1 – Silent Report (Side Story 2.1)

Go Yohan’s Report

An unseasonal monsoon had begun. Mud splattered on my white sneakers. Water that should have flowed into the sewer was stagnating and rotting in irregularly pitted puddles. It was the trace left by asphalt that had been patched up several times without a plan.

The new neighborhood I moved to smelled like dead fish. The smell of ice made from tap water, Freon gas, and an old sea. The ‘modern apartment’ built above karaoke rooms, old barbershops, and a brothel was the lower class wearing a used luxury coat.

The neighborhood, which had been quiet throughout the vacation, regained its heat as soon as the semester started. In front of the room salons, located 15 minutes from school and 5 minutes from home, the frequency with which older women came out to the street to smoke increased. Faces that were hard to encounter even once a week during vacation, I now see twice a day. When going to school and when coming from school.

Today, that woman was watching the rainy scene in front of the sign, crushing ramen and eating it. She stared at me, waiting for the green light at the crosswalk, and then spread out all ten fingers, and I pretended not to see and went into the alley.

「Come out to the supermarket.」

It was to deliver the umbrella to Go Yohan as soon as possible.

“What am I, someone who goes when you tell me to go, and comes when you tell me to come?”

Does he think I’m his servant? Go Yohan didn’t carry a bag, a pencil case, or even an umbrella on rainy days, as if to show me. And when it rains, he always calls me, no matter where he is.

“Annoying…”

I’m an idiot for always walking Go Yohan home, even though I only say it’s annoying.

Muddy water seeping into my sneakers filled the soles of my feet. With each step, water and air escaped between the sneakers. Passing by Peppermint Candy, Marriage Bond, and Yew Motel, I saw a yellow car notice. Below the notice, which was covered in rust, was a sewer that was corroded brown on the inside.

If it’s a sewer, the end should be corroded, so why is the inside corroded? I once heard a ghost story about this, but it was a childish thought that an elementary school student would come up with, so I stopped trying to recall it.

Rain pouring like hail pounded the umbrella. The sound of the barbershop sign turning also echoed. The umbrella in my left hand faced the sky, and the umbrella in my right hand tapped the ground and dragged along.

A green cloth roof, with ‘Supermarket’ and ‘Cigarettes’ written on it.

Go Yohan was in between.

Go Yohan showed me his palm and quickly folded and unfolded his fingers one by one in reverse order. And at the end of those fingers, there was a familiar but unfamiliar cigarette butt hanging. I stopped breathing from that moment.

The time, space, and faint emotions that surrounded us gradually began to fill our world, and many things changed. For the record, Go Yohan lost his religion and deviated from the path of righteousness.

Annoying.

Anyway, Go Yohan only does things that catch my eye. Whatever it is.

“You came-e?”

The bright eyes I met shone sharply. He always has such a fierce face. Those long, incongruous eyelashes on that fierce face decorated that sharpness so precariously and splendidly. The gap of the whites of his eyes visible below his pupils too. I felt itchy to the top of my head, so I pretended to fold my umbrella and avoided his gaze. Go Yohan is always dangerous.

“I got soaked because you were late.”

Go Yohan didn’t like that I wasn’t looking at him, so he tapped my cheek as if knocking with the hand that wasn’t smoking. I felt dizzy from the soap scent coming from behind. Am I crazy?

“I know.”

“Jun-ah, don’t just say you know, I got soaked.”

Go Yohan stretched out his words and held out both arms. Water droplets flowed from the white T-shirt, which revealed his sharp shoulders more clearly because it was a little big. What’s with him grinning like a soaked rat? I looked at Go Yohan’s hand, which was wet and reflecting light.

I saw the cigarette.

Go Yohan holds a cigarette in a unique way. Like changed chopsticks. Watching the cigarette nestled between Go Yohan’s fifth and fourth fingers on his right hand, I quietly swallowed.

“I told you to take an umbrella this morning. That it was going to rain.”

“Jun-ah, where are you looking?”

Go Yohan raised the corners of his mouth at my words. And deliberately, as if to show off, he put the cigarette between his fifth and fourth fingers in his mouth. The bent wrist was very uncomfortable to look at. This time, I only looked at somewhere on Go Yohan’s collarbone, avoiding the cigarette butt.

“I just looked ahead.”

Go Yohan deeply inhaled the smoke until his cheeks were sunken, and exhaled the smoke with a sneer. Then, he finally answered my warning, which he had nonchalantly ignored.

“I have to leave it like this for you to come pick me up.”

“Please stop calling me so much. I’m busy.”

“Of course you’re busy. What kind of exam does your lecture have that’s so fucked up?”

“Look who’s talking. Don’t you have any? You’re also in a busy department.”

“They told me to enjoy the privileges of a freshman.”

Go Yohan closed his eyes and inhaled the smoke deeply, then opened one eye. Both eyebrows rose high and then sank. And his sharp eyes curved deeply like a crescent moon in the middle of the night. ‘Idiot.’ That was the answer.

“…What kind of nerve is that.”

I tapped the ground with the unfolded umbrella and said bluntly.

Because of his unique way of smoking, Go Yohan covered his face with his fingers every time he inhaled the smoke. His closely trimmed fingernails scratched his forehead, which was hidden between his bangs. Then, he turned his head outward, and then slightly lowered his hand and exhaled a long stream of smoke. The gray smoke was swallowed by the heavy rain.

“Jun-ah.”

“……”

“Jun.”

I just watched Go Yohan, who called my name several times as if demanding an answer. Go Yohan didn’t put the cigarette back in his mouth and put his lips between his awkwardly spread fourth finger and middle finger. The cigarette filter was precariously hanging below Go Yohan’s chin. The filter is all burned out, isn’t he going to smoke it? I frowned, holding my breath at the strong smell of cigarettes.

“You’re so oblivious.”

Go Yohan chuckled lowly and continued.

“I’m doing this all to get your attention. You have to lead me to a place that’s not wrong.”

Ju-un will tell me the way in detail for me. Go Yohan, who exactly imitated the tone from the Bible, frowned and smiled. He must think it’s funny. I didn’t unfold my frowning face in the end.

“Why is a guy who wants to go to heaven smoking?”

“What, can’t you go to heaven if you smoke? Then half the world would go to hell.”

“…You didn’t used to smoke. You.”

A tone full of dissatisfaction popped out without me realizing it. I didn’t particularly want to correct it. Is it because I’m in front of Go Yohan, who knows that my personality is quirky and strange, or is it just because I’m in front of Go Yohan? I was often crookedly honest.

And Go Yohan looked at me with a subtly and secretly satisfied look whenever I showed this attitude. He knows that I let my guard down only in front of him. How annoying.

“That’s right.”

But why? I deliberately coughed loudly to give Go Yohan a hint. Go Yohan took a step back, but he didn’t put out the fire.

“But you know, people’s beliefs change depending on who they believe in. Right?”

“What?”

Go Yohan put the filter back in his mouth and sucked deeply. The butt hanging on the end of his little finger looked precarious. And he inhales the smoke, lowers his eyes, and stares intently at something. I naturally followed his gaze and lowered my head. Shit. I hurriedly turned my body slightly to the side.

Gray smoke leaked out from between Go Yohan’s lips, following the sound of laughter that couldn’t even be heard.

“…Hey.”

“What can I do if you’re turned on by a cigarette-smoking trash. I have to yield.”

“What, ciga, cigarette? Me?”

“Not?”

“Not at all.”

“Really? Why?”

Go Yohan asked with pure curiosity and raised his fingers again to put his lips on the filter. Rather, I was the one who was embarrassed there. Isn’t it obvious? I looked at Go Yohan uncomfortably, and then forced myself to open my mouth at Go Yohan’s appearance, who was blinking his eyes and urging me to answer.

“It’s bad for your health…”

“Wow, Jun-ah.”

Ju-nah. The lips that were touching the filter spat out the pronunciation inaccurately.

“You’re so wholesome?”

Go Yohan chewed on the filter. Thanks to that, the corners of his mouth went up as if sneering. No, looking at his eyes, it seems like he’s sneering. Haha. Go Yohan, who exhaled a faint stream of smoke, continued.

“Jun must really love me. He’s worried about every little thing.”

“Then…”

Then wouldn’t I? I’m even doing things that I’ve decided never to do in my life. For that rotten bastard.

I stopped talking and scratched my head roughly. I spread my legs for that rotten bastard, and even took that ridiculously big dick. You son of a bitch. This bastard needs to get fucked by his own dick. That’s how he’ll know how close to death it feels.

“Not to that extent.”

I spat out a brazen lie out of spite, and Go Yohan roughly pulled the filter out of his mouth. The lips that had been holding the filter were slightly pulled, revealing the red flesh inside. Eyes like snakes hiding in the mud and aiming for the moment gradually cooled down more coldly. This time, Go Yohan put his dry lips between his middle and index fingers. The black dot heavily embedded between the bright pupils stares at me intently.

“Not to that extent?”

“……Yeah.”

“Oh- really?”

It was a playful question, but it was an uncomfortable tone to hear. A sharp core was embedded in the words. The humidity born from the pouring rain came into my clothes and soaked me. And the black dots that still obsessively look at me too. Go Yohan slowly tilted his head back with his fingers close to his lips.

“…Hey.”

Go Yohan reached out and pressed my lower lip with his unmoving index and middle fingers. Hey. At the same time as he spat out those words, Go Yohan’s fingers entered my mouth violently. This, this crazy-. I glared at Go Yohan and bit his finger weakly. Go Yohan’s finger tasted like alcohol. Go Yohan spread his fingers with clumsy force and opened my lips.

“Ha-i-ah.”

