By Zephyria As his vision was blocked, his other senses reacted sensitively. Strong arms and hands wrapped around his waist, and lips collided, a dark tongue brushing against his palate and stirring inside his mouth. He felt like he was going to suffocate from the sweetness and heat.
‘…No, this is not the time for this!’
In a moment of clarity, Eui-jae pushed Sa-young’s shoulder roughly. Sa-young, who obediently stepped back, tilted his head slightly.
“Why?”
Meanwhile, Eui-jae covered his mouth with the back of his hand and quickly stepped back. His backward steps stopped only when his back hit a pillar. Uncharacteristically, he stammered.
“Hey, you, how…. No, were you awake?”
How did this bastard know I kissed him?
Was his body asleep but his mind awake, or something? Or did he hear me talking to Hong Ye-seong earlier? Pretending to sleep? But I didn’t feel any sign of that. Or did I just not notice because I was out of it? It felt like a typhoon was raging in his head. Then, Sa-young shrugged his shoulders.
“Hoo….”
‘What?’
“AHAHAHA!”
Sa-young started laughing out loud. It was a rare sight to see him smiling so brightly. Eui-jae was just dumbfounded. Is he laughing now? Eui-jae took his hand off his mouth and burst out in anger.
“Aren’t you going to answer? Were you awake or not!”
“Hahaha…. Ah, really.”
Sa-young, his eyes narrowed as if he was enjoying himself to death, approached on all fours. Eui-jae tensed up against the pillar. Lee Sa-young, who had come right up to him, met his gaze.
“Were I awake?”
“…….”
“Surely not….”
His lips came close to his ear. A languid voice whispered.
“I was just testing you.”
“…What?”
Eui-jae opened his mouth slightly with a blank look. Sa-young, who was looking down and chuckling, kissed him on the cheek with a smack.
“I’m so glad I wear a mask…. What would I have done otherwise.”
“Hey, Lee Sa-young…!”
“My true feelings are so, all….”
“Hey, ugh….”
“Written all over your face.”
Sa-young, who kissed him all over his face, not sparing his cheeks, the tip of his nose, his eyes, and his forehead, cupped Eui-jae’s ears and cheeks with both hands. Eui-jae grabbed Sa-young’s wrists and gritted his teeth. The poker face that had kept him alive had disappeared a long time ago. That’s why….
“You’re a terrible liar.”
Smack.
“At this rate…. I can’t leave you alone.”
Haa, he exhales briefly. Eui-jae sees his reflection filling Sa-young’s purple eyes, filled with joy. Not just reflecting his face like a mirror, but filled with something unknown. His lips approached again. A dark tongue burrowed into his mouth. Eui-jae did not stop the movement.
Was he bewitched?
He kept getting hot, and he felt like his head was melting.
‘Ah, seriously….’
Because his ears were covered, he couldn’t hear any external noise, but instead, the wet, smacking sounds tickled his ears. Unable to pull himself together, Eui-jae struggled weakly and barely managed to grab the collar of his coat. The cold leather was crumpled messily in his hand.
‘I’m going crazy…….’
He fumbled and wrapped his arms around his neck. His fingertips trembled. Eui-jae panted and slowly opened his eyes. Beyond his eyelids, Lee Sa-young was staring intently at Cha Eui-jae. What he felt from the deeply sunken purple eyes was,
‘…Shit.’
Clear desire.
His nape and waist tingled. It was an instinctive feeling, but it was a different kind of chill than he had ever felt before. A large, cold hand wrapped around the back of his neck. Long fingers caressed his nape. Eui-jae caught his breath in his arms. Fallen lips landed on the tip of his chin.
“Why is your body so tense….”
Lee Sa-young’s low, cracked voice sounded like an echo from afar. Eui-jae clenched his hands, which had met behind Lee Sa-young’s neck. The pain cleared his blurred vision. It was as if his mind, which had been submerged underwater, was finally returning.
‘No, wait a minute.’
He remembers the boy wrapping bandages around his fingers. Even while groaning in pain, the boy always looked only at Eui-jae, as if Cha Eui-jae was the only thing he could cling to in the world.
‘Him….’
Eui-jae looks at the dark figure hugging him. Arms and body that firmly embraced Eui-jae, who was by no means small. Lee Sa-young was focused on stroking Eui-jae’s neck and hair with his eyes lowered. Every time his long eyelashes fluttered, the shadows of his eyelashes fluttered with them. His lips, swollen red from being kissed so much, and the mole under his lips.
