By Zephyria Koi’s face, which had been overjoyed until then, hardened at the harsh shout. But Ashley didn’t care and yelled.
“Did you take out the pheromones, you! My pheromones!”
Koi flinched at the rough shout. Ashley was genuinely angry. It was the first time Koi had seen him like this, so he was flustered, but he didn’t know why. Koi struggled to pull up the awkwardly lowered corners of his mouth again and spoke with difficulty.
“I don’t know about that either… Anyway, your condition has improved, right? Isn’t that enough? Um, you can definitely smell my pheromones, right? You trust me now, right? Huh?”
Koi asked repeatedly, but Ashley didn’t answer. Rather, Koi was frightened by his miserably distorted face.
“Ash, what’s wrong?”
He forced a smile to shake off his anxiety and asked jokingly.
“There’s no problem now, right? My pheromones are coming out, so we’re okay now, right?”
He carefully reached out his hand, but Ashley retreated again. Ashley, whose back was against the wall and had no choice but to stop, glared at Koi and sneered.
“Okay?”
Ashley muttered in an unmistakably cold voice.
“Do you think I’ll fall for you again?”
“What?”
Koi was flustered by the unexpected words and could only utter that one word. Ashley coldly said, as if mocking Koi.
“Anyway, if you see someone more miserable than me, you’ll abandon me again at any time, right? It’s okay, I don’t care.”
“Ash.”
Koi called him, but Ashley’s expression didn’t change at all. With a face mixed with distrust of Koi and self-loathing, he smiled bitterly.
So I have to be unhappy. I have to be ruined in the most miserable state in the world so you won’t leave me.
“Why do you keep saying that?”
Koi couldn’t stand it any longer and sobbed. Even while looking at him, Ashley didn’t feel any pain in his heart. Rather, Ashley could feel a small pleasure tingling through him.
Even if it’s pity, even if it’s compassion, it doesn’t matter.
“I’m an Omega now. I came all the way here to be with you, so why don’t you trust me? What do I have to do…?”
Koi kept asking and asking. Facing him full of tears, Ashley recalled. No matter what promises Koi made, Ashley wouldn’t be able to believe them. Now, this was the only way left for him.
No, this was the only way, but.
“I wanted to get revenge on you.”
Ashley said in a quiet voice. When Koi paused, he continued to speak.
“If I break down, kind you will be in pain. You’ll regret it until you die, ruining me like this.”
Ashley slowly smiled. Koi was completely lost in thought by the absurd smile.
“That’s my revenge. Revenge on you for abandoning me.”
Ahahaha, a metallic laughter echoed emptily. Ashley tilted his head back and laughed and laughed.
After that day, Ashley never took out his pheromones. He didn’t sleep with anyone, didn’t even use injections, and watched his body and brain break down. More happily than ever.
Ah, that was all my life was about.
The laughter didn’t last long. Ashley stared blankly at the ceiling.
But you ruined my revenge.
“Ash.”
Koi called him in a fading voice. Ashley only moved his gaze and stared at Koi. He chuckled at the distorted face that was barely holding back tears.
You found out too soon. You should have noticed after I went crazy and died.
Now how do I hold onto you?
Now what should I do to make you suffer and regret more?
“Bernice said, right? That my brain is strange, that I’ve gone crazy.”
“She didn’t say it like that…”
“She’s wrong.”
Ashley said in a calm voice.
“When I first thought about revenge, I was already crazy.”
Ashley was still smiling, but Koi thought he looked like he was crying. Because of that, he couldn’t shed tears. How could he cry in front of someone who couldn’t even cry? Ashley added, as if asking himself.
“I can’t be in my right mind. How could I be okay? You abandoned me.”
If only I could.
I want to put shackles on your feet and make you wait for me all day long.
So you can only think about me, and you can’t live without me.
If your world could be filled with me, if only that could really happen.
“Koi, you’re the only one in my life.”
Ashley muttered.
“All I have, all I want, has been you for my whole life.”
“Ash…”
“But now it’s over.”
Ashley laughed again. Koi couldn’t say anything while looking at him like that. He could only watch Ashley, who seemed to be completely broken.
“…You fool.”
Koi muttered only that one word. He reached out a trembling hand, but Ashley remained still. Perhaps it was because there was nowhere else to retreat. Koi carefully hugged him as he watched silently. Tears that he had been holding back flowed down his cheeks. Ashley leaned his head against his chest and recalled what the doctor had said.