I tried to bite Go Yohan’s finger again to tell him to get lost, but Go Yohan pulled his hand out with such ease. Only the tip of his finger was caught on my lips. He really uses his body freely and amazingly. Or was my love, which couldn’t hurt Go Yohan, greater than Go Yohan’s playfulness?

Anyway, idiot Kang Jun. In the end, in front of the old supermarket, I ended up awkwardly opening my lips because of Go Yohan.

Go Yohan, who grabbed my chin with his left hand, pressed my cheek hard with his fingers. His mouth was still smiling like a prankster, but his pupils were black and foggy, as if covered in fog. Looking at me with those black eyes, he said this.

“Jun-ah.”

“Ah.”

“Is it a joke?”

Then he put the filter he was biting in my mouth. The only kind thing was that he closed my mouth by putting it on my lips rather than putting it in my mouth. And Go Yohan took his hand out of my lips. I coughed lightly at the subtle rough scent coming in.

Go Yohan seemed satisfied with my appearance of coughing lightly. Because he smiled very contentedly.

“You’re going to get in trouble, really.”

Then he put his lips back between his index and middle fingers. Before opening his mouth wide in that state, he looked at me and said.

“Know it well. Not that kind of thing, I like this kind of joke.”

What is that.

No, it’s not. I didn’t have to ask. Because Go Yohan stuck out his tongue while looking down at me. A red tongue licked the light flesh connecting the index and middle fingers in a sticky way. What are you doing. Without a gap, Go Yohan chased me with his eyes and shoved the thin flesh he was licking into his mouth.

I knew it at once when I saw Go Yohan sucking on the thin flesh connecting his index and middle fingers.

This crazy bastard… Even while my body was writhing in pain from the constant smoke coming in, I couldn’t close my eyes because I was captivated by Go Yohan’s gaze. A lascivious gaze swept near my neck, and I heard a disgusting sound that made me want to cover my ears. The sound of dry lips, saliva, and fingers mixing.

At the same time, my core tickled.

“……”

I straightened my bent body, which was spitting out hiccups and similar small coughs. To hide my trembling body from excitement, I raised my head and spat the cigarette hanging on my lips on the floor.

The half-burned butt rolled on the floor and fell into the muddy water and was submerged. Go Yohan looked at the dying butt and smiled with his eyes long, then made a ‘pop’ sound and took his lips off. A transparent thread stretched long between his index and middle fingers. I clenched and unfolded the hand hidden in my sleeve tightly. A voice that was pressed and compressed under my vocal cords came out in front of me.

“I want you to suck this, like this.”

“I won’t be licking between your fingers.”

That’s a lie. In fact, I think I’ll definitely lick it someday. Kang Jun is secretly horny. He’ll put those long fingers in his mouth, bite them, suck them, and do all sorts of things. However, I didn’t bother to admit it because Go Yohan was resentful and annoying.

“Fingers, Jun-ah. Why lick fingers for no reason.”

“Then why did you do that?”

“It’s a preliminary explanation. From now on, what you have to do is not lick fingers.”

Go Yohan’s wet hand slowly went down. His long fingers touched the jeans, which were wetter than usual due to the rain. The fingers hovering in the air gently drew a circle. No way. My mind went blank. It can’t be. No way.

And Go Yohan still betrayed my expectations mercilessly. The words he said while stroking the zipper part that protruded with his fingers were truly shocking.

“You have to suck here.”

“Are you crazy?”

“Am I crazy? You’re half crazy when you’re in love.”

Yeah, but why are you saying that so confidently?

“I love you a lot.”

His gloomy face pouts his lower lip. Crazy, is he acting cute or what. I shook my head firmly.

“Don’t change the subject. And, my mouth will definitely be torn. Your… fuck.”

“Ah-, was that the problem? I mean. Honestly, I’m not that big.”

“Not that big? Are you crazy? Are you, are you kidding me?”

“Try to make an effort before giving up. Don’t you have any tenacity?”

Go Yohan looked down at me with pitiful eyes. This bastard is for real. I clenched my fist, which was filling with heat, violently.

When Go Yohan took off his school uniform, the presence of his lower body became even more splendid. Even if he wore slightly loose jeans like that, the area where he zipped up was always subtly thick. So, there was always a curve there. Even every time he changed his posture, I could witness that place bulging and disappearing. At this point, I was so scared by the pressure that my head turned pale.

I don’t know what would have happened if it had been cut in half here. I was willing to do that much. While I was thinking that, Go Yohan said in a serious voice as if he had read my thoughts.

“You’re really too much. Did I want to be born like this? But I can’t reduce the size. I’ve never even heard of a surgery to reduce my dick in my life.”

“…Please don’t say explicit words in public.”

“Don’t be so scared. There’s no one on the street anyway.”

“The store owner is there!”

“Baldy? He’s sitting at the counter reading erotic novels.”

“Hey, that person is older than your Father.”

“Looking at the level of writing he’s reading, I think I can talk to him informally?”

Go Yohan poked his left forehead with his long fingers. Thanks to that, his slightly wet and slightly curly hair shook. He twisted his hair with his fingers, puffed up his thin cheeks, and spat out the wind. The sound of his lips trembling made his puffed cheeks sink again.

“Just get used to it. Just think of eating a baguette with your ass. Whether it’s going into your upper mouth or lower mouth, it’s the same thing going into your body anyway.”

“……”

Is this guy really crazy?

How should I deal with this logic? I squinted and moved my eyebrows, but I couldn’t think of a solution. After all, the best way to end an argument seems to be to make the other person not know what to say. That’s exactly what Go Yohan did.

“Then don’t increase the size. Food doesn’t suddenly increase in size.”

“You’re asking for a difficult request.”

Go Yohan, who licked his lips and clicked his tongue, put his finger on the back of my hand holding the umbrella. Then he slowly tickled down and shoved his finger between my fingers. Damn it. The hand that was twisting wet with rain.

As his stiff fingers unfolded, Go Yohan snatched the tilting umbrella before it lost its support. Then, as naturally as flowing water, he opened it. The thin wire stood firm, making a cool sound. The falling raindrops bounced off the strongly spread umbrella and fell to the ground with a patter. Watching this, Go Yohan wore a proud smile.

“See, even umbrellas stand when you push them. How can you stop the obvious laws of nature, Jun-ah.”

What kind of flow is this? While I was flustered, Go Yohan wrinkled his nose and smiled.

“Why are you looking at me like that? Am I that handsome?”

Come to think of it. There are days when Go Yohan’s gloomy face stands out more. Rainy days were especially like that. I conscientiously declare it. Go Yohan is unusually handsome on rainy days. Especially when he’s wet in the rain, he exudes a unique atmosphere. Go Yohan’s face was more vintage than affluent, but sometimes that impoverished atmosphere is eye-catching.

No. My mouth, which was about to say that, didn’t move as if it had frozen. My lips hovered in the air a few times before finally spitting out the words that had been sleeping deep in my heart.

“Yeah.”

And my pride came out with it.

“You’re usually just okay, but you’re kind of… today.”

What am I saying? What did I just say? I bit my lip tightly. I definitely looked pathetic just now. It’s clear I looked pathetic. Because Go Yohan laughed, sharply lifting his chin with his palm.

“Ah, so I’m usually just okay?”

“Just so-so.”

“Just so-so?”

I heard laughter repeated several times, briefly.

Suddenly, the world I was looking at was covered by a black umbrella. The umbrella, which had been tilted diagonally, gradually lowered, blocking my view. It was Go Yohan who did it.

I looked at Go Yohan with questioning eyes. But it was already too late. Go Yohan lowered his eyelashes and brought his face close to mine.

But I’m strange too. I should just avoid it.

“Jun-ah.”

“……”

I can’t avoid it. In fact, I didn’t even have the slightest intention of avoiding it from the start.

Go Yohan’s breath touched right next to my lips. This is outside, an old world, and right across the street is a street full of drinking and dancing. The floor was covered with torn flyers, and both my and Go Yohan’s sneakers were soaked as if they had been immersed in water. And me too. I also weakly closed my wetting eyes.

“Okay.”

It was a very random remark. An awkward remark even to my own ears.

But at my answer, Go Yohan gently opened his eyes. That was our last eye contact. And probably my lips touched first.

“……”

There was no smell of cigarettes on our touching lips. Only a rough fragrance remained, like a trace. Amazing. I raised my hand and slowly stroked Go Yohan’s cheek. As I did, I pushed Go Yohan towards the window, where green stickers were plastered all over, obscuring the view outside.

My slightly opened eyes scanned the empty street. Ironically, my hand didn’t let go of Go Yohan. As soon as my fingerprints touched his thin skin, Go Yohan’s skin briefly tightened and then relaxed.

It stung. It was because Go Yohan’s front teeth bit my upper lip. So I quickly bit Go Yohan’s tongue, which was gently entering.

“Ah-ha.”

I’m doing it to hurt him. When I raised my eyelids, I saw Go Yohan’s pupils right in front of my eyes. When did he open his eyes? Then he must have seen me looking around the store and the street in such a pathetic way. Shit.

I wrinkled my nose and closed one eye. Like a wink. Then I grabbed Go Yohan by the collar. After swallowing Go Yohan’s quickly falling lips, I released him as if throwing him away.

I clicked my tongue at Go Yohan, who was looking at me with a dumbfounded expression, like calling a dog. Huh. Go Yohan let out a puff of air at my actions. Did you see that? I thrust my raised nose at Go Yohan. Then, in the same position as I was looking straight at Go Yohan, I only moved my hand. To snatch the already opened umbrella.

“This is mine.”

My umbrella snatching operation ended smoothly. I slung the umbrella I had already taken over my shoulder and threw the unopened umbrella at Go Yohan. Go Yohan simply caught it with his left hand. He’s really unlucky.

