By Zephyria 
I licked every inch of Ruben’s exposed skin like a beast.
I bit into his bare nape, and whenever Ruben tried to push me away, I nudged my head into his chest, acting spoiled. Every time his hands wandered over my shoulder blades or the bedsheets, I slid my head underneath to rub against him.
Ruben’s hands were busy; he had to pet me as I kept rubbing against him, and he had to strip off the neat clothes he wore since I pretended I couldn’t undo the buttons.
I hindered his progress by lightly nipping at Ruben’s fingers as he fumbled with the buttons, making sure not to hurt him.
At this, Ruben burst into laughter again, letting out a soft “Ahak.”
“Wait, hng, it tickles, it tickles. Mika.”
“Keung. Kki-woong.”
I stood my tail straight up and wagged it vigorously. Ruben’s hand, which had been hugging my lower back, grabbed the fluffy clump of fur. Perhaps it was because he had never handled an animal before, or perhaps he was feeling mischievous; his touch was somewhat rough, causing a sharp gasp to escape me.
Ruben, who had stroked my tail from bottom to top a few times as if handling genitals, paused.
“⋯Is this not it?”
“Grrr⋯.”
“Ah, I really don’t know. ⋯Don’t smile like that. Really, I’ve truly never raised a dog before⋯.”
“Hng.”
Chu, chu. I showered him with short kisses. Ruben started to speak, then stopped, then started again. Then, he burst into laughter, his whole face lighting up. Seeing that expression made me happy, and my high-standing ears flopped back completely.
“No, of course, with a dog⋯. I shouldn’t be doing this. Ah, really⋯.”
“⋯.”
“You’re teasing me right now, aren’t you?”
“Hak.”
With a brazen face, I licked the corners of his mouth. Ruben accepted my desperate kisses for a while before his entire body went limp and he lay back.
When I pushed the tip of my nose between the shirt buttons—only three or four of which were undone—he let out another laugh. His weakened hand stroked the back of my head before settling around my neck.
Deciding I couldn’t wait any longer, I undid the remaining buttons with my own hands. Ruben’s eyes immediately narrowed playfully. As he slapped the back of my hand, I leaned my face against his exposed chest and rubbed.
Having found peace of mind while raising the child, Ruben had put on just the right amount of weight. His relaxed chest was soft and cozy, fitting perfectly in my hand.
Instead of biting immediately, I nuzzled him with the tip of my nose and lips, causing Ruben’s previously quiet nipples to harden and stand erect.
Watching this with bated breath, Ruben suddenly pulled my head into a tight embrace, burying me in his cleavage. Holding my breath for a moment was no trouble at all. I listened to the heart beating with a pleasant rhythm inside his chest, accompanied by repeated soft chuckles.
He murmured as if whispering.
“⋯Mika, you⋯. You really make me so stupid⋯.”
“Kki-woong.”
“⋯I’m not saying I hate it. Just⋯. I’m sorry.”
What on earth was he talking about?
Unable to answer in human speech, I squirmed to see Ruben’s expression. However, he held my head tight and wouldn’t let go. Ruben continued in a low, steady voice.
“⋯I know that what you say is the correct theory when it comes to relationships. But because I know⋯. Because I know, it makes me even angrier. I wonder why I can’t think like you, and then eventually, I think, ‘I’ve never received an apology either’⋯. It’s embarrassing that I have such childish thoughts⋯.”
“⋯.”
“I’ve always thought that I didn’t resent Kate.”
“⋯.”
“It’s not because I’m a broad-minded person⋯. It’s just that I know it’s efficient. No matter how much I think about it, if I were in her position, I would have acted the same way. I would have disciplined strictly, made the child walk a prepared path, and thought that the friction occurring in that process was inevitable. Because to gain much, one must give up a part of themselves.”
“⋯.”
He must have realized I was lucid from my touch just now. This was a precious moment where Ruben shared the thoughts he had pondered alone. I didn’t do anything foolish and pricked up my ears. Both my human ears and animal ears stood tall and twitched in concentration.
Ruben laughed briefly, then continued while stroking my head.
“Also, earlier⋯. After hearing your words.”
“Wang.”
“I, I really didn’t want to apologize.”
“⋯.”
“I couldn’t apologize. I shouldn’t have. Regardless of what intentions that child had. How can I be sure this was the only time? Then this might be the last chance to set that child right. In that case, it’s right to fix it now by any means necessary⋯.”
