By Zephyria Just imagining it made his heart feel like it would jump out of his mouth. Yu-jin swallowed hard and blinked rapidly. There was still no sign of anyone outside the door.
Let’s go.
Yu-jin finally made up his mind and got out of bed. But just as he was about to put his foot on the floor, he heard another voice.
What if he’s already asleep?
As soon as he thought that, he couldn’t act anymore. What if Winston is already asleep and I go to his room alone, desperate? Moreover, he couldn’t even imagine what Winston would think of Yu-jin.
What if he doesn’t even think about it and I’m just doing this…?
Thinking that, Yu-jin quickly retracted his foot and lay down on the bed. Let’s not do anything foolish and just sleep. Winston must be sleeping too. Yeah, that’s right. As he whipped himself and tried to force himself to sleep, another sound woke him up again.
What if Winnie is waiting for me too?
His eyes widened at that thought. Maybe Winston is hesitating like him.
That’s right, that must be it.
Yu-jin, who had jumped up again, paused.What reason would Winston have to hesitate, when he kisses so casually?
Once again, Yu-jin flopped down. His heart kept racing, and he felt frustrated, unable to do anything.
What should I do, what should I do?
Yu-jin was in tremendous conflict between wanting to open Winston’s door right away and another version of himself blocking the way. As he repeated lying down and getting up several times, the sun was dimly rising in the distance.
* * *
Haaah.
Yu-jin, who had yawned loudly, was startled and covered his mouth, looking around. Fortunately, Winston didn’t seem to notice. That was probably because Winston’s eyes were also bloodshot. Yu-jin, who had been cautiously observing, carefully broached the subject.
“Hey, Winnie.”
“Uh-huh?”
Winston replied in a more clumsy tone than usual. He was listlessly eating scrambled eggs, and when he raised his head, his face, exhausted and dark, immediately met Yu-jin’s. Yu-jin was startled and widened his eyes.
“What’s wrong? Are you not feeling well?”
When he asked worriedly, Winston blinked for a moment, then said no and looked back down at his plate.
“I’m just a little tired. ……You’re the one who doesn’t look so good? Are you okay?”
At the glance, Yu-jin avoided his eyes this time.
“Y-yeah, I’m fine. I’m also ti… tired.”
What if he asks why I’m tired? Yu-jin’s heart was pounding, but fortunately, Winston didn’t ask. The situation was the same for him.
I could probably go a year without masturbating.
Winston thought blankly. What if Yu-jin asks what I did last night to be so tired?
I masturbated thinking about you.
Winston, who had inadvertently thought of that, imagined Yu-jin’s reaction.
Ah, damn it. A year, my ass.
The moment he thought of Yu-jin, blushing and not knowing what to do, whispering, “Then, will you come to my room…?”, he got an erection. Fortunately, the table hid the unsightly thing. Winston continued to eat, avoiding Yu-jin’s gaze as much as possible. They were both silently staring at their plates, shoving tasteless food into their mouths, completely unaware that they hadn’t slept at all for the same reason.
* * *
It was about an hour later that Winston, who had finished breakfast, asked Yu-jin to put the dishes in the dishwasher, and went into his room without even looking at him, reappeared. He looked even more tired than he had in the morning, and the sweet scent was also stronger than usual, which made Yu-jin look very worried.
“Winnie, are you okay? If you’re not feeling well, let’s go to the hospital. I don’t mind going back to Delights…”
The moment Yu-jin reached out to touch him, Winston suddenly stepped back. Seeing Yu-jin’s surprised and wide eyes, Winston hurriedly said, as if embarrassed.
“Ah, I’m okay. I rested a bit, so you don’t have to worry now.”
Yu-jin hesitated and was about to withdraw his hand, but Winston grabbed it.
“Sorry, I was just surprised for a moment. Don’t worry.”
When he deliberately added a bright smile, Yu-jin finally looked relieved. So far, so good, but Yu-jin immediately crossed the line. Before he could avoid it, he wrapped his arms around Winston’s body.
“I’m so glad, I was really worried.”
“Oh, uh… okay.”
As their bodies came into close contact, a faint pheromone scent came from Yu-jin. It made Winston boil again. Winston quickly pulled Yu-jin away from his body and instead put his arm around his shoulder.
“Okay, shall we go out now? What do you want to do today?”
“I…”
Yu-jin was saying something, but Winston couldn’t hear it properly. Suppressant, right, there should be a suppressant.
Unfortunately, he didn’t bring any with him now. He had to get some medicine somehow. He couldn’t go around in heat all day.
That’s right.
At that moment, Evelyn’s party came to Winston’s mind.
“What? To Evelyn’s villa?”
Yu-jin shouted in surprise as soon as he heard the story after getting in the car. Winston, who had said he wasn’t going, replied to him, who was openly showing his thoughts on his face.
“I have something to pick up. We’re just stopping by for a bit, is that okay?”
Seeing Winston smile bitterly and apologize, “Sorry,” he couldn’t say he didn’t want to anymore.
“…Okay.”
Yu-jin slumped in the passenger seat, dejected. It’ll be over soon since he’s just picking up something. I can’t be jealous of things like this.
Winnie might think I’m annoying…
He should be grateful that Winston brought him here. How tired would he be if he kept complaining and whining about this and that?
I’m an adult, I have to be able to do things I don’t like.
Yu-jin tried to reassure himself and steel his heart. If Winston had thrown him a joke at that time, the tension would have eased to some extent, but unfortunately, he didn’t even talk to him, but only stared straight ahead and focused on driving. Next to him, Winston was desperately trying to forget that he was alone in the car with Yu-jin, and Yu-jin was repeating like a mantra that he shouldn’t bother Winston.
* * *
“Winnie!”
Winston, who opened the unlocked front door as if it were natural and entered the living room, was greeted by Evelyn, who was sitting on the sofa talking to her friends, and got up happily. Winston, who smiled, quickly whispered to Yu-jin.
“I’ll tell her now not to call me Winnie anymore.”
Seeing him add a smile as if to reassure him, Yu-jin had no choice but to nod. Evelyn, who readily approached, looked back and forth between Winston and Yu-jin and asked.
“What’s going on? Didn’t you say you weren’t coming to the party?”
“Ah, well.”
The party, which was said to be held the night before, seemed to be still going on. Winston, realizing that he could hear screams, laughter, and boisterous noise coming from the garden connected to the beach, opened his mouth.
“I need something, and I was wondering if you had it. Separately, is that okay?”
At Winston’s slight wink, Evelyn tilted her head in bewilderment and nodded. Winston lightly kissed Yu-jin on the cheek and said, “Just a moment,” and followed Evelyn. Yu-jin, who was left alone, just stood there awkwardly.
Come quickly, Winnie.
He couldn’t stand being so concerned about what they were going to do alone. He was also scared of the drunk people staggering around. Every time someone approached, he flinched and stepped aside, and then he saw a couple kissing passionately over there.
Huh?
Yu-jin, who had inadvertently turned his gaze, soon widened his eyes when he saw them boldly touching each other’s bodies. The woman’s hand went into the man’s swimming trunks, and the man groaned.
He was so surprised that he covered his mouth with his hand. In front of people, doing th-that…
Yu-jin was embarrassed, but the more surprising fact was that no one paid attention to them. Yu-jin was even more surprised by the sight of people passing by indifferently, as if they were furniture there.