By Zephyria 
I felt sick, dizzy, and had a cold sweat from the vertigo. I didn’t know if it was because I was really in pain or because of my anger towards my past self.
I wanted to fall asleep like this, but it was urgent to clear up this misunderstanding first.
“Did I often tell you that you had nothing to offer except being pretty?”
Aska’s eyes widened at my question.
“Do you remember a little?”
“…….”
I was somehow happy that he remembered, but I couldn’t be happy. That meant what I said was true…
“Forget everything he said.”
“He?”
“What does a kid know? He only knows how to talk nonsense.”
Aska’s expression became subtle as he belatedly realized what I was saying.
“Why do you have nothing to offer except being pretty? You have a nice voice, cool hands, soft hair…”
I was listing what I felt, but when I thought about it, it was all related to appearance. So I quickly changed my words.
“You eat meat well, you eat sweets well, you worry well, you sleep well, and you’re strong. You’re good at magic too. You have so many good qualities.”
“……Are those good qualities?”
“Of course. Are they flaws then?”
Aska looked at me with a dubious face and asked.
“Then, would it be okay if I were bald?”
It was such a random and extreme example. I stared at his face and imagined him bald. He would still be quite cute without hair, so I nodded.
“Then, what if you had no eyes, nose, or mouth?”
“You have them all.”
“I mean, what if.”
I couldn’t understand why he had to think about such a hypothetical situation. Was that wobbly mass I saw in the water Aska’s true form? And he’s transformed into a human now?
If that was the case, then it made sense why he was asking these questions.
He didn’t even seem able to move on his own, so if he was in that state, would I have to carry him around in my pocket? Could he not live outside of water? Could he not speak? I wouldn’t like it if he couldn’t talk.
The metallic, silvery shimmering color was pretty, so just looking at it would be enough to pass the time, but it was still best to look into his eyes and talk.
“The mouth is a bit much. It’s okay if you don’t have eyes or a nose.”
“Why the mouth?”
“You can’t talk.”
Aska’s expression became dubious as I said it seriously.
“You’re a really weird bastard…”
Then he muttered to himself.
“Weird bastard?”
I scoffed at his impudent words.
“You asked me.”
“I didn’t expect you to answer like that.”
“Then what did you want to hear when you asked?”
“It’s not that I wanted to hear anything… it’s just, whatever.”
Whatever what? I couldn’t understand what he was saying at all.
“If you can’t talk, I won’t know what you’re thinking.”
“I can still talk without a mouth.”
“Really? How?”
“Directly into your head… Ah, what am I even saying?”
Aska, who was about to explain, muttered to himself. He was grumbling, but his blushing cheeks showed that he was definitely happy. He really couldn’t be more dishonest.
“What if I had no eyes, nose, or mouth?”
“I can somehow take care of that, so it’s okay.”
“Even if I were bald?”
“What’s wrong with not having hair?”
I had another pang in my lower abdomen at his confident words as he glared at me, so I took a moment of silence.
“Then, whether you’re bald or have no eyes, nose, or mouth, what does it matter? You can somehow take care of yourself just like I can take care of you.”
“Still, that’s…”
Aska, who was mumbling something, suddenly seemed to remember something and looked at me in surprise. Then he asked with a suspicious look.
“But what did you see in your dream? Did you see anything else besides the festival?”
He doesn’t even want to show me the scars on his body, so he’ll hate it if I say I saw his original form, right? Even if the scars disappear, I might never see Aska naked for the rest of my life.
After quickly calculating, I nodded.
“I did see something, but I don’t know what it was.”
“What did you see?”
His face was full of tension. Seeing that, I closed my mouth for a moment. How can his inner thoughts and feelings be so obvious on his face? Was he like that when he was young? How did he look at me back then?
“What did you see?”
I snapped out of it at his urging.
“It was an indoor space without a ceiling… There were a lot of plants and trees. There were also flowers and something like a swimming pool… There was also a stone tower and a lot of miscellaneous things. Do you know where it is? There was also some kind of glass bottle.”
