By Zephyria 
“Really, really…. Today is the last day, today.”
If he kept asking why I was pushing him away, if it was because I couldn’t give up the position of Crown Princess, I would somehow make an excuse, but if he just kept pushing like this, I had no other way. Why is a wolf bigger than my body so cute? Appearance was indeed scary. When Carlisle’s real body was in front of me, I could respond with polite language, but when I saw the wolf, I would coo, “Oh, my puppy,” and I would often make babyish sounds without realizing it.
I thought that Carlisle’s beastman Setting was just an additional Setting to gain the support of players as the main Love interest’s most likely and prominent rival character, but I never thought it would be such a destructive weapon. Even in the original work, Carlisle’s wolf version only appeared as a service cut a couple of times at most.
“Cute, I guess.”
As I muttered in resignation, the wolf, or rather, Carlisle, buried his head in my arms, as if telling me to be even cuter. His head was so big that it didn’t even fit in my arms. Ugh, I lost my balance and fell backwards, but the back of my head felt strangely soft. Carlisle had moved his fluffy tail to catch my upper body.
“Fluffy……”
The will to resist, which I didn’t have in the first place, dropped even further. At this rate, I’m going to break through the negatives. I really have to push him away. I shouldn’t give my heart so deeply to a specific Love interest, but why is it so sweet and soft? I didn’t feel comfortable pushing him away either.
“Hey, Carlisle.”
When I called him intimately, the wolf seemed to understand and blinked at me once, making eye contact.
“If you want to be more intimate with me, why don’t you at least wait until after the Day of Blessing? You’re not an Alpha yet.”
I had allowed him to be with me late at night just a few days ago because he wasn’t an Alpha, but now I was saying this and that. But whatever, what does it matter? It’s my heart anyway.
“Got it? This hyung has no intention of considering a cute puppy as a candidate for a spouse.”
Even this time, my words were just loud. Even as I said that, I was still lying on Carlisle’s fluffy tail, rolling this way and that. Then, at some point, suddenly the back of my head was empty. Thud, my back fell to the hard floor.
“Is that all that’s bothering you?”
The heavy voice tickled my face like velvet. The thick forepaws that had been attached to the beast’s claws until just now had become a man’s hands with long fingers, gently stroking near my ears and jawline as I lay there helplessly. I couldn’t see the man’s expression well because he was backlit by the candlelight. But what was clear was that his gray eyes were still shining elegantly.
“Ah, no, how can you suddenly change back like this…, there, there is……”
I reflexively avoided his gaze and stuttered. Goodness, it wasn’t like I hadn’t seen his face once or twice, but why was I suddenly so embarrassed? It was a relief that my vision was dark. My cheeks and ears were all flushed.
“I asked if the reason you’re pushing me away is just that, Noah Hamilton.”
Where did the man I knew, the one who was dreamily kind, go? Carlisle was still smiling kindly, but with a somehow ferocious expression, stealing my breath away. Somewhere, I heard the sound of a beast growling like a hallucination. Our lips, pressed together, were too hot. Damn it…, the temperature of the lips and tongue, stuck together as if melting, was still sweet. I have to push this man away, but I don’t want to push him away. This man is almost the only one in this world who is keeping his sanity, isn’t he?
“You can’t treat me like this, Noah.”
“Ugh, Carlisle……”
“If you understood even a tenth, no, even a hundredth of how crazy I felt when I thought I had lost you……. You couldn’t be so cruel to me.”
While sharing breaths in the close distance where I could feel his breath, he muttered in a low voice, and the words and emotions he muttered came to me and clung to me with a more direct touch than hearing. The way his lips were moving was conveyed directly to my lips, which were about to touch. Ha. When was the last time I had this kind of contact with someone? I don’t know. I don’t remember, but only the sensation was thrillingly heightened.
If the person riding on top of me right now was an Alpha, I would have been a little more careful, but Carlisle was still an ordinary person who hadn’t yet manifested as an Alpha. I didn’t bother to control the pheromones that were flowing out.
