By Zephyria 
They say only those who have eaten know the taste, and only those who have experienced leisure know how to rest. The sudden ten-day long vacation was unexpected.
Going to Germany to see Ji-ho seemed a bit ambiguous, and he considered taking a short trip elsewhere but quickly gave up. It was because he felt uneasy leaving Gyu-oh alone to handle his work.
In the end, he decided to rest deeply at home. After all, he had decided to focus on Gyu-oh until the promised period was over.
Of course, he didn’t mean focusing with his entire body like this.
“Ah, ugh…… get off a bit.”
“Whyyy? There are still two times left for this week.”
The hand that had invaded his pants deeply caressed his groin. Fingertips gently scratched the outline of his genitals, which stood out through the underwear.
“Crazy… bastard, you have no conscience. Take your hand out.”
“Aren’t you keeping your promise? Then you’ll have to go to jail, Min-ho-ya.”
The premise itself was fucking annoying. If they fucked, shook, and came together, that should count as one time, but this bastard insisted that sex only ended when his erect cock went soft. If Min-ho tried to avoid him and got caught, he had to endure grueling hours of torment in various parts of the house.
Because of that, he was now terrified from the start. If he actually filled the four times a week Won Gyu-oh mentioned, his bottom would surely be raw and he wouldn’t be able to walk properly. Moreover, if they did it that much, the guy’s cock would also be raw and stinging.
“Move, hah…… when I want to, I’ll loosen up and come to you.”
Therefore, this wasn’t about pushing him away or failing to keep a promise; it was a choice for both of them. Gyu-oh’s hand, which had been obsessively scratching the outline of the underwear with sharpened fingertips, came to a sudden halt. Thinking that they were finally speaking the same language, Min-ho pulled on the guy’s forearm.
The man, who surprisingly withdrew his hand obediently, suddenly shifted his sitting position. Because he had buried his face under Min-ho’s short-sleeved t-shirt and bitten his chest earlier, Gyu-oh’s hair was completely disheveled. Despite looking like he’d been clawed into a mess, his face was suddenly serious.
“Sorry to suddenly ruin the mood, Hyung.”
“Please ruin it. Ruin it more.”
Not knowing when the hand might reach out again, Min-ho pulled a blanket lying nearby and wrapped it around his body. Gyu-oh, watching him build a defensive wall, inhaled through his teeth.
“Sss, but why does Hyung loosen up alone?”
“Then who else would do it?”
“Obviously I should do it. That’s where the main game starts!”
Since he had never experienced a relationship based on affection to begin with, he didn’t know if that was normal. The first time he had been with a man, the partner had just shoved it in without loosening him up, and he had bled. After that, he had started clumsily loosening himself up. From then until now, he had no memory of entrusting that to someone else. Except for Won Gyu-oh.
“I don’t know. I just did it myself.”
“You were like that when we first did it too…… No, wait. Back then, you were waiting for that piece of shit.”
“…….”
“But you loosened up and waited? What on earth were you planning to go through? Was he someone you had to keep meeting?”
The sparks flew toward Son Pro, and this time the mood was truly ruined. Even though Min-ho looked at him with a disgruntled expression, Gyu-oh did not soften his fierce, wide-eyed gaze. It wasn’t particularly threatening, but it was a conversation that had to happen eventually.
“……I really had no intention of working things out with that man. Not until I met you.”
“Then why did you loosen up and wait? You waited wearing only a sexy gown, exposing your legs. I saw everything!”
At that time, he had only loosely prepared just in case. Since his relationships had been sparse thanks to that bastard Won Gyu-oh, it was closer to a childish choice. Min-ho, who had pulled the blanket up to cover his shoulders, leaned halfway against the backrest.
“I started but stopped. No matter how much I thought about it, I didn’t think he’d come. But if I’d known it would be with you, I would have loosened up properly.”
“…….”
“Since it had been a while, it fucking hurt.”
It was a relief that he didn’t bleed, though.
At his words, Gyu-oh’s eyes narrowed. He tilted his head as if measuring something and inhaled through his teeth. Then, he suddenly snapped his head up and met Min-ho’s eyes. The gaze, which until a moment ago had been overflowing with the heat of arousal, turned piercing.
“You’re giving me lip service? It wasn’t that long ago.”
“It was.”
“The baldie might look slow, but his tailing skills are top-notch. He knows all about you going in and out of hotels.”
He added that if it were now, he would have just barged into every hotel room and smashed everything, so Min-ho should be glad that he had some rationality back then.
Min-ho carefully searched his memories of that time.
“Ah.”
Could he be talking about the day he went to a hotel only to exercise and come back? He remembered Gyu-oh’s back as he had suddenly visited in the early morning, fiddling with Hanafuda cards and emitting a strange atmosphere.
Holding the edge of the blanket, Min-ho tossed and turned, choosing his words.
“I know which time you’re talking about. I didn’t sleep with him.”
“…….”
“All I did was sweat at the gym and leave.”
“Then why couldn’t you take off your clothes in front of me? I thought it was because you were afraid traces would remain.”
As expected, he wasn’t the type to believe his words obediently. Gyu-oh, extending both arms to trap him and leaning his upper body diagonally, brought his face close. He stared without blinking, as if attempting to discern whether Min-ho was lying.
“You might not know, but back then, your eyes… weren’t normal either.”
“What about my eyes?”
“Who knows what would happen if I stripped in front of a guy like that.”
He said so, but he had simply hoped that Won Gyu-oh wouldn’t be confused. That was all Cha Min-ho had ever wanted.
“Hmm.”