“That’s yours.”

“Is it?”

“Yeah.”

Go Yohan scanned the new umbrella. He looked like he didn’t like it at all. It’s a new umbrella. What’s wrong with it? Just as I was about to ask, Go Yohan rubbed near his lips with his finger and said.

“I must have worked really hard to erect Jun-i’s.”

Umbrellas are usually opened, aren’t they? Amidst the sound of the pouring rain, I recalled Go Yohan’s habit of speech. He’s still the same even as he gets older. And the fact that I secretly like that habit is still the same. I’m getting older too, but I’m still the same.

“You almost erected mine.”

I shook my head slightly and waved my hand in the air. There’s no need to think deeply. Hmm.

“Let’s go home.”

The monsoon season was said to be getting longer.

The rain became heavier as we returned. The rain, which had been falling enough to soak our pants, poured down as if to break the windows. By the time we barely reached the inside of the apartment, both Go Yohan and I were completely soaked.

Go Yohan and I couldn’t say anything until we reached the front of the entrance. But Go Yohan and I in the mirror secretly made eye contact. Sensual breaths mixed, and the rough smell of soap tickled me. Why does Go Yohan smell clean even when he smokes? That was the thought I had while staring at Go Yohan reflected in the mirror.

A tickling sensation gently touched my neck.

“……?”

A small shiver rising from below stiffened my body. Go Yohan reflected in the mirror was holding my collar with his finger. My fine hairs stood on end. I couldn’t bring myself to turn my head and just looked at the hallway and said.

“……Why?”

“Ah.”

Go Yohan trailed off before continuing.

“Because your collar was folded.”

Then he swept the back of my neck to the side with his wet middle finger. That small gesture captivated me. I couldn’t move an inch, but my mouth was still alive, and I said a little stiffly.

“I checked before I came out.”

“It must have folded while you were running.”

“……”

“Aren’t you going to say thank you?”

His finger gently scratched the back of my closely cropped head. The tickling sensation went down from my neck. I suppressed my stuffy breath and lowered my head deeply.

“Thank you.”

My footsteps were heading towards the door.

“That’s a lie.”

“……What is.”

“About the collar. It wasn’t actually folded.”

“……”

“I was teasing you. You idiot.”

Is he kidding me? Seriously. Only then did I turn around and glare at Go Yohan. And in an instant, I swallowed hard. I could see his pale skin through Go Yohan’s soaking wet clothes. At the same time, my center ached.

I shouldn’t have looked.

Kang Jun is really crazy. I suppressed the urge to hit my head with my fist and quickly opened the front door. As soon as I opened the door, I crammed only my body into the house before Go Yohan could even enter and closed it again. After a long silence, I heard a knock on the front door.

Knock-knock.

Go Yohan’s broad shoulders were faintly visible on the other side of the glass.

As soon as the sensor light turned on, I hurriedly ran into my room. My wet feet were slippery. The sticky moisture stuck to my feet and followed me. The unpleasantness hidden under my feet only hid like a shadow, but did not disappear.

But I straightened my body as much as possible like someone who was unaffected and entered the door. Contrary to that triumphant attitude, I took a long breath as soon as I entered the room.

I leaned my ear against the door. I heard the sound of a door closing somewhere far away. Only then did I collapse with my shoulders against the door.

“Shit.”

A guilty conscience needs no accuser. Because I had lewd thoughts while looking at Go Yohan. I feel a little sorry for Go Yohan. But what can I do? I’m such a suspicious and pathetic guy.

Feeling relieved, a new sight caught my eye. For example, crumpled papers scattered on the desk.

“So damn messy.”

I sighed and got up again, snatching the paper trash scattered on the desk. And I despaired as I looked at the overflowing trash can. If I had known this would happen, I would have asked Auntie to clean my room too.

No, that won’t do. What if she finds traces of me sleeping with Go Yohan? What if she finds a condom?

“……”

Ah, I’m really a Lecher. While pretending not to be with Go Yohan, I ended up leaving the room cleaning, which I’m not even good at, to my own responsibility. In return, I slept with Go Yohan. Actually, I’ve tried to live cleanly in my own way, but I often forget the very concept of having to organize something. I really am a piece of unsorted household waste.

Go Yohan’s words from the past came back to me vividly.

……Go Yohan is better than me. He scolds me for my patheticness. As if venting my anger, I crammed the paper into the bag in the trash can.

I hit my head hard with my palm. After emptying my head like that, I crammed more paper onto the overflowing bag. After clearing a few piles of paper on the desk, the bag overflowed. I scratched my forehead as I watched the paper falling out of the bag and onto the floor. Then I raised my head and looked at the silent door.

I probably stood there for about three minutes. After ending my unconscious worries, I bent down. Still looking at the door, I picked up the paper trash and stood up. Still, no sound came from outside.

I moved my feet forward several times, then backward, and grabbed the doorknob. Actually, I was also a bit resentful. This is my house. Whose face am I looking at? So I opened the door.

“Oh.”

And by chance, I awkwardly met eyes with Go Yohan, who was standing blankly in the kitchen. Moreover, Go Yohan was standing there with only the auxiliary light on. Furthermore, he didn’t seem to be eating or drinking anything in particular. My resentment didn’t stop. I asked shamelessly, pretending to be a really clean and pure person.

“What are you doing quietly? I thought you went into your room.”

“Um.”

Go Yohan seemed to be thinking about something, then slowly stroked the wall with his right index finger. It was a little while later that he continued.

“I was going to get a drink of water.”

“……The water purifier is on the opposite side.”

“That’s right. Indeed.”

Go Yohan just smiled awkwardly, making a blank sound.

“……”

“What about you? To throw away the trash?”

“Ah, yeah. It’s full.”

“Then, you’ll have to pass by here.”

“……I guess so.”

To get to the kitchenette, you have to go past the trash can that Auntie is in charge of. To use that trash can, you have to go through the kitchen first. And Go Yohan is at the entrance of the kitchen. Conclusion. I have to pass by Go Yohan.

The hand holding the pile of paper was getting stronger and stronger. I made a ‘ahem’ sound inside and stiffly raised my head as if nothing was wrong. Well, pretending to be shameless is the greatest talent I have. I walked towards the kitchenette like that.

As my steps got closer to Go Yohan, my heart beat faster and faster, making sharp and acute fragments like a hammer breaking my glass body, and it became as loud as piercing my ears.

“I’m going to pass by.”

Go Yohan said he was going to get a drink of water. He didn’t move at all as I approached. Rather, he subtly turned around and showed an attitude of entering my path. What is he trying to do? Tension grabbed the back of my neck.

While forcibly looking ahead, I vaguely saw Go Yohan’s expression out of my sight. He lowered his eyes and slowly and blatantly scanned me up and down. I felt a shame similar to being completely naked. It was the moment when a sense of crisis caressed my ankle.

“Shall I help you?”

A voice full of suppressed emotion spoke to me. Crazy.

“No, it’s okay.”

I shook my head as if I didn’t feel any atmosphere and smiled awkwardly. I turned stiffly and entered the kitchenette. For some reason, I felt like I had less spirit than I did in high school. When I was younger, I think I showed off my bravado in this kind of atmosphere. Rather, it became more uncomfortable after mixing bodies.

So, it’s the difference between a guy who only vaguely imagined it and a guy who actually did it.

Even after confirming that the door was definitely closed, I felt uneasy. It felt like Go Yohan was sticking to my back. I felt like he had followed me. Still, I felt relieved as I looked at the door that wouldn’t open. Go Yohan must have gone to get a drink of water since I left. Feeling relieved like that, I was about to throw the paper in the place where I had piled up the trash.

……But, my hand suddenly stopped.

‘Shall I help you?’

It’s a question that has already passed. But I tried to ignore it in front of him and ended up answering in a place where no one was.

“Helping me throw away just one bag.”

And I moved my stopped hand again.

I looked at the trash can with all sorts of mixed trash. I flicked my fingertips without realizing it at the tension that made it seem like something was about to happen. After staring at the paper full of traces of spilled coffee for a long time, I turned my body. I was about to go back to the kitchen like that, but I stopped abruptly in front of the door.

I wonder if Go Yohan is still waiting.

It’s really useless. I was anxiously worried for such a useless reason. It doesn’t matter if he’s outside or not. Even knowing that, Go Yohan’s presence makes people uncomfortable. And I guarantee that there isn’t a single person I know who is comfortable with Go Yohan. Furthermore, I’m having such lewd thoughts about Go Yohan.

Still, I can’t stay here forever. Besides, it would look more pathetic if I came in and didn’t go out. It would look even stranger. I clenched and unfolded my fingers tightly. My stiff fingers were placed on the sliding door handle. I mustered up courage and opened the door a nail’s width, but there was no one there.

“……”

A strange emotion grabbed my ankle. Was I disappointed? Did I think it was a relief? Sometimes I don’t know my own heart. Why has Kang Jun, who lived with only certainty even just a year ago, become like this?

I grabbed my hair tightly and strode into the room. It was a fairly calm gait. But after entering the room, I took off my clothes and underwear with slightly hurried movements and threw them on the floor. I thought I should at least splash cold water on my head.

“Please, let’s get a grip.”

I was being all giddy at a prank full of intentions to tease me. I lightly slapped my cheek with my palm. After that, I went into the shower room attached to the side of the room and turned on the water right away. But as soon as I turned on the faucet, the hot water that poured out of the showerhead attached to the wall violently hit my head and shoulders. Because of that, I couldn’t help but make a sound.

“Ah, hot!”

I quickly closed my mouth because it was too pathetic of a sound to spit out.