“I want to protect you. I want to lock you up in the safest place in the world, so that no one can hurt you. Even if that’s myself.”
“……”
The moment Carlisle uttered such a precious confession in a trembling voice, I heard a clear notification sound in my ear!
‘Carlisle Graham’s’ Secret Preference:
Person you want to protect (unlocked), xxxxxxxxxx
Ah, I can’t stand it anymore either. A man whose secret preferences are so upright and correct, a man I wanted so much that I was jealous and didn’t know what to do……. I didn’t want to push him away anymore.
“Okay, do that.”
“Noah.”
“Do as you please. Protect me, or hurt me.”
“……”
“But you know what?”
I want to tear you apart right now, Carlisle Graham. I whispered softly and pulled his neck. Just before the kiss that had been paused was about to begin again.
“That’s a very coincidental coincidence. I was just in the mood for that too.”
The man whispered elegantly and clung to me like a beast.
* * *
The various judgments and prejudices I had about the man named Carlisle Graham, which I had experienced or personally witnessed so far, were shattered into pieces. I declared that I wanted to tear him apart, but it was I who was torn apart. Where did it all go wrong? When I thought he wasn’t an Alpha and released my pheromones comfortably? Or when I didn’t reject his kiss?
“Heuk, Carl, Carlisle…! Ugh!”
The man, who didn’t even think of moving me, who was trembling and moaning, to the bed, was still smiling kindly and neatly, licking his lips, and revealed the answer as if telling me the answer.
“If you couldn’t handle this much……. You shouldn’t have let me into this room in the first place, Noah.”
“Hic, euung, ah!”
His fingers fluttered and slid down my bare shoulders and the middle of my chest as if drawing a line. His elegant fingers lightly tapped on the swelling underwear. Why is it that I’ve done so many lewd things that are hard to compare to this, but I’m helplessly collapsing at this simple gesture?
“Did you think that because I’m not an Alpha yet, I wouldn’t be able to feel your pheromones? Maybe, you’re naive……. You shouldn’t underestimate a wolf’s sense of smell like that. Always by your side…, there’s such a sweet and terrible smell that my nose is rotting…, ha……”
Carlisle muttered vaguely with feverish eyes. From the middle on, he seemed to have forgotten that I was even listening. Like someone who had literally lost their mind.
“Carlisle.”
I called him again because I felt uneasy for some reason.
“Yes, Noah.”
I felt so relieved at that low answer.
“Don’t be unfamiliar…, don’t be scary, okay?”
At my voice, which sounded like I was being spoiled, an undisguised happy smile spread across Carlisle’s lips.
“If that’s what you want, of course.”
The incomplete Alpha, who could fully feel my pheromones with the senses of a beast that transcended the human realm, but had not yet received the Blessing and did not have his own pheromones, confessed loyally and raised my hand. Then, he stroked each of my fingers, which had nothing on them except for the Hamilton Family’s signet ring, as if caressing them with his lips, and finally bit down hard on my fourth finger. Hard enough to leave a tooth mark.
“I know I’m not attractive enough to completely pull you in.”
Idiot. I’m desperately resisting because I’m afraid that’s what will happen if I make a mistake.
“If I had known this would happen, I would have done it sooner when I thought you were just an unknown servant boy……”
He muttered regretfully, as if he couldn’t bear it. What was the unspoken word omitted in the ellipsis? If I had confessed sooner, maybe? Innocent Carlisle. As soon as I thought of that young boy’s face, I smiled without realizing it. In the gray eyes that had been kind when they saw that smile…, a ferocious desire was seeping in.
Let’s think about what happens later later. I wanted to ruin this man in front of me as much as I wanted, even if it was just for this one moment. At the same time, I wanted to be ruined by this man as much as I wanted.
LU 135
My bitten lower lip hurt. But I didn’t even have the mind to complain. That’s because I was busy stealing his lips, which were filling my mouth so painfully.
