenly ran out onto the road and waved his hand. My clenched fist trembled in the air, powerless. Ah, seriously. Why is my life like this? In despair, I put my arms on my knees and sighed.

“Jun-ah.”

Go Yohan, who had been pressing me with his body, moved. The guy who had been leaning his upper body solely on me and stretching out only his legs, moved his legs and bent his knees the same way I did. Unfortunately, that posture trapped me between Go Yohan’s legs.

“Hey, if you’re awake, get up.”

“Jun-ah.”

He’s not awake. I covered my face with my hands and took a bigger breath.

“Why.”

“Why do I feel so good.”

The movement of pressing his forehead with his fingers stopped abruptly. Go Yohan’s hand, which had been hanging over my shoulder, moved and hugged me tightly. A light laugh brushed my ear.

“Good.”

The time when dawn was about to come, Go Yohan drunk under the flickering streetlights and old utility poles. I turned my head and looked at the fingers that were grabbing my shoulder. Three fingers on his right hand couldn’t grab my shoulder and were slightly floating.

It’s a strange thing. The fingers that aren’t grabbing me are holding me back.

I take back what I said about Kang Suhyun being logical. He’s a bit stupid. Seeing the sight of three people squeezed into the back seat right now makes it even more certain. It’s definitely not because I’m stuck in the middle and being pressured from both sides.

“You could have sat in the front seat.”

Sipping-. Kang Suhyun, who made a sound and swallowed his saliva, made an excuse.

“I was trying to help you move him, so it ended up like this.”

“You didn’t help much at all.”

“You’ve been saying things that make me feel hurt since earlier? I’m the one who put you on the Group Project Bus instead of you, you know. What do you think of my grace?”

“I got a C- on that.”

“Sometimes the bus loses its way.”

“……”

“No, and you should be grateful that you didn’t get a D? Why are you being so demanding when you’re a freeloader?”

“Ah, don’t move so much. It’s cramped.”

Because Kang Suhyun keeps turning his body, his arm keeps bumping into my chest. I pushed Kang Suhyun’s arm hard into the narrow gap, annoyed.

“I can’t get anything done because of you. Isn’t it common sense to bring someone slightly below my level to a blind date?”

“I don’t know common sense. You bastard.”

“Ah, why did you bring that friend anyway?”

“I went to beat you to death. What are you going to do.”

I didn’t say that. I turned around, and Kang Suhyun looked behind me.

At the place where the two gazes met, slender and long eyes were looking down at us. Before we knew it, the mumbling tone had disappeared, and only a low and ominous voice remained. The car passed through a tunnel, and orange light quickly swept across Go Yohan’s face.

One of the drooping hands slowly rises.

Kang Suhyun and I could only watch the scene. Because it felt like we were dreaming. In the moment of blankly watching like that, a fist suddenly struck Kang Suhyun’s shoulder violently.

“Ack! Wh, what!”

“I heard everything. C-? What about that? Blind date? A ugly bastard like you will be alone for life even if you go on a blind date a hundred times. You idiot.”

“Ugly! U, ugly…… Hey! That’s unfair! What, does everyone only have advantages?”

“Yeah.”

“What, he’s short too!”

“Why am I suddenly coming out of there? And I’m not short.”

First, I pushed Kang Suhyun with my arm and retorted.

“I’m above average.”

“Yeah, that’s right. Jun is 180 if you round it up.”

“……”

Ah, damn it…… Why is that word coming out of there again. Go Yohan’s logic makes me endlessly embarrassed. I couldn’t bear the shame, so I covered my face with my hands.

“You guys are rounding up without any flexibility in front of science and engineering students…… Ack!”

“So what? You can’t round up being ugly.”

“The world is too harsh, fa, fact disclosure can also be sued!”

“Do it. I have a lot of money.”

“Sa, save a person! Ack!”

It’s painful. Do I have to keep listening to these language trash? My body was swaying this way and that like a fallen leaf fluttering in the wind. If Go Yohan moved, it was to the left, and if Kang Suhyun was hit, it was to the right due to the reaction.

“Why are you following in the taxi, you son of a bitch. Damn it, get out right now. If you don’t leave by the time I count to ten, you’ll die here.”

“H, how can I get off here! Ugh! Don’t do it!”

“You can open the door and get off. Nine.”

“People die!”

“Eight.”

A fist quickly brushed past the tip of my nose, and I was surprised and hurriedly stuck my back to the seat. The speed was so fast that I could feel the wind brushing against the bridge of my nose. Kang Hyun-soo is struggling to stop him while whining, but I know Go Yohan’s fist very well. In fact, that’s also hitting weakly. But there’s no way Go Yohan would let a guy he doesn’t like off the hook.

In other words, Go Yohan is still not sober.

“Six.”

“Ah, I’ll go when we arrive. When we arrive!”

“Five.”

“Hey! Why are you staying quiet? Tell your friend to stop him!”

I leaned my body against the chair and looked at the ceiling. It was a way to reduce the area I touched as much as possible. Kang Suhyun, who was struggling to block Go Yohan with his arms, looked at me like a traitor. What, what am I. I averted my gaze slightly and said quietly.

“……Just get hit. I can’t do anything about him either.”

“Three.”

“You…… How can a person. Ack! Wait, you didn’t count four just now?”

“One.”

“The, the way you count numbers is weird?”

“It’s over. You bastard.”

Go Yohan, who was sitting in a position looking at me, turned his foot and kicked Kang Suhyun’s knee. I’m sure I heard something snap. The guy who was hit screamed and grabbed his knee and collapsed under the chair. The not-so-small bulk lowered his face towards his knee. As he disappeared from view, Go Yohan slowly leaned his back against the car door and closed his eyes.

Seeing that it was quiet, it seemed he had fallen back asleep.

“……”

I glanced around, reading the article. Reflected in the rearview mirror was the expression of a veteran who had probably seen countless such troublemakers. The lack of any reaction was even more mortifying. Kang Jun, the only sane person who knew shame, opened his mouth, braving the overwhelming humiliation.

“I, I’m sorry.”

There was no reply. Only the sound of Kang Suhyun sobbing from where she lay face down echoed through the quiet car.

“Why are you even friends with her…”

I pouted at that. I know, right?

Kang Suhyun, unable to overcome her fear, ended up running away as soon as she got out of the taxi. She said she would go back to school and sleep in a friend’s room. If I were her friend, I would never answer her calls. I shook my head briefly.

Go Yohan, on the other hand, got out of the taxi just fine but couldn’t go home. Go Yohan clung to my back, hugging me, pulling me, stuffing me into his arms, and when I pushed his arms away and resisted, he leaned against the pillar at the apartment entrance with a sulky face. When I asked, “Are you really going to be like this?” Go Yohan laughed with his head against the wall.

Giving up and sitting on the stairs to wait, Go Yohan came running to my side with light steps and sat next to me. A small breeze blew. And a small head leaned on my shoulder.

“……Go Yohan.”

“……”

“When are you going to wake up, seriously?”

The weather was unusually nice today. The only thing that wasn’t good in this situation was the drunk Go Yohan. Yohan and I were sitting on the stairs leading into the apartment, spending time. Or rather, it was just me.

A dawn breeze blew. Go Yohan’s thin hair tickled my neck and cheek. Through the fluttering hair, I could see his long eyelashes blinking slowly.

Ah, he’s awake.

“……Did that bastard leave?”

Is that the first thing you say when you wake up? I frowned.

“She ran away as soon as she got out of the taxi. Why do you beat her up so much?”

“I wondered how good she was at acting all high and mighty, but she got a C-. What a bitch.”

“Watch your language. And it’s true that I bailed, but so what.”

“If that’s the score when you’re just one person short… . No, what was An Jisu doing?”

“Her? She dropped it.”

“Shit, I need to kill her too.”

“You can’t. She went to the army.”

“Crazy.”

A giggling sound touched my skin.

“Are you happy?”

“Serves you right.”

“Yeah, it must be nice for you not to have to go to the army.”

“What.”

Go Yohan’s slender laughter stopped abruptly.

“Why are you saying it like that.”

The hair that had been fluttering like thin silk fell softly from my cheek. Go Yohan, who straightened his back and lifted his head, looked quite serious.

“Are you going to the army?”

No, I probably won’t. I think I’ll get a 5th grade exemption from the physical exam. I could definitely just tell him that. A desire to get revenge on Go Yohan for making things difficult for me while drunk welled up. My playful side decided to emerge at this moment.

“Of course I have to go. Unlike you, I’m Korean.”

“……Really?”

“Of course it’s real.”

He had been grinning and pulling me into his arms without a break, but suddenly he became serious. I almost burst out laughing at the sudden change in expression. I quickly covered my mouth with the back of my hand. While I was distracted by trying to hold back my laughter, a long finger came up. Oh, and in an instant, he gently grabbed my arm. The hand that had been covering my face slowly went down at Go Yohan’s touch.

“No. Don’t go.”

That Go Yohan, with a serious expression, was only saying not to go to the army. It was so childish and ridiculous that I was speechless. At the same time, I couldn’t help but want to tease him even more. Did I have a sadistic streak inside me?

“I can’t just not go because I don’t want to. I don’t have foreign citizenship like you.”

“Can’t you ask your parents?”

“To ask them not to send me to the army? Are you crazy?”

But the more the teasing intensified, the stranger my insides felt. It felt like I wanted to scratch the center of my heart with my hand. It felt like thousands of ants were crawling through all my blood vessels. My face became hot as well, so I lightly pushed Go Yohan away and got up.

“You’re awake now, so I’m going in.”

“Jun-ah.”

“Ah, why. Stop it.”

“Will you go to America and marry me?”

What.

Is that what he’s going to say while sitting on the stairs and looking up at me? Go Yohan must be crazy.

“Are you crazy? Why would I do that just because I don’t want to go to the army!”

“You can just disappear after you go. I’ll give you citizenship. Huh? Don’t go to the army. Huh?”

“Ah, I’m not going! I said I’m not going! So please, just stop saying that, that’s enough!”

“Really? You’re really not going? You’re not going, right. You promised?”

“Yes! I’m not going!”

I quickly jumped up, turned around, and ran into the entrance. Crazy, Go Yohan is crazy. I heard such strange things so suddenly that my head was spinning. Suddenly, I lifted my face and looked at the mirror in front of the elevator. There was Kang Jun, his face as red as if it were about to burn.

“I’m crazy… I’m really crazy.”

And before Go Yohan came, I slapped my cheek hard with the palm of my hand. Go Yohan, who followed me, scanned me up and down as I slapped my cheek, and asked, a little dumbfounded.

“What are you doing?”

“I’m trying to sober up because the alcohol is kicking in.”

I skillfully lied and subtly avoided his gaze. What alcohol? Go Yohan kept losing in games all night, so I didn’t even touch it. It seems like the only thing I’m getting better at is lying because I’m always with him. The number at the top was getting lower and lower. Ahem. Go Yohan cleared his throat next to me.

“……”

“……”

Yohan and I were engaged in an invisible tug-of-war. At least, that’s how I felt. Moreover, I was involuntarily nervous at the subtle tension I felt, so I deliberately had unnecessary thoughts. The newly moved-in 48-pyeong apartment complex boasts a fast elevator speed.

It was a lease, right? It must have been a lease. No, it’s definitely a lease. There’s no reason for my parents to buy a new apartment in this neighborhood with poor security. That’s how college towns usually are. Noisy, lots of bars… It’s speechless that the things surrounding a university, which is called the pinnacle of knowledge, are bars, karaoke rooms, and brothels. It’s truly obscene. The refined intellectuals enjoy drinking, dancing, and sex.