Sa-young raised his head as if he felt the gaze. In an instant, his purple eyes narrowed, and his lips approached again. Eui-jae quickly turned his head, changing the destination of his lips from his mouth to his cheek. A small laugh erupted in his ear. His heart began to pound. His body tensed up.
‘This is the same guy?’
That kid is giving me a look full of desire? He sees me sexually? That doesn’t make sense.
The sudden sense of alienation shook Eui-jae. Was it because the time they had been apart was too long? Lee Sa-young had grown up so much that he couldn’t find his former self, and Eui-jae had stopped in his place. And, the grown-up Lee Sa-young had far surpassed Cha Eui-jae in height and build. And….
He is lusting after Cha Eui-jae.
‘Shit, something is seriously wrong.’
This was something that could not have happened unless the world had turned upside down. The only desire Cha Eui-jae had was to become a family with the boy. To become each other’s only family, to live together, to eat together, and to sleep under the same roof. It would be even better if the boy relied on him in the process.
‘There, this kind of….’
There was not a single space for this kind of sexual contact to intervene in that desire. His thoughts were cut off the moment a warm breath touched his ear. Soon, a stinging pain came to his ear. Lee Sa-young was gently biting his ear. Eui-jae hurriedly pushed Sa-young’s cheek away.
“Why are you biting me?”
“What are you thinking about, leaving me behind?”
Eui-jae glanced at Sa-young’s face. Still, a deep desire was dripping from his eyes. So much so that even Cha Eui-jae, who was ignorant in this field, could immediately realize it. Eui-jae lowered his head slightly. He was embarrassed.
‘Since when have you been looking at me with those eyes?’
Of course, he had rubbed lips with him before. He had! But that wasn’t a normal situation, and wasn’t it when normal thinking was impossible? Once, it was to calm Lee Sa-young, who was hyperventilating, and then….
“Hyung.”
A low voice cut off the chain of rationalization. Eui-jae quickly raised his head. Sa-young was tilting his head slightly.
“What are you thinking about?”
“…….”
What am I thinking about?
‘I don’t know what our relationship is right now, but I think it’s fucked up.’
It seems like I’ve buttoned it up wrong from somewhere. Eui-jae swallowed the words that had risen to his throat. He couldn’t say those words while being held in Lee Sa-young’s arms. The moment he said the words, the hand that was stroking his neck would immediately attack his neck. Of course, Cha Eui-jae wouldn’t just stand still….
“Huh?”
Sa-young stroked his hair as if urging him. Eui-jae barely managed to utter a word.
“…I’m wondering if this is okay.”
“What?”
“Um, you… and…. Me. If this is okay.”
“So, what?”
“Um… these actions right now.”
Eui-jae barely suppressed his patriarchal, old-fashioned self and took out the most refined words he could. But what came back was a snort.
“After doing everything we could….”
“What?”
“Hyung really needs to reduce some unnecessary thoughts.”
The hand that had been stroking his neck and hair touched his cheek. Sa-young, who made Cha Eui-jae’s cheeks slightly pressed, mumbled.
“I don’t know why you have so many unnecessary thoughts with that tiny head of yours….”
Eui-jae, who was annoyed, snatched Sa-young’s hands away.
“What are you doing to Hyung, huh?”
“Hyung? Aha….”
His purple eyes sparkled. It was an ominous sparkle. Eui-jae instinctively sensed that something was wrong. Unfortunately, he only realized it, but he didn’t have the ability to fix what was wrong.
A ghastly smile settled on his pale face. Haa, Sa-young, who took a small breath and touched his forehead, slightly stuck out his dark tongue and then bit his own tongue slightly.
“Does Hyung kiss his younger brother?”
Eui-jae’s eyes widened. It was the most blasphemous thing he had ever heard in his life. While he was speechless and out of his mind, Sa-young diligently stroked Eui-jae’s hair and grumbled.
“We’re not related by blood, and we’ve never been bound by the system, so what’s with the brothers….”
“You, you. You….”
“Didn’t I say at the lab…. Hyung’s attitude is duplicitous.”
“…….”
“Who I am, what I want from you…. Hmm. Shouldn’t you think about it properly? Instead of constantly denying yourself.”
“…….”
“Ah, not something as cliché as brothers.”
Sa-young, who lightly kissed the tip of his nose, got up. Then, he fluttered his coat and crossed over to the main room, kicking Hong Ye-seong, who was still lying down wrapped in a blanket like a bagworm. Cluck flapped its wings and attacked Sa-young’s ankle.
Cha Eui-jae, who was left alone in the living room, rested his arms on his raised knees and dropped his head into the gap. His face was flushed red.