By Zephyria I don’t know how I spent my debut week.
Appearing on music shows, doing interviews on variety programs, and even doing photoshoots, which I hadn’t been able to do before. I lived happy days, grateful for such precious time.
Well… the members seemed happy, but I wasn’t really happy.
I felt so wronged that I couldn’t enjoy this valuable time with peace of mind, but there was nothing I could do.
It was because there had been no contact from him since the day I refused Sung Se-han’s call.
I decided to distance myself from Sung Se-han, but now I’m anxiously worrying that we’ll really grow apart.
So, this is how hopeless I am.
Thanks to Sung Se-han, I feel like I’m discovering many new sides of myself… Shit.
“Tae-kyung Hyung is acting weird. He hasn’t even turned on his phone, and what is he staring at?”
“Right? He’s been strange since earlier?”
At the whispering of Jeong-min and Ho-soo, I pretended to be nonchalant and stood up. Then, I wandered around the waiting room as if lost in thought.
“Doesn’t it seem like Tae-kyung Hyung has some worries these days?”
“It kind of feels like that, doesn’t it?”
I was getting exhausted from fighting the urge to grab my phone and press Sung Se-han’s speed dial every chance I got.
So, I guess I don’t have the energy to reassure my younger brothers with a bright appearance.
“My only worry is how to stop Jeong-min from snoring.”
“Tae-kyung Hyung! Don’t talk about things like that outside! What if someone hears us!”
The Noonas who were fixing our makeup burst into laughter. As the atmosphere in the waiting room warmed up, a knock was heard.
Yeon-du of Sweet Girls peeked her face in through the door.
“Hello! Sky Blue Hubae-nims, hi!”
“Welcome! Sunbae-nim!”
“Greetings! Sunbae-nim!”
Everyone gave energetic greetings, but thanks to meeting so often here and there, Sweet Girls had become comfortable Sunbaes.
“Tae-kyung, your school uniform looks so cool today! Totally the best!”
Thanks to Yeon-du and I deciding to be friends in the process, all the members treated Yeon-du without hesitation.
“Yeon-du Sunbae-nim, can you only see Tae-kyung Hyung? My outfit changed today too, you know?”
“Oh! Right, Jeong-min’s outfit is cool too, cool!”
Another burst of laughter spread through the waiting room at Yeon-du’s insincere reply.
“Yeon-du, today’s your last broadcast, right? I’m looking forward to your performance.”
“Ah, it’s a shame. It was fun broadcasting with you, Tae-kyung.”
Doo-hyun Hyung, who was entering the waiting room with coffee in both hands, greeted Yeon-du.
“Yeon-du-ssi is here? Would you like a cup of coffee?”
“Manager Oppa, is it okay if I upload a picture I took with Tae-kyung on Byeol-geuraem?”
Doo-hyun Hyung, who had been rolling his eyes for a moment, soon smiled.
“Of course. Please promote us to the Sweet Girls fans.”
“That’s a given!”
Yeon-du grabbed my arm and led me to a corner of the waiting room. I actually felt awkward about Yeon-du’s bold actions, but I didn’t show it.
It hadn’t been long since we became friends, but I could feel that she genuinely liked me as a friend, so I wanted to accommodate her to some extent.
My favorability towards Yeon-du was also increasing day by day.
A cool-headed female friend. I felt a mix of wonder and pleasant anticipation at this new kind of relationship I was experiencing for the first time.
“Okay, Tae-kyung. Let’s make a hand heart.”
“Alright. Like this, this way?”
The fans wouldn’t misunderstand if I took a hand heart photo with Yeon-du. That’s because Yeon-du always made hand hearts when taking pictures with Sunbae and Hubae idols.
“Wow! Tae-kyung’s photo came out really well! I definitely have to upload this.”
Seeing Yeon-du smiling with her pigtails swaying, I couldn’t help but smile comfortably.
I should make a lot of friends. I really like that I don’t think about Sung Se-han when I’m doing this.
If I talk to other people a lot like this, Sung Se-han will be erased from my head a bit, right?
Then I can be comfortable with Sung Se-han now….
“Sky Blue, rehearsal preparation!”
“Yes!”
“Yes! Understood!”
The members jumped up at the staff’s voice heard from the hallway. I gave a bitter smile and left the waiting room.
It seems like emptying my head will be impossible again today.
*
“Hyungs, Yeon-du Sunbae-nim uploaded our picture!”
Jeong-min shouted in the car returning to the dorm after finishing our schedule. Even as I took my phone out of my backpack and turned it on, the excited voices of my younger brothers continued.
“Wow! She uploaded a lot of our pictures?”
