By Zephyria 
134
“Choi Ho-eun……”
Tae-muk, while begging, repeatedly inserted and withdrew his penis from the hole. As he did so, he licked Ho-eun’s small face indiscriminately. He would often bare his teeth and bite places like his chin or earlobe. Ho-eun couldn’t refuse and was limp. His white eyelids twitched faintly.
It was only after a long time that Tae-muk finished. And for the first time since starting the sexual affair, he pulled his penis out.
It took a long time for the long penis to come out. Ho-eun’s body trembled as the penis was pulled out with a squelching sound. Perhaps because he had been holding it for so long, it felt as if a part of his body was falling off.
When the long, long pillar was completely out, and the glans came out last, there was a popping sound.
The hole, having lost something large, paused for a moment, gaping open, then wriggled and shrank. With that movement, the semen that Tae-muk had deposited deep inside crawled out.
“……”
Ho-eun slowly blinked his dim eyes.
Is it over now. Can I rest now. Can I sleep now.
He was catching his breath with such thoughts. Suddenly, Tae-muk supported Ho-eun under his armpits and placed him on his thighs. And he was pushing his penis, which had already become erect again, between his buttocks.
The blood drained from Ho-eun’s face. He flailed his powerless arms, pushing Tae-muk away.
“Enough, enough now……”
“Not enough yet.”
Tae-muk had no intention of stopping the act, not even by a fingernail. Ho-eun’s hole resembles its owner, stiff, fierce, and stubborn. It’s not easy to soften it up or make it ripe red. Who knows when another opportunity like this will come, so why give up? He was going to see the end of it today. He wanted to quench his long-standing thirst, his lust.
It was when Tae-muk was holding Ho-eun’s limp waist and matching his glans to his anus.
Drip, drop.
Something warm and damp fell on Tae-muk’s cheek.
Tae-muk thought it was Ho-eun’s tears. Or sweat, or saliva. So he wiped it off with his hand. To lick it. But the moment he brought it to his mouth. He froze.
His hand was stained red. A very familiar red.
Tae-muk was sure that he had encountered this red color more than anyone else in the world. So, he couldn’t help but recognize it at once.
Blood.
This was blood.
But why is this, where from.
“……”
Tae-muk rubbed his fingertips together, scattering the blood, then slowly looked at Ho-eun. But Ho-eun’s lower face, from his nose to his lips and chin, was all red.
“You……”
The moment Tae-muk opened his mouth, a heavy stream of blood flowed down from one of Ho-eun’s nostrils again. Tae-muk, upon seeing it, unknowingly stopped breathing. Ho-eun covered his lower face and turned his head. As if trying to hide the nosebleed. Then he said that again.
“I’m okay, I’m okay.”
Tae-muk, belatedly regaining his senses, frowned.
“What the fuck, what’s with you always being okay?”
Ho-eun has a tendency to overuse the word okay. Even with a fever, he’s okay. Even with swollen ankles, he’s okay. Now, even with blood streaming from his nose, he’s okay. Tae-muk didn’t like that okayness at all.
However, Ho-eun, unaware of Tae-muk’s inner thoughts, was frightened by his hardening face and uttered the word okay again.
“I’m really okay, ah……”
But in the middle of speaking, a heavy dizziness surged. Ho-eun staggered, feeling his vision spin. He tried to put strength into his danjeon to avoid falling, but it wasn’t a dizziness he could overcome with that. In the end, Ho-eun slumped to the side. Tae-muk caught him as he fell.
“I’m sorry……”
Ho-eun apologized in a weak voice.
“What are you sorry for?”
Tae-muk asked.
“For, for bleeding from my nose……”
“Ha……”
Tae-muk scoffed at those words. It’s not like he burst his nose, he’s apologizing for something that happened on its own, against his will. Ho-eun has a knack for making absurd apologies sound plausible.
“I’m sorry……”
Ho-eun apologized again. It wasn’t that he hadn’t thought about stopping during the endless sexual affair, but he felt sorry and ashamed to end it like this. He couldn’t bring himself to look at Tae-muk and lowered his gaze. Even in the midst of that, the nosebleed was trickling.
“……”
Instead of answering, Tae-muk pulled the blanket over and held it to Ho-eun’s lower face. Ho-eun, with a mortified look, buried his nose there. Then he stammered something unnecessarily.
“Ah, if you’re still not satisfied, I can use my mouth, my mouth……”
“Enough.”