I ran my hand over the skin that had turned red as soon as it touched the water. I almost got burned. From earlier until now, the way I’ve been acting has been so childish and embarrassing that I could die. I lightly hit the tile with the top of my head. I thought it was a relief that no one saw it and carefully entered the pouring water this time.

I swept my soaking wet hair back and washed my face with the pouring water. Feeling the water hitting my face a little painfully, I felt like I was regaining my senses a little. It sounds like a waterfall falling. This isn’t a real waterfall, though. This time, I wiped the water flowing down my chin with my palm.

That’s when it happened.

I heard someone knocking on the door in the stream of water. No, I think I heard it.

“Who is it, Go Yohan?”

I asked who it was and realized the stupidity of my question and hurriedly changed it to a name. But there was no sound. Maybe I didn’t hear it properly because of the sound of the water? Or did I mishear the sound of the water falling?

I didn’t take my eyes off the door and slowly turned off the faucet. The violently falling water gradually became weak droplets and fell to the floor. A faint mist formed, and the sound of water droplets spread strangely in the tightly closed bathroom. I stood blankly under the showerhead like that, but there was still no answer.

“Go Yohan, is that you?”

I shouted Go Yohan’s name, wondering if it was him. And suddenly a small question popped into my head.

But did I lock the door when I came in?

“……”

The nerves that had been taut like a drawn thread finally pulled the trigger. It was probably instinct. Like the senses that weak prey animals develop to avoid predators.

I carefully silenced my footsteps and came out of the shower booth. Then, I almost lost my balance because of my wet feet. There was no time to hesitate, thinking, ‘Surely not, it can’t be.’ I desperately reached out to get there as quickly as possible and locked the door. It was an instantaneous event.

Huff-. It wasn’t something that would drain my stamina, but my rapid breathing came out.

And as my breathing calmed down, I felt embarrassed and my face flushed. Only then did I realize how paranoid I had been acting.

He gave a bitter smile. He didn’t know when this disease called sensitivity would ever be cured. Was this also part of his nature? Feeling the chill in his body temperature due to the cold air, he shivered slightly. It was at that moment, as he was about to release the doorknob again.

Creak.

The doorknob he was lightly holding was turning, leaving behind only the slightest noise.

“…….”

His body stiffened like a stone statue in an instant. It was such a cautious speed that he wouldn’t have noticed if he hadn’t been touching it. The small movement tickled the flesh of his fingertip, the protruding bit of flesh.

He couldn’t even blink.

Just as he slowly removed his trembling hand from the doorknob across the way, careful not to make it obvious, the doorknob turned all the way with a thunk and returned to its original position.

And after that, it was silent.

He just stood there getting rained on for a long time. He thought he might as well become a new Buddha enlightened under a waterfall, and then he turned off the water. His body was already swollen. His skin was also flushed red. Suddenly, he felt dizzy and grabbed his head. He believed that the elevated temperature of every patch of skin he touched was because he had been under the hot water for too long.

Go Yohan during sex drives people almost to death. He doesn’t listen to the word “no,” and he’s never heard the word “stop.” He probably won’t be able to erase that night for the rest of his life.

“Please stop thinking about it. You stupid bastard…….”

He berated himself, tearing at his wet hair, but it was all in vain. Because Kang Jun inside him was crying and getting excited while impaled by Go Yohan.

‘Please, please, now, now, st-stop. Stop it. I beg, I b-beg you. Please…….’

It was a night when he had to give up everything after fainting from exhaustion from crying, and realizing that his body was still accepting Yohan even after waking up with a hazy mind. In the end, he had to bury his face in the blanket he had gathered with his hands. He couldn’t put any more strength into his body, so he was afraid that a disgusting moan would come from his slackened mouth.

And yet, he often has vivid dreams of that night. And after having those dreams, he had to face the sight of his pants being wet.

‘Jun-ah, please?’

‘…….’

Because Yohan’s words echoed in his head when he desperately nodded and clenched his fist tightly.

‘I can’t pull out unless you relax your hole.’

Who was the one who didn’t let go until the end, forcibly inserting and removing while his body was collapsed on the bed, unable to even raise his knees? Why was he passing the responsibility on to him? He could feel all the inner flesh following along every time Yohan slowly pulled out his Penis, his bottom was so relaxed.

‘Jun-ah, do you love me a lot?’

‘……Ugh, yes. Yes. I love you. I love you. So please, please.’

At first, it was somewhat romantic, but the end was closer to wailing. I want to sleep. I want to wash. My stomach hurts so much, and my bottom feels all swollen. Yohan seemed to have gone crazy at the words he shouted, hoping he would just end it now. He smiled innocently, like a boy who had heard a love confession, and said this.

‘Then show me your face and do it. Okay?’

Fucking-. His firmly gripped waist was suddenly lifted, and the breath that had been buried in the blanket was quickly and violently released. Pieces of the blanket slipped through his fingers, and he saw the wall.

When he came to his senses, he was straddling Yohan’s legs and being fucked. His whole body shook every time Yohan thrust violently from below. He bit his lip and lowered his head because he couldn’t cover his face. Then Yohan would shove his Penis in so deeply that all the organs inside were pushed upwards.

‘Turn your head. Turn your head towards me. I want to see your face. Jun-ah.’

‘……Ugh, huu. Pl, please…….’

That’s how Yohan crushed him, who wanted to protect at least his manhood.

He clearly thought while shaking, ‘I’m never sleeping with Go Yohan again.’ Crazy, wasn’t Kang Jun the real garbage pervert?

He had thought about it before, but he had a seriously good recovery ability. So, what combined that recovery ability and the pervert inside him was the dream he had every night. And the feeling of blood rushing from below was definitely crazy. He hated this side of himself too.

“Please, you idiot.”

Let’s think about something depressing. Like the boring Professor’s face. He turned off the water and grabbed his gown. And for a long time, he thought of countless people and situations that would cool his heat most efficiently. Then a realistic problem came up.

Wouldn’t the most efficient way to cool his heat be an exam? Going overboard was enough with meeting Yohan. There were no Fs or failures in his life plan. As reality approached, the heat gradually subsided. Besides, he couldn’t stay here forever.

After making up his mind, he put on his gown and turned the doorknob. The door opened with the sound of the latch springing up.

He carefully opened the door, checked that no one was there, and quickly locked the door. Only when he saw the tightly locked latch did he feel at ease. Then, without a break, he quickly found his clothes and changed. It was a goal he had come up with to forget his immorality, but once the goal of the exam came up, another anxiety struck.

He really didn’t do a final check. He went crazy again because of Yohan. He was crazy. He had to organize the pop quiz for tomorrow, even now. It was said to be heavily reflected in the grades. He had already memorized everything, but you never know. He would feel relieved if he just lightly skimmed through the lectures he had listened to.

“The exam is from 9 a.m. tomorrow…… I can get some sleep if I just do it for four hours.”

He rubbed his forehead hard with his palm. He stopped the drowsy, strange energy that was pouring out in that way and pulled up a chair.

“Ugh.”

A short yawn came out involuntarily. He lowered his hand that was pressing on his forehead, covered his mouth, sat down, and opened his book. Now he just had to organize it. As soon as he sat at his desk again, immoral fantasies exploded like fireworks. What was he supposed to do? He stared at the white paper filled with dense writing and said to himself as if making a resolution.

“You’re going to graduate school. You can’t be like this.”

After muttering that several times, he grabbed his forehead with his hand and forcibly read all the notes he had written down. But realistic thoughts had already disappeared like mayflies that briefly bloomed and died. It was all because of the small footsteps he heard from outside.

“Why isn’t this house properly soundproofed…….”

The slow footsteps disappeared, headed towards the kitchen, and then approached the door. All of his nerves were finally directed towards his door. He swallowed hard and looked at the doorknob.

Damn it.

He hurriedly hit the side of his head hard with his fist. Focus. Kang Jun. You don’t want to hang there again, broken from your waist to your toes, and cry pathetically.

The footsteps that had been lingering near the door stopped. They were definitely not moving. He tried to pretend he was doing something else, burying his nose in the desk. At that moment, the bell rang loudly outside the room. It was Go Yohan’s cell phone. Only then did the footsteps move away again, and he heard the sound of a door closing softly in the distance. Judging by the sound and the heaviness, it was Go Yohan’s door.

The taut tension was finally released. And he had to admit it.

“…….”

He closed his eyes as if giving up and put down his pen. He lowered his freed hand under the desk, suppressed the emotions mixed with guilt and shame, and put his hand inside his pajamas. And in that state, he lay face down and gently touched his swollen Penis.

With that small stimulation, his Penis pushed through his clothes and rose up, as if a flower was receiving water and happily raising its stem. His red-hot Penis and the plain flesh near his Penis were visible through the gap in his pajamas.

It’s not like he started masturbating after he turned twenty.

As Go Yohan said, his Penis, like A white tower on a bare mountain, had changed before and after he turned twenty. No one had ever pointed out anything about his Penis, so he just thought it was a moderately decent shape and size.

‘Your dick is so white. You are.’

In an instant, heat rushed to his eyes, and he slammed his head on the desk. He looked down at his Penis, which was standing proudly under the desk and trying to reach above his navel. If it hadn’t been caught on his clothes, it would have been dripping water and hitting his stomach. He squeezed his eyes shut, grabbed his Penis with one hand, and shook it up and down.

“Ah…….”

With his eyes closed and his face leaning against the desk, a cautious groan escaped. He just didn’t want to admit that he was doing this, so he closed his eyes, but it became an error in judgment as he felt the sensation even more sensitively. Imagination always inflates more than expected.

What if it wasn’t him touching his thing now, but Go Yohan’s hand-.

An imagination unfolded where three fingers were awkwardly comforting him. Long fingers with protruding knuckles. Closely trimmed nails. Veins clearly raised on the back of his hand. The moment he thought that Yohan’s hand was stroking him, a viscous liquid leaked out.

