By Zephyria Because Jeong-min had brought out the hidden resentment, I was caught in an awkward situation where I couldn’t blame anyone.
“I know best that Lee Tae-kyung’s song is amazing.”
I turned my creaking head at Sung Se-han’s low voice.
Sung Se-han, who had already crossed his arms and was standing crookedly, raised the corners of his lips towards me. The moment I captured that confident smile in my eyes, I forgot about the filming and fell into the illusion that only the two of us were here.
“I have the same thoughts every time I listen to Tae-kyung’s song. Nothing has changed.”
Sung Se-han was meeting my gaze as if only I was here. I frowned slightly and anxiously bit my lip.
“How am I supposed to know what you’re thinking every time.”
It’s not like I can read minds. You have to tell me exactly so I can understand. You’re really frustrating.
“Ah, you really don’t know.”
Sung Se-han shook his head as if he was the one who was frustrated and tilted his head.
“The last track of Perfect’s debut album, ‘You,’ haven’t you listened to it yet?”
The sparkling brown eyes with clear outlines were directed straight at me, and the face that had been crumpled up slowly began to relax.
The last track of Perfect Puzzle’s debut album. ‘You.’
“Hey! Sung Se-han, so that song was about Tae-kyung?”
“Wow, that was talking about Tae-kyung’s song? Really?”
The Perfect Puzzle members, who had been standing politely, seemed to pounce on Sung Se-han with questions, but even that looked blurry to me. My head was in utter chaos.
That song, what were the lyrics again? I knew Sung Se-han’s lyrics almost by heart, but suddenly my mind felt blank, and nothing came to mind.
“Your song, a miracle that broke my silence. This was Tae-kyung’s song? Wow, seriously, this is insane!”
At someone’s exclamation mixed with admiration, my heart began to pound roughly.
“It’s too chaotic. Let me sort things out.”
Thanks to the director cutting the filming for a moment, I barely managed to hide my expression. And once again, I avoided Se-han and busily shifted my gaze.
Fortunately, thanks to Jeong-min and Ho-soo pouring out comments besides Gun-woo Hyung, I was able to wrap up the short filming without having to step forward myself.
“Everyone, gather around!”
After the filming, we were scheduled to film a behind-the-scenes scene of Perfect Puzzle eating the lunch boxes they had prepared together.
“I’m going to the restroom for a moment.”
While they were setting up the table, I asked for their understanding and hurriedly left the practice room.
Honestly, I didn’t remember anything about how the filming ended.
Sung Se-han wrote the song thinking of my song, and I didn’t even know it until now. Just thinking about this made me so anxious that I ran down the hallway with all my might.
I hurriedly looked around and went into the locker room right in front of the restroom and closed the door.
The last track was already playing on the phone I took out in a hurry.
Doong. Doong. Doong. The root note, like a heartbeat, held the center, and I really liked this song with its brilliant major chords that harmonized with the piano played directly, not a virtual instrument.
Because it was a song full of masculine charm that emphasized Se-han’s rap rather than the vocals.
But the theme of this song was my song…
「You are light.」
As soon as I heard the first verse, I grabbed my chest.
You are light.
「A drop of tear buried in the pouring sunlight.」
「My desperately shining, faint light. A light that is so dazzling.」
「Raindrops falling in the parched Summer. Hot raindrops.」
「My light flowing on (it).」
「Your song, a miracle that broke my silence, is.」
「A drop of tear buried in the sunlight.」
「My light flowing on (it).」
「The window I cannot go out of.」
「Air flowing through a small crack in the window.」
「Air that makes me breathe.」
「Sunlight flowing on (it).」
「A drop of tear flowing on (it).」
「My desperately shining, painful light.」
“Ah…”
Without even realizing it, I collapsed and sat down, leaning against the locker.
「A drop of light pouring into my breath.」
「In the end, what makes me breathe is light. My light. You are.」
Even after the song ended, I couldn’t sort out my confused feelings.
“This is…”
I anxiously grabbed my hair and shook my head.
“This isn’t it…?”