“It’s true. And back then……”
Why did the most important words always fail to come out easily? Whether it was saying he loved him, saying thank you, or saying he had been conscious of him. Expressing emotions honestly was always difficult for Min-ho. That was also the reason why, despite feeling lonely, he couldn’t keep people around him or rely on them.
Was it the same this time? After his lips twitched a few times, Min-ho slowly raised his gaze.
“Back then?”
He met the eyes of Gyu-oh, who repeated his words. It was a tender gaze, as if he would wait forever for the following words.
Yes, Won Gyu-oh had always given him that kind of look. When they were friends, when they were colleagues, when they were like family. So, even if they became something more, the temperature would not change.
“I thought of you.”
Suddenly, such a belief blossomed.
“That’s why I couldn’t even roll around like I used to.”
“…….”
“It wasn’t the time to say things like let’s date or whatever. Why I thought of you…… I don’t know either.”
Once he managed to pull it out, the rest flowed smoothly. It felt embarrassing because it sounded like a desperate confession, but he felt relieved inside.
Won Gyu-oh didn’t give any answer. However, Min-ho could see the corners of his mouth slowly curling up.
“No, hah.”
“…….”
“Cha Min-ho, aren’t you paying too much attention to me? Really……”
Unable to even finish his sentence, Gyu-oh let out repeated hollow laughs. He must be amazed. He probably never expected that Min-ho had been conscious of him since then, or that he had completely stopped his promiscuous behavior.
“Honestly. You’re the first person I’ve slept with this many times.”
“Hyung, you’re really……”
Gyu-oh couldn’t finish his sentence and covered his mouth. There were several old scars on the back of his hand where the bone protruded. After glancing at the area slightly darker than the skin tone, Min-ho pulled down the blanket wrapped around his body. Then, he grabbed Gyu-oh’s hand and pulled.
“Isn’t this serious enough? So there’s no need to rush.”
“…….”
He fiddled with Gyu-oh’s rough hand. There were calluses where the fingers met the palm and in the middle of the finger joints. Pressing the hard skin gently so as not to cause pain, he met his eyes.
“Answer me.”
“Yes, yes, right, Hyung is right.”
When he bluntly demanded an answer, Gyu-oh nodded as if possessed. Right, everything is right. Whatever Hyung says is right. He even continued to agree blindly. Min-ho, looking up at the face that seemed genuinely moved, let his eyes drop slightly.
“Hey, your mouth and your bottom are reacting differently. Kill your cock.”
“Got it, I’ll kill it.”
After a submissive reply, he hugged Min-ho tightly. He even rocked his body from side to side like a child.
“Don’t stick so close. Our bottoms are touching.”
“Mmm.”
A sound followed, whether it was an answer or a whine. Even as he shifted into an awkward posture, pulling his waist slightly back, he didn’t loosen the grip of the hand hugging the shoulder. Letting out a chuckle, Min-ho reached out and hugged Gyu-oh back.
“Ah……”
Then, Gyu-oh elongated the end of his words and buried his lips deep into the nape of Min-ho’s neck.
“I love it when it’s obvious that Hyung thinks of me as special. It makes me feel secure.”
“……Haven’t I shown it every day? I think just not kicking you out was showing it enough.”
“Please don’t ruin the mood.”
He had done the same thing earlier, yet now he threatened him not to ruin the atmosphere.
“Anyway. Hyung is different from people who give their hearts easily. It feels like you’re throwing your whole body into entrusting yourself to me.”
“…….”
“That’s why Hyung always seems sincere with me. I hope you’re only like that with me.”
Every time he whispered with twitching lips, hot breath tickled the skin. Normally, he would have pushed him away out of embarrassment, but not this time. Since he had gathered the courage once, he intended to endure it until the end.
Perhaps it was because they were both flawed. It felt as though their shapes fit together perfectly.
Min-ho swallowed a laugh and stroked the broad back up and down. The different body temperatures of the two men intertwined, gradually shifting toward a similar warmth.
“Right. Since we’re on the subject, let’s pull that baldie out now, too.”
For the time being, he wasn’t going to the office, and he spent all his remaining time with Gyu-oh. There was no need to make an innocent person suffer or waste energy on unnecessary things.
“I’ll let the baldie go. But I have a favor…”
“No.”
The way Gyu-oh trailed off while cautiously reading his expression was a major red flag. Sensing danger instinctively, Min-ho added firmly.
“I said no.”
“Without even hearing it?”
“Tell me. I’ll listen, and then I’ll say no.”
Gyu-oh, who had been breathing hot air against the nape of his neck, suddenly pulled his upper body back. Then, gripping both of Min-ho’s shoulders with a fairly serious face, he spoke.
“Let’s plant a GPS.”
“I heard you, and the answer is the same.”
“Ah, then should I put it inside so it’s invisible and not annoying?”
“Inside?”
As Min-ho asked back with a twitch of his eyebrow, Gyu-oh’s cheeks turned suspiciously red. Unable to meet his eyes, he simply licked his lips with his tongue.
“If I fuck you a few times, it’ll go in deep—”
“Fuck, are you insane?”
It was a sound so absurd it triggered a headache. After shouting so loud he nearly tripped over his words, Min-ho slapped Gyu-oh hard across the back. Perhaps because the back was wide and solid, the impact felt satisfying enough to make his palm sting.
“Ah, joke! Actually, I was serious, but I want to live, so I’ll change it to a joke! Ow!”
The guy, who had been enduring the blows by hunching his shoulders, completely bent his waist. He then suddenly wrapped his arms around Min-ho’s waist. Even then, Min-ho could feel him struggling to avoid touching the area where the gauze was attached.