I sensed movement next to me. It must be Go Yohan.

He deliberately stood to my right. A faint shadow was reflected in the silver elevator. The figure reflected in the uneven pattern carefully turned its head. Slowly, a hand came up.

“That must hurt.”

A hand large enough to cover my face lightly pressed the cheek I had just slapped.

“……”

“Don’t hit your face next time.”

“It’s my business.”

“Don’t. It hurts the heart of a devout believer.”

“No, seriously… are you going to keep saying that?”

“Why? Are you embarrassed?”

How could I not be embarrassed? Seriously? I turned my head to shoot him a look full of the meaning that I was dying of embarrassment. However, Go Yohan was only looking straight ahead the whole time, so he didn’t see my look. But why is his hand still on my face?

“Good. That’s what I was saying it for, to make you embarrassed.”

“……I have nothing to say.”

“That doesn’t mean I can say I love you, though.”

I froze like ice. Ding-. The elevator arrived.

The hand that had been fidgeting as if pressing down on my cheek left. I could see his back as he shoved his hands into his pockets and entered the elevator. It was a little later that Go Yohan, who showed his face again, leaned against the edge. He looked at me, who was standing still like a stone statue.

Go Yohan, who hurriedly grabbed the closing door, added an excuse as he stared at the air.

“I’m drunk.”

“……I guess you’re really drunk.”

I took a step. And I passed by Go Yohan’s side, trying not to touch him as much as possible. It wasn’t because I hated Go Yohan for saying those words. It was purely because of me. I was afraid Go Yohan would hear my heart beating.

The door closed, and only silence remained between us. I could even hear the sound of the rope turning. Go Yohan leaned his back against the wall, and I stood in the corner. After standing like that for a long time, I suddenly realized that I hadn’t pressed the floor number. I carefully glanced at Go Yohan and stretched out my body to press a button for a long time. Seeing that a slightly flustered voice popped out from behind me, it seemed Go Yohan had forgotten too.

Four rooms, two bathrooms. I use the room with the attached bathroom, and Go Yohan uses the bathroom outside. At first, I had never lived in an apartment with this structure before, so I made a few mistakes. I even tried to go down the stairs that didn’t exist in my sleep. It’s a habit, so I can’t help it.

After Go Yohan’s accident, our dormitory room had been empty, and I went to the hospital from my parents’ house.

It takes about an hour and a half by bus from my parents’ house to school. Of course, this is only when considering the distance, and if it overlaps with rush hour and times with a lot of traffic, I often waste two hours on the road.

As expected, after finishing the first semester, I was kicked out of the dormitory. My grades were below standard, and my income bracket was exceeded. Go Yohan was the same. After that, I immediately moved into the apartment that I had asked my parents to arrange in advance. It was the moment when my wise prediction shone.

“Home.”

I glanced at Go Yohan, who immediately sprawled on the sofa as soon as I opened the door. Hooo. I could smell alcohol from Go Yohan, who was taking a long breath. If it was just alcohol, it would be fine. The cigarette smell coming from the hair scattered on the sofa was even worse. It was just as he had picked it up from the bar. I was about to throw Go Yohan down and go into my room to wash up, but I suddenly grabbed his arm and said.

“Get up. The cigarette smell will get into the leather.”

“Ah, just a little-.”

“You drunkard, get up. I’m telling you, you really stink? If you’re going to sleep, wash up and sleep.”

“You smell the same as me.”

Go Yohan, who had buried his head deep in the sofa, shrugged his shoulders. I let go of the hand that had been pulling his arm, shook my head, and put my nose to the palm of my hand. My face naturally frowned. Well, if I was in the same space as Go Yohan, it would be natural for me to smell the same.

“I’m going to wash up and sleep too.”

“Okay.”

Go Yohan’s voice trailed off. It’s strange. He seemed a little hesitant for some reason. I stood still and looked at the back of Go Yohan’s head. Go Yohan’s hand, which had fallen under the sofa, slowly grabbed my calf. I couldn’t stand the ticklishness.

“Let’s wash up together.”

“What?”

He said that while still burying his face in the sofa. He had hidden his face so deeply that his voice was muffled.

“Together……”

I can’t see Go Yohan’s expression. Fortunately, Go Yohan can’t see my expression either. I quickly covered my hot face with my hands.

“Are you out of your mind.”

“I’m drunk.”

His low voice was muffled by the leather. Ah, I finally realized it.

“That’s a lie, you’re awake now.”

My legs were too weak to stand any longer, so I sat on the floor. Even in the midst of all this, Go Yohan’s hand didn’t let go of my calf. The face that had been buried in the sofa slowly came up. The eyes hidden in his hair were revealed. His light eyes were darkly sunken. Go Yohan’s Adam’s apple bobbed greatly.

“Jun-ah.”

Thin fingers pulled up my pants. The exposed ankle came into contact with the cold air. The piece that swallowed the apple lodged in his thick neck moved greatly again. Our eyes met.

“……Want to?”

I reflexively lowered my head. Because I understood the meaning right away.

“……What.”

I asked, covering my flushed face with my hands. I was actually asking as if I didn’t know, even though I knew. Go Yohan probably knows my speech habits too.

“What we did in the hospital room.”

That’s why he’s saying it so specifically.

The face, shadowed by his already disheveled hair, smiled subtly. Go Yohan’s eyelids blinked rapidly. His tattered ears were red enough to be seen even in the dark.

Our eyes met. Go Yohan smiled coldly, as if he was sure of something.

“You want to, right?”

“……”

What happened in the hospital room was still a taboo between us. We didn’t want to define the act with a word and leave that memory concrete. Of course, it was an extremely inefficient rule. What’s the point of not saying it in words, when we’re replaying it in our heads so many times?

But we had to.

There was no need to name the path of the dropout that I had to walk anyway and suffer. Sometimes there is happiness to be gained from not facing reality. There is a big difference between what is actually happening and not hearing it directly or thinking about it in your brain.

“Please, let’s not think deeply.”

Go Yohan supported his body with his arms and lifted his waist while lying face down. Three weak fingers, clenched as if to grab the air, were awkwardly folded. In addition, two fingers that had become Go Yohan’s happiness pointed at me.

“Jun-ah.”

“Huh?”

A foolish answer came out from between the hands covering my face. Slender eyes smiled softly, half-closed. The finger that had been pointing at me moved like a baton.

“Do you know why the human mouth has a structure where the inner flesh is exposed?”

“……No?”

“Then let’s find out now.”

It was a rule created by my stubbornness, but Go Yohan didn’t seem to have any major complaints. Rather, by tacitly agreeing, he had solidified Kang Jun’s walls. He keeps the childish rules so well. And I’m just amazed by that Go Yohan.

“You know.”

“I don’t.”

“Ah, seriously.”

“No, what is it?”

The body that had been burning with imagination lowers heat from the farthest place from the heart to maintain body temperature. Humans are always born to live at 36.5 degrees. When somewhere in my chest was constricted with heat above average, I felt my fingertips getting cold. Even every single palm and finger touching the floor was pale.

“That’s.”

The gaze that had been hovering in the air landed again on Go Yohan’s hand, which was fluttering like a butterfly. The thought that had been crouching in one corner of my chest flew like a dawn insect and landed on Go Yohan’s slender index finger.

“Are you really okay?”

“……”

Go Yohan’s pupils went up. As if he was thinking deeply. Hmm-. After a short signal of contemplation, Go Yohan turned his head and looked at me.

“There are two answers I can give to the question you asked.”

“……”

“One is that I’m okay, and the other is, what are you going to do if I’m not okay?”

The body that had been lying face down got up. I heard the sound of the sofa creaking as it was pressed down. Go Yohan’s face already had a familiar playfulness.

“Yeah, what are you going to do if I’m not okay?”

A stuffy honey filled my mouth. I was literally mute.

“……”

“Are you going to take responsibility for my life?”

I silently swept back my bangs. The words that finally came out of my mouth were the same words that I had always stuck in the middle of my throat like a white elephant.

“……If you want.”

“Wow, that’s admirable.”

Geez, a small snort filled the dawn air. Go Yohan, who had lowered his feet under the sofa, rested his elbows on his knees and propped up his chin, stared at me for a long time. I sat still and looked at Go Yohan, not avoiding his eyes. That was the Moral obligation I thought of.

“Are you upset by any chance?”

“Of course-.”

“……”

Of course-. There was a blank at the end of that. I swallowed and touched the tip of my nose. Go Yohan, who was looking at me like that, burst out laughing for the second time.

“Not at all.”

“……”

“Hey, I told you. Don’t think deeply.”

The voice with laughter in it was strangely calm and felt depressing. Suddenly, I had this thought. Maybe Go Yohan was born at dawn.

“They said you shouldn’t think deeply at dawn. They said all the thoughts you have at that time are useless.”

“Who?”

“I don’t know, if I know it, some famous bastard must have said it.”

I didn’t answer. How can I not think deeply? About Go Yohan, who had already become a scar in my life. I didn’t bother to say the objections that were boiling inside.

“And what I want right now isn’t this shabby stuff.”

“I’m, shabby.”

“Yeah. Kang Jun is being really shabby right now.”

Go Yohan said, scanning my face with his slender eyes. At that time, I recalled Go Yohan’s first impression when I encountered him in the flow of countless students in the first year. Go Yohan was definitely a supporting character. Why is he now existing as a director in front of me?

“If you really want to shoulder something…… okay.”

Go Yohan took his chin off and straightened his back. The hand that had been touching his face lightly tapped his knee.

“Keep being like this. Until I get tired of it.”

“……”

“If it makes you feel better to think that you have to do something for me, then do that.”

For me, that’s enough. Go Yohan’s last words remained not as a sound but as a memory in my head. At my request, Go Yohan, who had placed a small responsibility on my life, suddenly twitched one eyebrow.

“So, are you going to do it or not?”

In the end, that’s it. Yeah, Go Yohan is this light and frivolous guy. However, if he asks whether I dislike it too, I’ll be honest. I don’t.

“Alright, just 3 minutes.”

Pretending not to care while subtly setting a time limit is proof of that. There’s no particular reason for setting a limit. Honestly, it’s because I didn’t want him to find out I actually like it. In the end, the fact that I permitted it at all is a telltale sign, so I can’t really say anything. Anyway, justification was important to me.

“3 minutes?”

Go Yohan fell into thought with a rather serious face. Seeing one eyebrow twitch gently again, it seems he’s not pleased.

“Did you pour water into your cup noodles?”

See. I knew it would be like this.

“Then how much longer do you want?”

“Ah, shit, that’s too short.”

“You need to wash up and sleep soon, right? I’m tired.”

“Anyway, tomorrow’s the weekend. Sleep in.”

“Tomorrow’s a weekday. It’s Sunday dawn right now.”

“Even so, the fact that you can sleep in doesn’t change, does it?”

We don’t need to confirm each other’s thoughts to be sure. ‘Anyway, he never loses an argument.’ Since I thought so, at least half of it must be right.

I looked at the clock on the wall. 2:24 AM. Since I took a taxi sometime past midnight, it meant I had waited quite a long time for Go Yohan, who had fallen asleep. Scratching my forehead lightly, I raised my eyes and looked at Go Yohan. Go Yohan, who met my gaze, was playfully pulling my ankle toward his body. He has no intention of conceding at all. It was clear just from his expression. Scratching my forehead that wasn’t even itchy, I finally declared defeat.

“Then, 5 minutes.”