〈It’s irreversible now. It will continue to break down.〉
Then will the me who loves you disappear?
Then what will I become? Me who doesn’t love you, can such a thing exist in the world?
“Back then…”
Koi whispered over his head. As if answering his question.
“I’ll remember. I’ll love you.”
Koi continued to speak. Like a spell.
“More than me, more than anything else in the world, forever, I’ll remember and love you for the rest of my life.”
Koi released the arms that were holding him and cupped Ashley’s cheeks with both hands, looking into his eyes. Koi smiled weakly at the deep purple eyes.
Even if you forget me, even if you don’t love me anymore.
“The you I love is still there.”
Koi closed his eyes and kissed Ashley’s lips. Ashley also closed his eyes and parted his lips. Hesitant arms wrapped around Koi’s waist and pulled him in tightly. Koi happily wrapped his arms around his neck and deepened the kiss. There were only two of them in the closet.
There were only two of them in the world.
They visited the hospital the very next day. Bernice, who had been contacted in advance, had finished all the preparations and was waiting.
“Hello, Mr. Miller. Mr. Niles.”
She greeted them with her usual businesslike attitude. Bernice, who exchanged glances with them, fixed her gaze on Ashley and opened her mouth.
“Mr. Niles’s trait test requires a sample to be taken, so could you wait for a moment? The results will be out within 30 minutes.”
“I’ll be back, Ash. I’ll definitely come.”
Koi deliberately added, but Ashley’s reaction was lukewarm. He hadn’t been in a very good mood since morning. No, he had been like this ever since he realized that his revenge had failed the day before because of Koi. But Koi didn’t care and steadily followed Bernice.
“A trait test now? Weren’t you pregnant?”
Bernice asked when they were alone. Even for her, a professional and thorough person, she couldn’t resist this question. Koi took a deep breath and opened his mouth.
“I need to be more sure.”
Bernice still had doubts, but she didn’t ask any further and closed her mouth, saying, “I see.” And about an hour later, they faced an unexpected situation.
“I’m sorry I’m late.”
The doctor who came to Koi and Ashley, who were waiting, with an apology, began to speak.
“The test results were unreliable, so I was late because I had to retest. Um, I ran several tests at the same time…”
He unnecessarily lengthened the introduction, looked at them alternately, and then said to Koi.
“I also did a pregnancy test, and it’s certain. But the trait test is also correct.”
He couldn’t hold back his overwhelming emotions, took a deep breath, and finally asked.
“Did you know that your trait is an Dominant Omega?”
Bernice, who was standing next to the sofa, widened her eyes in surprise, unlike usual, and hurriedly returned to her expressionless face. But still feeling the gaze looking at Koi with her still shaking eyes, Koi looked at the doctor and answered, “Yes.”
“I knew. The trait came out as Beta, right?”
“That’s right. How can this be? In the world, I must be the only one who has met two Extreme Omegas.”
At the word ‘two’, Angel’s face suddenly flashed through his mind, but Koi soon returned to reality and focused on the matter at hand. The doctor continued to speak quickly in a raised voice, unable to hide his excitement.
“How did this happen? When did it manifest? What are the symptoms of manifestation? Could I get some more blood samples? No, just answering the questionnaire is enough. This precious data, no, I’m sorry. That’s not what I meant.”
“Steward.”
Ashley opened his mouth for the first time. With an extremely cold face, he glared at the doctor.
“You’re not daring to ask for my Koi as a test subject, are you?”
“Yes? N-No way. No, absolutely not.”
The doctor hurriedly regained his senses and repeatedly denied.
“Just a simple questionnaire is enough. I’m sorry. I was too excited.”
“It’s okay, Mr. Steward.”
Koi calmly spoke.
“I can do as many questionnaires as you want. I’ll give you blood samples if you need them. Um, I have a question.”
“Yes, what is it? Tell me anything. I’ll answer if I know.”
At the doctor’s proactive words, Koi took a deep breath and brought up the reason he came here.
“I’ve heard that Dominant Omega’s pheromones cause Dominant Alpha’s pheromones to be overproduced, causing them to fall into a rut or causing brain damage. Is there any chance that the opposite could happen?”