“⋯.”
“It’s strange. I clearly love Titi, but. I want to lead that child down the right path, and I want that child to live happily⋯. Separate from that, I was just so, ⋯angry.”
“⋯.”
“That child has everything arranged, unlike me. Born with such immense Mana and receiving everyone’s love. Everything was prepared so they could become the strongest and wisest Emperor in the history of the Empire⋯. And yet, purposely⋯.”
“⋯.”
“No, but my head knows. Titi is still young, and didn’t do those things out of malice. Even so, I couldn’t contain my anger⋯. Then what I did might not have been proper discipline⋯.”
“⋯Kki-ing.”
“Thinking that makes me feel like I’m too much like Kate right now. I thought I had beaten her. That I’m a truly good father, different from her⋯. But then I wondered if that woman saw me the same way, and I couldn’t stand it. Then I would have to hate myself. Everything she yelled at me and pressured me for would become my fault. Then Titi and I, someday in the future⋯.”
“Bark!”
That’s not true.
I shook my head and struggled to escape Ruben’s embrace. Ruben wouldn’t let me go. So, I grabbed Ruben’s waist with my hands and pulled him down. Ruben resisted for a moment but couldn’t hold out long and complied.
The corners of his eyes, which had been smiling so beautifully just a moment ago, were damp again. The wet corners of his eyes were redder than the flush on his white cheeks. Without a second thought, I kissed and licked the corners of those eyes.
It tasted a bit salty.
I licked away every drop of moisture that seeped out whenever he blinked.
At my clumsy attempt at comfort, Ruben bit his lower lip hard. So, I kissed his lips as well. Then, this time, the boy burrowed into my embrace. I opened my arms willingly, hugged Ruben, and rolled half a turn.
Now I was lying down, and Ruben had his cheek buried in my chest.
He squirmed, trying to lift his body within my embrace. Once he grabbed with his hands, then with his legs. Then Ruben laughed again. He collapsed into my arms.
That laughter sounded like sobbing, so I peeked at his face, but this time he really was smiling.
“How is everything so easy for you?”
“⋯.”
“Then why is everything so difficult for me?”
“⋯.”
Ruben undid the very last button that had been precariously remaining.
And he whispered.
“Hold me, Mika. So I don’t drown in useless thoughts.”
It was a relief that I currently had a body that couldn’t speak. I thought that whenever Ruben was struggling, if I gave him my own solutions, he would feel better. But that wasn’t the case. I felt sorry and upset that my words, far from comforting Ruben, had instead rubbed him the wrong way.
It only now occurred to me that intervening during the discipline was also a great mistake. Because Titi looked so small and lovely in my eyes, I had spoiled the child, and it seemed the child’s habits had become bad. From now on, no matter how pitiful Titi acts, I will stand firmly behind Ruben and maintain a stern expression.
Still, it was a great relief. Even if I couldn’t comfort with words, I was confident in comforting with my body.
I now understand why Wilton Roberts went out of his way to gift me this drug. When Ruben is this upset, instead of spouting dull words, it would be more helpful to keep my mouth shut and just lick his cheeks. From now on, if I sense something is wrong, I’ll quietly cling to him and let Ruben pet me.
As I chewed over these various resolutions, Ruben sat perched on the bed, waiting.
I also raised my upper body.
The ears atop my head tilted slightly toward Ruben. My tail, which had been curled limply between my legs, tightened with strength.
* * *
It has been a very long time since I’ve heard Ruben’s moans to my heart’s content.
With nothing around to worry about, Ruben hid nothing. Not the panting breath, nor the wide-open lower mouth twitching as it held my genitals.
Red heat-flowers bloomed here and there on his stark white body, stripped of a single thread. When I lowered my head again toward the nipples, which were plump and swollen from being bitten for so long, a powerless hand blocked my face.
“Krung.”
“Hah, hng⋯. Ah, hng, it’s, it’s strange, strange⋯. If you do that there, hng, right away⋯.”
I couldn’t tell if he wanted more or wanted me to stop.
The deliberation lasted only a moment. Ruben loved the moment his mind went blank from the pleasure squeezed out at the Peak. Since he asked me to make him forget everything, it would be better not to accept this plea.
I bit and licked the hollow of Ruben’s palm. I pushed forward, chewing along the edge of his hand, and just as the back of his hand was pressed firmly into his chest, I slid sideways and bit the target.