“Wow, short.”

“I conceded.”

“Yes, as you wish.”

Go Yohan smiled faintly and shook his head. It means he accepts. Phew. Letting out a long breath, Go Yohan got up and slowly came down from the sofa.

There are times when I can hear the sound of my heart beating. When I plug my ears with rubber earphones, when I submerge myself head-to-toe in deep water where my feet can’t touch the bottom. And now. For me, now is exactly that kind of time. Every gesture of Go Yohan’s is imprinted on my eyes. Time pulls slowly, like stretched film.

Before I knew it, Go Yohan, who had brushed himself off and stood up, looked down at me and said.

“What are you doing, you should sit here.”

His long finger pointed at the sofa. Because of that, his noticeably blunt fingers caught my eye. He knows full well that when I see those fingers, I can’t refuse. Go Yohan saw that I couldn’t take my eyes off his fingers, and Go Yohan hid his hands behind his back.

“……”

I let out a sigh without realizing it. As I remained sitting on the floor with no intention of getting up, Go Yohan laughed with a strangely subdued voice and straightened up.

“What, do I have to do everything for you from start to finish?”

“Wait, I’ll get up.”

“Anyway, for someone who grew up so well-behaved.”

“Hey, I, I’ll do it myself!”

A large hand firmly grabs the hem of my pants and pulls it up. My body, reflexively rising along with it, lost balance and ended up half-embracing Go Yohan. Why, of all poses, does it have to be this one? Embarrassment cascaded down like a waterfall. Amidst the smell of cigarettes and alcohol clinging to young people, Go Yohan’s unique body odor came distinctly closer. I grabbed Go Yohan’s t-shirt with unbearable anguish. Of course, I did it without realizing.

“Strange, Kang Jun, you seem to really like it right now.”

“……It’s not like that.”

Go Yohan let out a laugh as if teasing me. I muttered to myself while looking at the floor. Damn it.

“Ah, right. Let’s be clear this time. We don’t count the time until we start. We count after starting.”

Caught using the trick I’d been employing until now, I flinched. Since it was true that I had acted cheaply, I couldn’t brazenly act nonchalant.

“Answer?”

“Got it.”

“Good.”

It felt futile. I lost my brakes in an instant. I should have used them when it was dangerous. Because worry was already taking the lead, my strength drained and my back gradually curved. Naturally, my ear touched his chest. To be precise, it was slightly below the collarbone.

“……”

Simultaneously, my face heated up to an unbearable degree. The hand holding my shoulder tightened. It was because of the sound of his heartbeat coming through my earlobe.

“Go Yohan.”

“What.”

“Calm down. Your heart is beating too fast.”

“Then should it not beat?”

The sound of his heart, beating so fast I thought it might burst, came through my ear and resonated in my own heart. In turn, the sound inside me grew noisy, as if urging me on. But why does his face look so composed? I’m so embarrassed I could die if my expression gets noticed.

“You’re inside me.”

With those words, Go Yohan’s hand gripped my joint and pushed me onto the sofa. In the moment I went ‘Uh?’, the world spun. When I came to my senses, I had already been pulled and pushed onto the sofa, planting my butt on it.

“Ah……”

The moment I lifted my chin, our eyes met. Go Yohan, after sitting on the sofa with his knees up on either side of me, released the hand he had been firmly holding.

“Don’t count yet.”

His tone was pitiful, as if begrudging even a single second. Even amidst feeling like my heart would explode, I couldn’t stop cynical thoughts. Go Yohan is a fool. How does he think I can possibly count time right now?

I blinked my eyelids three times, looked at the approaching face, and gently closed my eyes. A large hand covered my cheek, which had become intensely hot. Unfortunately, on my left cheek, I could only feel two fingers. When the slightly rough surface of his lips pressed against mine, I curled my toes. And I grabbed Go Yohan’s right hand. I pressed firmly on the three fingers that weren’t holding me down.

Pathetic as it is, this was the extent of the secret acts Jun and Go Yohan had committed.

“Hff……”

Go Yohan kisses in a peculiar way. At first, he lightly nibbles around the lips as if tickling them. Given his personality, you’d expect him to immediately thrust his tongue inside, but he’s passive in strange places.

At this moment, the sound of Go Yohan’s moisture transferring to my dry skin is audible. The skin, full of moisture, pulls away, tormenting me. Up to this point, it feels more like a tingling sensation in the chest than sexual excitement. A large hand seems to grab my heart and twist it. That agonizing suffocation is insanely pleasurable.

“Ah……”

What I dislike is that Go Yohan engages in this act longer than expected. Even though he complains that 5 minutes is too short, he actually avoids direct lip contact and only torments the area around the lips. The only somewhat assertive thing he does is gently bite and pull my lip with his teeth.

It’s so tormenting and agonizing that when I straighten my back and seek the lips that abandoned me, Go Yohan, holding both my cheeks, suddenly pulls his head back. And maintaining a gap so narrow a breeze could barely pass through, he giggled weakly.

“Somehow, it seems like you enjoy it more than I do.”

Yet, why is his voice so husky? He should just giggle foolishly. I glared at Go Yohan resentfully.

“……You don’t have time, do you?”

Only then did I pretend otherwise and relaxed the tension in my back. Acting as if I wasn’t the least bit affected by Go Yohan’s torment. Then Go Yohan leans his body, burying my back into the sofa. Because of that, my butt naturally slid down, and when the nape of my neck hooked over the back of the sofa, Go Yohan smiled with his lips right next to mine. Then our lips barely touch.

That tiny movement sent a tremor through my lower abdomen. Honestly, this is intentional. Go Yohan knows exactly what he’s doing. He’s doing it on purpose. And yet, the way he wriggles while keeping his lips attached is annoying, so I let go of the hand that was holding Go Yohan’s hand.

“Open your eyes.”

As if he knew I would. No, I shouldn’t open them. But when that low voice resonates, I automatically obey. Carefully lifting my weakly trembling eyelids, I met transparent eyes.

My feet are firmly on the ground, so why does it feel like I’m walking barefoot on a path strewn with crunchy star candies? My lost hand scratched the leather seat. Looking up quietly at Go Yohan with slightly blurred vision, Go Yohan gazes steadily at my face with his head slightly tilted.

I hate this moment the most.

Because I can fully feel something hardening against the upper part of my stomach.

“Hey.”

I pushed my body back with all my might. Straightening my disheveled posture, I minimized the contact area as much as possible. However, Go Yohan just intently watches my movements. How brazen he is—anyone seeing him would think nothing’s happening underneath this bastard. Does he have no sense of shame?

“Th, that’s touching.”

In the end, it was me who raised my hand and pushed Go Yohan’s stomach. Go Yohan, upon seeing the hand touching his stomach, lifted his head again and smiled bashfully.

“It’s an unavoidable physiological phenomenon.”

“Anyway.”

“If it really bothers you, then you reduce it.”

The hand that was holding my cheek went down. It happened in an instant. I was just staring blankly when suddenly I thought ‘Oh no!’ and tried to pull my hand away. I really tried to pull it away. But it was too late.

“What are you doing with idle hands?”

Go Yohan’s hand tightly grabbed the back of my hand and forcibly placed it on the slightly protruding center. Through my palm, I can distinctly feel the firm texture. Fuck, what is this? I stretched my fingers back as far as possible to avoid the unfamiliar sensation. The problem was that my palm was still touching Go Yohan’s swollen one.

“Ah……”

Go Yohan lifted his chin and closed his eyes. Though one eye was slightly open even then. As if that little bit mattered, he smiled with a face intoxicated by pleasure and chewed his lip. Is, is he insane? Is this for real? My face heated up to an unbearable degree. It became so hot that my head couldn’t function properly. Go Yohan’s hand pressed down harder on the back of my hand.

“……”

His raised head and face growing intoxicated with satisfaction were illuminated by the moonlight. His unusually high nose bridge cast a shadow on his face. One side of his face simply melted into the darkness.

I admit it. Go Yohan is handsome. Sometimes I find myself staring at his melancholic face as if bewitched. Especially Go Yohan intoxicated with lust stands out more. If he matures here for another 2-3 years, he’ll probably exude a deeper scent. Once the slight greenness he has now disappears completely……

Clack. I heard the sound of a buckle unfastening. I snapped back to reality.

“Hey, what are you……”

“Hoo……”

Go Yohan let out a deep sigh. His eyes, with slightly dilated pupils, finally came into proper focus.

Before I knew it, Go Yohan had grabbed my wrist and was holding the zipper with his index finger and thumb. Slowly, the tightly interlocked metal descended.

“Hey, hey!”

Even when I tried to pull my wrist away, I couldn’t. I cursed inwardly. Why is he so damn strong? Goddamn it. Ziiik-. A long, long track opens up. Through the gap, dark-colored drawers are visible. No. My head is too messed up. I need to make a proper judgment. In my dizzy state, I instinctively twisted my waist to the side. Finally, Go Yohan’s hand went off course.

It’s bewildering. Reflexively, I lifted my head and looked at Go Yohan. The eyes that met mine suddenly seemed a little crazy. The moment I saw his blurred pupils, an exhilarating electric current shot up my spine and through my waist.

“Um…… excuse me.”

He’s clearly trying to read the situation. He’s trying to speak while gauging my reaction, but his eyes aren’t sane. Wh, why is this bastard like this? Go Yohan, who had gone crazy, slowly savored his lips.

“First of all, it’s mine.”

“……”

“Can’t you touch it for me?”

“N, no.”

“Then…… just hold it for me.”

“Th, that’s also a no.”

“Just holding it barehanded isn’t allowed either?”

Go Yohan’s face comes closer. It becomes increasingly clearer in the darkness. Go Yohan’s crazy pupils.

“……The 5 minutes are up. Move aside.”

“No, not yet.”

My body, trying to push Go Yohan away and get up, was slammed back onto the sofa by Go Yohan.

“Ah……!”

Goddamn it, I jerked my body upright again. Unfortunately, my challenge ended in failure. I was trapped between Go Yohan’s legs with no way to escape, and a large hand grabbed my face again.

“Then I’ll do what I need to do first.”

“What nonsense……!”

My resistance was swallowed by Go Yohan’s mouth. Because his lips pressed down fiercely, and suddenly a hot tongue entered my mouth. With a blunt motion, it meticulously traced between my gums and teeth. Honestly, it hurt. Because Go Yohan’s nose was pressing hard against my cheek.

“Hff……”

The back of my knees feels numb. It’s as if someone is pinching me weakly with their fingernails. The hand held by Go Yohan just trembled violently, twisted, and the only free hand fidgeted aimlessly before clinging to a source of warmth to rely on. I think it was probably Go Yohan’s arm.

When the moistened parts interlock, make contact, and then separate, it makes a very lewd sound.

“Yohan, ah haht.”

First. I’m clumsy at kissing. Adding to the sad fact, second, Go Yohan is also clumsy. Still, having done it a few times by now, there’s some experience, so I’ve improved a bit. Still, these two clumsy facts created discord in this heated situation. The biggest discord is that I can’t breathe.

“Bre, breath… choking…”

When approaching the edge of pleasure and breathlessness, we would break the kiss and gasp for air heavily. The panting sounds wake the dawn. Illuminated by the hazy moonlight, faces reddened to the point of bursting were visible. When Go Yohan’s and my gazes fell on each other’s lips. Seeing lips slightly swollen and glistening with saliva, without a word, we closed our eyes and pulled each other closer.