Tae-muk refused outright. Ho-eun’s dry shoulders twitched at the answer, which felt somehow cold. His shoulders, which had been glistening with sweat just a moment ago, were now dry and rough.
“……Are you angry?”
Ho-eun asked in a small voice, watching Tae-muk’s reaction. Tae-muk looked at him with his characteristic expressionless face.
“Does it look like it?”
“I’m…… not sure.”
Ho-eun looked back and forth between Tae-muk’s eyes. But the eyes, which were just black, couldn’t reveal what emotions they were hiding.
“I’m not.”
Tae-muk shook his head. Then he pressed his lips firmly on Ho-eun’s temple. Ho-eun sighed in relief at the simple but warm kiss. But as if his mischievous body had also released its tension, the nosebleed started to flow even more.
The thick blanket was soaked in an instant. Even though it was a dark blue blanket, the spreading of the blood was clearly visible. Tae-muk’s face immediately turned serious at the gushing blood.
“Did I do that by any chance?”
For a moment, Tae-muk wondered if he had unknowingly hit Ho-eun’s nose. It was possible. He couldn’t control his strength because he was excited. Indeed, there were his handprints all over Ho-eun’s body. Still, to hit that tiny nose, he frowned. Ho-eun gave a faint smile.
“No. It’s not your fault, General. It just happens when I’m a little tired.”
“You get a nosebleed when you’re tired?”
“Yes.”
“……”
Tae-muk slowly blinked his eyes. Then he asked again.
“Why are you tired?”
It wasn’t a taunt or sarcasm, it was a pure question. Ho-eun, sensing that, gave another dry smile.
It’s understandable that he wouldn’t understand. It’s not like I tilled the fields, did kitchen work, or fought Devouring Ghouls.
Still, it was a tiring day for Ho-eun. He practiced archery, read books, and shared a sexual affair with Tae-muk. Compared to the past when he barely left the house once every fifteen days, it was definitely a tough schedule. But if he confessed it honestly, Tae-muk would probably laugh.
“Um……, well…… I did this and that.”
“……”
Tae-muk still had an incomprehensible expression. Ho-eun then made up a plausible reason.
“Sometimes it flows for no reason. It’s because my body is lacking, so you don’t have to understand.”
As he was speaking, blood gushed out again, and he pressed his nose hard against the blanket. Tae-muk, frowning as much as he could, lifted the blanket for him and asked.
“How do you stop it?”
“It stops when it’s time to stop.”
“What kind of bullshit is that?”
Tae-muk pulled his chin in as if he had never heard such a bizarre sound in his life. Ho-eun couldn’t help but giggle in the midst of bleeding from his nose, finding that appearance somehow funny.
“Didn’t I tell you that you don’t have to understand? I don’t really know either. It just…… flows like this and then stops.”
“What if it doesn’t stop?”
“Um……. I don’t know. It’s always stopped, so wouldn’t it be the same this time?”
“What is that?”
Ho-eun shrugged as if he didn’t know either. Nosebleeds were something he had since he was a child, like fever and colds. It always stopped when it was time to stop, so he never worried much. Rather, unlike fever, it didn’t hurt, so he didn’t pay much attention to it. Of course, his mother and father were always anxious.
Ho-eun was reminded of his parents’ faces for the first time in a while. His hot nostrils cooled to lukewarm. He carefully lifted his nose, which had been buried in the blanket. The nosebleed had stopped.
“Oh……. It stopped.”
Ho-eun looked at Tae-muk with an expression that said, “See? Didn’t I tell you it would stop?” But for some reason, his face was still stiff.
“Herbal medicine……”
“Yes?”
“Does it get better if you take that?”
“I don’t really know.”
“What the fuck, what do you even know?”
“My body is a bit mysterious. Even the doctor doesn’t really know.”
He said it to lighten the mood. So he deliberately smiled, but Tae-muk muttered irritably.
“I finally found you……”
“……”
The smile slowly washed off Ho-eun’s face at those words. Is he angry that I’m in this state after he finally found me? Of course, he would be. Because I’m not a Bondmate suitable for him. Because I can’t do anything. Because I’m a useless person who can’t even fully complete the sexual affair that a Bondmate should do and just gets nosebleeds.
He slowly lowered his empty eyes. Tae-muk gently and carefully wiped the blood from Ho-eun’s chin with the blanket and muttered again.
“Unsettling……”
Ho-eun’s eyelids shot up at those words.