By Zephyria 
Elian woke up late in the afternoon.
His whole body ached as if he’d been beaten, and he couldn’t move an inch.
His overflowing stamina had long since turned to dust. In an instant, he had become a patient groaning in pain.
“You’re awake?”
Yet, the voice of the one who caused him to be this way was so sweet and refreshing. It felt as if Elian had spent that long night alone, making him wonder if he had dreamt it.
“You, why are you here… Cough.”
He had cried and screamed so much yesterday that his voice was completely gone. Elian sighed, lamenting his own messy physical condition.
‘Truly… it was incredible.’
Elian shivered as he recalled everything that had happened last night. It was the first time he had experienced such pleasure, and while it felt so good, it was also frightening.
The intensity and sheer volume of pleasure were so immense that he couldn’t help but shake his head.
“Elian kept groaning, so I stayed by his side.”
It seemed he had indeed fallen ill.
“You… work?”
Still, the fact that he didn’t feel resentment made him realize he was truly, deeply smitten.
“I handled the urgent matters this morning and have been dealing with the rest here. How are you feeling?”
“…Like I’m going to die.”
“Oh, dear….”
Kirendis expressed sympathy as if it were someone else’s problem. Elian found a hint of pride in his tone, which annoyed him.
“Ah, I’m sorry. It was my first time experiencing something as satisfying as yesterday, so I got carried away….”
First time…
Elian was lost for words at his remark, but he was glad Kirendis had found it satisfying.
‘I liked it too.’
It was so good it was a problem, but it wasn’t something he disliked. Elian decided to enjoy it to the fullest now that things were this way.
After all, once his sight recovered, busy days would begin, so when would he ever get to live such a decadent life?
“I… liked it too.”
So, Elian confessed his honest feelings. However, Kirendis casually brushed his words aside.
“I know. You seemed to.”
“……”
He had expected Kirendis to at least be surprised or embarrassed, but he was beyond nonchalant; he was brazen.
“Even though you said it was difficult, you came so quickly whenever I touched you, and you came again and again. It wouldn’t be possible to keep coming like that if you didn’t enjoy it.”
“……”
“It was truly beyond imagination. You were more sensitive than usual, getting aroused at the slightest touch and sobbing with every stroke. It’s hard to feel that intensely….”
“Ugh! Stop!”
Defeated by his explicit word choices, Elian covered his ears and buried his face in the bed.
It had been as incredible as he said, and he wished he could just disappear.
Then, Kirendis chuckled and leaned in, whispering.
“That’s why you were so beautiful.”
“……”
Ah, really…
Elian felt his heart pounding wildly, his face flushed red, as he hid it. He could feel his body slipping out of his control again, drawn towards Kirendis.
Every single cell was focused on him, aware of him.
“Aren’t you hungry? I bathed you this morning, but do you want to wash again?”
His body ached and was exhausted to the point of immobility, but that made him want to wash even more.
However, he was afraid that accepting his help might lead to something other than his intended purpose.
“Don’t worry. I’m not a thoughtless beast.”
…So he knew he was a beast?
It was absurd, but he couldn’t possibly show his disheveled body to another person, so he decided to trust him.
Fortunately, Kirendis truly just helped Elian wash. He provided the utmost service, relieving his fatigue.
However, he transformed back into a thoughtless beast again halfway through dinner.
“Mmm. Ah, really.”
“Haa… Elian.”
Kirendis embraced Elian from behind, inhaling sharply.
Elian was currently seated at the dining table, using Kirendis as a chair, deeply embedded within him.
“Hnn… You pervert. Do you have to do this while eating?”
“Yes. I want to. I like it so much, Elian.”
It was utterly maddening. His body, still recovering from fatigue, couldn’t even support him properly, and since he couldn’t see, he had no means of resistance.
“Haaang. Eung… Here… Haak.”
He protested as he felt the thrusting motion of his hips, but it didn’t work on Kirendis.
“Elian, you can’t see anyway, so it’s all the same. Please indulge me. I’ve always wanted to try this while eating just once.”
“Haak. You, really. Eung….”
He knew Kirendis’s sex wasn’t gentle, but he hadn’t realized he was also this unrestrained in this regard.
Kirendis didn’t move as forcefully as he had yesterday, but just the act of penetration was exhausting.
‘My body is too… sensitive.’
Whether it was the aftereffects of yesterday or because he couldn’t see, his body was so sensitive that he felt pleasure with every touch, every stroke, which was troublesome.
“Haa… I’m glad I learned how Elian can last without coming.”
“Huk. What do you mean….”
“It saves stamina, so we can do it for longer.”
It was the most outrageous remark. To Elian, it felt like his stamina drained just the same whether he came or not.
But upon reflection, the words seemed to hold some truth. Mentally, he felt his stamina draining rapidly, yet he had endured the entire duration of their prolonged session.
‘This ridiculous stamina.’
Realizing this, Elian felt dizzy. He dreaded how much more he would be pushed based on this.
“Haak.”
“Haa.”
Elian could only moan until his food grew cold. This continued even after he finished his meal.
When night fell, Kirendis held him, and he moaned for a long time before falling into a deep sleep as if he had fainted. Then, he would wake up to find Kirendis beside him again.
Kirendis even brought his work into the room to do it. He seemed to handle the tasks that required him to be outside while Elian was asleep.
As a result, Elian was always with Kirendis. He was the perfect attendant, accommodating his needs and acting as his hands and feet.
Indeed, it was more convenient for Kirendis to help him than for the servants of the Duchy. However, the price for this convenience was too high.
“Haak. No… Stop… Eung.”
The frequency of Kirendis’s advances began to increase. Before he knew it, he was constantly entwined with Kirendis, except for the times he ate, washed, or slept.