Each time the interlocked flesh regrettably separated for breath, a transparent thread stretched long between the parted lips. Each time the distance increased, the stretched thread grew thinner until it snapped with a pop.

All that remained was the rough, panting sound of breath.

“Damn it……”

Go Yohan muttered a curse under his breath, but it wasn’t malicious. It had long been past the 5-minute mark, but no one present cared. Rather, we were trying hard not to mention it. We pretended not to know, afraid this feeling might break.

“Hey.”

A voice like discordant metal called me. Regulating my breathing, I tilted my neck and looked up. Through my blurred vision, I saw Go Yohan shaking his head lightly and laughing. Why that laugh seemed somewhat shy was probably because my head was messed up right now. Go Yohan wouldn’t be like that.

“You’re hard too.”

While thinking about what Go Yohan meant, I slowly lowered my head. I cleared my throat with a groan. No need to check—the heavy feeling was familiar.

“Ah……”

Goddamn it, shit. A hot heat rose through my throat. Maybe, if I looked in a mirror, I could see that my already reddened face could become even redder. I’m so embarrassed I could die. Frantically, I pushed Go Yohan’s shoulders and turned my head away, covering my face.

“Now it’s really been over 5 minutes, so go, get lost.”

“That’s not polite.”

Go Yohan’s arm quickly crosses an invisible line. I hurriedly blocked it with my arm.

“What are you, what are you doing?”

“I’m going to take responsibility for you.”

In his playful voice, I can see the seething excitement. And why does that bastard say such things while giggling foolishly? What’s so good about it?

“Don’t. You punk.”

I pushed away the playful hand that kept approaching without giving up. And as I tried to get up, of all things, Go Yohan is standing over me. I sighed and pushed Go Yohan’s thigh hard. Damn it, he doesn’t budge an inch. My brow furrows involuntarily.

“I’m really going to wash up now. Move aside.”

“Then just let me see it before you wash.”

“Have you finally lost your mind? Go away.”

“I’ll just look once. I’ll just stare quietly.”

“Are you really crazy? What do you mean ‘stare quietly’?!”

“At what? Yours.”

“……”

Is this bastard insane? What does he mean ‘see’? Why does he want to see someone else’s erection? Is he sane? Looking at Go Yohan as if he were a strange person, Go Yohan himself frowned with a slightly anxious, serious expression, then spoke as if reluctantly conceding.

“Then let’s do this. If you show me yours, I’ll show you mine.”

“Get lost. Really.”

This time it was reversed. I reached out to push Go Yohan away, and Go Yohan easily flicked my hand aside. Is everything so easy for him? I scanned him up and down with an annoyed glare, and within seconds, Go Yohan covered his face with both hands and shook his shoulders. Ah, really. This son of a bitch. That laugh, which clearly had the intention of teasing me, made me even more embarrassed.

“Ah, really. Hilarious.”

“Don’t joke around. Why would I look at that?!”

“That? It’s precious.”

The hands covering his face lowered. The eyes that were subtly revealed were curved in a smile.

“It’s giving you the honor of observing mine for the first time.”

“Don’t you have anything to do? Observing something like that?”

“Everyone seems so interested when they see high schoolers.”

Go Yohan grumbled and scratched his temple. Was he really saying that? Was he really that clueless? I was rather taken aback by his earnestness. A rumor I had vaguely heard in my head suddenly popped up. That rumor that anyone around Go Yohan would have been familiar with back then.

‘Go Yohan and one woman, the next day she’ll be in a wheelchair. That thing is, seriously, that’s not a Penis, it’s a weapon. A weapon.’

Go Yohan had big hands, was tall, had a high nose, and anyway, everything that should be big was big. My lips were dry with tension. I tried to subtly pull out my wrist that he was holding, but he grabbed it again. Damn it. Inevitably, my gaze drifted to the slightly undone buckle.

“I was famous for being big, right?”

“Aish, hey.”

I bit my lip at Go Yohan’s honest rambling, and Go Yohan used his thumb to pull down my lip and continued with a truly nonchalant face.

“But you know what? It’s all a load of hot air.”

“……Huh?”

“Originally, the kids tend to exaggerate too much to try and make me look good. Honestly, I don’t really know since I’ve never seen a comparison group. To me, it just looks average.”

The subtle Lecher was once again tempted by these words. I subtly scanned Go Yohan’s center. The clasp that was barely undone wasn’t clearly visible, and since he happened to be wearing thick jeans, I couldn’t even get a rough idea. I hesitated slightly and asked.

“……How long is it?”

“Do people usually… measure the length?”

Go Yohan asked as if he was genuinely curious.

……They do measure it. The words that were about to come out swirled around on the tip of my tongue and were swallowed back down. Silence was swallowed at the same time as my saliva. Curiosity followed me to the tips of my toes. Once, I had secretly tried to guess Go Yohan’s size. It was a time when I truly had no answers. The important thing was that I still hadn’t found the answer. I glanced again at the slightly open zipper and scratched the surface of the sofa with my fingernails as I asked. Scritch. The sound of the sofa leather being roughly scratched rang out.

“Then can I just take a little peek?”

Crazy, my voice scratched my throat. Startled by the tone that had clearly taken a strange turn, I covered my mouth with the back of my hand. Did I speak too fast? Embarrassed, I had nowhere to put my eyes, so I stroked my neck and scanned aimlessly around the house with my eyes.

“It doesn’t mean anything. I just want to confirm the rumor…….”

“It’s okay. Confirm it.”

Go Yohan slowly straightened the knee he had been resting on the sofa and went down under the sofa. The sound of his bare feet lightly pressing against the floor and then lifting off rang out. Thud. Go Yohan took a step. My gaze once again honestly went to Go Yohan’s underwear. It was then that I swallowed without realizing it. I don’t know why the sound of the zipper and the zipper handle clashing and clinking was so exciting. The zipper that had been going down from the middle to a little below suddenly stopped abruptly. Uh, I reflexively raised my head and looked at Go Yohan.

“Ah-. Right. I almost forgot.”

“Why……?”

“I have to show you mine first.”

“Uh, ah?”

“I said I’d show you mine if you showed me yours.”

“When did you…….”

I blinked slowly, not understanding Go Yohan’s words. The software that had broken down due to excessive heat spun the engine like crazy. The engine that had been running with a noisy sound suddenly brought out the words that Go Yohan had just said. That’s right. He did. I hurriedly waved my hands.

“No! No! Then I don’t want to see it!”

“Jun-ah.”

One corner of Go Yohan’s mouth went up diagonally as if it would pierce the sky. The moment I saw his slightly unfocused pupils, I realized that I had missed the opportunity to stop that psycho. Go Yohan’s scent rushed in and pressed against my nose. His long fingers grabbed my pants. I quickly raised my hand to block him, but the zipper was already undone. Please. It was already too late, but I desperately shook my head. However, Go Yohan also shook his head with a faint smile.

“Jun-ah. There’s no reverse in life.”

“Wait a minute!”

Why, of all days, did I wear slightly loose pants today? Why did I wear such easy-to-take-off pants? No, did I know that the situation would turn out like this? Damn it. Besides, it was a mistake to lift my legs to try and block him somehow. It was also a problem that Go Yohan was unusually strong. I put all my strength into lying down on the sofa, but he lifted me up with his strength.

“Ah……!”

The sensation of the fabric that had been layered several times went down my thighs and calves in an instant. Soon, there was a familiar sound of something falling to the floor with a thud. For a moment, I looked blankly at the pants and underwear that had fallen and scattered. The warmth that had been surrounding me just a few seconds ago was scattered like trash.

“Jun-ah.”

Amidst the burst of subtle exclamations, cold air touched my heated skin. The only warmth that touched me was the presence on the inside of both my knees. Only then did I suddenly realize. That my posture was with my legs spread apart, half hanging on the sofa. And that Go Yohan happened to be sitting between them.

“What are you looking at, seriously!”

I hurriedly closed my legs, but unfortunately, my last resistance was blocked by Go Yohan’s hand. Rather, the legs that had been grabbed were spread even wider to the sides. It was because his hot hand grabbed my knees and spread them wide.

“……!”

I instantly covered my mouth, which was about to scream, and glared at Go Yohan. His strangely shining gaze touched my center. Furthermore, cold air rushed into the inside of my thighs. A blatant interest bloomed in his gloomy eyes. What, why are you staring as if you’re going to make a hole in me. Shiii……bal. What’s even worse is that blood is rushing down there. The Penis that had been somewhat subdued while we were talking was visibly twitching again.

I’m going crazy. Seriously……. I almost burst into tears. It was the moment when I hurriedly lowered my hand to desperately cover the exposed area. Go Yohan raised one hand and grabbed my wrist tightly. Damn it. How are his hands so big again. Besides, he grabbed it without even looking.

“I told you to let go of this.”

Go Yohan, who didn’t even listen to me and didn’t take his eyes off from under me, continued with a strangely flushed voice.

“How is even this my type. The size is just right too.”

The scream that I couldn’t let out came out as a metallic sound. Th, this……. Gone crazy……. My face is burning like crazy. How can he say such things so, so shamelessly. This son of a bitch.

“Son of a bitch, what are you going to do……!”

Go Yohan, who was staring at my Penis with his gaze fixed on it while holding my knees wide apart, suddenly raised his head. Surprisingly, his dark and gloomy face was glowing red with excited joy.

“This is amazing.”

Shibal, shibal, shibal! I felt the urge to kill myself from the insane embarrassment. I twisted and pulled out my grabbed wrist. The hot hand that had been resting on me for a long time was removed as if it was a pity. Go Yohan licked his lips. I couldn’t bear it anymore and raised my arm to cover my eyes. I want to die. I want to die. Even in the midst of all that, Go Yohan’s gaze still doesn’t leave from under me.

Hmm-. After a moment of deep thought,

“Jun-ah, I think yours might be bigger than mine?”

He spouted such nonsense. This crazy bastard.

“Enough, hurry up and give me my pants!”

What I wanted to die even more about was that I could clearly feel the sensation of the moisture that had risen from that kiss trickling down the shaft. Go Yohan enjoyed that. I buried my eyes even more strongly in my arm in deathly shame. And I reaffirmed my determination. Son of a bitch. I will never, ever get involved again. Go Yohan’s fingers slowly stroked my thigh. That small pressure traveled up my nerves and hit my waist. Without realizing it, I twisted my body and bent my waist.

“Please…….”

I said it half-sobbing, but Go Yohan answered more readily than I expected.

“Okay.”

His answer was so clean that I was rather taken aback. I took my arm away from my eyes and looked at Go Yohan, who was already kneeling in front of the sofa. Go Yohan smiled, slightly revealing his teeth.

“Instead, can I ask you for one thing?”

“……What? What is it.”

“Just, I’ll ask you just once. I won’t pester you anymore. Huh?”

The hand that had been stroking my thigh went down under the sofa. I stiffened my body at the sensation of Go Yohan’s stiff and awkward fingers brushing against me. He stroked the dangling ankles under the sofa as if he was wrapping around them. Because of that, more heat went to my center. A thrilling sensation traveled through my blood vessels and tormented my lower abdomen.

“……Huh?”

Go Yohan’s hair, which had been messed up while we were kissing, fluttered lightly. The face that was slightly lowering his chin and looking up as if he was earnestly begging made people weak. In the end, it always turns out like this. I figured it would be better to just quickly grant whatever his request was and move on, so I nodded with a deeply flushed face. The pitiful eyes sparkled like jewels for a moment.

“Okay, thank you.”

Go Yohan answered as he pleased, and then smiled brightly and firmly grabbed both my ankles with his hands.