“Ugh.”

He squeezed his thighs together, feeling the trembling sensation of not yet reaching climax. He took his hand out of his pants and looked at his glistening hand.

“…….”

In the end, he had to experience frustration again this time.

“I’ve finally gone crazy.”

He wanted to escape from reality. He hoped that the thoughts that came to his mind were just because he was tired, and that he could fall asleep and escape from the unbelievable worries. Please, really please.

If life at eighteen was a life defined by standards, then twenty felt like becoming a duck that had turned into river water and flowed into the sea. He still felt like a minor, but society suddenly threw him into a wide savannah and forced him to be free. You’re an adult now, so live as you please. But no one told him how adults live. It was just like an extension of nineteen.

An era of indulgence and grazing. A season without adults to control loneliness and pain. A strange universe where he was just one year older than nineteen, not twenty. His college life was pleasant but not really pleasant.

Kang Jun, twenty. He still couldn’t mix in with the department, and he had no friends. He had exchanged names with quite a few people, but that was the end of it. Unlike high school, where he met the same classmates every time, college risked the collapse of human relationships if he wasn’t proactive. Especially if he didn’t go to department events, orientation, or MTs like him.

“It’s unfair.”

He sat on the terrace in front of the library and glared at Go Yohan. As he watched with his arms crossed, Go Yohan crossed his arms as well.

“You’re pathetic. Jun-ah.”

“How are you the only one who builds connections again?”

“Connections? Well, I’m a nobody.”

“A nobody? Are you kidding me?”

To his question, which wasn’t really a question, Go Yohan took the lollipop he was sucking out of his mouth. It was absurd that he put his feet up on the chair that everyone else sat on, but he didn’t care about what others thought and just smiled, resting his elbow on his knee. Go Yohan was deceiving him like that.

Compared to him, Go Yohan quickly blended into the group. It was because of the difference between the department and the school. The Department of Economics, with 160 freshmen, was divided into four classes. Neatly ABCD. There were classes and class presidents. So, the unity was stronger than other departments, and Go Yohan was so-called ‘hyped up.’ What a lucky bastard.

He pretended to punch Go Yohan because he was annoyed for no reason. Go Yohan avoided even that pretense even more annoyingly. He was annoying. Really.

“Is that some kind of high school? What kind of college student has classes and class presidents?”

“Don’t be jealous. Do you know what class I’m in? Class C. Class C. Doesn’t the nuance suck?”

“It’s good. You fit in,”

“I don’t really care about your opinion?”

He turned his head away from the long fingers that were scratching his cheek to tickle him. But they were still persistently following him.

“You go quickly.”

“Ah, why-.”

Because his petty jealousy was about to flare up again. Well, wasn’t it worth being upset?

When he was holed up in the library trying to gather report topics, no one acknowledged him. But a whopping seven people acknowledged Go Yohan, who had come to visit briefly during the short break between lectures. In just 10 minutes. He had been holding onto his laptop here for three hours!

Go Yohan, who didn’t know how he felt, grabbed his arm and shook it. His body swayed along with it.

“Jun-ah, my lecture is about to start.”

“Oh, I know.”

“Should I ditch?”

“……Go Yohan, you’ve really become delinquent since coming to college. You even smoke.”

“Should I ditch?”

Go Yohan, who had swallowed his words, asked again seriously. Why was he asking him that?

He looked at Go Yohan and took in the sight of his elbow on the old table and his large hand propping up his chin. And even his shoes, which had become dirty from the long rainy season. He must have run here too. Then there was no reason for him to write his report near Go Yohan’s lecture hall on purpose. He shook his head again this time.

“Don’t ditch.”

“Why.”

“Go to class and…….”

Should he say it or not? He fiddled with the space bar with his fingers and opened his mouth in a fit of pique.

“……You can text me.”

“What? Text?”

His mouth, which had opened in a fit of pique, wouldn’t close. His minimum line of defense was to cover his mouth with his hand and make the smallest sound he could make.

“You can listen to the lecture and text me. It’s a rational choice.”

He actually didn’t want to break up with Go Yohan. He believed that Go Yohan would feel the same way. Maybe. Maybe…….

To be really honest. Honestly, he had imagined breaking up with Go Yohan. To be even more honest, he had lost his appetite for several days just from that imagination. But Go Yohan tapped his lips with his finger and laughed at his big picture. How dare he.

“You’re acting up.”

“…….”

Why did he like him? He sometimes had such doubts. Still, he hardened his expression as if he wasn’t.

“You’ll regret it later if your grades aren’t good.”

“Regret? Bullshit. Anyway, neither you nor I will ever get a job.”

“I’m different. I’m going to graduate school, so I have to take care of my grades.”

“Graduate school?”

Go Yohan’s gesture of tapping his lips stopped. Then he asked as if he was really curious.

“Why?”

“…….”

Why else? Because it was his future plan. He hadn’t given up on the path to success yet. At his silence, Go Yohan made a serious face and suddenly stood up from his seat at a really unexpected time.

“I’m going to class.”

“Su, suddenly?”

Then he didn’t react to his embarrassment and hurriedly left the library. Without even saying goodbye. He tried to call out to Go Yohan loudly, but he closed his mouth after seeing the surrounding atmosphere. And he took out his cell phone and wrote a message in a flurry.

“I’ll wait until class is over_”

While he was thinking about what to say next after waiting……. He received a reply.

“Giyeok?””

It was a strange message with an unknown meaning. And it came in quick succession after a short pause.

“Don’t sit with her.”

“…….”

He sat down and grabbed his throbbing head. His college life was pleasant but not really pleasant. Pleasant things come like gifts when you endure life, and unpleasant things come almost every day like trials. The culprit was Go Yohan. He didn’t know why Go Yohan was the one who believed in religion, but he was the one who received the trials.

“I’m sorry, but don’t sit next to me.”

“Huh? Me?”

Kang Suhyun was flustered and hit her chest. He pretended not to know and moved the mouse as he spoke.

“Your friend told me to.”

“My, my friend? Did I have such an unkind friend?”

Kang Suhyun was groping her chest and agonizing over the quality of her connections. But in the end, Kang Suhyun didn’t listen to him and sat next to him as she pleased. She even took out a house-sized laptop and placed it in front of him as if nothing was wrong.

Ugh. Was this what they meant by being in a dilemma? If he went back, it was a leave of absence, and if he went forward, it was an F. It was a mistake to take the lecture in the first place. It was definitely said to be a sweet lecture, but it seemed like he had been fooled by the rumors.

“Okay, look. I’ve made a PPT for now.”

As soon as she opened the laptop, the keyboard lit up with colorful and flashy lights. Kang Suhyun, who had squeezed her body between him and the laptop, found the presentation file in the corner of the messy desktop and clicked it.

“My laptop has better performance than most desktops. You can add various animations.”

“Ah, really…….”

Did she really have to add that? He squinted at the back of Kang Suhyun’s head and shifted his gaze to the laptop. And he was shocked.

What was this font?

“Wa, wait a minute.”

“Why? Do you want to see it that closely?”

He ignored Kang Suhyun’s bullshit and scrolled up to check. Crazy, Yangjae Wadang font? He had never heard of such a font.

“Is it, is it okay?”

“No, well. You know.”

“Is it pretty?”

“Not to hurt your feelings, but why did you use this font?”

“They say design is important in presentations these days.”

The day Yangjae Wa-dang font will be called an important design seems so far in the future. I wonder if it will ever come.

“Let’s change the font.”

“Change it? Just like that? Why? Don’t you like it? Why? This is why I can’t stand liberal arts people.”

“Why is liberal arts suddenly coming up here?”

“See! He doesn’t know what he did wrong.”

Kang Suhyun disgustedly closed her eyes. I pretended not to hear Kang Suhyun’s words and changed the font to the best one among the basic fonts. But there was a bigger problem. The content that came into view after changing the font was truly the worst of the worst trash.

-3rd place. Can I drink your XXX?

-2nd place. Oppa, my XX is delicious, right?

-1st place. Your XX is so delicious.

※Survey results from 18 women

Damn, is this a buffet?

I was afraid to turn the next page, so I just kept my hand on the keyboard. Kang Suhyun seemed to have misunderstood that. Kang Suhyun looked at me deeply with eyes full of arrogance.

“It’s like the emotions of American teenagers, right? Romantic sex. These days, girls are like this, I heard. They have such pro-American, such mindsets, and they’re different from the old days. Don’t ask me how I know. You’re not the only candidate to complete my assignment. Unfortunately, this beauty of the engineering department, Kang Suhyun, has a network similar to a vast plain. Compared to my friends, you have a face that’s so ordinary that it won’t even be remembered.”

“If you have such a person, why didn’t you just use that friend from the beginning? Why did you specifically choose ordinary me?”

“I don’t really want to tell you?”

Kang Suhyun’s eyelids fluttered as she said that. Her legs were also shaking loudly. Thanks to that, the laptop on the desk rattled every time the desk and Kang Suhyun’s knees collided. I frowned and unfrowned without anyone noticing. So incredibly noisy. So annoying.

“Hey, your legs a little……”

“Jun-i’s friend.”

A calloused finger blocked my lips. Ugh. I felt an unbearable unpleasantness at the sensation on my lips. I reflexively gagged. I felt like I was going to throw up right away. I almost swore outright. But I stopped, chilled by the sight of the second son of a bitch, Kang Suhyun’s, eyes turning to one side as if possessed.

Just ignore it. Don’t make eye contact. That’s what I was thinking, but Kang Suhyun’s elbow nudged my arm.

“Hey, the woman next to us keeps looking at me. She’s looking at me.”