Wasn’t it probably the indoor Greenhouse in the Imperial Palace? I guessed, but I pretended not to know and asked.
Now that I’ve gotten the hang of it, I’m at a level where Aska won’t catch me even if I lie. Anyway, it’s a scene I saw in a dream, so it’s not a complete lie.
As expected, Aska seemed to know, and he moved his lips before nodding.
“I know.”
“Where is it?”
“My house…”
“What?”
Not a Greenhouse, but a house? But there was no ceiling? No, more than that, how could that be a house? I naturally thought it was a Greenhouse.
“You lived there? We did?”
“You didn’t come often. You were always running around…”
Aska said resentfully, as if he remembered the past. He didn’t say he loved me or that I was pretty, and I didn’t come home often.
“I was really a bad guy.”
Aska frowned as I sighed and said.
“It wasn’t that bad.”
“You were an unredeemable son of a bitch.”
“No, I wasn’t. Don’t curse. I was originally busy. I’m not an ordinary person, so it can’t be helped.”
He’s so kind and considerate… He was the perfect Imperial Princess Consort.
I reached out and stroked Aska’s head.
Good job, good job.
He looked like he was sulking, but it was so funny that he didn’t push my hand away and stayed still. He must be happy inside, but he’s too embarrassed to show it, so that’s why he’s acting like that, right?
Ha, when will the scars disappear?
“Anyway, it doesn’t matter whether you have scars or not, so tell me if you change your mind.”
I put my hand deep into his hair and ruffled it roughly, and Aska closed his eyes and shrugged his shoulders slightly.
“We can do it with the lights off.”
“No, it’s okay. Now help me up so I can wash.”
There was no need to put on clothes or turn off the lights if he didn’t want to. It was better to do it when Aska was okay, even if it took longer. It’s a shame, but we’re already married, so what’s the big deal about waiting a little?
I’m not a sex-crazed person, and Aska’s feelings are much more important to me.
“…….”
I tried to regain my peace of mind by thinking that way, but when I washed up and looked at myself in the mirror, I couldn’t do that anymore.
The red marks that started from my neck continued inside my gown. I lowered my head and confirmed that there were marks like insect bites on my knees.
Of course, I knew that these weren’t just simple marks. I looked at Aska in the mirror with a dumbfounded face. Aska must have seen everything while washing me, but he just calmly pressed my hair with a towel.
“What if I had horns?”
No, are horns the problem right now?
“Something very sharp and sharp that could hurt you if you touched it.”
“…….”
“Or what if I had really long nails?”
“…….”
I naturally imagined it in my head. Aska with pointy and cute horns on his forehead, touching me with long nails, biting, licking, and sucking my whole body…
“Huh?”
Then our eyes met through the mirror. His innocent face, as if he didn’t know anything, tilted his head to the side, and the heat in my whole body plummeted.
“What is this?”
“What?”
“Why is my body like this? When did this happen? Just now when I fainted?”
During that time when I lost consciousness because of the wolf’s ability? But unlike my expectations, Aska rolled his eyes and shook his head.
“Before you went out to meet Zero.”
“…….”
I had lost and regained consciousness so many times that it felt like a long time ago that I met Zero. Now that I think about it, Sakira seemed to be strangely closing my clothes…
In particular, some of the marks on my neck were in a position where they could be seen no matter how much I covered them with clothes.
No, he was so embarrassed and troubled that he couldn’t even make eye contact, but he does this when I’m not looking?
Was it because I was faced with a situation I had never expected? Now, it was no longer at a level that could be calmed down by recalling some Imperial etiquette.
Aska’s gaze went down as he noticed that a certain part of my gown was lifted up. Aska, who was momentarily surprised, stared at it blankly, and then suddenly said to me with a somehow excited face.
“Show me too.”
“…….”
His eyes were sparkling as if he had found an interesting toy. It’s not like I couldn’t show him, but I couldn’t shake off the awkward feeling.
“You saw it when you washed me earlier.”
“I’ve never seen it get bigger.”
No, why does he only want to see mine when he doesn’t show me anything…?