“Don’t worry, I’ll do well. I can do well.”

“What…… are you going to do well at?”

But why am I so uneasy. I’m getting stiffer and stiffer with tension. However, Go Yohan just looked at me and smiled brightly while tightly grabbing my ankles that were dangling under the sofa.

“What are you going to do?”

“Fella……not, Imaratio.”

“……?”

Where did I hear those words before. One strange scene slowly came to mind in my swaying vision. Guys holding cider. White foam spewing out. Liquid wetting the floor…….

“I’ll try hard.”

I didn’t even listen to Go Yohan’s words and immediately tried to turn around and get out of there. There was no value in answering, and I didn’t have the spare capacity. I struggled, pulling my feet, but the resistance failed. The waist that I had raised to get up was pulled down again and I ended up lying on the sofa. It was because Go Yohan grabbed my ankles and pulled me towards him. My butt was hanging on the edge of the sofa, and my top went up over my stomach. Damn it, I was so panicked by the precariousness of feeling like I was going to slip and fall that I desperately grabbed the leather seat.

“Hey, G, Go Yohan.”

The hand that had been pulling down my ankles suddenly went up to my thighs. I was afraid of plunging under the sofa, so I couldn’t move my body to block him. When Go Yohan put strength into it, my legs were bent at an angle that they had never been bent at in my life. In my life, has my thigh ever almost touched my stomach? And that too, while spread open? No, never.

“I’ll really do well. I’ll make sure you don’t regret it.”

“Hey……!”

With those words, Go Yohan buried his head between my legs.

He was still forcefully pushing down on my thighs. I felt as if my waist was about to break, but I reflexively bent my neck back. The feeling of the hot and soft sensation directly touching my throbbing center was exactly the same as right before I lost my mind. White light burst in my head.

“Ugh……!”

Crazy, I covered my mouth at the moan I had blurted out. Tears welled up in my eyes from the shame. My legs twisted on their own. The squelching sound crawled up from under me. Go Yohan’s breathing, as he struggled to hold back his gagging and catch his breath, tickled my lower abdomen. In the middle, when Go Yohan’s Canine Tooth touched the swollen blood vessels, it hurt so much that I even shed the tears that had been welling up.

The romance of high school students, who had no thoughts and were only full of sexual desire, was Fella. Everyone shouted so loudly. I want to get Fella. They were truly vulgar and immature. I thought of those cheap bastards who didn’t know shame as pathetic vermin. It was Go Yohan who made those guys look ridiculous. Those whore bastards. Go Yohan, who had said that, had his head buried between my legs and was doing the ‘Fellatio’ that they had been talking about. And that too, diligently, with all his might. With a nervous gesture.

Honestly, he was clumsy. He scratched with his teeth, and he was rather too forceful because he was nervous, so it hurt. However, when I saw Go Yohan’s face as he stuck out his tongue from under me, held back his gagging, and willingly tried while watching my expression, pleasure tightened my toes. The toes dangling in the air gradually curled inward.

With the clear sound of moisture sliding, Go Yohan’s lips fell away. He showed me his lips, which were glistening with liquid, and said to me with a serious face.

“Sorry, I’m a bit clumsy because it’s my first time.”

“…….”

“I won’t make a mistake next time.”

Afraid that I might let out a moan, I tightly covered my mouth and looked at Go Yohan. Go Yohan’s Penis, which was flushed red below his face, was swaying in the air, and Go Yohan caressed the tip of it with one finger.

“D, amn…….”

Unable to overcome that tickling sensation, the strength in my body was released. Finally, my whole body slipped along the edge of the sofa. I squeezed my eyes shut, terrified of my future as I was about to plunge headfirst, but my body didn’t hit the floor. It was thanks to the hand that had wrapped around the back of my thighs again quickly pushing me up.

I raised my body, which had stiffened in surprise, and Go Yohan sniffed and wiped his lips with the back of his hand. The liquid that was reflecting the light and sparkling wasn’t properly wiped off and went up Go Yohan’s cheek.

“This time, I’ll do it properly until the end.”

Bullshit. However, my Penis, which was pouring out more water as my stomach cramped at those words, was even more crazy. Go Yohan quietly looked down at that sight. His three-dimensional face was full of satisfaction and interest. The interest that arose on his already gloomy face looked even more lecherous. Go Yohan smiled slightly and lowered his head again. The light sensation of his hair tickled between the inside of my thighs.

“……!”

I bit my lip until it was about to tear. I tried to move my hand again to cover my mouth, but soon Go Yohan grabbed it with his hand that he stretched out without looking. Go Yohan couldn’t even speak because of what he had in his mouth, and he groped for my hand like a blind man before pulling it down over his head. The soft hair came up over the back of my hand as if it was trying to conquer even my hand. Just as I was about to hurriedly take my hand away because I suddenly felt goosebumps at that sensation, Go Yohan grabbed my hand tightly.

My legs, which had gained freedom, lost strength and were hung on Go Yohan’s shoulders as they were. The temperature of Go Yohan’s back and shoulders, which were wet with my bent legs, came close. Suddenly, I remembered the scar that Go Yohan had below. What’s even more incomprehensible is that I almost reached climax once as I recalled that scar and was soaked in a strange excitement.

“…….”

Go Yohan could be felt struggling as he heaved greatly once. However, even though it must have been painful because the tip was stabbing deep into his throat, he paused for a moment to catch his breath and then pulled my hand while holding back his gagging. My hand was led by Go Yohan and went down from his round head to his neck. At the same time, Go Yohan took his mouth away and said with difficulty while sticking out his tongue. His eyes, which were lifted up with his face buried in my center, were irresistibly captivating.

“Touc, touch my ears.”

“Wait, don’t talk with your tongue…… Ah!”

An unbearable tickling sensation rose to my lower abdomen. However, unlike my situation, Go Yohan slowly put his mouth near the tip and let out a laugh. The lukewarm breath tickled the tip that was pouring out water like crazy.

“I don’t have to drink water after this.”

Go Yohan, who was smiling bashfully, let go of my Penis, which fell below my navel. The shaft, which had been so excited, fell and hit my bare skin before rising again, unable to overcome the excitement. It swayed and dripped thick water below. I finally let go of the hand that had been struggling to wrap around Go Yohan’s neck and collapsed onto the leather seat. I couldn’t move properly because all the strength in my body was gone. I felt as if my whole body was melting away after being submerged in boiling water.

The body that was sprawled on the sofa heaved greatly as if its only purpose was to breathe. In the meantime, Go Yohan’s left hand suddenly grabbed my Penis and started stroking it up and down.

“Agh……!”

Is this what they mean when they say a voice is wet? I heard a sound that I couldn’t believe came out of my mouth and hurriedly covered my mouth again. Go Yohan looked at that with pitiful eyes.

“Don’t keep blocking it. It sounds good.”

My mind was covered in white. I didn’t know what Go Yohan was saying and shook my head wildly. Just as the increasingly fast left hand was putting strength into it and pressing down on the part where my skin and Penis met, I saw Go Yohan opening his mouth again and putting my trembling Penis in his mouth in my blurry vision. With his hand that was covered in clear liquid and was squelching, he grabbed the back of my left thigh again. My legs were bent again powerlessly.

“……Ugh.”

I raised my arm and bit down hard on my sleeve. A sensation that made my whole body tremble crushed all my nerves, and my waist and neck bent, blocking my breath. My head exploded. I shuddered, letting out a shrill moan. My body convulsed several times from the hand pressing down as if trying to squeeze everything out of me, and then I gasped for breath, my legs lifted in the air. My head was empty, and I stared up at the dangling tip of one foot, feeling like an idiot.

“Ah.”

Go Yohan touched his neck and let out a short groan. When the hand that had been gripping my thigh went down, my leg, which had lost its support, slowly fell as well. It was Go Yohan who grabbed it again and placed it on his shoulder. My Penis, which had been stirred in the hot temperature, was wet and pressed against his swollen lips before slipping out with regret. I felt that unfamiliar sensation and weakly looked at Go Yohan. Go Yohan smiled slightly and opened his mouth.

“Look at this.”

“……”

Ejaculate filled his swollen tongue between his lips, which were even redder from the friction. Go Yohan flicked his tongue with his finger, as if showing off. Crazy bastard. As his lips, swollen red from the friction, lifted, he revealed his sharp Canine Tooth.

He slowly closed his lips and moved his Adam’s apple. A gulping sound went down his throat. In the end, he even lightly wiped away the Ejaculate near his mouth with his thumb. Go Yohan, who put his Ejaculate-covered thumb back in his mouth and sucked on it, looked up at me blatantly and said,

“This Lord is so nice, he even feeds me the holy water himself.”

Then he stroked my Penis, which was also reddened from the friction, with his wet thumb. Go Yohan even swept up the fluid that he couldn’t quite suck up and had spilled. He brought his lips back to the liquid pooled between my Penis and Go Yohan’s thumb. I bit down on my sleeve even harder.

“……!”

“So gracious.”

Go Yohan slowly lifted the leg he had placed on his shoulder and put it on the sofa. Even as my strength drained, I didn’t want to show an ugly sight, so I struggled to move and got on the sofa, squinting my eyes as I said,

“……You’re a pervert.”

At those words, Go Yohan shrugged as if it were nothing.

“A pervert is better than being impotent.”

“Why would I ever be.”

Languor washed over my head. I quietly stared at Go Yohan, who had already gotten up and subtly sat next to me, and continued speaking. I didn’t know why he was so happy, grinning from ear to ear.

“Being involved with a bastard like you……”

Go Yohan scratched near his eyes and laughed silently. Strangely, that made me a little uncomfortable.

“……Why don’t you say anything?”

So you hate it? I was uncomfortable with Go Yohan not saying such grumbling words. Rather, I felt guilty because of his attitude. Was I being too much? As time gradually passed, I blushed with embarrassment and pulled down my top. I wiggled my butt and pulled the fabric down. Only then did Go Yohan open his mouth.

“It’s all visible anyway, no matter what you do.”

“……I’m going to go wash up.”

“Really?”

Go Yohan tilted his body, asking back as if he were amazed. The sofa, pressed down by Go Yohan’s weight, heaved greatly once. An arm with well-defined muscles reached across my body and touched the sheet. This time, I was trapped between Go Yohan’s arms. I looked up with a puzzled face, and Go Yohan asked again.

“You don’t need to see mine?”

“……”

Ah……. It would be a lie if I said I wasn’t tempted by those words. Why, what for, did I experience this difficult thing? I quickly grabbed Go Yohan’s arm. Let’s not suffer unfair things. That’s my belief.

“I’ll see it, I’ll see it.”

I had to see it, even if it was just out of spite for how pathetic his son was and how much he had tormented me. The wrong obsession, which had grown so big, blazed up.

“Okay, I’ll show you since you want it so badly.”

I frowned at the answer, which was so readily given that it was disheartening. Did I get tricked again? I clearly said I wanted to see it, but why did it feel like things were strangely going according to Go Yohan’s will? The hand that had been so slow earlier moved in an instant. I squinted my eyes and glared at Go Yohan, dumbfounded. Okay, let’s take a look anyway. My stubbornness burned. With a zipping sound, the zipper went all the way down.

“……”

Even with the zipper all the way down, there were no special traces over his underwear. There was only a slightly swollen feeling. Judging from the stiff feeling earlier, it didn’t seem to be dead. Or did it die because it was too hard earlier? Or what, is it really that small? Did I perhaps touch Go Yohan’s pride? I felt sorry for him as a fellow man for no reason.