“Who’s looking at you?”

“Don’t look! Don’t even look with the whites of your eyes.”

You’re the one whose eyes are rolling. Besides, it’s so obvious. Even the student who’s looking at this place, whoever it is, has already noticed. I stopped getting involved in Kang Suhyun’s nonsense. And I mustered the courage to move to the next screen. And I squeezed my eyes shut.

-3rd place. Do you like it?

-2nd place. Don’t hold back, you can moan. Let yourself go.

-1st place. (Calling her name) XX……! XX……!

※Survey results from 18 women

Let’s stop looking.

It was obvious that if I finished the assignment with the topic Kang Suhyun came up with, it would be a complete and utter failure. What would the students in the same class think if they saw this? They’d be happy, right? Thinking that suckers who lower the grades have appeared.

I rummaged through my bag and plugged the USB containing the sub-topic into Kang Suhyun’s laptop.

It was thanks to anticipating that something like this would happen.

Honestly, I don’t think mine is that great either. I’m used to solving given problems, but I’m terrible at creatively coming up with things. But I can confidently say that it’s better than Kang Suhyun’s. I guarantee that it will at least go from being unsorted waste to being recyclable.

“First of all, I’ve thought of a different topic, and you might also……”

“Jun-i’s friend, he’s coming. He’s coming here. Check if I have something on my face!”

“Ugh!”

Kang Suhyun pushed my shoulder hard, and the mouse cursor slid all the way out of the desktop. Shit. I cursed quietly without making a sound while lying face down. I didn’t even get up because I felt like I needed to curse even more.

Kang Suhyun looked at me and opened her mouth wide. The detailed structure of her teeth was clearly visible in my eyes.

“Ugh……”

My stomach churned as if I was about to throw up. It was an extremely disgusting sight. And miraculously, surprisingly, Kang Suhyun’s words were true. An unfamiliar presence stopped right next to us.

“Excuse me, um, I’m sorry.”

“Yes, what’s wrong?”

Kang Suhyun quickly closed her mouth and lowered her voice. What a show-off.

“Um… to the person next to you.”

“……”

Kang Suhyun finally shut her mouth. If she’s talking about the person next to her, that’s me. I stopped the curses I was mouthing and raised my head. As soon as my vision cleared, I met the eyes of two people. Kang Suhyun and an unknown student. The student who made eye contact quickly pointed to where I was.

“Um, well, it’s not me, but my friend asked me to come.”

“Ah, yes.”

The student tried to point somewhere but quickly hid his finger. He awkwardly smiled, covering his index finger with his palm. I knew he was worried about his friend, but judging from the atmosphere, it was obvious which desk he came from. And the mouth that was awkwardly smiling quickly spat out a question.

“It’s not that… do you have a girlfriend, or, um, are you thinking of dating anyone?”

“Ah……”

But what should I say? Unfortunately, I wasn’t used to this situation either. What could I expect from an all-boys middle school and high school? Most of my studying was done through tutoring. I subtly looked at Kang Suhyun for help. But Kang Suhyun was pouting with her lips rounded, as if she was sulking about something.

……Come to think of it, Kang Suhyun was a face I didn’t need to look to in this situation.

“……Well.”

The act of swallowing saliva as if a fish bone was stuck in my throat was rough and irritating.

A person. A person who boasts flashy features, but because of the large curves, there are shadows on his face all year round. A person who has a thick neck and a heavy Adam’s apple, contrary to his smooth jawline. A person who has long, pretty fingers, but the protruding joints in between look rough. Go Yohan.

I read the eyes of the two people urging me to answer and the expectations of one unseen person.

“No. I don’t…….”

“Ugh.”

But Kang Suhyun made a strange noise while pursing her lips. I ignored her and continued.

“But there’s someone I like. I’m sorry.”

My toes curled. While I was embarrassed by the words I had said alone and blushing, the student lightly bowed his head and left without regret. I also lightly bowed my head while looking at him, and I didn’t look at the place where the student was returning to the end, out of courtesy.

What was annoying was that I had to make eye contact with Kang Suhyun because of that. As the place became quiet for a moment, Kang Suhyun asked seriously.

“……What topic did you say you prepared?”

Kang Suhyun pulled her body closer to me. I finally realized from the content of the presentation and Kang Suhyun’s actions. That the eighteen women written in that data were Kang Suhyun’s delusions. That’s why I could show my topic more confidently. The content was simple.

To be exact, it was .

GoOO tends to ignore other people’s opinions and act arbitrarily.

1-1. Alpha XY displays his power, thereby sex o_

I focused my gaze on the blinking cursor. My fingers stopped pressing the keyboard, pressed backspace, and repeated writing again dozens of times. My fingers, which had stopped moving on the keyboard for a long time, moved again. Oh well. I was in a state of self-abandonment.

This report was written to explain the topic of in a socially universal way in the class assignment. By observing an anonymous real person named GoOO, the purpose is to describe in detail ‘what kind of person humans find sexually attractive and want to marry.’

Kang Jun (Department of Political Science and Diplomacy), a member of this team, proposed it, and Kang Suhyun (Department of Mechanical Engineering) agreed and decided that GoOO was a suitable person for the report, and then set him as the subject of observation, and the observation was conducted in secret only to the subject of observation in order to obtain unbiased and factual results. Basic information about GoOO is described below.

Subject of observation: GoOO

Age: Early twenties

Height: Early 190cm

Weight: As a result of directly measuring the weight, it is heavier than average. Expected to be muscular.

Athletic ability: Seems to do regular exercise as a hobby. Has good natural physical abilities.

Financial status: He has no income himself, but his parents have a lot of wealth, and he is expected to receive it as a gift in twenty years.

Appearance_

Again, my fingers stopped. The blunt ends lightly tapped the keyboard a few times. The hesitation was short. This time, it moved quickly, unlike before.

Appearance: Very handsome

Appearance is a subjective indicator, but when considering objective indicators, GoOO should be classified as an attractive man. For this reason, the observer decided to set GoOO as the subject of observation.

After finishing the introduction, I drank the coffee I had placed next to the laptop. I’m sure I put it there before I started the report, but the coffee, which was so hot, had become lukewarm because I hesitated so much. After filling my mouth with bitter coffee, I was sure. This report is less trash than Kang Suhyun’s .

In fact, the ‘Kang Suhyun’s consent’ in the description was a lie. However, there is a very short history of how Kang Suhyun came to follow this topic.

After a fierce battle of wits between me and Kang Suhyun, we decided to get help from the Professor. It was a very excellent decision. I can confidently say that this was an event that changed my second semester.

Kang Suhyun refused, saying nonsense such as ‘This topic is too cliché and there is nothing to write about. My topic is more global and creative,’ but after hearing the words ‘cliché and uninteresting sexist topic’ in the Professor’s critique, she had to shut her mouth.

And the Professor looked at my sub-report and asked this.

‘Go is a man, right?’

Me and Kang Suhyun nodded our heads up and down at the same time. Seeing that, the Professor asked again.

‘Who chose this topic?’

‘I did.’

‘Is that so?’

The Professor looked at my face for a moment, then smiled leisurely and asked a second question.

‘You’re in the Department of Political Science and Diplomacy?’

‘Yes.’

‘That’s very unexpected.’

The Professor only said that one word and looked back and forth between the report and me. Why was that? Fortunately, the expression on his face when he looked at me was positive. The Professor threw the data on the desk and said.

‘This isn’t very original either, but it’s better than the topic from before. If you’re going to do it, try proceeding with this.’

I was a little proud, and Kang Suhyun frowned. I already hated having to work on a team with such an annoying guy – because at the beginning of the semester, the Professor threatened that changing teams in the middle would result in a point deduction – so it was better to do something I liked rather than watching someone else’s date full of fantasies and throwing up.

But as I was about to open the door to the Professor’s office and leave, the Professor suddenly said something meaningful.

‘I’m all curious to see how attractive Go is as a male in your eyes.’

Strangely, those words kept lingering uncomfortably in my head. Even until now.

Since I was the one who chose this topic and I was the one who stayed by Go Yohan’s side the longest, I became solely responsible for writing the report. I also became solely responsible for creating the presentation. I couldn’t get caught up in Kang Suhyun’s engineering tastes anymore.

In the end, Kang Suhyun was only in charge of one presentation, but she complained even though she had less work to do. Most of them were words that wouldn’t affect the conversation even if I ignored them.

Kang Suhyun’s last act was to suddenly change her expression to a bright smile when she received a call from somewhere and say goodbye to me. She was a truly strange person.

I was left alone, looking at the desk littered with used tissues, and sighed as if I was about to drill through the ground.

“How did I get involved with a guy like that?”

No matter how I think about it, I feel like I’m getting further and further away from the college life I wanted.

After a long time of thinking, I barely grabbed the tissue with tongs. Ah, really. Why am I hanging out with a guy like that? I felt a sense of futility in my life.

The disgustingly crumpled tissue fell into the blue trash can below. It felt like my fingertips were teeming with germs. Ugh, I want to die. I frowned and went back to my seat and took out the alcohol spray. And I sprayed my fingertips and the place where Kang Suhyun was twenty times each.

And I started the first proposition and consideration behind the building where the economics class was mainly held.

GoOO becomes the most noticeable presence in any group.

It was Wednesday, when Go Yohan’s class ended earlier than mine. However, my schedule was disrupted when the professor ended the lecture in an hour and a half due to his schedule. Anyway, I don’t have any friends, and it’s just awkward even if I go to the department office, and there’s nothing to do even if I go to a cafe. So, while packing my things in the empty lecture room, I suddenly decided.

“It seems like a perfect opportunity to surprise that bastard……”

I said to myself and instantly covered my mouth. I feel like my personality is getting weirder and weirder.