“She said we’re her cherished younger brothers! Yeon-du Sunbae-nim is the best!”
As my younger brothers said, several pictures of the Sky Blue members had been uploaded.
#SkyBlue #UsUndertheSky #RefreshingIdol
I felt grateful to Yeon-du for taking the time to carefully add each tag.
#SkyBlue #Tae-kyung #SameAgeFriend #IcePrince
The photo of Yeon-du and me making a hand heart came out pretty well, even to my eyes. I liked that I looked quite like a celebrity in the picture.
“Oh! Hyungs, there’s Sung Se-han Sunbae-nim’s advertisement!”
My head snapped around at Ho-soo’s words. There were several advertisements that brightly illuminated the dark night, but I found Sung Se-han at once.
Well, he was occupying half of a large shopping mall building, so it might have been harder not to find his full-body shot.
The clothing brand ‘Pink Cloud,’ which had recently started print advertisements, was Sung Se-han’s ninth individual advertisement since he started his solo career.
Black Jeans and a white short-sleeved T-shirt that highlighted his physique.
The background was empty, and Sung Se-han was just standing there askew wearing Pink Cloud. But it was Sung Se-han who had the power to overwhelm the flashy advertisements of the surrounding buildings.
“Sigh. What’s the point of me being jealous of Se-han Hyung.”
My body tilted to the side to avoid missing the billboard as Jeong-min blocked the window.
“But how many individual advertisements does Se-han Hyung have already? No wonder Perfect Fandom hates Se-han Hyung.”
“Even if they hate him, Sung Se-han Sunbae-nim is just doing well anyway. I don’t know why they curse him so much every day.”
Listening to my younger brothers’ conversation made my heart heavy again. I fiddled with the phone in my hand.
Another day was passing without a call or text from Sung Se-han.
What if we really become awkward with each other? The moment that thought crossed my mind, a pain that felt like my heart was shrinking struck me.
I’m really going crazy.
Please don’t have useless thoughts. There’s no way Se-han would do that to me. How long have we been friends…!
Only after considering various possibilities and concluding that there was no way Sung Se-han would distance himself from me did I finally straighten my back.
I’m so tired, it doesn’t seem like it will be easy to fall asleep tonight either.
“Don’t mess around and go to bed early. We’re busy tomorrow too. Got it?”
We said goodbye to Doo-hyun Hyung in the underground parking lot and headed to the elevator, but everyone’s steps were slow.
Seeing my younger brothers walking with their eyes almost closed made me laugh for no reason. They usually don’t sleep well because they’re always excited, but it seemed like they were finally exhausted too.
“You guys will sleep well today without me nagging.”
Gun-woo Hyung nodded at my words.
“It seems like the only way to make these guys sleep is to wear them out.”
“Yeah. I really feel like I’ll pass out as soon as I close my eyes today.”
I patted Jeong-min’s back as he rubbed his eyes like a child and got on the elevator.
“We need to wash up quickly first, so Jeong-min and Soo-in should wash up in my room’s bathroom first.”
“Okay, I got it.”
“Understood, Gun-woo Hyung-nim.”
While we were discussing an efficient plan to get to bed quickly, we arrived at our dorm on the 17th floor. Jeong-min was the first to get off and walked busily to the front door.
“Hyungs, can I eat a banana before washing up? I’m so hungry… Huh?”
All the tense members stopped because of Jeong-min, who was surprised while talking.
In what is commonly called a fleeting moment, I was able to scan the man leaning against the front door from head to toe as if in slow motion.
The man, with an outstanding physique that is not easily seen, wearing Black Jeans and a knit, had a Ball Cap pulled down low.
Even if I couldn’t see his face, there was no way I couldn’t recognize him. Because looking at that delicate yet masculine jawline, I couldn’t think of anyone other than Sung Se-han.
“Se-han Hyung!”
Jeong-min ran to Sung Se-han with a delighted expression, but he couldn’t rush at him like usual and just fidgeted in front of him.
“Se-han Hyung! When did you come? Come inside, why are you waiting outside? Did you forget the password?”
Jeong-min seemed to be very happy to see Sung Se-han, raising his voice so loud that it echoed through the hallway.
“I didn’t wait long. I just came a little while ago.”
Sung Se-han lifted the brim of his Ball Cap a little with his finger. At that moment, my gaze collided with his brown eyes, which were staring at me.
My heart seemed to drop at the unusual cold gaze. My mouth fell open like an idiot.
“Still, you should have waited inside. Why are you waiting outside, making your legs hurt.”
I swallowed hard, listening to Jeong-min’s cheerful voice.