“That……”

Ahem. I let out a small dry cough. I glanced at Go Yohan, who was fixing his pants, turned my head, and hesitated, not knowing what to say. In the end, I couldn’t stand the silence and opened my mouth.

“They say that size is comfortable when wearing underwear. It’s fixed right at the top.”

I didn’t know if it was true or not. That’s just what the really small guys say when they freak out when they hear they’re small. I heard the sound of fabric being arranged from outside my averted gaze.

“No, wouldn’t it all pop out at the top? I always have to fix it downwards before putting it on. So it all goes inside my pants.”

I stopped scratching my head abruptly. It wasn’t a sarcastic tone, nor was it a forced tone. It was a tone of genuine curiosity. A strange feeling bloomed in my head. What, fix it downwards so it all goes where……? I had an uneasy feeling. A sense of unease bloomed, and my hesitant eyes slowly rolled towards Go Yohan.

My head and body turned halfway, and I was horrified.

“……”

What is that?

“……Hey.”

“What? Is it weird?”

“Are you even human?”

I asked honestly. Instinctively, my body jumped up and pushed my butt back. Shit, I don’t know if what’s in front of me is really attached to a human body. What is that, what is that. Shit……. I retreated backwards in fear with all my strength, but Go Yohan pitifully lowered his eyebrows and grabbed my ankle.

“Jun-ah.”

“Wh-what…… you bastard.”

“Where are you going after making me like this? You have to take responsibility.”

I shook my head from side to side quickly. I’d be dead if I took responsibility for that.

“Is it a bluff? Is it a rumor? What? Is mine bigger than yours?”

“At least it’s not as big as a person. I didn’t say it was bigger than yours. I said it was bigger than you.”

I was so dumbfounded by those words that I let out a hollow breath. To say such a thing while pouting his lower lip and subtly looking at me. While I was feeling lost, Go Yohan, who had approached, subtly grabbed my waist.

“Hey, hey…… what are you doing.”

“I won’t hurt you.”

“Wh-what do you mean you won’t hurt me.”

I was horrified and lifted my head, but before I could even raise my body, Go Yohan turned my body around. In an instant, I was rubbing my stomach against the sofa leather, and I panicked and stood up my legs. I crawled forward on my hands and knees, horrified at the sight of the viciously throbbing Penis behind me. It was because the Penis, which seemed like it wouldn’t be satisfied unless it was rammed into somewhere to death, was dripping clear liquid and aiming for between my legs.

“No, don’t go.”

“Hnghk!”

However, I failed because he pulled my leg and I fell forward. The heavy body that had followed me pressed down lightly on my back. Hair, already wet with sweat, dug into my neck. Lips, dry from excitement, bit my neck.

“Wait, let go. G-Go Yohan.”

“……Jun-ah.”

Go Yohan’s hand slowly went up my back and pulled hard. Thanks to that, several of the top buttons were torn off in an instant. My pathetic shoulder blades were exposed to the air.

“Jun.”

The force that had been biting, licking, and sucking my neck slowly went down and tickled my shoulder. He bit the skin that was regaining heat and sucked on the protruding shoulder blade. The hot tongue caressed my dry back, and I collapsed at Go Yohan’s caress, covering my face with my arms and lying face down.

My head becomes heavy again. All of Go Yohan’s actions are like drugs. The most I could do was lie face down, bury my face in the sheet, and suppress my moans. The lips that had been licking my skin went down my back and began to torment the skin above my shirt.

“Jun-ah.”

Go Yohan’s hand grabbed my thigh and lifted it. Because of my lower body, which was raised along with it, the white shirt I was wearing flowed down my back. Hot fingers pressed hard on my thighs and buttocks, pressing down on the flesh. At the same time, a pitiful voice flowed out.

“I guess…… let’s gain a little weight.”

“It’s not…… that I don’t want…….”

Hnghk, because a moan popped out, I hurriedly buried my face again. Because Go Yohan was spreading my legs so much, I felt the wind coming between my buttocks, and I unknowingly wiggled my waist. The hand that had been kneading my butt like clay suddenly stopped moving. I felt a lingering gaze above my waist.

“I’ll finish really quickly so you don’t have to suffer.”

And without giving me a chance to stop him, his body moved. My thighs were pressed tightly together without any gaps.

“I originally wanted to do it while looking at your face, but if I do that, you’ll only be in a position where you’ll suffer.”

“……?”

“I’ll do it in this position. Just let me do this once.”

What do you mean. I was about to ask.

At that moment, a hard lump poked between my tightly pressed thighs. I lifted my neck and panicked, but my body had already melted with excitement and wasn’t functioning properly enough to lift my body with my arms. The tip of what was definitely Go Yohan’s pressed hard against the inside of my thigh, smearing it with sticky liquid.

“J-Just a minute…….”

“Euh…….”

The sound of skin and liquid rubbing together was sticky. Go Yohan rubbed his palm fiercely as if spreading the liquid on the inside of my thigh. At the same time, the tip of his finger tapped the bottom of my Penis, and I reflexively bent my waist again.

When my legs were about to collapse, Go Yohan grabbed them and stood them up again with force. The hand that had been applying liquid to my thigh grabbed the inside of my flesh and twisted it. I now buried my face in the sofa and closed my eyes tightly. I had decided to accept what was about to happen. However, I couldn’t lift my head because I was afraid to look.

“I’m going to do it now.”

Because Go Yohan was pressing down so hard, his hot, hard Penis forced its way between my tightly pressed thighs. I inhaled and clenched my fists tightly.

Go Yohan’s low moans from behind soaked me again.

“……”

I admit I’m skinny. Even if I gathered the flesh on my thighs, which were said to have the most flesh, it would be the same, but I could still feel the size of Go Yohan’s Penis forcing its way in between. Even the swollen blood vessels and the protruding glans that touched my skin.

I could feel Go Yohan’s hard glans at the end of my Penis. Go Yohan’s stomach, which was pressing down hard on my butt, wriggled against my thighs every time he breathed. He paused for a moment to catch his breath. Go Yohan’s large hands slowly stroked my coldly exposed waist and butt.

“……”

I buried my mouth more firmly into the sheet. My lower body trembled. Go Yohan’s Penis, which was touching me from below, was too hot, and my back and waist, which were exposed to the air, were too cold. Every time he warmed my cold skin with his large hands, my mind collapsed and my body was soaked with pleasure.

The Penis that had been firmly embedded below began to move back and forth little by little. At first, it was just a slight pull and thrust. Go Yohan moved his knees. The sofa shook. Only a few groans came out. The Penis that had been moving slowly rubbed the thin skin just below my Penis.

The hand that had been scratching the sofa clenched into a fist. It was a desperate attempt to endure the pleasure. At that moment, the hot Penis that had been tickling below pulled back sharply, and Go Yohan’s warmth moved away. While I was panicking at the sudden empty heat, Go Yohan said.

“……I’m really sorry.”

With that quiet apology, Go Yohan thrust himself between my thighs in one go. The sound of flesh colliding was squelching. His hard stomach hit my butt hard. The glans, slippery with liquid, scratched the inside of my thigh and poked my shaking Penis. Ah, ah. Ah. The moans, cut off in pieces, couldn’t escape my mouth and lingered in my throat. My body shook madly without even having the mind to pull myself together. The shirt that had barely covered my body fluttered here and there, and my hip joints and butt were grabbed with violent force. Even if I forced myself to lift my body with my arms, I would soon lose strength and fall back down.

“G-Go…… hnght, Go Yohan…….”

Shit, let’s just not say anything.

I clenched my fists so hard they felt like they would burst and buried my face even deeper, to the point where I couldn’t breathe. Hnght, euh. I wanted even the moans that flowed out of my throat, which I couldn’t stop, to be swallowed by the leather. What was even more maddening was that the hard lump scratched the dry skin that I had stimulated every time I masturbated. The thin skin right below my Penis. Every time the unfamiliar sensation poked at the familiar area, my head went blank.

“……Shit.”

Starting with a short curse, the speed at which his waist moved gradually slowed down. It was a very deliberate action. Because the thumb that had been pressing down on my butt was slowly spreading the flesh. I opened my eyes wide and reached my hand back, desperately hitting Go Yohan’s stomach and waist.

“D-Don’t…… d-don’t do it.”

However, the hand that was resisting was grabbed by Go Yohan’s right hand. It was only two fingers, the index finger and thumb. The wrist that had been snatched couldn’t even think about escaping and had to endure the body that was shaking back and forth while being held in his grip. The remaining left hand didn’t stop the act of obsessively spreading the flesh.

“If you…… put it in here…….”

Go Yohan’s moans and voice, cut off by excitement, pressed heavily on my waist.

“I’m…… really going to cry.”

I shook the hand that was being held violently. However, it still couldn’t get out. The right arm, which had been barely supporting me, almost gave way several times before managing to stand up again. I desperately waved the hand that was being held. It was a signal not to do it, but it didn’t even touch Go Yohan’s body, it only managed to hit Go Yohan’s wrist a few times, and I unknowingly sobbed because it was just weakly touching my back and waist.

“Euh…….”

“Don’t cry, I won’t do it, so don’t cry.”

As he said that, the hand that had been spreading the torn flesh wildly patted the dry skin as if comforting it. With one wrist held, I felt the force of the hand hanging between my butt and hip joint violently fixing my body. Ah, before I even had time to say anything, a violent piston movement started again. The sofa leather made a loud creaking sound every time it rubbed against my skin.

“Euh…….”

The tips of my fingers, which were being held by Go Yohan, were bent stiffly with excitement. My Penis had already regained its strength and was standing up again. Every time my body shook, the hard flesh hit my stomach and thighs. Then, when it collided with Go Yohan’s glans, I was soaked with indescribable pleasure. The tingling sensation that had climbed up my knees burst below my navel. Climax was approaching. I desperately resisted.

“……Jun, ah.I didn’t have the余裕 to answer the voice calling my name.

“If you look at it from here, you’re really…… really sexy. White, too.”

“……”

Sexy, if you look at it from Go Yohan’s point of view, there’s only a fool who’s wearing a white shirt that’s flowing down, shaking with only his butt raised. I was afraid that if I lifted my head, an unintentional moan would burst out uncontrollably, so I couldn’t answer and shook my head. Hair soaked with sweat stuck to my cheeks and didn’t move.

“Ha, shit…… I can’t take it anymore.”

With those words cut off, Go Yohan sighed deeply and turned my body around again.

“……Haaht!”

As soon as my face, which had been pressed down so hard that I couldn’t even breathe properly, met the cold air, I forced my mouth open. My face flushed endlessly. Almost as a last resort, I forcibly lifted my hand and bit my sleeve, which was soaked with saliva. My body, which had been clinging to excitement, moved following Go Yohan’s gestures. Go Yohan, who had been quietly looking down at me shaking while lying on the sofa, smiled in embarrassment when he saw my bottom, which was still dripping liquid.

“What is it. And you called me a pervert.”

“Shu……t up.”

I glared at Go Yohan with my mouth full of my sleeve. Nevertheless, Go Yohan, who didn’t erase his smile, firmly attached his lower body and grabbed the two pillars with one hand. They collided and slipped several times before he barely managed to grab them. Go Yohan looked down at my face with languid eyes and slowly moved his hand.

“……Euh.”

“Damn…….”

Breaths heated in the air collided. Every time Go Yohan’s hand, which had already become wet, and his Penis, which felt pressure just by looking at it, intertwined with my genitals, my waist wriggled. Naturally, my legs went up onto Go Yohan’s thighs, and Go Yohan knelt down and straightened his waist before raising his speed. The sexy contact that made my head go crazy intensified.