Carlisle, who seemed to be satisfied with just his lips for a while, couldn’t stand it any longer and raised his hand to the hem of my robe, which he had just half-stripped off, and shook the hem as if begging. I nodded and pointed to the head of the bed with my chin. My back was getting cold and my waist was hurting.
The beast, who had received the signal to ruin me as much as he wanted, kindly lifted my body in one arm and headed for the bed. Even during that time, Carlisle’s nose was frantically admiring my neck and the soft skin of my chest. A thrilling excitement filled me to the top of my head at the low voice that burst out with satisfaction and his reaction of occasionally gnawing on curses, unable to contain his excitement. I became desperately curious about this man’s pheromones, this Alpha’s pheromones, which I had never smelled before. What kind of scent would it be? A deep woody scent like Andrew? Or a heavy musk scent with a refreshing citrus scent like the Crown Prince?
His pheromones, which I had only been able to confirm with a few lines of text in the Setting book, were said to be the scent of elegant lilies with a cozy suede scent. It was a perfect match for the gentle-looking, frail Alpha with a kind smile.
Until now, he had loved Allen and grown up because of Allen, and he had always been a handsome scholar who had never seemed to have lifted anything heavier than a book, but he loved me and grew up because of me…….
“Amazing. You still have time to think about other things?”
He was still serious and kind, but he was a ferocious warrior and beast who seemed like he could crush me with one hand without a trace. The elegant scent that would flow from the man’s tightly woven muscles would be enough to make me anxious.
I stuck out my tongue and licked his sweaty neck. A spark flew in his dark eyes. No, it was more like a lightning strike close to a disaster than a spark.
“It’s just…, it’s unfair. You’re the only one smelling my pheromones……”
“Ha, Noah.”
“I want to smell your pheromones too. What kind of smell do you have? I’m so curious……”
I buried my nose in his thick neck, which smelled faintly of sweat, and licked his salty skin with my tongue. He trembled all over as if he was being punished, but he couldn’t shake me off.
The hand stroking my hair gradually became rougher. It was closer to the shape of his hand unknowingly putting strength into it than what he intended. I also slowly lowered the hand that had been stroking his back. The sensation of the sweaty bare skin that brushed against my palm was indescribably wonderful. And what about the wriggling back muscles?
“Damn it, why are you, why are you making me…, unable to come to my senses every time……”
Carlisle, who was muttering in a plaintive voice that was half resentment and half plea, grabbed my chin roughly and left another kiss, as if he couldn’t stand it any longer. His thick tongue licked the sensitive flesh in my mouth. My legs trembled when the hot breath spread across the roof of my mouth. My body kept twisting, and I was ashamed because I could feel so clearly that the deep place between my legs was getting wet.
Compared to Carlisle, who was already naked from the time he turned from a wolf back into a person, my body, which was wearing a simple robe divided into top and bottom, still had unnecessary pieces of cloth left.
“Euung, take this off too, take this off too…, I want to take everything off too……”
There was a lot of strength in the hand holding my shoulder, but I, who had already lost my mind, didn’t feel it hurt. It was after Carlisle, who had his eyes turned over with excitement, pulled down my pants and underwear at once that I thought I would have a bruise on my shoulder.
Breathless, I tilted my head back for a moment, and Carlisle, as if unable to bear even that brief separation, persistently pressed his lips against mine again. It was a movement almost akin to biting. My lips, thoroughly sucked and bitten by this stubborn man, had already swollen up plumply. The only men I had kissed while sober were Andrew, the Crown Prince, and Lennox, and since they had already had plenty of experience before meeting me, they weren’t this clumsy. Of course, they possessed skills so adept they could make one’s mind spin with just a kiss. Unlike Carlisle, who, driven by sheer eagerness, had left numerous marks on my lips and chin.
However, this clumsy man’s reckless kiss, as if I were the only one he could see, plunged me into a crucible of excitement more than any technique ever could.
“Ha, Noah…, Noah…….”