“What’s wrong with me.”

I lightly slapped my cheek. At least I shouldn’t talk to myself. Anyway, what came to mind was a pretty good plan.

First, I shouldn’t say that class ended earlier. Then, I’ll wait in front of the lecture room where Go Yohan is with a drink. Then Go Yohan will be surprised. It’s not a big deal, but it seems like it would be fun. Go Yohan being surprised, it’s funny just thinking about it.

I’m getting older, but people are getting more childish. What’s so funny about something that’s not a big deal.

I went to find Go Yohan with a particularly light body. I went to find him, but I heard that class was already over. The plan failed from the start.

“Ah, what.”

Disappointment came in like a tide. The childish excitement that had been floating around quickly subsided.

But I still have the ion drink I bought, and there’s still a way to tease him. I’ll find Go Yohan, who’s waiting for me, and secretly pour the drink on the back of his neck. He’ll be surprised because it’s cold, right?

I laughed again when I thought of Go Yohan looking back with a strange sound. I forced myself to hold back my laughter because I thought there was no one as strange as a person who laughs while walking. Thanks to that, my lips hurt. It’s not difficult to find Go Yohan. You just have to go to a place where there are a lot of people. Go Yohan is always at the center of the commotion. And my guess was correct.

As I moved my steps to the back of the building, I heard a conversation that seemed to be whispering softly. I also smelled cigarette smoke. But I smelled a familiar scent among the cigarette smoke. A blue scent. It was Go Yohan’s scent.

“Go……”

“So, is he the only one here with a lover? What are you guys doing? Idiots. The school’s name is crying. Crying.”

“You don’t have one either, so stop talking nonsense. Ah, shit-. I’m so jealous of Go Yohan. She must be pretty, right?”

I stopped walking forward when I heard those words. The place where I was located was a staircase half a floor higher than the place where five men were gathered and talking, behind the fence. I naturally bent my knees. My mouth was parched, so I wet my lips. So, Go Yohan said he has a lover, that’s what it means.

Kang Jun has a bit of an arrogant side. And I was sure that the ‘lover’ was referring to me. I scratched my innocent pants with my fingernails. My whole body itched from head to toe with anticipation.

“He wouldn’t meet someone who’s not pretty with that temper. He’d be so picky about looks. Yohan throws up when he sees ugly people. That’s why he threw up when he saw Oh Kyungchul.”

“Really?”

“I’ve never seen a guy openly throw up yellow stomach acid while looking at someone’s face.”

It was the first time I heard that voice. At least it’s not the guys I know. I slowly lowered my head and looked at the path where cigarette smoke was rising wildly. Go Yohan was sitting below the slightly low fence. A lollipop was in his mouth, which was slightly chapped because the weather was dry.

“I couldn’t help it. I felt so sick when I saw that friend.”

“Look at this guy, his personality is rotten. Why does your girlfriend even meet you? Is she Mother Teresa?”

“What are you talking about? She has a worse personality too. She’s worse than me.”

What? Me? Go Yohan is talking about my personality? I can never admit that.

The audacious Go Yohan poked the tiny lollipop with his Canine Tooth. As a result, the lollipop, which had cracked from the impact, fell to the ground. Go Yohan, who looked down at the lollipop that was covered in dirt, spread his index finger and thumb and dropped the white stick. It was an attitude that didn’t feel any guilt.

“That’s strange. Why do you meet if she has a bad personality?”

“He’d date her because she’s pretty. Guys like him with decent looks like girls with nasty tempers even more.”

“Really?”

Go Yohan, who had been sitting alone on the wall amidst a group of about five guys, asked. As he did, he smirked, revealing his sharp Canine Tooth. ‘Really?’ That one word drew everyone’s attention to Go Yohan. He really was excellent at attracting attention. He probably said that on purpose.

Go Yohan was in the process of inheriting another throne in a new place. Seemingly satisfied with the attention he was getting, Go Yohan raised his chin slightly and asked the guy who had just defended him again.

“Then let me ask you something. What kind of guys do pretty girls with nasty tempers like?”

“Them? They usually date nice guys.”

“Oh, am I nice?”

“No? You’re about to get dumped, aren’t you?”

His tone clearly intended to tease Go Yohan. I saw traces of high school in their banter.

Anyway, guys with dicks are still the same. The act of subtly establishing a hierarchy by finding fault with each other was the same even at twenty, and still prevalent in college. But Go Yohan is still Go Yohan. He didn’t let that rudeness slide.

Go Yohan instantly wiped the smile off his face and mouthed a small curse.

“You wanna die?”

Then he kicked the guy who answered his question in the shin. To an outsider, it might have looked like a light tap, but judging by the guy’s yelp and the way he bent over and collapsed, it wasn’t a light tap at all. In a normal situation, he would have definitely apologized, but Go Yohan shamelessly smiled as if it were a joke.

“Think before you speak, you moron.”

“Ah… Ouch, damn it…”

“You shouldn’t ruin other people’s love lives.”

Go Yohan still had a cocky and sinister side. With just one simple gesture, Go Yohan pinched the nose of the guy who was still groaning and holding his shin. Still without getting up from his seat.

“Ah, it hurts!”

The guy caught up in Go Yohan’s sudden outburst was truly pitiful. No matter how much he bent over, he couldn’t properly balance himself if his nose was pinched between someone’s middle and index fingers. Today’s victim gasped for air through his mouth, then pushed Go Yohan’s wrist.

It’s no use. I thought, and I was right.

Go Yohan smiled brightly, revealing his Canine Tooth. Thanks to his exaggerated features, Go Yohan’s smile was as radiant as a sunlit lake, but the poverty and gloom underlying his face gave it a strangely chilling feeling. Moreover, if Go Yohan was the one playing the prank, the sinister, gloomy, and chilling smile was amplified.

The index and middle fingers of his left hand, which were tightly pinching the nose, shook violently from side to side like car wipers. The guy whose nose was pinched comically wiggled his feet to the left and then to the right in response to the forceful action. The remaining people sized up the situation. They were watching carefully.

But just when you might think, ‘Isn’t this a bit much?’ Go Yohan let go. Then, with his two fingers in a V shape, he lightly tapped the tip of his friend’s nose, which he had just pinched. Alternating between the two fingers, tap-tap.

“Hee.”

Go Yohan laughed, making a sound so ridiculous that he seemed a bit of an idiot. With that laugh, the atmosphere changed from suspicion to moderate discomfort. Go Yohan’s tactics were becoming more and more subtle. However, I was the only one who realized that this was Go Yohan’s intention, seeing it from a third-person perspective.

Go Yohan, who had removed his hand after lightly tapping, said, withdrawing his hand.

“Let’s live while respecting each other, friends. Unless you want me asking after your parents.”

Did he respect it? Go Yohan seemed to be the least respectful person here. I felt that way, but the people in that spot probably didn’t think like me. It’s not that they can’t, it’s that they won’t. You could tell just by the way they were positioned. The situation was already settled the moment only Go Yohan was sitting down, looking at the others, and the remaining people slightly bent their backs to meet Go Yohan’s gaze.

As expected, the situation and the people revolved around Go Yohan. I could tell by those delighted faces.

“Yeah, you were too much. He’s incredibly protective of his girlfriend.”

“No, cough… Ugh. I was just joking. Ah, damn it.”

“That’s a really hurtful joke.”

One of Go Yohan’s eyebrows twitched again. It was a mischievous but malicious expression.

“Okay, I get it. I was insensitive. Stop it. I’m sorry, really sorry.”

“Uh.”

It was a word that ended emotionlessly. And then suddenly he laughed. Puhaha. Go Yohan was the only one laughing in that atmosphere. He ruined the atmosphere and then suddenly laughed by himself. ‘Uh’? It looked to me like he was still very angry.

“But what was that thing you did just now, grabbing and shaking his nose? That was so surprising.”

“You’re not supposed to play pranks like that. Huh?”

Go Yohan said that and patted the arm of the startled student. Everyone seemed to think Go Yohan was joking, so the atmosphere relaxed. Meaningless laughter bloomed in the group. That probably wasn’t a joke at all.

Thus, even in college, Go Yohan’s tyranny did not stop.

I am no exception. In exchange for gaining the price called Go Yohan, I had no May. Already unable to even join a group, let alone establish a hierarchy, I naturally chose the path of an outsider. Someday, as a social animal, I might get tired of the loneliness of losing a group and fall back into that cycle.

We both lost our May, but Go Yohan is still in that spot. It would be strange if I didn’t feel jealous now. Go Yohan will probably never know. The heart of a commoner who has to struggle to survive at the bottom.

Nevertheless, I didn’t hate Go Yohan. It’s too transparent now to even deny it. Why am I always weak to the people I like? I even find the way he so easily takes the place I have so lovely.

But what girlfriend? You crazy bastard. I’m pretty sure he’s talking about me. Before that, since when were Go Yohan and I dating? We never said let’s date. But we do everything and even live together, so we are dating, right? So it’s Go Yohan, right? We told each other we liked each other too. And why is Go Yohan going around saying things like that?

Even as I trembled with anxiety, I couldn’t stop the corners of my lips from twitching. Am I becoming like Go Yohan? I’m going crazy. When did I change like this? The two-faced heart comes out in actions. I blamed Go Yohan in my mind, but I had been hiding near the wall, eavesdropping on their conversation.

Wait, am I being a bit… no, very creepy right now?

“I’m sorry for joking about you being his sister-in-law. I honestly didn’t know you were so serious.”

“Why? Doesn’t it look like I’m serious?”

“Look at him stiffening up again. Man, loosen up your expression. You’re a little scary even when you’re joking. This guy’s scared right now.”

“Doesn’t it look like I’m serious?”