No matter how much I thought about it, I couldn’t understand.
“What am I…”
Even if I sing a little, it’s not to the point of having this kind of meaning. It can’t be…?
The window I cannot go out of.
No one will know the meaning contained in the lyrics.
The fact that my song is related to those lyrics, that was a part that was hard to handle.
I couldn’t understand at all what I was to make Se-han think of me this way.
Click.
I raised my head sharply at the sound of the locker room door opening.
“What are you doing here.”
The person who slowly walked into the locker room was Sung Se-han. I put my phone in my pocket and got up from the floor.
I was planning to go back before Se-han followed me, but I must have been too lost in thought.
“Why are you following me? I was about to leave.”
I was about to walk out of the locker room naturally. Se-han, leaning against the locker room door, didn’t seem to want to move.
“What were you doing here alone?”
Se-han’s posture, with his hands in his training pants, became crooked. I stared at the doorknob for a moment before raising my eyes.
“I was just thinking for a moment.”
“What were you thinking about?”
Se-han tilted his head and looked at me. Even the fierce eyes that tried to dig into me were too much for me to handle in my current state.
“You shouldn’t leave your seat for too long. Let’s finish filming and talk again later.”
I grabbed the doorknob to mean to move aside, but Se-han didn’t move.
“What’s the problem?”
What’s the problem…? My wavering gaze turned to Se-han. As always, there was not a hint of doubt in Se-han’s eyes towards me.
Se-han must have been looking at me with those eyes for a long time. With me standing in his firmly built world.
If Se-han didn’t doubt his fantasy, I had to doubt it myself.
“Sung Se-han.”
I let go of the doorknob and stood face to face with Se-han.
“I’m not that special of a person.”
I hoped Se-han wouldn’t notice this fact.
“I know my appearance is your type. But…”
Lee Tae-kyung, who made Se-han write those lyrics, must be a particularly beautiful person.
But that’s not me. Even if I’m lacking, I wanted to stand by Se-han’s side as myself. I want Se-han to see through my essence.
Even if this is useless pride, I wanted to address the facts now.
“I’m just… a really ordinary person you can see anywhere.”
Revealing myself without hesitation is not an easy task either.
“I’m not a shining light, and I can’t be the air that makes you breathe. How great would it be if I were that great. But I can’t even control my own feelings, so I’m just a really pathetic guy who makes even you suffer like this.”
Even while arguing that those lyrics were not appropriate for me, my shoulders did not shrink.
“Lee Tae-kyung.”
No matter what I said, there was no wavering in the brown eyes staring at me.
“How long do I have to hold back?”
Se-han’s long fingers came closer and began to sweep back my hair. I squinted to see Se-han’s face between his fingers.
“Hold back, from what?”
“You’re right in front of me, but I can’t touch you or kiss you.”
Sometimes I don’t know what Se-han is thinking, so he feels distant, and this was one of those times.
I had no idea what meaning was in the eyes that were full of me.
“Didn’t you listen to me seriously?”
“Of course I listened seriously, Tae-kyung. I’m the most serious man in the world.”
The moment I saw Se-han’s unique eye smile, the twisted heart was relieved in an instant.
Ha, you crazy bastard. Even as I sighed, I reached out to Se-han. When I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him in, Se-han obediently bent down.
A peck. After leaving a light kiss on his warm lips, I hugged his broad shoulders as they were.
Strong arms hugged my back tightly, and I was also stably trapped in his solid embrace. As I inhaled the scent of his neck, I felt the complicated thoughts in my head slowly organizing.
I’m so happy just hugging like this that my body is melting, so what am I so anxious about?
Maybe I want to have every last piece of Se-han’s heart without missing a single one. How can I be so ridiculously greedy?
“Tae-kyung.”
“Yeah.”
I liked the low voice I heard from above so much that I hugged his solid shoulders even tighter.
“Do you think a person can be beautiful?”
I widened my eyes at Se-han’s question.
Can a person be beautiful? If it were me in the past, I would have considered many things for this question.
But now, only one thought came to my mind clearly.