The man, who had barely stopped the prolonged kiss, rested his forehead against mine, closed his eyes, and faithfully recited my name like a scripture. It was nothing. Just my name being called as if it were more precious and valuable than anything else in the world……. Yet, the space between my legs swelled and moistened once more.
“Goodness, how can such a sensation exist?”
His lower part, pressed against mine, was swollen so ominously it seemed ready to burst, yet Carlisle, as if this kiss alone were sufficient, caught his breath and muttered gratefully. And then, as if it were the most natural thing in the world……. He pulled my hand, which bore his tooth marks, toward him, showered it with light, smacking kisses, and then flopped down heavily beside me. He even kindly offered his arm as a pillow. But it didn’t end there. With that large hand, he began patting my stomach. As if everything was over and it was time to sleep.
“I love you, Noah.”
No……. Huh?
“Thinking about how long I’ve yearned to have you before my eyes is utterly heartbreaking…….”
Yes, I’m heartbroken too. I’m heartbroken, but… huh?
“But still…, lying here beside you like this feels so profoundly moving.”
It’s moving…, huh? This is…, huh? This is the end? Is this…, is this right…?
It felt like my thought processes had short-circuited. Of course, I hadn’t gone all the way with anyone yet either, so despite my bold ambitions, I hadn’t even thought as far as taking Carlisle inside me…….
“Um, Carlisle.”
Even so, this can’t be it, man!
“Yes, Noah.”
“Are we……. Is this the end?”
“Huh? What do you mean…?”
“No, I mean. We kissed, right? And you said you can sense my pheromones…?”
“Yes…. Your enchanting, luscious rose scent……. Even now, it merely makes me tremble.”
Carlisle’s face flushed slightly as he spoke, his expression appearing so impossibly innocent, as if he were embarrassed……. I was just dumbfounded. Just biting my lips a little, fondling my chest……. And this…, is the end? No, if it was going to be like this, why did you so thrillingly and provocatively grope me over my underwear? Why did you take my clothes off! The more I thought about it, the more absurd it felt. It couldn’t be that he didn’t feel any attraction to me. Even now, his clearly perceptible lower part was so swollen it was a miracle it hadn’t burst.
“Are you satisfied with just this?”
“Yes…?”
Where did the beast that looked ready to devour me go? Now it was just a tame puppy rolling its wide, shiny eyes. All the Alphas I’d dealt with so far would lose their minds and pounce as soon as I gave them a kiss and released some pheromones, so I just couldn’t adapt to this. How…, with a moist, slick Omega right in front of him……. Could he be this bland? No, really, how?
“This thing, I mean. This thing.”
“Ah!”
Feeling that words alone wouldn’t suffice, I abruptly reached my hand downward. The moment I grabbed the ominously swollen pillar, a shocked gasp escaped his lips. Carlisle, unable to either remove my hand shaking his member or fully enjoy the sensation, just kept letting out moans, “Ah, ah, ah.”
“No, No, Noah…! Noah…!”
“Do you dislike it?”
“Th, th, that can’t be…!”
While his shoulders trembled as precum gushed out intermittently, Carlisle diligently answered my question.
“Or am I not attractive enough? Just someone you’re satisfied with enjoying up to a kiss?”
“Tha, that can’t be! Ah, wait a moment, Noah, Noah, ah!”
The temperature filling my palm gradually grew hotter, and he, unable to even look me in the eye, ended up spilling thick semen in streams.
“Ah, before the wedding ceremony…, we shouldn’t do such things…, so I was trying to be satisfied with just the kiss…….”
Was Carlisle a believer in premarital chastity? Compared to the other love interests, the 19+ scenes were indeed much fewer……
I persistently probed him, asking if his values leaned that way. Then, the beast-like man with an innocent face, who had just drenched my hand in semen, answered without any suspicion.
“Father said…. If I engage in sexual relations before marriage, my tail will fall off, so I shouldn’t even dream of anything beyond a kiss…….”
No, Your Grace the Grand Duke……. Just how did you raise your only heir…….