“Hah, augh, ah⋯!”
I bit hard and sucked deeply. Ruben shivered and arched his back. He trembled deep within his inner walls. The semen that splashed up to the tip of my chin was very thick and cloudy, proving the nature of our relationship over the past few weeks.
Supporting the back of Ruben’s waist, I continued slow thrusts into the convulsing inner walls so that he could sink deep into the afterglow of the Peak. Each time, Ruben let out a suffocating sound and raised his knees. Occasionally, he twisted his waist and struggled as if he couldn’t bear it.
But in the end, ultimately, he let out a sobbing sound and begged, spreading his legs himself.
“Mi, hng, Mika. I, I⋯.”
“⋯.”
“Hup, qu-quickly, this way, here⋯. Ah!”
Ruben’s hands, which previously had prominent joints, had now filled out, becoming lighter in color and more elongated. As those handsome hands pressed down on the left side of his deeply defined abs, I willingly shifted direction. Then, the inner walls that had been biting my penis shaft tightened snugly.
This part was Ruben’s most vulnerable spot.
It is a place that cannot be reached until the body is sufficiently open. I poked and rubbed against the plump skin deep within the inner walls, a spot that can only be reached by forcing one’s way in. As I pounded against it, Ruben covered his own mouth and shuddered.
I grabbed his wrist and pinned it to the bed. I wanted to tell him I loved him, but only a beastly growl escaped my mouth. Clear water began to bead in Ruben’s eyes.
My vision flashed with overwhelming pleasure.
I was also in a hurry. With the pleasure that made the back of my neck stiffen, I buried myself even deeper while pinning both of Ruben’s wrists. The moment I thought of pouring my semen inside.
The boy started suddenly, trembling and pushing my shoulder. I also froze in surprise.
Inside Ruben, my member was growing even larger.
“At. Ah. Ah, ah, wait, ah⋯! Ah-hup.”
“⋯Krurung! King, uuuung⋯.”
“Don’t, don’t pull out, ah! No, no. Hng, it hurts, it hurts, Mi, hng, Mika. Mikaaa⋯.”
The base of my penis swelled like a balloon.
Startled, I tried to pull out, but I couldn’t. It was undoubtedly a burden even for Ruben, who had become languidly wet from our frequent acts.
Ruben turned bright red and trembled, and I stopped, unable to move forward or backward.
In the midst of this, I could feel the already wet interior becoming even more moist.
I poked out my tongue and panted from the pleasure of the long ejaculation. I scanned the sight of Ruben’s lower abdomen swelling plumply and the way he spread his legs wider, not knowing what to do.
Ruben closed his eyes tight and shook his head. I rubbed the beads of sweat rising damply on his shoulders and chest with my fingertips.
“Kki-ing⋯.”
“Hup, ah. Ah⋯. Wait, ah. Just like this⋯. Just like this. A little⋯. It’s, hng, it’s okay, it’s okay⋯.”
He didn’t look okay at all. Ruben panted incessantly. He couldn’t control a single one of his limbs. Tears kept springing from those beautiful, slender eyes.
Feeling helpless, I whined and licked the corners of his eyes and cheeks. I grabbed his flailing hand and bit the fingertips, trying my best to soothe him.
Then, Ruben’s genitals, which had collapsed after one ejaculation, began to swell again.
Ruben clumsily gripped and shook his own member. It was a desperate movement, to the point where it was hard to tell if he was trying to forget the pain through pleasure, or if he had gone into heat because my member filled his narrow inner walls.
Unable to watch those trembling hands any longer, I gripped Ruben’s member too. And I shook it. Ruben’s inner walls, his mind lost to what might have been pleasure, squeezed me as if convulsing.
It was dizzying even without a single thrust of the hips. I didn’t even need to see to know how much fluid was flowing from my penis. How could a person ejaculate this much, and how could such a volume of fluid be contained in a human body?
Ruben, who swallowed a volume of semen that would normally have been ejaculated four or five times through his rear, gagged weakly. Even though I only shook it a few times, Ruben ejaculated again.
Watching the glistening, wet member distort in my hand, I shifted my body and leaned down.
Ruben panted again and tried to arch his back, tightening his inner walls. It was fine even if he couldn’t move. I leaned my waist and kissed him deeply. His powerless hand came up to my head and stroked my sensitively pricked ears.
Very naturally, as a matter of course, I lost my mind.