“Jun, Jun-ah…….”

“…….”

“Jun-ah, open your eyes……, look at me……, look at me.”

Writhing in pleasure, I involuntarily opened my eyes at the sound of a voice filled with anguish. Go Yohan’s face was right there, looking as if he was about to burst into tears of excitement.

“It’s me, it’s me, hnnng… fuck…, the guy… the guy who’s grinding his lower belly against yours right now…”

“……”

“…It’s me.”

He panted heavily, chest heaving. It was strange. His face, red and twisted in a warning as he bit his lip, drove me to another climax. I didn’t know anything anymore. I just chewed on my sleeve, as if it were my duty. My head was swimming in a milky white liquid.

“Got it…?”

I didn’t even know what I was saying, just nodded my head like crazy. My body, feverish with excitement, poured out fluids from every orifice. Tears streamed from my eyes, and saliva dripped from my parted lips. As soon as Go Yohan saw me nod, he lowered himself and pressed his body against mine.

“Don’t… don’t forget.”

“……”

In the end, he timidly kissed my cheek. So like Go Yohan. I inhaled the strong scent of Go Yohan that brushed against my nose and curled my toes. Go Yohan buried his face in the space between my neck and let out a soft groan. After a few movements and wriggles, I felt Go Yohan’s hand fall limply onto my stomach. I gasped for breath, then took the tattered end of my sleeve out of my mouth. The saliva-soaked sleeve hung limply.

“……”

“……”

We lay there, overlapping each other, panting. While Go Yohan’s body pressed down hard on me, I trembled with the lingering excitement, my body twitching repeatedly. As the tingling sensation gradually subsided, my vision slowly returned. Surprisingly, the first thought that came to my mind was that I wanted to sleep. I just wanted to fall asleep like that, pinned down by Go Yohan.

“Yohan.”

“……”

“I… I really need to wash up now… I’m so sleepy.”

My throat felt heavy and sore, as if I had strained it too much. At the same time, drowsiness pressed down on my entire body. I had to wash up. I had to wash up and go to sleep… In the end, I couldn’t resist and my eyelids gradually closed, and I heard a strange sobbing sound in my ear.

“Hng, hng…”

Don’t cry. Why are you crying all of a sudden? I wanted to say that. But an overwhelming sleepiness washed over me.

I woke up with a start at the sound of the front door closing. After blinking a few times, I began to feel a tingling sensation in my left shoulder. I must have been sleeping on my side the whole time. My arm, which had been pinned under my body, felt stiff like a piece of wood. Afraid of getting a cramp, I pulled out my arm, which didn’t move very well, and forced it to move.

“Ah, it hurts like hell.”

I cleared my throat, which was heavy with fatigue. I rubbed my eyelids and tried to come to my senses. The situation that came into view was unfamiliar. My bed wasn’t gray. And it wasn’t this hard. I pressed my fingers between my eyebrows, trying to clear my head.

“Hmm…”

Ticklish breaths touched my neck. And what’s more, a presence moved and lightly bumped against my back. I suddenly snapped to attention. I opened my eyes wide and looked ahead. The living room wall was lying on its side. And the moment I looked at the floor, I screamed silently. It was because I saw my pants and underwear lying on the floor under the sofa.

“……!”

I jerked awake and scrambled to get up. The thin blanket I had been covered with fell off, but I didn’t have the presence of mind to worry about such trivial matters. Cold sweat ran down my back. Suddenly, a feeling close to horror struck my head. Without time to think deeply, I hurriedly lifted the blanket that had fallen to my lower body.

“Ah, ha… Ha, crazy.”

Thank goodness, the legs hidden under the blanket were properly wearing pants. Although they were a pair of shorts with a loose waist. But that was something. I breathed a sigh of relief that seemed to sink into the ground. Come to think of it, my shirt had been changed too. It was a big T-shirt, as expected. If it was a T-shirt with the seam that should have been on the edge of my shoulder going down to my upper arm, I knew who it belonged to without being told.

“Ha, seriously. Go Yohan.”

At first, I was relieved, and then I was embarrassed, guessing who had changed me while I was sleeping like a log. Then, for no reason, I felt awkward inside my pants, so I hesitated and slowly grabbed my pants and pulled them open. As soon as I saw that the piece of cloth that should have been inside the pants was missing, I quickly closed them.

“This is crazy, really…”

I covered my face with both hands and then grabbed my hair. The events of last night flashed by like a panorama. My left arm was still tingling, so I soon let go, but with my remaining hand, I made a fist and hit my head, bending over.

After spending time in self-reproach and reflection, reality and mind began to compromise, and I slowly straightened my back. I looked down at my side with eyes like a dying cod. As expected, the identity of the presence was Go Yohan.

“What’s with him, sleeping in this position? If he’s going to sleep, he should sleep in his own room.”

He was sleeping with his nose buried in the back of the sofa, arms crossed, looking very uncomfortable. Why was he curling up his body like that? If he was going to sleep, he should sleep comfortably. I felt a pang of guilt for no reason. As I yawned involuntarily, I looked toward the front door. Seeing that Go Yohan was here, the front door on the upper or lower floor must have closed loudly. It was so quiet now that I doubted my ears, which had heard a sound. It felt like a Sunday morning when no one had woken up yet. Ah, no. It was Sunday morning. I roughly wiped away the tears that had welled up with the back of my hand.

“This apartment isn’t soundproof at all.”

Sometimes I heard footsteps at night, and sometimes I heard the sound of chairs scraping across the floor. When I first started living here, I was bothered by every little thing, but after living here for less than a semester, including summer vacation, I got used to it and became quite indifferent.

I stared down at Go Yohan. He must have been more tired than I thought, because he was so still that I would have thought he was dead if it weren’t for the small, wheezing breaths. I’ve thought this before, but Go Yohan really sleeps like a dead person. That’s why it was so obvious that Go Yohan, with his arms crossed, was lightly shivering.

“……Is he cold?”

I scratched the back of my ear and picked up the blanket that was half-fallen under the sofa and half-draped over my legs. What should I do? I awkwardly held the blanket, then carefully placed it over him, trying not to wake him up. I tried to cover him properly, but his legs were clearly sticking out from under the blanket. I saw pants that were clearly not what he had been wearing yesterday, pants that were clearly pajamas. I glared at the legs I couldn’t cover and muttered.

“You’re so unlucky.”

“……What’s so unlucky?”

Cough. I almost bit my tongue at Go Yohan’s sudden voice. Surely, maybe, there’s no way, I slowly turned my head, but all I could see was Go Yohan, still sleeping with his eyes closed and his arms crossed.

“Were you awake?”

I spoke in a whisper, so quiet that at least a sleeping person wouldn’t be able to hear me. It was something I did out of caution, like tapping a stepping stone before crossing it, just in case. Go Yohan, who had his eyes closed and was breathing calmly, opened his mouth without moving a muscle.

“I just woke up.”

“Because of me?”

“Yeah.”

He was honest. I frowned and scratched my forehead. And after hesitating for a moment, I carefully asked.

“……My clothes.”

“Yeah.”

“Did you change them?”

“No.”

Go Yohan stopped talking. As if he wasn’t fully awake yet, he opened his mouth again at a slower pace.

“A ghost came and changed them. It’s a very sad story.”

“You know I don’t like jokes, right?”

“I’m being sarcastic about who else would have changed you.”

“Even if you changed me, why didn’t you put me in my own clothes? Why did you put me in your clothes?”

“Since when was it illegal to wear someone else’s clothes?”

“No, we don’t live separately, my room is right next door.”

“You’re never satisfied, even when I do something for you.”

“And why is there no underwear?”

“Want me to put it on for you?”

Finally, I became a mute who had eaten honey. I’m crazy. I crossed the line while talking.

“No.”

“Well, if you really want to wear my underwear, which is full of my body heat, I can put it on for you with a heavy heart.”

……I was overwhelmed with an indescribable feeling after hearing Go Yohan’s words. What is it about him that he can say such things with his eyes closed and without any change in expression? I’m getting drawn in. Again. I sighed and covered half of my face with my palm.

Let’s not dig too deep. Let’s not think too hard. Let’s not get serious. After shouting three times, I spoke.

“I don’t need your underwear, I can just get my underwear from my room.”

“Are you a pervert? Why are you rummaging through other people’s underwear?”

“……”

He has a point. I frowned. I always lose to Go Yohan in logic. Why? There’s no reason in Go Yohan’s logic, it’s all arbitrary. But honestly, I’m not happy about it. My strange pride rears its head even in these situations. Let’s win just once. Let’s make Go Yohan a mute who has eaten honey. I was determined.

“Why is such a reasonable guy sleeping on a cramped sofa? You’re such a big guy, you’re being stupid. Just sleep comfortably in your own bed. Why are you making things difficult for yourself?”

Go Yohan moved his body slightly and leaned so close to the back of the sofa that his face was almost touching it. I wondered if there was any need to avoid me so much, since I had already gotten up, but,

“This guy doesn’t know love.”

“Lo…”

I was speechless. Every time Go Yohan crossed a subtle line, I was reminded of the day he kissed my foot. And even the awkward fingers that touched my foot and the clearly visible burn scars. But I wasn’t used to these words, and somewhere in my heart, it felt tight. My heart was pounding so hard that I avoided Go Yohan’s eyes and changed the subject.

“Come to think of it, it’s almost lunchtime.”

“……Hey.”

“……What do you want to eat? Should we go out and buy something?”

But Go Yohan didn’t answer. Another uncomfortable silence flowed. I timidly fiddled with the hem of the unfamiliar T-shirt. After a long time of being so quiet, a low sigh was heard. It was Go Yohan.

“I’m a bad guy too.”

“……”

“You’re a really bad guy too.”

“……”

My gaze was still fixed on the hem of the T-shirt. I didn’t have the courage to raise my head and look at Go Yohan. I scratched the seams that were firmly sewn with thread for no reason.

“You fucked around, you did everything you wanted to do.”

“Don’t… don’t talk like that.”

“Why? Are you embarrassed?”

“It’s not that I’m embarrassed…”

There’s a separate feeling that I can’t describe. I’m uncomfortable with Go Yohan, who says words that are still too difficult for me. It’s not a bad feeling, it’s just… The T-shirt was getting wrinkled, but I couldn’t stop my hand from tormenting the fabric. I twitched my lips, wondering what to do, and the moment I said, “That’s…” Go Yohan hurriedly cut me off.

“No, don’t. Don’t say it.”

There was urgency in the voice that hurriedly stopped me. As if he didn’t want to hear my answer.

“Really, don’t say it.”

“……”

I was a little relieved. You can call me a coward. I know what Go Yohan really wants, but I still brazenly changed the subject.

“You know that guy from yesterday, from the mechanical engineering department.”

“Park Soo-hyun?”

Honestly, I’m grateful to Go Yohan. He accepted my brazenness just now. I couldn’t stop the faint smile from spreading.

“It’s Kang Suhyun.”

“Does it matter?”

When I spoke in a playful tone, Go Yohan raised one eyebrow. What was he so unhappy about again? And he doesn’t even feel guilty for being wrong. Even though he’s twenty years old, he still doesn’t remember things properly if they’re outside of his interests.

“You’re really something.”

“The really important thing was the ruckus that bastard caused.”

“Ruckus?”

“See, you know you’re oblivious, right?”

Go Yohan frowned. And he glared at me strangely.

“I’m quick-witted.”