At first, he had accepted it, deciding to enjoy it while he could, but now that it had come to this, he felt it was too much.
“Haa. Elian.”
But Kirendis radiated an overwhelming sense of happiness, making it impossible for Elian to push him away strongly.
Elian liked how Kirendis clung to him like a puppy, so even though it was difficult, he spread his legs and embraced him.
“Eung. Ah, Kirendis.”
As things escalated, Kirendis’s movements became even more aggressive. The moment Elian opened his eyes, his day began with Kirendis thrusting into him.
“Haak. Ahh….”
Overwhelmed by the intense pleasure the moment he woke up, Elian cried out and clung to him again. Sometimes, he would even wake up already being penetrated.
“Eung. This….”
“Haa… I’m sorry. I didn’t intend to go this far.”
Kirendis, while apologizing, didn’t stop thrusting his hips. He spread Elian’s legs and entered him. Elian accepted Kirendis, feeling intense pleasure together.
After an unknown amount of time had passed in such decadent days, Elian realized he truly couldn’t take it anymore.
There was a limit to how much he could accept, and a limit to how many times they could do it consecutively.
“Huk. No. I really can’t anymore. Haak… Eung.”
But given their history, Kirendis didn’t believe him even when he genuinely said he couldn’t.
Moreover, his penis would stiffen and reach climax just from being touched, so there was no way to prove his sincerity.
“Do you know something? The more Elian likes it, the more he says it’s difficult and he can’t do it.”
Ah.
Elian realized he had truly, utterly messed up.
It was his fault for constantly moaning.
Now, whenever he said it was difficult, Kirendis would interpret it as a sign of enjoyment, and if he said nothing, he would interpret that as permission.
Either way, he was in a position where he had no choice but to yield his body and moan. He felt like he might die from overexertion.
‘Hnn… I have to… respond too.’
He needed to respond to the words of love, but this situation made it impossible.
If he was this wild now, he couldn’t fathom how much more unrestrained he would be if he knew their feelings were mutual.
Then, a thought suddenly struck him.
‘Do I really… have to respond?’
The relationship between Elian and Kirendis was already akin to that of lovers. Therefore, he wondered if there was a need to say it explicitly.
He even felt the need diminishing because Kirendis seemed to already know Elian’s feelings.
‘I’m also… embarrassed.’
Expressing one’s feelings was quite difficult. Despite numerous opportunities while they were constantly entwined, Elian had never managed to give a proper response.
Each time, he would convey his feelings through actions, by kissing him or pulling him into an embrace.
Elian thought that might be enough.
‘For now… I need to escape this crisis.’
He was genuinely on the verge of dying from overexertion, so the matter of confession was postponed indefinitely.
He prayed and prayed for his sight to recover so he could do something.
As if his earnest wish was heard, one morning, bathed in dazzling sunlight.
His vision returned.
‘Is the world… always this beautiful?’
The scenery outside the window, touched by the sunlight, sparkled like jewels.
Elian keenly realized the preciousness of sight. He had made a firm resolution not to overexert himself anymore.
‘Now I can respond properly.’
At least he could escape now, so the decadent days spent in pleasure were over.
But now that he was free, he felt a slight sense of regret.
‘I’m crazy, I’m crazy.’
He must be insane to feel regret after going through so much hardship.
“Ugh….”
Elian carefully got out of bed and tried standing on his own two feet. He stomped his feet firmly, and his actions were clearly visible.
He wiggled his fingers, checking them, and then confirmed his hair was still intact.
“Ah! My face!”
What bothered him the most was his face. He wanted to confirm if his face looked as beautiful as usual.
Elian was about to rush to the mirror when the door opened, and someone familiar walked in.
“Elian!”
He exclaimed in surprise and rushed forward, embracing Elian.
“You can see now? Ah, truly… I’m so relieved.”
The person murmuring “relieved” repeatedly was Kirendis. Elian asked, feeling somewhat dazed.
“How… did you know?”
“How would I know? You’re looking right at me.”
“Ah….”
A breathtakingly beautiful face filled his vision. He was captivated by his hair, which sparkled even more in the sunlight, and his eyes.
A smile that illuminated the world drew closer, and their lips met.
Elian collapsed back onto the bed. He thought he could escape now that he could see, but that had been an impossible option from the start.
How could he possibly run away when such a radiant person was smiling and kissing him?
He felt it was a waste to have lived without seeing this face for so long. The thought of not overusing his abilities became even stronger.
“Haa. I’m so relieved. Honestly, I was anxious during that time. Even when I was touching Elian, his gaze was always averted.”
“Ah….”
So that’s why he had pushed so hard?
Only then did he begin to understand why Kirendis had held him so tightly and so often. It seemed to stem from a desire to alleviate his anxiety.
“But now, you’re looking directly at me like this.”
He looked incredibly happy. With a bright smile, he said to Elian.
“I love you. I wanted to tell you again once your sight returned.”
Fwoosh.*
Elian’s face turned bright red. His throat felt choked, and he couldn’t speak. He could only stare blankly at the face that was confessing its love, a face of unparalleled beauty.
Kirendis smiled gently at Elian’s reaction and kissed him.
The sweet kiss gently swept through his mouth, melting Elian. His large hands naturally began to undress Elian. Elian, in turn, undressed Kirendis.
His firm body, revealed under the bright sunlight, was breathtakingly beautiful.
He wanted to touch, to feel. He wanted to engrave it all in his memory.
‘Ah, really….’
He didn’t know why it always ended up like this, but he had to revise his plans.
Right now, all he wanted was to be with him madly. He wondered if a person could be this fickle, but it was unavoidable when the other person was Kirendis.
“Hold me, Kirendis.”
Instead of confessing his love, Elian conveyed his feelings with different words. Kirendis met Elian’s gaze, smiled, and replied.
“As much as you wish.”