Go Yohan pressed his thumbnail hard with his teeth. He stared at the face of the guy whose nose he had pinched with narrowed eyes, then grinned again. This time it was a smile with no hint of laughter.

“Yeah, man, I can see that no one is as serious as you. Your sister-in-law must be dying to be with you. Happy now?”

There are peacemakers everywhere. They’re called peacemakers, but they’re closer to cowards who hate scary atmospheres. It’s a man’s life that even this peacemaker violently changes when the situation revolves around him. They’re everywhere, and there’s one here too, appeasing Go Yohan. Only then did Go Yohan give a bright smile. Not out of satisfaction from being praised, but as if he was pleased that he was being appeased.

Go Yohan is closer to acting as he pleases than trying to play the hierarchy game. But a child born from the sky from the beginning doesn’t know how to come down from the sky. He only knows how to rule. That’s how Go Yohan always sits in a position to suppress others.

Along with that, the self-proclaimed ‘Go Yohan’s girlfriend’ was now called sister-in-law. When you look at it, they call the girlfriends of guys lower in the hierarchy sister-in-law. College has a more diverse group of people, so it’s fun to observe.

While I was observing with interest, Go Yohan said. Very openly.

“Yeah, I’m going to marry her.”

Shit. The interesting feeling plummeted to the bottom.

What, what are you talking about? I widened my eyes in shock and looked at Go Yohan. Hehe. Go Yohan shyly twisted the index fingers of his right and left hands, unlike his usual self. What’s wrong with him? I’m really going crazy now.

“I felt it the first time I made eye contact with her. I’m going to date and marry that bastard. It was just fate.”

“Why are you calling your sister-in-law a bastard?”

“Yeah, damn it. Watch your language. And your dream is too grand at twenty. Did your sister-in-law agree?”

Go Yohan didn’t pay any attention to the previously raised issue. He ignored it completely. He raised his head and looked at the four people talking, but it didn’t feel like he was making eye contact. There was just the overwhelming feeling that Go Yohan was still above them. Go Yohan rubbed his jawline with his fingertips and said.

“Well, she said she’d marry me? But I have a question. Does she want to marry me? What kind of guys do girls like that like? Well, she likes me, likes.”

Ahem. Go Yohan cleared his throat and continued.

“She said she did.”

“Are you crazy? Ah, damn it. It’s so cheesy. You’re dating like a kid.”

“Hey, of course you don’t know when you’re dating. It’s obvious he’s in the early stages of dating. Back then, you have rose-colored glasses on, so you can’t judge properly. Let’s hear it. What style does your sister-in-law usually like? No, I know she likes you. But isn’t there a style she usually prefers?”

“…Hmm.”

Finally, Go Yohan closed his mouth. In that state, he put his thumb in his mouth and pressed it hard with his Canine Tooth. His smooth brow furrowed, and his slightly hoarse neck moved.

“She likes strong, flashy guys. She’s a bit of a show-off.”

When did I? I almost went crazy wanting to refute him right away. Is that how this bastard sees me? When did I ever say I liked that kind of style?

“Oh, isn’t that you?”

“Oh, really?”

“This bastard said it to brag.”

“Do you want to eat beef?”

Go Yohan grinned and gave the peacemaker a compliment that was hard to understand. Having seen Go Yohan right next to me for almost three years, I can tell. He doesn’t really mean he’ll buy it for him, it’s just a sudden, impulsive compliment. Why does he give compliments like that? I don’t even know what they mean. But it’s cute.

The guy who received the unexpected compliment must be happy. He grinned and hurriedly continued.

“No, when I first saw Go Yohan, I wondered why a guy like him was at our school. I was surprised that there was someone who looked like he could never get into our school. He looks like he’d bully kids when he was in school.”

“How can I do such bad things? I have a religion. I can’t do such bad things.”

What a load of crap. I was so dumbfounded that I couldn’t even laugh. Of course, I’m also dumbfounded that I’m hiding and watching this conversation. Why am I like this?

“Crazy, you had a religion? What religion?”

“Huh? I’m a cultist.”

“……”

…….

I quietly pressed my forehead. I have a headache.

It seems like half of the guys over there think it’s Go Yohan’s joke, and the other half are trying to laugh it off as if they didn’t hear it. The truth of that statement will probably never be revealed. This is how Go Yohan’s lies are born. I could vaguely see the life Go Yohan had lived.

“Well, women who like flashy and strong guys like things that are a bit stimulating and flashy. You know? Like women who date gangster pigs. So you can’t act so rigid. You smoke, right?”

“That’s right. I smoke because of that bastard.”

“Why are you talking like that, damn it? Anyway, good job. Your sister-in-law is crazy about guys who smoke cigarettes deliciously.”

Go Yohan, who had been frowning, suddenly fell into deep thought. I have no idea what he’s thinking. The guy who was giving Go Yohan advice was quite handsome, but he was obviously a light-hearted guy. What does a guy like that know? I couldn’t hold back my resentment and clenched my fist.

He’s just spouting the opposite of my taste. What does he know? You bastard. Go Yohan smoked because of that bastard. You bastard. Die. The only thing I liked about Go Yohan when I first saw him was his stubbornly rigid values.

“That’s right. Definitely.”

What do you mean, that’s right? But the sound Go Yohan was making was absolutely crazy.

“Her firrrst……ugh guy smelled like cigarettes.”

“Oh-. Yohan-. Did you steal her away?”

“What are you talking about, damn it. She wasn’t his to begin with.”

Go Yohan licked his Canine Tooth with his tongue and continued.

“Every break, I had to watch that bastard go smoke and it was a mess. I wanted to kill them both so badly. I hated seeing that, so every break I pretended to sleep at my desk.”

My head went white at Go Yohan’s words. Instantly. Because I had picked up the circumstances of Go Yohan that I learned after first sleeping with him and the fragments of what Go Yohan was thinking while looking at me. I didn’t really try to pick them up. But the conversation quickly passed without considering me at all.

“Look at the jealousy. Are you going to harass your sister-in-law or something? How childish.”

“Harass? I don’t do such childish things.”

“Hey, did you see that? This guy’s a man.”

……I wonder if Go Yohan lacks the ability to see himself objectively.

Go Yohan, who immediately ignored the subtly offered compliment, beckoned to the person right next to him. When the guy who was called leaned in, puzzled, he suddenly grabbed the cigarette butt that person was smoking. Then he just looked at it silently. Only making a tongue-rolling sound in his mouth.

“Oh? I’ll give it to you.”

At the man’s words, Go Yohan finally let go of the cigarette.

The person whose cigarette butt was grabbed rummaged through his chest and took out a cigarette pack, and took out the longest cigarette from the edge and handed it to Go Yohan. Go Yohan naturally didn’t receive it with his hand. He lowered his eyes and tilted his chin. That was it.

Perhaps flustered, the guy flinched and put the cigarette in Go Yohan’s mouth in an awkward position. Taking advantage of that gap, another person next to him quickly took out a lighter from his pocket.

“Here.”

Go Yohan naturally closed his eyes halfway and did nothing.

Rather, two or three people gathered to solve a problem that wasn’t even their own, creating a barrier to block the wind so that the cigarette would light. It was a very busy movement. At the same time, an orange light flickered and disappeared on the face full of a gloomy swamp. Seeing that, I knelt down and sat blankly.

When the fire flared at the end of the cigarette, Go Yohan raised his head. And Go Yohan, who deeply inhaled the smoke without holding the cigarette in his hand, frowned. His long neck was deeply indented. Finally, Go Yohan, who looked at the floor, spat out the cigarette.

“Still sucks.”

That’s how the cigarette that was lit only once fell to the ground absurdly.

Go Yohan roughly shook his left hand in the air and stood up. The people who were standing were also tall, but when Go Yohan stood up, he was a head taller. Every time, I feel that Go Yohan’s frame is very large.

“Oh? Where are you going, Yohan? Weren’t we going to have lunch together?”

“Yeah, no. I’m going to throw up all over the place if I eat with you guys’ faces.”

Go Yohan lightly smiled with his eyes and raised his left middle finger. And he turned his wrist to show the direction where the finger was, not the back of his hand, and then bent and raised his finger as if he was greeting.

“Guys. Die young!”

Go Yohan, who spat out strange words, turned his body without any regrets. His already fluttering hair was swept away by the wind and scattered messily.

I looked at the group Go Yohan had been with with lingering eyes. They’re definitely going to say a lot of things about Go Yohan when he leaves. There will definitely be curses among them. I watched Go Yohan move away from the group like that and then got up.

Well, what’s the point of talking? Go Yohan won’t feel pain or itch.

I eagerly followed Go Yohan’s strides as he walked down the street and took out my phone. Because I suddenly thought of something to write in the report. I quickly moved my fingers while looking at the phone screen and Go Yohan’s back.

Go Yohan becomes the most noticeable presence anywhere.

2-1. It seems to be due to his personality of ignoring others and his innate atmosphere. His appearance is also more sharp than gentle.

2-2. It is estimated that he would have been even more noticeable if he had smoked.

⓵ It’s not that people feel sexually attracted to men who smoke, but that they feel sexually attracted when men who smoke look cool.

I managed to jot that down quickly on my phone. I almost lost Go Yohan several times, and after following him at a near run, I ended up in front of the lecture hall where I had just been in class.

“Oh.”

I stood in the hallway, watching Go Yohan in an awkward pose. Go Yohan had gone all the way to the front of my lecture hall, but upon seeing the empty room, he panicked and floundered. He kept alternating between looking at the hallway and the lecture hall like an idiot, and then he just stood there dumbly, making strange noises.

“Huh?”

He didn’t look like it, but he must have been surprised. I unintentionally succeeded in teasing him. I got lucky.