“Is that why you readily accept other people’s tricks?”

“Ha, geez.”

I scoffed. It’s absurd. I’ve never been told that I’m oblivious in my short life. It was something I never even thought I would hear. So how could I not be dumbfounded?

“You didn’t know that girl named So-hee or something who was sitting at the end of the table kept looking at you.”

“So-yeon or Ga-hee?”

“I don’t know, you idiot.”

This time, Go Yohan grumbled. I was dumbfounded and tapped Go Yohan’s leg with the back of my hand.

“I know the girl looked at me, but she looked at you.”

“It was you, you idiot.”

“It was you.”

“It was you.”

“Okay. What’s important?”

“That’s right? Right, that shouldn’t be important.”

I just skipped it because it seemed like it would be an endless argument, but Go Yohan was subtly smiling proudly. He’s so transparent at times like this. I laughed in disbelief. But, Go Yohan, who was strangely serious, unfolded his arms and reached out his hand.

“What’s this for?”

“Give me your phone.”

“Why?”

“Why else, I heard all the tricks even while I was mentally wavering. Invitation? Bullshit. Absolutely not.”

“Kang Suhyun already knows my number.”

“What else, you have to pretend your number has changed. Give it to me.”

His left hand moved up and down. I sighed and bent down to pick up the pants that had fallen on the floor. The moment I picked up the pants, I was momentarily stunned by the underwear that fell out, and then I was startled by the sound of someone getting up behind me. When I turned around, Go Yohan had already gotten up and was leaning against the back of the sofa listlessly. Even in the midst of all that, he was very good at taking my phone.

“……”

And he still knows my password. I looked at the screen that turned on in despair. When I made a sound, Go Yohan flinched his shoulders and glanced at me before averting his gaze.

“……I’m going to change the profile picture and status a little.”

Go Yohan, who muttered to himself as if making an excuse, suddenly stared at the screen seriously and bit his nails. Soon after, he raised the corners of his mouth as if he had thought of something, and moved his fingers frantically before I could stop him. I don’t have anyone to contact anyway, so it doesn’t matter how he changes it, but I can’t help but be curious. I subtly moved closer and peeked at the screen.

‘Selling Cheongsong apples ^^ / Honest honey apples 20,000 won per box / Delivery available / 5,000 won each’

No, what is this?

“You’re really doing all kinds of things, really…”

“Move. I need to download a picture of honey apples.”

I tried to take my phone back, but I gave up and stepped back, sighing, because of the arm that was blocking me. Seeing him burying his head so close that his nose was almost touching the screen and concentrating, I just lost all motivation. And it was also because of Go Yohan’s typing method, which had changed along with his chopsticks skills. Go Yohan used to type with two thumbs, but now he uses his left thumb and right index finger. It’s like the eagle typing method.

If you look at it superficially, you might just think it’s a unique habit, but if you look closely, you can see that something is awkward. It’s the same with laptops. Go Yohan’s left hand uses the correct method, and his right hand uses the eagle typing method. The only thing that doesn’t change is the way he holds a pen. To be exact, only the postures that don’t use the middle, ring, and pinky fingers are the same. That doesn’t mean that those fingers don’t move at all. At that time, Go Yohan said that the reason he felt pain was because his nerves weren’t all dead. A case that was both lucky and unlucky. That was Go Yohan.

“It’s all done. You have to ignore all the calls from now on. Got it?”

“I have to do a project with Kang Suhyun.”

“Ignore it. Just send the file and pretend you don’t know.”

“Do you think such a trivial trick will work?”

“Even if it doesn’t work, just ignore it. From what I saw yesterday, he’s the type who will shut his mouth if you beat him up a few times.”

“Say something that makes sense.”

I shook my head at his absurd words and snatched my phone away. Go Yohan pouted and just stared at my phone as it moved away. But, I didn’t really intend to continue the contact either. After all, I’m just bait, and there will only be fishermen full of the real purpose, Go Yohan.

I stared at the profile screen that looked like it was really used by someone working in a rural village and had a light question. It was a really useless question.

“But are Cheongsong apples 20,000 won?”

“How would I know? I don’t like apples.”

“……”

But why apples of all things? While I was dumbfounded, the alarm rang at a perfect timing. When I looked at the screen, Go Yohan quickly stuck close to my side.

Surprisingly, the sender was Kang Suhyun. I didn’t know if I should say I was lucky or unlucky.

「Why are Cheongsong honey apples so cheap? Are they fallen apples? Do you deliver to Seoul?」

“……”

“See, he’s falling for it.”

Go Yohan’s fingers were trembling as he let out a snicker.

“You find it funny.”

But my voice faltered as I rebuked him, so I hurriedly bit down on my lips. The hand holding my phone was also shaking. Is Kang Suhyun an idiot? The conversation we had a few days ago is right there above. As if to match my thoughts, she sent messages in quick succession.

「OMG it was Jun」

「Does your family run an orchard?」

“Hey, you’re not even worth replying to.”

“True.”

He agreed and swiped the message away. I stared at my phone as it went dark, and suddenly, I burst out in dissatisfaction. Thinking about it, I was getting angry. Why do I have to be the only one suffering like this? And I also wanted to find out the truth that had been bothering me all along. I have every right to see Go Yohan’s contacts too. I glared and held out my hand, just like Go Yohan had done a moment ago.

“Give me yours too.”

At my demand, Go Yohan looked at me with a questioning face, then finally said, “Ah!” and rummaged through his pockets.

“My phone? Here.”

“Huh? Uh, uh… that.”

But why is he giving it to me so confidently? Suppressing my uneasy feeling, I grabbed the phone. And as I tried to take it, I only managed to pull it; it didn’t come into my hand. Go Yohan’s fingertips, gripping the phone tightly with me, were white.

“……”

“……”

I narrowed my eyes and looked at Go Yohan. At that attitude, Go Yohan gave an awkward smile and released his hand.

“No, I’m just not fully awake yet.”

“Yesterday, you said you were drunk.”

“I’m not really in my right mind about anything.”

“……”

He’s right, so I can’t argue…

He scratched his head and unlocked the phone. After unlocking it, I realized I had made a mistake. It was as good as telling him outright how I had secretly seen Go Yohan’s secrets. Did Go Yohan look at me with this feeling when he unlocked the password earlier?

“……”

“……”

We looked at each other, sizing each other up, then fell silent. Honestly, he should have noticed by now, but I thought it was Go Yohan’s intention not to erase my fingerprint until now. Besides, I tell myself that there’s no need to lie now. And I pressed the messenger app and was shocked.

“……A thousand people?”

I thought I must have misread a hundred, so I blinked and looked again. The number didn’t change. Moreover, the number of accumulated conversations was ‘999+’. Is this the truth? Or am I dreaming right now? He said he had no friends. Then what is this enormous number? I can’t even trust my own eyes anymore, so I looked up and saw Go Yohan speaking sternly, seriously, and resolutely.

“They’re Plus Friends.”

“……What’s that?”

“Like restaurants or franchises.”

“……Are Moon Gi-young and Kim Hak-min the names of restaurants and franchises?”

“Those bastards aren’t all my friends.”

I don’t believe you. How much have I been deceived by you? My eyes narrowed even more with a sense of injustice.

“Then give me proof. Proof that they’re not your friends.”

“That’s easy.”

He reached out so easily and took the phone back. I opened my mouth, watching the phone being snatched away in vain. Damn it, it must be nice to have long arms. With a grumbling heart, I didn’t miss Go Yohan’s back as he got up from the sofa and glared at him.

Go Yohan didn’t hesitate and strode into the kitchen connected to the living room and threw the phone into the sink. Then, he turned on the faucet and let the water run. With a refreshing sound, the stream of water fell onto Go Yohan’s phone. My slightly opened mouth gradually widened. Because of that shocking situation.

“Hey, what are you doing…”

“Just a moment.”

Go Yohan wiped his nose with his finger and went into his room to bring his laptop and external hard drive. And even a few USBs. Then, he poured them all into the sink under the sink with a truly nonchalant expression. I was at a loss for words.

“Hey, why are you putting that there…!”

“I can’t even back up my contacts now. It’s completely over with those guys I don’t even know.”

Go Yohan, who threw out such a clear sentence, smiled, crinkling his eyes.

“You believe me, right? I didn’t lie, did I?”

“……”

So, in his mind, these are connections he can throw away in a second. My strength drained away, and I slumped. What kind of guy is he?

“Ah, right.”

But suddenly, Go Yohan’s face turned pale with fear. His already cold-looking face turned white. Like pale snow falling on a desolate plain with nothing on it. Seeing that clear change, I suddenly became uneasy.

“Why, what’s wrong?”

Go Yohan stood there blankly, unable to even touch the sink, and said,

“…I didn’t submit my assignment.”

“You don’t mean the report you used to write?”

“Yeah.”

Go Yohan’s expression grew paler and paler. Accordingly, my mind also turned pale.

“You didn’t back it up?”

“I just… did it on the USB.”

“Wh, when is the deadline for submission?”

“Tonight.”

“……”

“My Father is going to kill me.”

I finally understood. The reason why Go Yohan’s face turned pale,

“……”

There are only two people to whom Go Yohan bows his head. His Father and me. I wonder why he does that to me, but unfortunately, Go Yohan was still living in an unhappy family. At times like this, I can’t help but think about Go Yohan’s life. Go Yohan, who lies but doesn’t lie. Go Yohan, who heartlessly throws a thousand people into the water without a moment’s hesitation, and Go Yohan, who turns pale.

That’s the Go Yohan that Go Yohan’s Father created. Go Yohan still hasn’t escaped from the trap.

“Yohan.”

At my call, Go Yohan, who was staring blankly at the sink while sweating, raised his head. Despair can be seen in his transparent eyes. I had to know.

After all, Go Yohan is only twenty years old.

We are still too young to solve everything and too clumsy to accept it.

But I owe Go Yohan a debt. I also knew that he had been constantly anxious because he had suddenly taken a leave of absence for a semester due to illness.

I also knew the cause. The sound of heavy leather shoes still hasn’t left my head. In any scene, in any situation, Go Yohan’s Father exerted too much presence. Perhaps the biggest god in Go Yohan’s life is his Father, not me. The despair that settled in his pale eyes makes my debt even heavier.

“Let’s rewrite it with my laptop. There’s plenty of time until tonight.”

I forced the corners of my lips up into a bright smile. At least, there’s no need for me to make Go Yohan even more anxious. Maybe there won’t be that much time. Still, if we work hard, we might be able to make it just in time. It’s still morning. I shook off the heavy feeling and got up.

But the moment I stood up, my pants slipped down. Shit, I knew this would happen. Go Yohan, damn it. He should think about his size. Ah, damn it. I grabbed the slipped waistband in embarrassment. My face flushed. I didn’t even need to look in the mirror to know how pathetic I must look.

“……”

Go Yohan looked at me with a blank expression, then slowly covered his mouth with his palm.

“Ahem.”

The sound of a struggling breath was hidden inside his palm.

“……”

That bastard is laughing right now. I bit my lip and lowered my head. Damn it, I grabbed my head and hurriedly picked up the pants and underwear that had fallen on the floor.

“If you’re going to do it, come into the room or don’t.”

Even my voice faltered because I was so embarrassed. Damn it. I cursed inwardly and ran into my room, slamming the door shut. Only a few seconds had passed when Go Yohan’s laughter burst out from the other side of the door. I cursed again and leaned against the door with a reddened face and thought.

Yeah, it’s enough if Go Yohan is laughing.